I ducked back inside the bank, knowing that our victory was temporary.
“We need to get out of here now,” I shouted.
“This is a bank,” said Rowles, exasperated. “The back door is armoured, we can’t kick it down.”
“Shit.”
“There is the vault,” offered Caroline, sounding scared for the first time since I’d met her.
“The what?” I asked.
“There’s a vault, a walk-in thing,” she explained. “It’s not huge, but it’s probably airtight.”
“And once we’re in there how do we get out? Or breathe?” said Rowles.
“Fine,” she shouted resentfully. “So what’s your plan, genius?”
I didn’t have time to waste watching a lover’s tiff. “No, that’s a good idea, Caroline,” I said. “And it might work as a last resort, but...”
“Look!” screamed the girl.
I turned to see a yellow arm withdrawing from the doorway and a gas grenade rolling towards us, making a nasty squelching noise on the sodden carpet.
“Up!” I shouted. We ran through the door that said ‘No Entry’ and headed for the stairs. Even as we scrambled up that narrow staircase I knew that all I’d done was buy us a few minutes. We were trapped. Where the hell was Sanders?
This building was one of the few new ones on the main street of town, and it only had two storeys. We came to a landing and a series of non-descript offices so dull that nobody had even bothered to trash them.
“There has to be a fire escape,” I said. “Check all the rooms.”
None of the windows had been shattered, so cracking open these doors was like walking into a time capsule, breathing pre-Cull air, still with the faint tang of PVC chairs, air conditioning and carpet fumes. One of the desks had a framed picture of two blonde toddlers on it, next to a desk tidy full of neatly arranged pens. I didn’t know which was creepier – booby trapped Woolies or this strange museum.
“Here,” shouted Rowles. Caroline and I ran to the office he was in, which had a fire exit with a push-bar in the wall facing away from the street. Caroline and I stepped back and raised our weapons then I nodded to Rowles, who crouched down and shoved the door open.
The exit led on to a metal staircase in a dim courtyard. So dim, that the figure standing outside was just a silhouette. I held my fire, unsure, but Caroline panicked and squeezed off two rounds. I yelled at her to hold her fire but it was too late.
The figure grunted, staggered back against the metal railing and toppled backwards into space. We heard him hit the concrete below with an awful thud.
“Dammit Caroline,” I yelled. “We have no idea who that was.”
“But...”
I ushered her and Rowles out of the door and they clattered down the fire escape. As I turned to pull the door closed behind me I caught a flash of yellow on the landing and fired through the plasterboard walls at where I thought the cleaner was standing. I didn’t wait to see if I’d hit him.
I pelted down the loud metal steps and found Rowles and Caroline standing, appalled, over the body of Patel, the squaddie Sanders had taken with him. Caroline had got him clean in the chest. He was stone dead.
In the dank concrete-floored courtyard, with the interior walls of buildings rising all around us, their small staircase windows looking out on this joyless scene, I could see her face was ashen white. Rowles was holding her hand tightly.
“He must have been coming to help us,” she said softly.
“No time,” I barked as I reached down and grabbed Patel’s machine gun.
Then there was a loud clang. And another, and another, as something metal bounced down the fire escape behind us.
At the same time we heard the distant echo of gunfire from the main street. That had to be Sanders.
I threw my arms wide and herded the children towards a small brick alley that led beneath one of the buildings and out of the courtyard. As they ran I turned, slipped the safety off the machine gun, and sprayed the fire escape with bullets, hoping to discourage pursuit. Then I ran after the kids as I heard the loud hiss of escaping gas behind me.
We emerged into a car park littered with wrecked vehicles and shopping trolleys. But no cleaners, thank God. I strained to hear the gunfire and tried to identify where it was coming from. As soon as I was sure that it was coming from our left I turned and ran right, urging the children ahead of me as we ran behind the row of buildings.
“I think we’re parallel to the main street,” I explained as we ran. “If we can get to the opposite end of the street to Sanders we might be able to trap the cleaners in a crossfire.”
The buildings ended at the car park entrance road, which turned right to rejoin the main street. I flattened my back against the wall and indicated for the kids to do the same, then I risked a quick glimpse around the corner. Nothing but a burned-out bus.
I turned to the children.
“Rowles, you stay here and make sure we aren’t followed. Caroline, with me.”
Why did I do that? I’ve asked myself a hundred times since then. Why didn’t I take Rowles? But at that instant I was sure that it was safer to come with me, to approach the cleaners from behind with the element of surprise. I was certain that Rowles would be in more danger than she would be, and I knew he could cope with that.
So I ran around the corner, waving the traumatised girl along behind me. Guns raised, we moved slowly along the side of what had once been a small branch of Boots. There were sporadic bursts of gunfire ahead and to our right, so it sounded as if Sanders was still in the fight at the far end of the street.
I reached the next corner and again flattened my back against the wall and glanced around. The trucks were about thirty metres away. The gas had cleared and the bodies of the dead soldiers lay on the pavement and in the road.
Beyond the trucks were three cleaners, crouched behind available cover – a car, a brick flower bed, a phone booth. All were now armed with machine guns taken from the squaddies. They leaned out, took their shots, and then ducked back under cover, obviously involved in a firefight. But none of them spared a glance behind them.
I turned to Caroline.
“Okay,” I said. “We go quickly and quietly. Move from car to car, stay in cover as much as possible. When we’re close I’ll give the signal and you take out the one on the right. I’ve got the machine gun, so I’ll take the other two. OK?”
She nodded but I could tell she was having to work very hard to keep herself under control.
“It wasn’t your fault, Caroline,” I said gently. “But we can talk about it later. Right now I need you to focus on what we have to do. Can you do that?”
She nodded. “Yes, Miss.”
I put my arm around her shoulder squeezed. “Good girl. Now come on.”
We moved out of cover and ran into the road. It took us only a minute or so to get close to the cleaners. They were so preoccupied, and the noise of gunfire was so loud, that they had no idea they were being stalked. Both Caroline and I, on opposite sides of the road, took up firing positions behind cars.
I was just about to give the signal when it all went wrong.
There was a burst of gunfire from behind us and to our right. I ducked instinctively before I realised it was echoing across from the car park. A cleaner must have bumped into Rowles. One of the men in front of us heard the exchange of fire and turned to look back. He saw Caroline. I turned to the girl and yelled at her to get down and as I did so I saw, over her shoulder, another cleaner emerging from the bank.
And then there were bullets everywhere. The one in the bank doorway raised his shotgun as the man in front of us turned and raised his machine gun. Caroline, unaware of the cleaner to her right, opened fire as I dived sideways and shot around Caroline at the man in the bank.
Caroline hit her man. He missed her and fell backwards, shot in the arm. I hit the man with the shotgun and his arms flew up as his gun went off. This saved Caroline’s life; only the edge of
the shotgun’s pellet spray hit her, and those pellets were slowed by the glass in the car behind which she was standing.
But it was enough. She fell, screaming.
I continued firing and the cleaner in the bank disappeared back into the gloom, full of bullets.
The two remaining cleaners turned to see what was going on. One of them foolishly allowed his head to pop ever so slightly out of cover. A single shot from Sanders, still out of sight down the street, took the top of his skull off. I rolled on to my back, brought the gun up to my tummy and turned the middle cleaner’s chest into mincemeat before he could get a shot off.
That left the wounded one. I stood to see where he was, but he was out of it – the bullet had hit an artery and he was lying in a widening pool of blood, not long to live, no threat to anyone.
I ran to Caroline. She was lying in the road, breathing hard, teeth gritted, whimpering.
Before I could bend down I heard pounding boots approaching and I spun, gun at the ready. A yellow suit passed in front of my eyes but the helmet was hanging down. It was Sanders. He casually put a bullet in the wounded cleaner’s head as he ran past, without even slowing down.
“Easy, Kate, easy.”
I lowered my weapon.
“First aid kit?” I asked.
“Truck,” he replied, and ran to get it while I knelt down to tend to Caroline.
She was barely conscious.
She had been lucky. When I rolled her over I could see that pellets had hit her from the waist up, including five that were embedded in her right cheek, one that looked like it had damaged her right eye socket, and a couple above the hairline. If I could treat her quickly, and if I could prevent any of the wounds from becoming infected, she should survive.
“Hold on, sweetheart,” I said, grasping her hand tightly. “Hold on.”
WE SET UP camp in a house near the centre of town. It had been lived in until very recently so it was clean and had everything we needed. I set up a workspace in the living room and did my best to patch Caroline up. Once I’d finished, I went into the kitchen and gratefully accepted the mug of hot tea that Sanders offered me. The kitchen had been installed some time in the seventies and had escaped renovation. The table had a chipped Formica top, like a greasy spoon café, and the chair was cheap moulded plastic.
“Well?” he asked.
“I got all the pellets out, sterilised the wounds, stitched the ones that needed it, dressed them, put her to bed. She should really have some antibiotics, but there’s nothing I can do about that. The vodka you found helped, thanks.”
“Any left?”
“No, sorry. I wish.”
“You lush,” he smiled.
“I couldn’t save her eye,” I said quietly, “and her face will be horribly scarred. Rowles refuses to leave her side. He’s just sitting there, holding her hand and stroking her hair. I never really thought he had a tender side. Funny how people can surprise you.”
“He’s not people,” said Sanders. “He’s an eleven-year-old boy. Who you took into combat.”
I laughed bitterly. “Like I could have stopped him! Trust me, Sanders, the boy’s a law unto himself. I’m just trying to keep him contained and alive.”
“And Caroline?”
“Goes where he goes. Always.”
“And which of them shot Patel?”
Shit, that took me by surprise.
“Sorry?”
“I found his body where you told me,” he said. “He wasn’t killed with a shotgun, he was shot with a sidearm, and you three had the only ones in play.”
“There was a fight upstairs at the bank,” I lied. “One of the cleaners got my gun off me. Patel burst in and got shot. Then Rowles hit the cleaner over the head with a chair and in the confusion I snatched back my gun and ran.”
Sanders shook his head slowly. “Nice try. If I thought you shot him trying to escape custody...” He left the threat unspoken. “But no, I think one of you shot him by accident. Caroline, at a guess.”
I stared intently at the swirling patterns on the surface of my tea.
“He was a good lad,” continued Sanders. “Would have made a good officer.”
“Look, she just panicked, that’s all.”
“And that’s why you don’t take children into combat.”
I looked up at him angrily. “What, like we seek it out? Are you joking? I just want to keep them alive and teach them to read. But people keep pointing guns at us. People like the cleaners and you.” I jabbed him in the chest with my index finger. “We have no fucking choice. Do you think I like seeing what it does to them? You know, Rowles used to be the sweetest kid in the world. I mean Disney sweet, saccharine, cutesy. Now look at him! He’s terrifying. But he’s alive, and one day, maybe, if I can keep him alive long enough, he can stop fighting and grow into a man. That’s all I want, to see him grow up safe, to see all my kids grow up safe. But as long as there are nutters with guns strolling around telling everyone what to do, that’s not going to be possible. And now Caroline. I was supposed to keep her safe.”
I stood up and threw my mug across the room, full of fury that had nowhere to go. It smashed against the wall and then, before I knew what I was doing, I was crying my eyes out and Sanders was holding me tightly as I pounded my fists against his chest and wept for the girl lying shattered in the bed upstairs.
Then there was kissing.
Then there was sex.
Then there was sleep.
WHEN MORNING CAME I woke refreshed, warm and mortified.
Not because I’d slept with a guy who was about as far from my type as it’s possible to get, but because as I lay there feeling him breathe, I replayed the night’s events in my mind and realised something awful.
I felt guilty.
Which was, of course, ridiculous. I wasn’t seeing anyone.
(Do people still ‘see’ each other after an apocalypse? ‘Seeing’ someone makes me think of flirty text messages, bottles of wine, dinner in fancy restaurants, making your date suffer through a romcom as a test of their forbearance. None of those things were possible any more. I found myself drowsily wondering what Sex and the City would say about the rules of dating in a post-viral warzone. Of course, with society entirely gone away, every woman who wanted Jimmy Choos could have them, as long as they were prepared to fight their way to a lootable store. And then I had a vision of Sarah Jessica Parker in a sequined dress, with an AK47, mowing down hoards of Blood Hunters, screaming “if you want the strappy sandals you’ll have to go through me, motherfuckers!” That was Kate thinking. Jane told her to shut up and focus.)
I had no ties. Since that thing with Mac and the sixth-formers last year I’d not been within arm’s length of a man I felt like getting to know better. Still, there was nothing to prevent me bedding the entire male population of the UK if the mood struck me.
But as I replayed the night’s exertions I realised that at a very particular moment I was thinking of a very particular person. It wasn’t as if I was thinking of Sanders at any point. It was a comfort fuck at the end of an awful day; it wasn’t about Sanders at all. Neither was I fantasising about anyone else. It was all about me, about being alive while people were dying around me, about wanting to feel something other than pain for a moment.
Yet at one moment, as I arched my back and dug in my fingernails, I had a crystal clear picture of Lee in my mind, just for a second. And I lay there in the morning with a sinking feeling. I knew what it meant, but I refused to accept it. I banished it from my mind. As Lee was so fond of saying: “No time, things to do.”
But, really, damn.
WHEN HE WOKE, Sanders was brisk, businesslike, unsentimental. He didn’t want to cuddle or talk or any of that, which suited me fine.
Kate had never had a one night stand, but Jane had had plenty. Of course, Jane had never bedded a guy who knew Kate and that collision did strange things to my head. He was detached come daylight, the kind of behaviour that would have thrown Kat
e into despair and angst but which was a blessed relief to Jane.
He wasn’t cold, though. He smiled and cracked a few lame jokes. Don’t worry, his behavior said, I don’t expect or require anything else. Ironically, that made me like him a whole lot more than I had the day before.
I checked on Caroline and Rowles. They were curled up on the double bed in the main room, spooning, fast asleep. They looked so peaceful and innocent lying there that I decided to let them sleep. Sanders found some tinned spaghetti and a calor stove, and we sat down to breakfast. We ate our food out of china bowls with old, dull forks and listened to the harsh wind battering the open doors and windows of this deserted little suburban cul-de-sac.
“You said you swept this town,” I asked as I wiped tomato sauce off my chin with my sleeve. “What does that mean? What is exactly is Operation Motherland?”
“Our orders are pretty simple,” he replied. “We’re emptying every armed forces base in the country, gathering all the weapons and ordnance in a series of huge depots on Salisbury plain. The idea is to disarm the population, take guns out of the equation. Then, when we’ve got all the hardware, we can start to re-impose law and order, raise a new army, take back London, put the king on the throne, get back to some sort of normality.”
I gaped. “You’re just collecting weapons? That’s it? That’s your masterplan?”
He nodded. “Yeah, for now. We’ve got more kit than we know what to do with, to be honest. Take this town, for instance. There was a TA base nearby and a gang of kids had broken in, got themselves all tooled up, and they were running this place. It was ugly, what they were doing. So we rolled in, executed the worst of them, took all their guns away so it couldn’t happen again. Job well done.”
“And where is everyone now?”
He shrugged. Not his problem.
“Jesus, Sanders,” I said. “Didn’t it occur to you that it would have been better to arm the people here? The sane ones, the adults?”
“Our orders are to disarm everyone, Kate.”
“It’s Jane, and those are stupid orders. Obviously these cleaners came to town, found the people here defenceless and either drove them out of their homes or massacred them. And that’s your fault. If they’d been armed, they’d have been able to defend themselves.”
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