by C. E. Murphy
What I could See were vestiges of my own power, familiar silver-blue tendrils still lingering from our adventure earlier in the day. I jerked around to look at Billy with the Sight, searching for similar remnants around him, and found nothing. But it had been weeks since I’d used my power on him, and even then it hadn’t been the kind of physical shield I’d used on Mandy. I didn’t know if the residue had protected her in some way or not, but even if it had, that didn’t exactly balance out setting her up as a potential victim in the first place.
While I was looking at Billy, the paramedics swooped in and got Mandy onto a stretcher. Jake Tiller sat on top of the porch steps, wrapped in a huge winter jacket and blank-gazed with fear. One of the paramedics offered his hand. Jake took it blindly, letting the man guide him down the stairs toward the ambulance. The poor boy’s aura was static white, shock too great for his true colors to wash through. Billy, a few yards away, was talking to the cop who’d texted us, and I heard the guy say, “The kid came home from ball practice and found his mom lying on the steps. He called 911. Probably saved her life.”
“He’s smart,” Billy agreed. “Friends with my son.” I let the rest of their conversation fade away as I turned my gaze to the snow-littered steps and yard.
Anybody else and I might’ve thought she’d slipped on the stairs and cracked her head, but I knew Mandy Tiller hadn’t received a gash-toothed bite on her arm that morning. I’d have healed it if she had. So the thing had come after her, and somehow, it had failed to walk away with her life. I was less certain about the safety of her soul.
There were imprints in the snow on the uncovered porch, just like the ones I’d seen yesterday morning. I didn’t touch them this time, afraid I’d flatten them into nothing and destroy any chance of a lead. I’d seen, that morning, how far this thing could jump in a single bound. And it did jump, traversing space like it was real. But then, so did I, when I separated from my body. I didn’t float through walls or fly up to rooftops. I walked through the doors and climbed stairs, treating the astral world essentially like the real one.
It was a paltry thing to go on, but at least it was something. I stood up and followed their imprints’ potential trajectory, scanning the yard and sidewalk and street without finding a hint of where the thing might have landed. Neighbor’s yard, across the street, empty. No trees bigger than bushes to ricochet off anywhere in easy sight.
A quick wash of snow, unsettled by the rumble of ambulance engines, slid off the roof and poofed into the yard, narrowly missing the porch. I flinched, reminded of the avalanche.
More snow flopped down, less vigorously than if someone had shoveled it, but with a certain amount of enthusiasm. A ghost of forensics training came back to me and I crouched again. There was no kickback in the imprint, no spray that suggested the beast had jumped forward. The indentations looked like it had squatted, just as I was doing now. My gaze strayed to the roof.
Well. Just because I’d never tried floating up to a rooftop didn’t mean I couldn’t do it. I pressed my spine against the house, propping myself against it, and for the second time in an hour, slipped the surly bonds of earth.
My subconscious had a mean sense of humor. It had let me float through a closed door, but not a wall, because one was meant for walking through and the other wasn’t. But that had been nearly a year ago, and I had more control now. Gravity was permitted, I decided, to exert the smallest influence over me, just enough to keep me from floating into the stratosphere and beyond. I weighed in at a little over one-sixty, but there was no reason my astral form couldn’t be light as a thought.
I stayed firmly stuck to the ground in both body and spirit. I bared my teeth at the sky, willing to admit that thoughts could be depressingly weighty. Better to be light as a bird, with hollow bones and an ability to fly. I could break free from gravity’s pull and soar up to the roof on an impulse of will.
My astral self, it seemed, was absolutely unimpressed with my puny logic. Eventually, swearing silently, my astral form crawled up a drainpipe and swung onto the roof. There was no way I could’ve done that physically. Neither the pipe nor my dignity nor my hand strength—which was pretty good, but not that good—would have let me. Astrally, though? No problem. It made no sense at all. On the positive side, it didn’t have to make sense. It just had to work.
And up there on the rooftop, the monster was waiting for me.
———
By all rights I should’ve woken up dead. I’d thought the thing would’ve been scared off. It was only once I was up there on the roof, nose to nose with a stinking beast, that I wondered why I thought an invisible ravening magic cannibal would be frightened by a kid with a cell phone or a few police sirens.
While I was standing there stupefied, it raised a lazy paw and backhanded me so hard I flew off the roof and slid across Mandy’s front yard to smash up against her white picket fence. Little peaks of snow fell off the fence and right through me, making tiny lumps on the frozen lawn.
I couldn’t remember anything ever doing that before. I tended to think of my astral form as a pretty safe place for me to be. Sure, a god had stuffed a sword through me once when I’d been incorporeal, but we’d been traveling through time and space, too, so under those circumstances it seemed fair that I could be hit. I’d fought another god in a kind of dreamscape, but dreams were a little different. I didn’t remember anything ever flat-out belting my astral self while it was just standing around in the Middle World. But this thing had, and I didn’t like that at all.
It hadn’t come after me. I pushed onto my elbows and scowled at the roof, where its form was barely more than a glimmer against white snow and gray skies. It stood on two legs, but its shoulders were hunched forward, like it was devolving toward four legs. It hadn’t moved beyond hitting me.
A clear, unpleasant thought unfurled itself. Maybe it hadn’t come after Mandy. Maybe it had just used her to draw the more powerful agent to it, so it could get another look at me. Size me up, study me. Decide if I was a threat or a tasty morsel.
I figured lying on my back in the snow wasn’t at all threatening, and got to my feet. The thing watched. Warily, I thought. Hoped. I wanted to be scary enough to set it on edge. That would be a definite score for my side.
It had hit my astral form. That suggested maybe my astral form could hit it. All I had to do was get close enough, but I was pretty sure it wasn’t going to give me another chance to climb the drainpipe.
Which meant I had one chance to convince my recalcitrant brain that the laws of gravity and physics didn’t apply to a soul set loose to wander away from its body. I’d crossed great leaps and bounds effortlessly in other planes of reality. I could do it in this one, if I had to.
And I had to. The monster on the rooftop was still watching me, and I didn’t want its attention to land on anyone else. I muttered, “There is no spoon,” took three running steps, and jumped.
The creature vanished, I smashed into Mandy’s house, and warm fingers touched my face as Morrison said, “Walker,” drawing me back into my body.
———
I opened my eyes disoriented and confused. The world had tipped over sideways, and a puddle of slush had crept up to envelop my left cheek. Rather a lot of weight seemed to be pressing the slush into my jaw and shoulder, and enough blood rushed to my head to make my nose itch.
Morrison was perpendicular to me, feet planted in the same icy water that was crawling over my face, and his forehead was wrinkled with concern. “You fell over, Walker.”
That explained a lot. The pressure, for example, was my own body weight resting on my head and shoulder, which were at the foot of the stairs, while the rest of me was angled down them. It was profoundly uncomfortable, and I was beginning to fear it might be embarrassing, too. On the other hand, it distracted from the dull ache running from head to toe, which I suspected was the physical response to psychically smacking myself into Mandy’s house. I’d been so sure I could make it, too.
Morrison offered me a hand up, which proved to be more like putting his hands under my armpits and bodily hauling me to my feet. “You okay?”
“Yeah. Sorry, I thought I’d propped myself up well enough that I wouldn’t fall. I was…” I made a feeble gesture, which was apparently enough to remind Morrison he was holding me up. He let go and stepped back. I was kind of disappointed.
No, not disappointed. A little sad, maybe. I liked being close to my boss; he smelled good. But I’d blown it on that front, and was working on living with the consequences. “I was trying to follow the killer. Hang on a second, okay?”
Dismay and confusion spasmed across Morrison’s face, leaving his blue eyes darker than usual. The color he’d put in it at Halloween had grown out of his hair, leaving it short and silvering, the way I liked it, and the whole package made for a handsome man in need of some reassurance. Or at least explanation, if I couldn’t offer the other. The best I could do was step away and look up at the roof.
No monsters. There were tracks, cold trails through the air visible with the Sight, but my prey had run away. I whispered, “Maybe it decided I was tougher than it was,” without much hope, and glanced toward the ambulance.
Two paramedics were still checking Mandy over. A third stood with Jake at the vehicle’s tail end. They had her on an IV already, and I figured it wouldn’t be more than another minute before they brought her to the hospital. I wondered if they’d let me in to see her, and if I could be any help if they did, or if I’d be better off trying to track the thing that had attacked her. But I hadn’t spoiled the marks this time, so its trail wasn’t going to get any colder, and there was something I really had to do before trying to either follow it or help Mandy.
It took everything I had to look back at Morrison and say, “This is my fault, boss.”
Every shred of warmth fled the captain’s face, turning him back into the nemesis he’d been for years. A short jerk of his chin said “Keep talking.”
I did, through knots of anger and guilt. “She volunteered,” wasn’t much of an excuse, and I knew it as I told him what Mandy Tiller and I had done that morning. “I never imagined it might come after her once we were off the mountain. I should have,” I said before he could. “I should have, and I didn’t. I completely fucked up. I’m sorry.” Sorry didn’t begin to cover it, but language was badly suited to expressing handshaking chills of misery and a hollow feeling burning my eyes in a single word. “Sorry,” inadequate as it was, had to do the job.
“You got a civilian involved in a dangerous case that the media is all over, and now she’s hospitalized and you’re sorry?“
“This one’s on me, Captain.” Billy put himself between me and Morrison. “I asked Mandy to give us a hand.”
“Why?” Morrison erupted like a bull seal, and Billy, who was bigger than either of us, somehow seemed to absorb the captain’s rage and expand a little with it. “There are dozens of officers who could have—”
“Two reasons, sir,” Billy said very steadily. “One is that Walker’s original plan was to use herself as bait—”
“Which she would have needed permission for!”
“Not,” I mumbled, “if I did it off duty. Which I did.” I was sure I wasn’t actually helping the situation, but sometimes I talked when I knew I should shut up. It was a character flaw.
“And the other,” Billy went on as though neither of us had spoken, “is that this is getting worse fast, sir, and even under the best of circumstances, going through the department on this would have added another twenty-four hours to the search. Getting permission from you, possibly having to wait for a green light from your superiors, getting volunteers, getting equipment…this was faster.”
“That wasn’t your decision to make!”
“No, sir, it wasn’t, and I regret my error in judgment.” Billy, stiffly, reached into his coat, withdrew his badge and gun, and offered them to Morrison.
Who stared at them, then at Billy and me, and then said, “Shit,” more violently than I’d ever heard him speak before.
All three of us knew he had to take them. Involving civilians in police business, even surreal police business like the stuff Billy and I handled, was bad enough. Getting a civilian hospitalized, maybe killed, was at the very least a suspension offense, and would likely have both of us up on charges. I fumbled for my own badge and gun, because I couldn’t let Billy take the fall for me even if he was technically right. I was still the one who’d gotten Mandy Tiller hurt.
Morrison saw what I was doing and made a very sharp, short gesture and pitched his voice bone-scrapingly low: “You have until the nine o’clock news to find a way to make this right. If I get called before then, if I have to make a statement, I’ll do it with your badges in my hand. Do I make myself clear?”
My knees went weak and I nodded feebly. “At least Corvallis is at dinner with Ray right now, so she’s probably not going to be breathing down our necks for a couple hours.”
Despite his fury, Morrison got an expression very much like the one I’d had when Ray had announced his date for the evening. He eventually said, “Ray Campbell?“ like the department might have sprouted another Ray recently that he didn’t know about.
I nodded, and Billy whistled. “Takes all kinds, I guess.” He put his badge and gun away very carefully, offering a quiet, “Thanks, Captain.”
“Don’t thank me. If we get away with this I’m stringing you both up by your toes. If we don’t, I’m crucifying you.”
I’d been skewered more times than I cared to think about, which gave me an uncomfortably visceral idea of what crucifixion might feel like. I looked over Morrison’s shoulder, not wanting to read any truth in his eyes. The ambulance crawled out of the Tillers’ driveway and stopped a few yards down the street, blocked by a black-haired man standing in its path. The driver leaned on the horn, then rolled down the window to shout at the man, who smiled apologetically and shrugged, but didn’t move.
A tiny smile of my own was born somewhere around the fine muscles of my eyes, not even getting close to my mouth as it spilled golden happiness, rich and sweet as warm honey, all the way through me. It neutralized the worry bubbling in my belly and revitalized the tiny shred of hope I’d felt at seeing Mandy was alive. I thought my heart was likely to burst, and my chest filled with breathless giggles that I didn’t dare let out. Even my hands felt wrong, but in a good way, as they alternated between thrums of thick aching heat and icy coldness with every pulse-beat. For the first time in six months, in a year, maybe for the first time in my whole life, the overwhelming confidence that everything was going to be all right filled me.
The ambulance driver swung his door open, angry words a wash of meaningless noise to my ears. The self-imposed obstruction raised his hands placatingly, then shot me a direct look, one eyebrow elevated in amusement. My itty-bitty smile crinkled my eyes enough to turn my vision all blurry with tears, and finally made it to my mouth. I couldn’t breathe, not at all, but I felt so light I thought I might be able to fly.
“Walker, crucifixion isn’t a threat that should make you smile.” Morrison sounded justifiably annoyed, like I’d taken the wind out of his melodramatic sails. I wanted to promise that I had no doubt at all he meant he’d crucify us, professionally if not physically, but the little smile he was complaining about blossomed into this huge, foolish, jubilant thing that I laid on him like a blessing.
Then I was running just like an ingenue in a bad movie. Running across a snow-covered yard, vaulting the Tillers’ low fence, and sliding across the slush-slick asphalt street to crash, joyfully, impossibly, wonderfully, into Coyote’s arms.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
Coyote caught me with a grunt that sounded like a laugh and squeezed hard enough to take my breath as he swung me around and around in a slushy circle. I squeaked and buried my nose in his neck, and he didn’t let me hang on nearly long enough before he set me back, hands on my shoulders.
His smile was the most
beautiful thing I’d ever seen, bright and gentle in a face that wasn’t nearly as red-brick colored as he was in my dreams. Nor were his eyes golden, but the rest was as I remembered: straight nose, high cheekbones, hip-length black hair. He was a little shorter than me and smelled like the outdoors, and he wiped happy tears away from my cheeks. “We don’t have a lot of time. How is she?”
I didn’t care about the tears, didn’t care that they tickled the creases around my mouth where my face was already getting tired from such a big smile, and somehow didn’t care that I had a hundred thousand questions that were all going to have to wait. “She’s all right physically. Banged up. But her aura, Coyote, it’s gone. Like nobody’s home.”
He nodded, and though his joy didn’t dissipate, the smile became something more serious. Something trustworthy and confident, something that I suddenly wished I could command myself. He took my hand and said, both apologetically and in a tone that brooked no nonsense, “We need to see your patient. Go ahead and drive us to the hospital, if you want, but I hope it won’t be necessary,” to the incensed ambulance driver.
We let ourselves in while the guy spluttered.
Both paramedics in the back gave guttural sounds of protest that faded into uncertainty when Coyote said, “It’s all right. We’re healers. Excuse us, please.”
They both moved, and neither of them looked like they had the foggiest idea why. I didn’t either, but I wished to hell I could do that. Jake Tiller, his face tear-stained, stared between us like we were aliens, and Coyote gripped the boy’s shoulder a moment. “My name’s Cyrano. This is my friend Joanne. You’re…?”
