(2013) Ordinary Grace

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by William Kent Krueger




  Contents

  Acknowledgments

  Epigraph

  Prologue

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  Chapter 39

  Epilogue

  About William Kent Krueger

  Copyright

  For Diane, my extraordinary grace

  Acknowledgments

  For their kindness and generosity in sharing with me their experiences as ministers in small Minnesota communities in an earlier time, I’d like to thank Reverend Robert Rollin and Reverend Greg Renstrom, two men who selflessly answered the calling.

  The heart has reasons that reason does not understand.

  —Blaise Pascal

  Prologue

  All the dying that summer began with the death of a child, a boy with golden hair and thick glasses, killed on the railroad tracks outside New Bremen, Minnesota, sliced into pieces by a thousand tons of steel speeding across the prairie toward South Dakota. His name was Bobby Cole. He was a sweet-looking kid and by that I mean he had eyes that seemed full of dreaming and he wore a half smile as if he was just about to understand something you’d spent an hour trying to explain. I should have known him better, been a better friend. He lived not far from my house and we were the same age. But he was two years behind me in school and might have been held back even more except for the kindness of certain teachers. He was a small kid, a simple child, no match at all for the diesel-fed drive of a Union Pacific locomotive.

  It was a summer in which death, in visitation, assumed many forms. Accident. Nature. Suicide. Murder. You might think I remember that summer as tragic and I do but not completely so. My father used to quote the Greek playwright Aeschylus. “He who learns must suffer. And even in our sleep pain, which cannot forget, falls drop by drop upon the heart, until, in our own despair, against our will, comes wisdom through the awful grace of God.”

  In the end maybe that’s what the summer was about. I was no older than Bobby and didn’t understand such things then. I’ve come four decades since but I’m not sure that even now I fully understand. I still spend a lot of time thinking about the events of that summer. About the terrible price of wisdom. The awful grace of God.

  1

  Moonlight pooled on the bedroom floor. Outside the chirr of crickets and other night bugs gave life to the dark. It was not yet July but already hot as blazes. That may have been why I was awake. In 1961 no one but the rich in New Bremen had air-conditioning. During the day most folks battled the heat by closing their curtains against the sun and at night fans drew in the promise of cooler air. In our house there were only two fans and neither was in the bedroom I shared with my brother.

  As I tossed about on top of the sheet trying to get comfortable in the heat the telephone rang. My father often said that nothing good came of phone calls in the middle of the night. He answered them anyway. I figured it was simply another part of his job, another part of all the things my mother hated about what he did. The telephone sat on a small table in the hallway outside my room. I stared at the ceiling and listened to the brittle ring until the hall light came on.

  “Yes?”

  Across the room Jake shifted in his bed and I heard the frame squeak.

  My father said, “Any damage?” Then he said, tired and polite, “I’ll be there in a few minutes. Thank you, Cleve.”

  I was out of bed and trotting into the hallway before he hung up. His hair was wild from sleep, his cheeks shadowed blue with stubble. His eyes were weary and sad. He wore a T-shirt and striped boxer shorts.

  “Go back to sleep, Frank,” he told me.

  “I can’t,” I said. “It’s too hot and I’m already awake. Who was it?”

  “A police officer.”

  “Is somebody hurt?”

  “No.” He closed his eyes and put the tips of his fingers against his lids and rubbed. “It’s Gus.”

  “He’s drunk?”

  He nodded and yawned.

  “In jail?”

  “Go back to bed.”

  “Can I go with you?”

  “I told you, go back to bed.”

  “Please. I won’t be in the way. And I can’t sleep now anyway.”

  “Keep your voice down. You’ll wake everybody.”

  “Please, Dad.”

  He had energy enough to rise and meet his duty but not the strength to blunt the assault of a thirteen-year-old looking for adventure in the middle of an oppressive summer night. He said, “Get dressed.”

  Jake was sitting on the edge of his bed. He already had his shorts on and was pulling up his socks.

  I said, “Where do you think you’re going?”

  “With you and Dad.” He knelt and in the dark under his bed dug for his sneakers.

  “Like hell.”

  “You said hell,” he said, still digging.

  “You’re not going, Howdy Doody.”

  He was younger than me by two years and two heads shorter. Because he had red hair and freckles and freakish ears that stood out like the handles on a sugar bowl people in New Bremen sometimes called him Howdy Doody. When I was pissed at him I called him Howdy Doody too.

  “You’re not the b-b-b-boss of me,” he said.

  Jake almost always stuttered in public but around me he only stuttered when he was mad or scared.

  “No,” I replied, “but I can p-p-p-pound the crap out of you any time I want.”

  He found his sneakers and began to put them on.

  Night was the dark of the soul and being up in an hour when the rest of the world was dead with sleep gave me a sinful thrill. My father often ventured out like this on some lonely mission but I’d never been allowed to go. This was special and I didn’t want to share it with Jake. I’d already wasted precious time however so I left off arguing and got myself dressed.

  My brother was waiting in the hall when I came out. I intended to argue with him some more but my father slipped from his bedroom and shut the door behind him. He looked at Jake as if about to say something unpleasant. Instead he sighed and signaled us both to go before him down the stairs.

  Outside the crickets were kicking up a frenzy. Fireflies hung in the still black air flickering on and off like the slow blink of dreamy eyes. As we walked to the garage our shadows glided before us, black boats on a silver sea of moonlight.

  “Shotgun,” Jake said.

  “Ah, come on. You’re not even supposed to be here.”

  “I called it.”

  Which was the rule. In New Bremen, a town platted and populated by Germans, rules were abided by. Even so I complained until my father broke in. “Jake called it,” he said. “End of discussion, Frank.”

  We piled into the car, a 1955 Packard Clipper the color of canned peas that my mother had named Lizzie. She chris
tened every automobile we ever owned. A Studebaker she called Zelda. A Pontiac Star Chief was Little Lulu after the comic book character. There were others but her favorite—the favorite of us all except my father—was that Packard. It was huge and powerful and elegant. It had been a gift from my grandfather and was a source of contention between my parents. Though he never came right out and said so I believe it hurt my father’s pride to accept such an extravagant gift from a man he didn’t particularly like and whose values he openly challenged. I understood even then that my grandfather considered my father a failure and not good enough for my mother. Dinner when these two sat at the same table was usually a storm about to break.

  We pulled out and drove through the Flats which was what we called the part of New Bremen where we lived. It lay along the Minnesota River below the Heights where the wealthy families resided. There were a lot of people living above us who weren’t rich but no one with money lived on the Flats. We drove past Bobby Cole’s house. Like all the others we passed it was totally dark. I tried to wrap my thinking around the fact of his death which had occurred the day before. I’d never known a kid who died and it felt unnatural and sinister, as if Bobby Cole had been snatched by a monster.

  “Is Gus in t-t-trouble?” Jake asked.

  “Some but not serious,” my father replied.

  “He didn’t bust up anything?”

  “Not this time. He got into a fight with another fellow.”

  “He does that a lot.”

  “Only when he’s drunk,” I said from the backseat. Making excuses for Gus was usually a responsibility that fell to my father but he was noticeably silent.

  “He’s drunk a lot then,” Jake said.

  “Enough.” My father held up a hand and we shut up.

  We drove Tyler Street and turned onto Main. The town was dark and full of delicious possibility. I knew New Bremen as well as I knew my own face but at night things were different. The town wore another face. The city jail sat on the town square. It was the second oldest building in New Bremen after the First Evangelical Lutheran Church. Both were built of the same granite quarried just outside town. My father parked diagonally in front of the jail.

  “You two stay here,” he said.

  “I have to go to the bathroom.”

  He shot me a killing look.

  “Sorry. I can’t hold it.”

  He gave in so easily I knew he must have been dead tired. “Come on, then. You too, Jake.”

  I’d never been inside the jail but it was a place that had always appealed greatly to my imagination. What I found was a small drab room lit by fluorescent tubes and not much different in most respects from my grandfather’s real estate office. There were a couple of desks and a file cabinet and a bulletin board with posters. But there was also along the east wall a holding cell with bars and the cell held a prisoner.

  “Thanks for coming, Mr. Drum,” the officer said.

  They shook hands. Dad introduced us. Officer Cleve Blake appeared to be younger than my father and wore gold wire-rim glasses and behind them were blue eyes that had an unsettling frankness. Even though it was the middle of a night humid as hell he looked clean and neat in his uniform.

  “A little late for you boys to be out, isn’t it?”

  “Couldn’t sleep,” I said to the officer. “Too hot.”

  Jake said nothing which was his usual strategy when he was concerned that he might stutter in public.

  I recognized the guy in the cell. Morris Engdahl. A bad sort. Black hair slicked in a ducktail and fond of black leather jackets. He was a year older than my sister who’d just graduated from high school. Engdahl didn’t finish school. The story I’d heard was that he was kicked out for crapping in the locker of a girl who’d turned him down for a date. He drove the coolest set of wheels I’d ever seen. A black 1932 Ford Deuce Coupe with suicide doors and a shiny chrome grille and big whitewall tires and flames painted along its sides so that fire ran the length of the car.

  “Well, if it ain’t Frankfarter and Howdy D-D-D-Doody,” he said. He had a shiner and when he talked his words came out slurred through a fat lip. From behind the bars he settled his mean eyes on Jake. “How’s it g-g-going, retard?”

  Jake had been called all sorts of things because of his stutter. I figured it had to get to him but usually all he did was clam up and stare.

  “Jake’s not retarded, Mr. Engdahl,” my father said quietly. “He simply stutters.”

  I was surprised Dad knew Morris Engdahl. They didn’t exactly run in the same circles.

  “No sh-sh-sh-shit,” Engdahl said.

  “That’s enough, Morris,” Officer Blake said.

  My father gave Engdahl no more notice and asked the officer what it was all about.

  The officer shrugged. “Two drunks, a wrong word. Like putting a match to gasoline.”

  “I ain’t no drunk.” Engdahl sat hunched over on the edge of a long metal bench and stared at the floor as if contemplating the advisability of puking there.

  “And he’s not old enough to be drinking in a bar, Cleve,” my father pointed out.

  “I’ll be talking to the folks at Rosie’s about that,” the officer replied.

  Behind a door in the back wall a toilet flushed.

  “Much damage?” my father asked.

  “Mostly to Morris. They took it out to the parking lot.”

  The door in the back wall opened and a man walked out still working at the zipper on his pants.

  “Doyle, I was just telling these folks how you came to bring in Engdahl and Gus.”

  The other man sat down and put his feet on the desk. He wasn’t dressed in a uniform but from his look of comfort in that jailhouse I understood he was a policeman too. He said, “Yeah I was off duty at Rosie’s. Watched ’em going at it in the bar, mouthing off to each other. When they took it outside, I figured it was time to break up the party.”

  My father spoke to Officer Blake: “All right if I take Gus home now?”

  “Sure. He’s in back.” The policeman reached into the desk drawer for keys. “Crying shame about the Cole kid. I heard you spent most of yesterday with his folks.”

  “Yes,” my father told him.

  “I’ve got to say I’d much rather have my job than yours.”

  “You know that whole thing’s got me wondering,” Doyle, the off-duty officer, said. “I’ve seen that kid on those tracks hundreds of times. He loved trains, I guess. Can’t figure how he came to get himself killed by one.”

  Officer Blake said, “What do you mean?”

  “I talked to Jim Gant. He was the first deputy on the scene. Gant said it looked like the kid had just been sitting on the tracks. Didn’t move at all when the train came. Real strange, you know? He wasn’t deaf.”

  “Maybe he was retarded like Howdy Doody there,” Engdahl said from his cell. “Didn’t know enough to get his butt off that rail.”

  Doyle said, “One more word out of you and I’m coming in there and kick your ass.”

  Officer Blake found the keys he was searching for and shut the drawer. “Are they pursuing it?”

  “Far as I know, nope. Officially an accident. No witnesses to say otherwise.”

  Officer Blake said, “You boys stay out here. And, Morris, you behave yourself.”

  My father asked, “Is it okay if my son uses your bathroom, Cleve?”

  “Sure,” the officer answered. He unlocked the metal door in the back wall and led my father through.

  I didn’t have to use the bathroom. It had simply been a ruse to get inside the jail. I was afraid Doyle might make a point of it, but he didn’t seem at all interested.

  Jake stood staring hard at Engdahl. Staring knives.

  “What are you looking at, retard?”

  “He’s not retarded,” I said.

  “Yeah and your sister’s not a harelip and your old man’s not a friggin’ pussy.” He laid his head back against the wall and closed his eyes.

  I asked Doyle, “Wha
t did you mean about Bobby?”

  He was tall and lean and looked tough as jerky. He wore his hair in a crew cut and his head was shiny with sweat from the heat of the night. He had ears every bit as big as Jake’s but he wasn’t the kind of guy anybody in their right mind would dare call Howdy Doody. He said, “You know him?”

  “Yes.”

  “Nice kid, right? But slow.”

  “Slow enough he couldn’t get out of the way of that train,” Engdahl said.

  “Shut up, Engdahl.” Doyle looked back at me. “You play on the tracks?”

  “No,” I lied.

  He looked at Jake. “You?”

  “No,” I answered for Jake.

  “Good thing. Because there are bums down there. Men not like the decent folks in New Bremen. You ever get approached by one of them men you come straight here and tell me. Ask for Officer Doyle.”

  “You think that’s what happened to Bobby?” I was thunderstruck. It would never have occurred to me that his death wasn’t an accident. But then I wasn’t a trained policeman like Officer Doyle.

  He began popping the knuckles of his fingers one by one. “I’m just saying you watch out for guys drifting along those tracks. Understand?”

  “Yes, sir.”

  “Goblins’ll get you if you don’t watch out,” Engdahl said. “They love tender meat like you and Retard.”

  Doyle stood up. He walked to the cell and motioned Morris Engdahl to come to the bars. Engdahl drew his whole self onto the bench and pressed to the wall.

  “That’s what I thought,” Doyle said.

  The metal door opened and Officer Blake came out. My father followed. He supported Gus who was stumbling. Gus seemed drunker than Engdahl but there wasn’t a mark on him.

  “You’re really letting him go?” Engdahl said. “That’s friggin’ unfair.”

  “I called your father,” the officer said. “He told me a night in jail would do you good. Take it up with him.”

  “Get the door, Frank,” my father said and then looked at the officer. “Thank you, Cleve. I appreciate this.”

  “Keeps things around here simpler. But, Gus, you’ve got to watch yourself. The chief’s at the end of his rope with you.”

  Gus grinned drunkenly. “He wantsa talk to me, tell him I’ll be happy to discuss it over a beer.”

 

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