“I reckon I need to look for a place. I was plannin’ on buyin’ a paper and callin’ some places today. It ain’t like I’m goin’ to show up for work. My dad needs a couple days to cool off before I get anywhere near him.”
“I bet. Do you want some company when you’re looking?” Maybe I should have walked out and made a big deal out of it, revealing his act.
“Won’t he be mad?” Shayne wanted to know my feelings? This dude was fucking ridiculous.
But he was right.
I was pissed. I wanted Lacey in my bed and I was so close to having it.
“I think it’s best if we don’t talk about relationships today. I’ll go with you as a friend.”
“I’ll take whatever I can get.” Of course he would.
I waited until the door closed before walking out and confronting Lacey. I probably had no business doing it, but she was in my house, making plans with her ex after getting freaky with me moments ago in my kitchen. “You’re leavin’ aren’t ya?”
“It’s not like that, Joey. Please don’t make this any harder than it already is.”
I had to leave the room. I couldn’t look at her tear-filled eyes for another second. My balls were going to be aching for pussy that I was never going to have. I was pissed at myself for even letting myself get this involved with the chick. This wasn’t me and I needed to walk away before I lost my manhood. “You don’t need to explain, Lace. I’m a big boy. I get it. Shayne wants another chance and you’re goin’ to give it to him.”
She followed me. “It’s not like that, but I’m not going to lie to you. I still love him.”
The more I tried to avoid her, the more I felt myself being drawn back in. She was making me crazy.
Then I looked down into those eyes and fought the urge to take her, right there in my room. “I told you, no explainin’ necessary.”
“You were right earlier, when you said the attraction was mutual. I feel it too. I just couldn’t bring myself to admit it, out loud.”
I walked over and started getting dressed, knowing that if I avoided contact with her, I’d be able to let her walk away without it getting all weird. “What do you want me to say, Lace? You want me to beg you to stay? You want me to tell you all the reasons that you should end up in my bed tonight instead of his, because I’m not goin’ to do that.”
It took her two seconds to take off her shirt again. She threw it in my face, making sure she had my attention. As much as I wanted to pretend she wasn’t already getting to me, I could feel my dick responding. “How about you give me a reason to come back?”
I pulled off my shirt and walked toward her. She was irresistible to me and I hated her for it.
Our lips met and I teased her tongue with mine while I spoke. “Tell me, Lace. Say the words.”
I knew she wanted it, because she’d already begun panting like she’d been doing in the kitchen. Lacey was no longer crying, but instead gazing into my eyes with certainty. She never flinched as she admitted exactly what she wanted from me. “I want you to fuck me.” She shook her head a bit. “No. I need you to.”
My mouth found a nipple as I contemplated what I wanted to do with the situation. On one hand, I wanted to fuck the shit out of this woman. She was giving herself to me and I knew it would be awesome. On the other hand, she was all fucked up in her head. I knew how women reacted to stress and throwing herself at me wasn’t going to solve anything. Besides, I needed her complete attention if I was going to be the best she’d ever had. I didn’t want her pretending I was that blonde dickhead. Still, I couldn’t let her know she was getting under my skin, like no woman ever had before.
“You say one thing, but you mean somethin’ entirely different.” I lifted her hand and placed tiny kisses over the back of her fingers. “I’ll be gentle with you; making sure I kiss every inch of your skin. After that I’m goin’ to make you cum and when you scream out my name, it will be because you don’t want me to stop touchin’ you.”
I had her right where I wanted her and her next words proved it to me. “Take off my shorts and get started then.”
I yanked slowly on her shorts, watching her react the entire time. “Don’t get shy on me. I’ve waited too long to see you naked.”
She touched her breasts and squeezed each nipple in her hands. “Was it worth the wait?”
I couldn’t stop looking at her naked body. She rocked in all the right places and I didn’t know where I wanted to start. “Roll over and give me the full show.”
She actually stuck her ass up, right in my face, taunting me with her perfect rear. “Is this what you like?”
I leaned against her back. “I like it all.” I played with her hair, picturing fucking her doggy-style. “Oh yeah, I’m going to fuck you so good.”
I slid down off the bed, taking one of her feet into my hands. While she watched, I kissed my way up her thigh, all the way to her naked pussy. She leaned up on her elbows watching my every move. “You want me to touch you, don’t you Lace?”
She bobbed her head up and down, like a child being asked if they wanted a piece of candy.
I placed my hand on the side of her hip and tapped it. “Flip over, you’re not ready for me yet.”
I needed time to sort shit out in my head. I’d never had such and intense feeling to please a woman as I did Lacey. She was a woman that I had something to prove to. I kissed the skin over her ass, taking my time dragging my tongue in between her thighs. Her body was shaking and my fingers proved how aroused she was for me.
“Exactly how I want your pussy; wet and ready.” I ran my thumb in between her folds, gathering her juices to lubricate her swollen clit. I rubbed hard as my fingers penetrated her pussy. Her ass immediately began to respond, shaking around and tightening up as she let go for the first time. I could smell her essence and I knew what I wanted next. I had to kiss her there, to taste that shiny wetness making those lips glisten
“Turn over and hold up your legs. This time I’m going to watch you cum.”
I sat up and watched as her body turned and her legs spread open for me. Her pussy was blushing from my playing with it and I knew I’d have her cumming again in no time. Lacey held her ankles and kept her legs out, waiting for me to dive in. I liked that she assumed I was going to dive in. I adjusted myself and smacked on her little pussy, watching her react. I blew on it and heard her making sounds above me. I pinched her clit and blew again, while I inserted my fingers again. She yelled out something that made no sense as her legs jerked around and I felt her pussy tightening against my lips as I sucked on her clit one last time
“You’re so sexy when you cum, Lace.”
This was a pivotal moment where I should have slapped on a jimmy and fucked the woman, until she was out of my system. Instead, I thought about her pretending I was Shayne and it pissed me off. I didn’t get why I cared, but I wasn’t going to proceed with the slightest chance of her regretting it.
I stood up and started putting my shirt back on. “Wait! Where are you going?” She sat up and looked shocked. I wanted to smile, or perhaps jump back on the bed and finish the job.
Instead, I kept my composure. “You’ve got somewhere to be and I need to reheat your breakfast.”
“Joey, wait. We aren’t done here.”
I climbed on the bed and kissed her. For the first time, in as long as I could remember, I was walking away from what I wanted. She was offering herself to me and I was refusing, out of jealousy. I hated what happened to me when it involved Lacey, but just feeling her tongue brushing against mine, kept me wanting more from her. She wasn’t like Candace or any of the other women that I had arrangements with. The fragile woman was different and I needed to have my head straight before I started having real feelings for her. “You’re right, we’re not, but I’m not about to give you everything so you can walk away and never look back. This way, I know you’ll return.”
“So, you’re just going to walk out of the room, even with me here, sprawled out
and naked?”
I kissed her neck and ran my hand up between her supple tits. “It’s very difficult.”
She pointed to my fully erect cock in my shorts. “Are you planning on icing that down?”
“Nah, it will be waiting for when you get back.” I said it as if I was sure that Shayne wasn’t going to convince her not to, even though I really didn’t know.
“What if I don’t come back?” Even she was wondering the same thing.
I stood up and let out an air-filled laugh. “Then I will be icin’ it.”
“Do I have to beg?” A part of me wanted to turn around and go for it.
“Patience is a virtue.” I leaned against the doorframe. “It’s goin’ to happen, so I’m not worried about waiting. Your head is too messed up today.”
“I know what I want.” Maybe she did, albeit I couldn’t bring myself to fuck things up, not when I’d had a taste that left me feigning for so much more.
Playing this game with Lacey was changing me and the more I fought it, the more it was happening. I should have stopped talking to the woman and pretended that I’d never been interested. All the signs were there.
But I couldn’t.
I wanted more and she was going to give it to me.
Chapter 11
After Lacey left my apartment, I found myself pacing around. The more I attempted to keep my mind off of her, the harder it was to not think about what she was doing. Shayne had never been my enemy. Sure, I thought he was a bit over the top and arrogant, but since our families were linked, we’d always gotten along, to an extent.
After messing around with Lacey, and watching her walk out my door to be with him, I had become enraged. I didn’t have room to talk about being a faithful kind of guy, but I also didn’t make promises that I couldn’t keep. I never lied to a woman about my intentions. They knew from the get-go that I wasn’t a monogamous kind of guy.
As the hours passed, I felt like I was losing my mind. Deciding that I needed a reprieve, I headed out on my bike for some air. Shortly after heading down the main highway, I turned into Candace’s development. I hadn’t driven there on purpose, but obviously I’d been thinking with my dick again.
It was probably a good thing that she wasn’t home, considering that I’d just had a talk with her about keeping things the way they were. Stopping by for no reason was going against everything I’d said.
I took my time riding home, constantly wondering what was going on between me and Lacey. It wasn’t like I’d wanted to have these kind of confusing feelings. Getting in her pants had been the only reason that I was stringing her along. Yet, each time we were near each other, I became more fascinated with her as a person. Maybe every woman I was with had qualities that I’d never noticed. It was possible that the changes in my life were affecting the way I looked at the world.
No matter what it was, I couldn’t shake the way Lacey made me crazy.
I rolled into the driveway feeling exactly as when I’d left. I surely didn’t expect for Lacey to have pulled in too. She was just sitting there when I hopped off my bike. I think I knew things hadn’t gone well when her head was down and she appeared to be crying. I knocked gently on her window without thinking of anything appropriate to say. I did my best to rationalize with her situation.
“I’m not goin’ to ask you what happened, but my doors open if it’s where you want to go.”
Of course, I wanted her to come in and to be able to finish where we’d left off. Her sweet pussy was finally going to satiate my dick enough for me to start thinking straight again. This chase was taking too much out of me and I just wanted to be done with it all.
Lacey came inside a couple moments later. She was still sniffling and I refused to pry into her business. She leaned against the doorframe and crossed her arms. “Do you care if I get a shower?”
I couldn’t help but imagine her being naked in my bathroom. My cock jumped at the thought. “My shampoo smells like a man.”
She tried her best to put on a smile. “I don’t even care.”
I watched her walk toward the bathroom and heard the door close. A part of me wanted to head into my bathroom and rub one off so I could deal with being so close to her later. This chick was fucked up in the head and I wasn’t about to ruin my nut on someone that wasn’t really into it.
Knowing that she probably came back unprepared, I went into the bedroom and grabbed her something to put on and a fresh towel. The bathroom door’s lock was broken and she was probably going to freak out.
The curtain was pretty much see through and I couldn’t help but steal a peek. From the moment that I saw her naked skin in front of me, I honestly lost all control over my own actions. I don’t know what had gotten into me, but I started stripping, with every intent of having her in the shower.
As I stepped into the shower, and heard her sniffle, I realized how fragile she was. I liked pussy, but I wasn’t an asshole that didn’t respect other people’s feelings. There was no excuse for putting myself in the situation, so I did the first thing that came to mind.
I reached for her and pulled her against my chest. She was silent as I ran my hands down her arms and kissed her shoulder. “I hate hearin’ you cry.”
“I’m sorry. I feel like I’m drowning in pain.”
“I won’t ask what happened, but I’m not goin’ to let you cry anymore.” I turned her around to face me and the same thing happened as before. I felt myself caring about this girl and wanting to make them go away. I kissed the top of her head and her gaze caught mine. For a moment we just stared at each other.
“I’m sorry I showed up without asking.”
I smiled. “You’re not sorry, Lace. You came to the one place where you knew you could make it all go away.” I had to keep up with the plan. This chick was bad for me and I needed her out of my system.
“I’m not supposed to want you, Joey.”
Hearing her say that she wanted me turned me on. I drug my lips over hers and the moment our skin touched, I felt that strange connection again. My dick started to harden immediately. I tried to focus. “I’m not supposed to do a lot of things that I do.”
“I liked it better when you were an asshole. At least then, I knew what to expect from you.”
She had no idea how wrong she was. “I’m still an asshole. Ask anyone.”
“I hate to break it to you, but I think we’re becoming friends.”
“That’s what this is?” I laughed and held her closer. “I’m kiddin’.”
“Just make me forget I ever left your bed this morning. That’s all I want from you.”
I raised a brow and looked intently into her eyes. She wanted what? Had this whole game been turned around on me? “So, you want to use me?”
“Isn’t that what you want from me? Isn’t it about being able to say you had me?” She was calling me out and I didn’t know whether to admit it, or play dumb. “Havin’ you was never a question.” She had me so confused.
“Why are you looking at me like that?”
Before she could read anything into my face, I flipped her around, so her back was facing me. I grabbed the bar of soap and started washing her, while desperately attempting to make the conversation stop. With each motion of my hands over her smooth skin, the rock between my legs was beating. I grabbed her ass and had to concentrate on something irrelevant to keep from busting a load. I was completely fucked up over this chick. I kissed her skin one more time and knew I had to get out of there. I climbed out and intended on retreating to my room to pull my head out of my ass and figure out what the fuck was happening to me. This chick was dangerous for me and the more she offered, the more it scared me.
Before I could leave the bathroom, she pulled the curtain open. I froze in place.
“What just happened?”
I put a towel around my body and kept my cool. “Nothin’. Take your time, Lace. I’ll be out here when you’re done.”
It was a good thing that she stayed in the
re for a bit longer. After closing my bedroom door, I stroked my dick until hot cum dripped down my hand. I used my towel to clean up the mess and dressed feeling a little relief. Getting involved with Lacey was a terrible idea. I needed her to change her mind and leave. As much as I wanted her, I knew I couldn’t let it happen, not if I wanted my life to stay the same.
All the Lacey drama had made me hungry. It was a good thing that I cooked for a living. I’d made my special marinara a few days before and filled a plate up with noodles before reheating it in the microwave.
Lacey came in the room in only my t-shirt. She looked so hot with her wet hair hanging down to her hard nipples. It accentuated them and if I didn’t have a mouth full of food, I probably would have been salivating. “Do you like pasta?”
“I love it.” She sat down on the couch beside me and I jumped up to make her a plate.
“I made homemade sauce the other night. It’s sweeter than the jar.”
There was nothing sexier than watching a woman eat something that I cooked. My eyes stared at her twirling the noodles on her plate and taking the first bite. I could tell from her reaction that she liked it. “Ain’t it good?”
“It’s delicious. I’m impressed. Did you always want to be a cook?”
I shrugged and tried to think about a time where I didn’t want to cook for a living. “My mom has ran that diner my whole life. I guess it’s in my blood. I think I started working there when I was twelve. Since it was all I ever learned to do, she sent me to culinary school and the rest is history.”
“Sky made it seem like you and Ford bickered about everything. I couldn’t believe you moved in to this place.”
“He’s my cousin, but we like to compete, that’s no secret. Since we’ve gotten older it doesn’t happen so much. We have more in common than he likes to admit, like fast cars and sexy women.” Ford found Sky, but she didn’t have anything on Lacey.
“Are you saying he isn’t faithful?” I was shocked she asked that since she was stuck up their asses all of the time.
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