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Goldblatt, Mark, 1957–.
Twerp / Mark Goldblatt. — 1st ed.
p. cm.
Summary: In Queens, New York, in 1969, twelve-year-old Julian Twerski writes a journal for his English teacher in which he explores his friendships and how they are affected by girls, a new student who may be as fast as Julian, and especially an incident of bullying.
eISBN: 978-0-375-97144-0
[1. Friendship—Fiction. 2. Interpersonal relations—Fiction. 3. Self-realization—Fiction. 4. Conduct of life—Fiction. 5. Schools—Fiction. 6. Diaries—Fiction. 7. Queens (New York, N.Y.)—History—20th century—Fiction.] I. Title.
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Contents
Cover
Title Page
Copyright
Dedication
The Pigeons of Ponzini
Me and Shakespeare
Racing with Cars
Quentin’s Eyebrows
Messing with Mr. Caricone
The Love Letter
Eduardo
Mrs. Fine
Amelia’s Room
Waiting for the Bus
Sábado
Taking a Break
Ouch!
The Truth Comes Out
Buddying Up with Beverly Segal
Betrayals
When They Get Started …
The Rabbi’s Advice
The Punch Line
Date Night
Track and Field Day
It’s Not Fair …
Dragging the Couch
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Julian Twerski
January 11, 1969
The Pigeons of Ponzini
My English teacher, Mr. Selkirk, says I have to write something, and it has to be long, on account of the thing that happened over winter recess—which, in my opinion, doesn’t amount to much. It’s not like I meant for Danley to get hurt, and I don’t think that what happened was one hundred percent my fault, or even a lot my fault, even though I don’t deny that I was there. So I guess I deserved to get suspended like the rest of them. I mean, maybe I could’ve stopped it. Maybe. But now the suspension is over, and Selkirk says I’ve got to write something, and because he says so, my dad says so, and that’s that. I know what’s going on. Selkirk thinks that if I write about what happened, I’ll understand what happened. Which makes no sense, if you stop and think about it, because if I don’t understand what happened, how can I write about it?
Besides, I’ve done worse, much worse, and never written a word about it, and the fact that I never wrote about it had no effect, good or bad, so writing about it or not writing about it isn’t going to prove a thing. I’ve got a good handle on who I am, if I say so myself. Compared with most twelve-year-olds, I mean. I’m not saying that I’m done growing up. I know I’ve got a long way to go. Sixth grade isn’t the end of the line. My dad says that when he looks back to when he was a kid, he doesn’t know whether to laugh or cry. I know there’s going to be a Julian Twerski in the future who’s going to look back the same way and maybe shake his head. (That last sentence should make you happy, Mr. Selkirk.) But when I look back right now, I’m just saying that what happened with Danley Dimmel isn’t the worst thing I’ve done.
I’ll give you a perfect example: Last year, Lonnie and I were out back in Ponzini doing nothing, just yakking it up. Now, I guess I should mention that Lonnie’s my best friend. Except calling him my best friend doesn’t tell how tight we are. My dad says that if Lonnie told me to jump, I’d ask, “How high?” He’s being sarcastic, my dad, but he’s right in a way. Because here’s the thing: Lonnie wouldn’t tell me to jump unless he had a good reason. So, yeah, I’d ask, “How high?” He’d ask me “How high?” too if I told him to jump. It doesn’t mean a thing. I’ve known Lonnie since I was two and he was three, and some of the stuff that’s gone on between the two of us he’d brain me if I ever wrote about, but I’m sure he’ll be all right with me writing about the thing with the bird.
Oh, and I should also mention that Ponzini is what we call the lot behind the old apartment building on Parsons Boulevard where Victor Ponzini lives. Why we started calling it Ponzini is another story, and it doesn’t matter for the bird story. So let’s just say that Lonnie was the first to call it that, and it caught on with the rest of us. But it fits. It looks like a Ponzini kind of place.
If you want to picture it, picture a layer of brown dirt on a layer of gray cement about the size of a basketball court. It’s got weeds growing out of it, and it’s got broken glass around the edges, and it’s got a half-dozen rusted-out wrecks that were once parked in the underground garage but got pushed out back when their owners skipped town. It’s got rats, which should go without saying, but the rats only come out at night. In other words, it’s foul and useless, kind of like Victor Ponzini, who once squealed on Lonnie for cutting class. I mean, why is that Ponzini’s business? The guy’s a fifth grader and nothing but a tub of lard, but at least he knows it, which is about the only thing he’s got going for himself.
So Lonnie and I were hanging out at the far end of Ponzini, just shooting the breeze, when I noticed that about a dozen pigeons had landed between two of the rusted-out wrecks. I nodded at the birds, and Lonnie glanced behind him, and I said, “What do you make of that?”
But in the time it took for the words to come out of my mouth, another half-dozen pigeons swooped down and landed. It was crazy—like a scene from that Alfred Hitchcock movie where a million birds get together and attack a town for no reason. There was no reason for them to show up in Ponzini either. There’s not a thing for them to eat. I mean, it might make sense if someone had scattered bread crumbs for them. But there was nothing. It was as if one pigeon took it into its head that the far end of Ponzini would be a good place to rest for a minute, and then the entire air force joined in.
So the two of us were standing there watching, and in about a minute there were hundreds of pigeons crammed together between the two rusted-out wrecks, and the air was full of prrriiiilllrrrps—you know, that sound pigeons make. Their heads were bobbing up and down, ducking back and forth, and they were checking each other out. It was like a bird carnival. I’d never seen a thing like it.
That’s when Lonnie turned to me and said, “Chuck a rock.”
I just stared at him. It made no sense. “What do you mean?”
“I mean chuck a rock,” he said.
“Why would I chuck a rock?”
He gave a slight laugh. “C’mon, Julian, chuck a rock.”
“I’m not chucking a rock. You chuck a rock.”
“Don’t you want to see ’em take of
f at once?”
“I might hit one of ’em,” I said.
“You’re not going to hit one of ’em.”
“How do you know?”
“Plus, even if you do, they’re pigeons. They’re filthy.”
“I’m not chucking a rock—”
“C’mon,” he said. “It’ll be like a science experiment.”
“How do you get that?” I asked.
“You think you’ll hit one of ’em. I think you won’t hit one of ’em. It’s like you got a hypothesis, and I got a hypothesis, and now we’re going to do a scientific experiment to see which one of us is right.”
“You just want to see them take off at once.”
“I never denied that,” he said. “I’m just saying it’s also science.”
“Then why don’t you do it?”
“First of all, because you’ve got a stronger arm than I do, so you can chuck the rock higher, which will give them more time to take off, and second of all, because it was my idea, and I want to watch ’em take off at once. The sky’s going to be full of pigeons, and I want to watch the thing from start to finish.”
“You don’t think I’m going to hit one of ’em?”
“There’s no way you’re going to hit one of ’em,” Lonnie said. “It’s like survival of the fittest. Use your brain, Julian. Do you think a pigeon makes it even one week in this neighborhood if he can’t dodge a rock?”
He had me there. I’d seen hundreds of dead pigeons before. Pigeons that got run over by cars. Pigeons that got caught and chewed up by dogs and cats. Pigeons that got electrocuted on power lines. Pigeons that froze on tree branches and then dropped to the sidewalk still iced over. But not one of them, as far as I knew, ever got beaned by a rock.
I bent down and picked up a rock. It was gray with streaks of black running through it, maybe the size of a Reese’s Cup, except kind of jagged and much heavier. The weight of it in my hand gave me second thoughts. I knew that if the rock hit one of the birds, it was going to hurt it bad. But then I thought that Lonnie was likely right, that the pigeons would see the rock coming and they’d all take off at once, and it would be something to see.
So I did it. I chucked the rock.
I knew it was a dumb thing to do, but I did it—which, now that I think about it, kind of makes my dad’s point about Lonnie telling me to jump. Except it had gotten to where I wanted to chuck the rock, even though I knew it was dumb, because I wanted to see what would happen. Just to make sure, though, I screamed, “Heads up, birds!” real loud a second before I chucked it, and then I chucked it as high as I could, and that rock was no sooner in the air than the sky was full of birds, wave after wave of them, taking off before the rock even got to its highest point. There were so many of them in the air that it was hard to follow the upward flight of the rock because it was just another gray-and-black thing.
But you could follow it on the way down.
It was the only thing going in that direction, and that was when I realized that lots of birds were still going to be on the ground when it hit. They were crammed together too tight. There was no more room in the air for the stragglers to take off and no space on the ground for them to get out of the way.
It was maybe a second between the time I realized that and the time the rock hit, but that was one long second. My mind was racing forward, and I was grabbing at the air, clenching and unclenching my right hand, as if that would bring the rock back, as if I could undo how dumb I was for chucking it in the first place. Meanwhile, I was still hoping—no, I was praying!—that the rock would just clack down on the ground and nothing would happen.
But then the rock hit, and the sound wasn’t a clack but a soft oof, and I knew, from the sound, I’d hit a bird. I couldn’t tell which one for another couple of seconds. That was how long it took for the rest of the birds to scatter and take off, and then there was only one left on the ground, flapping its wings like crazy but just going around in circles and raising a cloud of dust.
“Holy—!” Lonnie said.
“Oh no! Oh God … you said they’d get out of the way!”
“That was my hypothesis.”
I ran over to the bird for a closer look. The poor thing was spinning around and around, getting nowhere. It wasn’t bleeding, at least not that I could see. I thought for sure the rock had gashed it or split its skull wide open. But it looked kind of okay, except for the crazy way it was flapping its wings. Maybe it just needed to calm down for a minute and figure out it wasn’t hurt too bad.
“C’mon,” Lonnie called to me in a loud whisper. “Let’s get out of here.”
“No, wait!”
“Let’s cheese it, Julian. It’s over and done with.”
“No!”
Lonnie came up behind me, and the two of us stared for about a minute as the pigeon began to tire itself out. It went from flapping around in a circle, to hopping side to side, to walking back and forth, to standing still with its head bobbing up and down. Then it stopped. It just sank to the ground and sat there.
“There, you see?” Lonnie said. “It’s going to be just fine.”
I took a step toward the pigeon. It stood up and walked a couple of bird steps away from me, then settled back down. I took another step, and so did the pigeon. “I don’t think it can fly,” I said.
“Sure it can. Watch ….”
Lonnie stepped in front of me and lurched at the pigeon. It fluttered its wings for a second but moved about six inches. Then he stamped his foot on the ground. This time the pigeon didn’t react, except to turn its head away—as if it wasn’t interested in what happened next.
Lonnie said, “That’s one messed-up pigeon.”
“What are we going to do?”
He shrugged. “Cheese it?”
“No, a cat’s going to get it.”
“Then there’s only one thing left to do.”
“What?”
“We’ve got to put it out of its misery.”
“Kill it?”
“That’s what you’ve got to do if it’s dying.”
“But we don’t know for sure it’s dying.”
“Then let’s get out of here!”
“But—”
“Julian, it’s got to be one or the other.”
Lonnie stepped past the pigeon and picked up the rock, the one I chucked, which was lying about a foot away. As soon as he picked it up, I closed my eyes real tight. I didn’t want to see what he was about to do. But then, a second later, I felt him put the rock in my right hand. I opened my eyes and saw it there.
“Oh no—”
“You have to do it, Julian.”
“Why do I have to do it?”
“Because you’re the one who chucked the rock.”
“But it was your idea.”
“But I didn’t chuck it.”
“But it was your idea!”
“But I didn’t chuck it!”
“C’mon, Lonnie—”
“Look, we can go back and forth forever. So I’m just going to tell you: I’m not killing that bird. So either you’re going to do it, or we’re going to leave the bird out here to die on its own. Those are the only two possibilities, okay?”
Say what you want about Lonnie, but he knows how to break things down. I didn’t want the bird to die a long miserable death, but that’s what was going to happen if I didn’t do what was necessary. It’s like Lonnie picked up the record needle and moved it to the end of the song. We both knew what I had to do. We just got there quicker than if we’d gone around in circles.
So I walked up to the bird until I was right over it—I didn’t want to take a chance of missing with the rock or winging the poor thing and causing it to suffer even more. I had to go for the head. It had to be a kill shot. I thought about kneeling down next to the bird, but that meant I wouldn’t be able to take a full windup. Instead I decided to straddle the pigeon, with one foot on either side of it, so that I could throw the rock straight down.
I reared back, but then, a split second before I fired the rock, I felt my eyes close. I came an inch from firing it blind—which was the last thing I wanted to do! So I shook my head, reared back again … and again I felt my eyes close. C’mon! I told myself. I reared back for a third time, and for a third time I felt my eyes close.
“What’s the problem?” Lonnie said.
I took a deep breath. “It’s no good.”
“Just kill it.”
“I keep closing my eyes.”
“Well, then, don’t close your eyes.”
“Why didn’t I think of that?” I said.
“You don’t need to get sarcastic.”
“I just want to get it over with.”
“There’s got to be a right way to do it.” Lonnie started glancing around, which is what he does when he’s thinking real hard, and I knew, I just knew, he’d come up with an idea. Maybe ten seconds later he had one. He went running over to the far end of Ponzini and disappeared behind one of the rusted-out wrecks. Then, a few seconds later, he staggered back out.
He was lugging a concrete cinder block.
He shouted, “Hey, I could use a hand!”
So I ran over to him, and the two of us started lugging the cinder block back toward the pigeon. That cinder block weighed about a ton. I felt sadder and sadder with every step, thinking about what we were going to do with it, thinking about how helpless the pigeon was, thinking about how much pain I’d caused the poor thing so far, and about how much more it still had to go through. I mean, even if it was only for a split second, the pigeon was for sure going to feel the crush of the cinder block. But at least the end would be quick.
When we were about three steps from the pigeon, Lonnie stopped in his tracks and said, “You got it from here?”
I was huffing. “What do you mean?”
“It’s a one-man operation.”
“Lonnie!”
“Julian, you’ve got to do it.”
“Why don’t both of us do it?”
“Because if we do it together, we might not let go at the same time. Which means it might not fall straight down. That’s the only way we might miss the bird.”
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