by M. O'Keefe
The Truth About Him is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents are the products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to events, locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
A Bantam Books Trade Paperback Original
Copyright © 2015 by Molly Fader
All rights reserved.
Published in the United States by Bantam Books, an imprint of Random House, a division of Penguin Random House LLC, New York.
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O’Keefe, Molly.
The truth about him : a novel / M. O’Keefe.
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ISBN 978-1-101-88450-8 (softcover : acid-free paper)—ISBN 978-1-101-88451-5 (eBook)
1. Man-woman relationships—Fiction. I. Title.
PS3615.K44T78 2015
813'.6—dc23
2015023223
eBook ISBN 9781101884515
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Book design by Karin Batten, adapted for eBook
Cover design: Caroline Teagle
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Contents
Title Page
Copyright
Part One
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Part Two
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Epilogue
Dedication
Acknowledgments
By M. O’Keefe
About the Author
ANNIE
Annie McKay came to slowly. Aware in pieces of her surroundings.
The pebbled linoleum of the trailer floor dug into her cheek. Her ankle was twisted, wedged against something hard.
The hot copper smell of blood made her stomach roll and she gagged.
“Annie, I’m sorry.”
That voice…oh God.
It was Hoyt. Her husband. Standing over her.
For heartbeats, lots of them, she wasn’t sure he was real. Perhaps she’d tripped and fallen, hit her head coming back into her trailer. She was hallucinating. Pulling Hoyt out of old nightmares. That made much more sense.
Because there was no way he could have found her here.
I was careful. I was so careful.
Two months ago, she’d run from him. Taking only the bruises around her neck and three thousand dollars from his safe. Desperate and scared, she left in the middle of the night and made her way in circles to this place, a patch of swamp called the Flowered Manor Trailer Park and Camp Ground in North Carolina.
Hundreds of miles from Hoyt. From Oklahoma. From the farm where she’d lived her entire life.
And she’d been happy here. The happiest she’d ever been. Not even two hours ago, she’d left Dylan and his magical house. Her body had been flush and alive and pleasured. And her mind had been clear.
She’d had plans, real plans, for her life, not just panicked and terrified reactions.
Everything had been about to get better.
“Annie?”
This is not a hallucination.
Be smart, Annie. Think!
“You hear what I said to you?”
She lay there silent. Hoyt hated her silence. Apologies were to be met with immediate acquiescence, his guilt promptly assuaged.
But she said nothing. Because fuck him.
“Get up.”
She kept her eyes closed, because she wasn’t ready to actually see him. Not here. Not in this trailer. Her home.
Hoping to feel her phone still in her back pocket, she rolled onto her back.
Please, please, she prayed, please be there.
But there was nothing under her butt. The phone was gone.
“There you go. It ain’t so bad, is it? Get yourself up off the floor.” He said it like she’d fallen, like she’d landed on the floor through her own clumsy, stupid means.
Despite her best efforts to restrain them, hot tears seeped under her lashes.
“Come on, now.” His hands touched her hip and her armpit to help her up and she flinched away, her body screaming in pain. Unsteady, she got herself to her feet. She opened her eyes and the world swam. She grabbed the edge of the table, landing half on, half off the cushion of the settee.
“You’re getting blood all over the place.” His familiar hands, with their small scars and close-clipped nails, held a pink washcloth toward her. It was the washcloth from her bathroom. He’d probably gone through everything, touching all of her things. Everything was contaminated now.
There was no way she could take the washcloth. Not from his hand.
“Fine,” he muttered, tossing the washcloth on the table. “Do it yourself.”
Pissed, he stomped off to sit in one of the captain’s chairs at the front of the trailer.
The reality of Hoyt in this previously Hoyt-less place was shocking.
She forced herself to look at him. Really look at him.
He was a big man. Over six feet tall, and he used to rodeo when he was younger, so his legs and arms and chest were thick with muscle. He had white-blond hair that made his eyebrows and eyelashes nearly invisible, which gave his face a terrible expressionlessness. A vacancy. She’d never ever been able to tell what he was thinking.
Sincerity looked like deceit. Anger looked like forgiveness.
She used to think he was calm. Other people did, too; at the very beginning of their marriage that’s what everyone said about him.
He’s so steady, they’d said. And she’d clung to that. With both hands and all her fear after Mom died. She’d clung to the version of him she wanted to believe in.
But it was a lie. Everything about him was a lie.
And Annie had been a fool.
That he was so totally the same, wearing what he always wore—jeans, his brown cowboy boots, and the dark blue Western shirt with the pearl snaps, his bone-handled knife in its sheath on his belt—made it even more surreal.
New place. Same nightmare.
Her missing phone was balanced on his knee. He’d taken it from her, gone through her pockets, while she lay unconscious on the floor.
Because he was an animal.
“I’m sorry,” he said with utter and terrifying sincerity. “I know at home, you were scared. What I did…that night in the kitchen?” He said it as if she might have forgotten. “It was too much. I understand that.”
An incredulous laugh she could not let out stung her throat. Do you? Do you understand that?
“It won’t happen again. I swear it won’t.”
“How did you find me?” She tried to clear her vision, get her brain to focus.
“Do you believe me?” he asked. “That things will be different?”
No. Not in a million years.
“I believe you,” she lie
d, putting her heavy, throbbing head in her hand. “Just tell me how you found me.”
“It was actually pretty cool.” He smiled, with what she guessed was modesty, like she was about to be real proud of him. “The Bassett Gazette has this widget thing—that’s what they call them—on their website and it shows a map of the United States, and on that map are little pins that track the places where people are logging onto the website. The gal I talked to at the office was real excited about it, said it showed that there were people all over the state reading their newspaper online. And there was this one dot…this one little dot that I started to follow. You know where that dot went?”
Sick to her stomach, she nodded. She thought she’d been so clever.
“It went around in circles for a while. And then it went north to Pennsylvania and then back south. And then it just stayed in Cherokee, North Carolina. Over and over again. Cherokee, North Carolina. Every week. Once a week. Tuesdays. That’s the day you liked to go shopping.” He said it like he was offering her proof of his affection. A nosegay. A dead bird dropped at her feet from his bloody jaws. “You thought I didn’t notice. But I did. You liked to shop on Tuesdays. So, I drove out here. I saw where you signed in for computer time at the library—Layla McKay. That’s your cousin, right?”
In one of the historical novels she’d read, there was a character who had a falcon. And Annie had loved the descriptions of how the guy flew his falcon and cared for it, the bells and the gloves and the little pieces of meat in a bag attached to his belt. And she’d thought, reading it, how great it would be to control something so barely domesticated. Something so very nearly wild.
But at this moment she realized how the falcon must have felt. So free one minute, wings spread, the world a retreating landscape below. The next, hooded and chained. Captured. Freedom a memory.
“I stayed there for a week, hanging out at the library. The grocery store. Driving by all the motels, and…nothing. I heard about this trailer park out here and came out to investigate and I ran into this man, Phil, at a gas station. He told me all about the park. And when I described you, he told me he thought you might be here. You’re like his wife’s friend? I’m afraid Phil doesn’t like you much.”
God, brought down by Phil. How pathetically fitting.
“What do you want?” she asked, unable to pretend any longer.
He looked at her like he was surprised, his mouth gaping open, his translucent eyebrows halfway up his forehead. “I want you to come home,” he said. “I want you to be my wife again.”
“What does that even mean to you, Hoyt? Your wife? You don’t love me—”
He stood up from that chair and she shrank back in her seat.
“I apologized for what happened before you left. I can’t do any more than that. It’s time for you to come home now. You’ve had your fun. People are asking about you and I’m getting tired of the sideways glances. Everyone thinks I’ve done something to you. The police came out to the house two weeks ago. The police, Annie. It’s too much.”
He touched her hand before she could jerk it back. It was worse when he pretended to care. Or maybe he did actually care and he just didn’t know how to do it right.
“We can go back to church.”
Annie blinked up at him, unsure if he’d actually said that, or if she was hearing things.
“Annie? Would you like to go back to church?”
“Yes…of course,” she breathed. Three years ago she would have wept in gratitude. But she was not fooled now. He would let her go to church once, maybe twice, and he’d find a way to take it away from her all over again.
“And then we’ve got to talk about selling that land to Encro.”
And there it was. That was really why he wanted her home. The land sale to Encro for more windmills. He couldn’t do it without Annie’s approval. That’s why this little scene was happening. “It’s time, don’t you think, that we thought of our future?”
My future is as far away from you as I can get.
“I forgive you for stealing from me, Annie. The money, the gun. It’s forgiven.”
Oh my God.
The gun.
The gun in her bedside table.
Did he have it? Was it still there?
She tried to show him nothing. Not one thing.
“I…I need to change my shirt.” Her splattered and torn sweatshirt was ruined with blood; it would never come clean. She’d had a few shirts like that at home. Clothes that made their way into the rag bag or the garbage because the truth of her life was sprayed all over it.
Annie got up on shaky feet, her hand braced on the wall as she walked down the short hallway to the bedroom.
Please. Please be there. Please be there. That gun was her only chance.
She closed the door behind her and then, sweeping her dizziness and headache aside, she nearly leapt over the bed to the small bedside table and yanked open the drawer.
It was empty. Sobbing, she searched it, pulling it all the way out, but everything was gone. The books. The gun. The article about Ben. Everything.
She collapsed against the wall and fell to the floor.
The bedroom door creaked open and Hoyt stood in the doorway. A blond devil. Her gun like a toy in his big palm.
In his other hand were her books. The sticky notes from Dylan. The artifacts of her rebellion. Of her entire life here.
Silent, he tossed the books onto the bed. The article. The notes.
She wanted to gather them up, out of his reach. Out of his sight. But it was too late. Everything she owned he’d ruined with his touch. She tipped her head so she couldn’t see them. Like a child, if she couldn’t see them, they weren’t real.
They never happened.
All she had left was getting out of this.
“Who is Dylan Daniels to you?” he asked.
“No one. I don’t know who he is.” Annie got to her feet without any idea why she was bothering to lie when she was doing it so badly. All she knew was that she could not put Dylan in the middle of this nightmare.
“Stop.” He held up the phone, the screen showing all of their text messages. The picture she sent of her nearly naked body. Her breasts and her tummy, the pale white blur of her thighs.
Annie had been unfaithful to a man who smacked her around over chicken potpies. Strangled her over windmills. She could not imagine what he would do over adultery.
“I know about it all. So you need to stop lying. For your sake.”
He was going to kill her. A gasping sob cleared her throat.
“Don’t look at me like that,” he whispered, his face creased with agony. “I’m not going to hurt you.”
Annie nearly laughed. But terror had squeezed her body.
“I don’t like it, Annie, but I…I guess I understand.” He tilted his head like the old yellow Lab they used to have. “What I did to you made you…act out like that. I know that’s not you. That picture, those notes. That’s not the Annie I know.”
The Annie he knew was a rag doll. A scarecrow. An animated reflection of him. The Annie he knew was gone.
But Hoyt was still talking. “We can go back home and just forget it. Forget this Dylan Daniels. Start over.”
That was impossible. There was no forgetting Dylan Daniels. He was burned under her skin. Into her bones.
Move, she told herself, keep moving. Don’t just sit here and let him ruin you again. As long as she kept moving she was alive, and as long as she was alive, there was a chance.
Annie pulled a clean shirt out of the dresser. “You mind?” she asked, when he just kept standing there. That gun held so casually in his hand as if to mock her fear.
A muscle twitched in his jaw and he glanced down at the books on the bed and the phone in his hand, silently asking if she really thought she deserved modesty now. But then he bowed his head and walked out of her room as if granting Annie privacy was a favor. A silly, stupid wish by a silly, stupid woman.
Once he was gone,
she pulled off her dirty shirt and slipped on her clean one. The windows in here were all too small to climb through, but she pushed open her curtains hoping Ben was still in his garden, hoping she could catch his eye. But his garden was empty. Joan’s trailer was still dark.
As lightly as she could, she stepped to the door, listening for sounds from the rest of the trailer so she could try to tell where he was. But it was silent. Eerie and silent and awful.
Shaking, she cracked open the door to see Hoyt back in the captain’s seat. He was eating a cinnamon roll from the bag she’d brought down from Dylan’s. If Annie was careful and if she was quick, she might get to the door before he did.
Acting as if she were still dizzy, she leaned her hand against the wall as she made her way into the small kitchen. Four feet. Three. Two. The door was right there. She paused for a second, holding her head as if she could barely stand. He needed to think she was weak.
“You want to pack up?” he asked. “I’d like to get home. We’ve been gone too long.” Like they’d been on a trip. A fun excursion.
“Can we have some food first? I need something to eat. It might make me less dizzy.”
She turned herself around, getting her body between him and the door, and then made as if she were reaching for the paper bag but instead of the bag she reached for the door, pushing it open, cold air rushing toward her as she threw her body down the steps, but Hoyt grabbed the back of her shirt and then a handful of her hair and yanked her back into the trailer.
And then slammed the door shut.
Annie screamed so loud and so hard her throat ached and he backhanded her, tossed her on the floor of the trailer and got down on top of her, squeezing the air from her body. His hand closed over her mouth. His knife had slipped forward and the leather tip of the sheath touched the bare skin of her hip, where her shirt had ridden up.
