by Giles Blunt
"Think so? I don't see Rick racking up points for good behavior."
"He could be out any day now. But the point is, when he gets out, he's going to want his money. I mean, look at it from his point of view. Here he is doing fifteen years for a few kilos and five hundred grand. He loses the fifteen, the kilos, and the five hundred grand. He doesn't even mind that."
"Yeah, I heard that about Bouchard. Very even-tempered."
"Really, it's not about that. You were just doing your job. But here's the thing. The thing is, Rick had seven hundred thousand, not five. Seven. So all's he wants back is the two hundred thousand. That's pretty reasonable. The way Rick sees it, taking that money wasn't part of your job."
"Rick says, Rick thinks. That's what I admire about you, Kiki. Your independent spirit. You always go your own way. Real maverick."
The one good eye, red-rimmed, regarded him- sadly? It was difficult to tell, one eye being harder to read than two. Kiki rubbed his nose with the letter F and sniffed. "You told me a good story. Now I gotta tell you one."
"Is it about how you lost your eye?"
"No. It's about this guy. There was this guy in my block. Not Rick's block, my block, you understand? They had to move him out of Rick's block 'cause- well, I guess you could say 'cause he was an independent spirit. Real maverick.
"Anyways. He moves into my block. And I guess he figures he's home free because he like immediately starts trying to run with the big boys. Which you don't do. You work your way up. See, he could've come to me, asked my advice how to patch things up with Rick. I could've helped. There wasn't that much money involved. Not like you. But, he was like you say, an independent spirit, a real maverick, so he didn't come to me. And instead of ending up friends with Rick, instead of doing his time safe and sound, guess where he ended up?"
"I don't know, Kiki. Banff?"
"Banff? Where'd you get Banff?"
"Sorry. Just tell me. Where'd he end up?"
"I guess his own conscience got to him after a while. Because he went to bed one night and spontaneously combusted." The red-rimmed eye looked Cardinal up and down. It was like being examined by an oyster. "I'm telling you, I never heard screams like that. There's a lot of metal in prison, you know? Acoustics are not designed for comfort. But even so. It frightened me, him screaming like that. And the smell of a human being on fire, well, it's not very nice. Total mystery, too. Like your Virgin. A miracle, maybe. Guy just spontaneously combusting like that. They never did figure out how it happened."
Cardinal glanced up at the Virgin and, without thinking, said a little prayer. Help me do the right thing.
"So. You're just going to sit there, you're not going to say anything? What's the matter? You didn't like my story?"
"No, no, it's not that." Cardinal leaned toward the flat round face, the one stewed eye. "It's just kind of weird for me, Kiki. I've never talked to an actual cyclops before."
"Huh." Kiki shifted his weight, the pew creaking under him. Cardinal left him contemplating his knuckles. First fuck, then you. He was back at the baptismal font, when Kiki called after him, "That's funny, Cardinal. I'm going to be laughing at that for a long time. Couple of years from now? There you'll be: dead and all. And there I'll be: laughing. You're such an independent spirit."
Cardinal pushed open the massive oak door, squinting in the watery winter light.
48
DELORME placed a Baggie on top of the computer; something metallic gleamed dully through the plastic.
Cardinal glanced at it. "What's that?"
"Katie Pine's bracelet. It came with her clothing from Forensic. Negative for prints except hers. You going to join us in the Museum, or what?" The Museum of Unsolved Crime was Delorme's personal term for the boardroom, which was now fully taken over by their case materials. The bracelet would join the audiotape, the fingerprint, the hair and fiber, the Ballistics and Forensic reports- the growing catalog of leads that led nowhere.
"Give me a few minutes," Cardinal said. "I have to finish this, now."
"I thought you did all your sups at night."
"It's not a sup."
Delorme could see his computer screen from where she stood, but Cardinal was pretty sure she couldn't read it. If that was a flicker of suspicion in her eyes, fine, let her wonder. Delorme reluctantly left, and he read the last part of what he had written. I've come to realize that, because of my past, my continuing presence on the Pine-Curry case could jeopardize the outcome of any trial. I must therefore…
I must therefore get the hell out of this and all my other cases, because evidence from an admitted thief is not going to carry a lot of weight. I am the weak link in the chain; the sooner I get out, the better. For the hundredth time that day he wondered how he would tell Catherine, pictured for the hundredth time how her face would crumple in grief, not for herself, but for him.
He had outlined the facts of his guilt for the record: It had happened his last year on the Toronto force. They had raided a dealer's house, Rick Bouchard's distribution center for northern Ontario, and while the others on the squad had been reading rights to the likes of Kiki B. and Bouchard himself, Cardinal had found the cash in a hidden compartment of a bedroom closet. To his everlasting shame he had walked off with nearly two hundred grand; the other five hundred was used as evidence in court. The suspects, he added, had been convicted on all charges.
In my defense, I can only plead… But Cardinal had no defense, not in his own mind. He picked up the Baggie from the top of the computer. There is no defense, he said to himself, moving the little charms between thumb and forefinger like prayer beads: a miniature trumpet, a harp, a bass fiddle.
In my defense, I can only plead that my wife's illness had upset me so much that… No. He would not hide behind the sorrows of the person he had most wronged. He deleted the sentence and typed instead, I have no excuse.
Jesus Christ, he said to himself. Not a single extenuating circumstance? Nothing to soften the image of himself as a uniformed thug? None of the money was for myself, he typed and quickly deleted.
It had happened during Catherine's first hospitalization; Cardinal was still a junior detective on the Toronto Narcotics Squad and had been living the nightmare of watching his wife transformed by mental illness into a person he didn't recognize: dull, lifeless, depressed to the point of speechlessness. It had terrified him. Terrified him, because he knew he was not strong enough to live with this debilitated zombie who had taken the place of the bright, chipper woman he loved. Terrified him because he knew nothing at that time of mental illness, let alone the complexities of raising a ten-year-old girl by himself.
Through the Baggie, his fingers traced the form of a tiny guitar.
Catherine had spent two months in the Clarke Institute. Two months with people who were so confused they couldn't write their own names. Two months while the doctors tried various combinations of drugs that seemed only to make things worse. Two months during which she recognized her husband only intermittently. After a torment of inner debate, Cardinal took Kelly to see her mother, which was a mistake for all concerned. Catherine could not bear even to look at her daughter, and it took the little girl a long time to get over it.
Then Catherine's parents had come up from Minnesota to visit and had been horrified by the doleful, panda-eyed creature that had shuffled through the hospital corridor toward them. Although they were never less than polite to him, Cardinal could feel their stares boring into his back: Somehow he had caused her breakdown. They began to talk up American health care ("Finest in the world. Cutting edge. Brilliant psychiatrists. Who do you think writes all the books?"), and the message was plain. If Cardinal truly cared about their daughter, he would seek treatment for Catherine south of the border.
Cardinal had given in. What galled him even now, fifteen years later, was that he knew that treatment in the States would be no better. He knew they would have the same drugs, the same enthusiasm for shock treatment, the same lack of success. And yet h
e had caved in. He couldn't bear to have Catherine's parents think he was not doing his best for her. ("Don't worry. We know the fees can be pretty steep. We'll contribute.") But they could not contribute much, and the bills at the Tamarind Clinic in Chicago quickly mounted into the thousands, and over the months, into the tens of thousands.
In a matter of weeks, Cardinal had known he could never pay the bills; he and Catherine would never own a house, never get out of debt. And so, when the opportunity presented itself, Cardinal had taken the money. It had paid off the bills, with almost enough left over for Kelly's very expensive education. The trouble was, he found when he crossed that ethical line, he had left his true self stranded on the other side.
I have no excuse, he wrote. Every penny of that money was for my benefit, to keep up appearances in my in-laws' eyes, to buy the love and respect of the daughter I spoil. For now, the most important thing is that Pine-Curry be pursued without the risk of the department's credibility being destroyed.
He wrote that he was sorry, tried to improve on that statement and found he couldn't. He printed the letter out, read it over, and signed it. He addressed the envelope to Chief Kendall, marked it Personal, and dropped it in the interdepartmental mail.
He had planned to join Delorme in the boardroom, but, suddenly exhausted, he sank back down in his chair with a deep sigh. Katie Pine's bracelet glittered dully in its plastic cocoon. Katie Pine, Katie Pine- how he would love to get some measure of justice for her before he left the department. The tiny gold instruments seemed out of character for her- or at least for the idea he had of her- of Katie the little math whiz. The tiny gold bass fiddle, trombone, snare drum, and guitar- they would be more in character with Keith London. Miss Steen had said he had a guitar with him. And Billy LaBelle had taken lessons at Troy Music Center, which Cardinal might not have recalled but for the fact that Troy Music Center was the last place Billy LaBelle had been seen alive.
"And what about Todd Curry?" Cardinal said it aloud, though he hadn't meant to.
"Are you talking to me?" Szelagy's head appeared over the top of another computer, but Cardinal didn't answer. He pulled the file across the desk; it was woefully thin.
"Billy LaBelle, Keith London, and Katie Pine were all into music. What about Todd Curry?"
He recalled vividly the boy's suburban room in his suburban house, his devastated father hanging back in the doorway. He recalled the games in the closet, the map on top of his desk- but music? What sign had there been of music? Yes, there it was in the sup on the interview with the parents: Todd Curry had belonged to music newsgroups on-line. Alt.hardrock and Alt.rapforum. That's right, he had thought it strange that a white kid was so into rap music.
Then something else fell out of the file, a scrawled note that made Cardinal's heart begin to pound. Someone, he couldn't be sure who, had taken a call from the teacher, Jack Fehrenbach, who was reporting a stolen credit card. "Szelagy, is this your handwriting?" Cardinal waved the note at him. "You take a call from Jack Fehrenbach?"
Szelagy looked at the note. "Yeah. I told you about it, remember?"
"Jesus Christ, Szelagy. Don't you realize how important this is?"
"I did tell you about it. I don't know what else you want me to…"
But Cardinal wasn't listening; he was staring at the note in his hand. An unusual charge on Fehrenbach's statement had alerted him. On December 21, the night after Todd Curry had visited him, someone had charged two hundred and fifty dollars at Troy Music Center, apparently for an elaborate turntable.
Cardinal ran down the hall to the boardroom where Delorme was on the phone, scribbling notes onto a yellow legal pad.
"It's music." Cardinal snapped his fingers at her. "Todd Curry was into rap music, remember? Wanted to be a DJ, Fehrenbach said."
"What's going on, Cardinal? You have a funny look on your face."
Cardinal held up the Baggie in which Katie Pine's bracelet floated like an embryo. "This little item is going to break our case."
49
"MCLEOD, where's your sup on the Troy Music Center? Didn't you interview them when you were working LaBelle?"
"Why you asking? It's in the file somewheres."
"It's not in the file. I'm looking at the file. You remember who works there?"
"Two guys. Alan Troy- he's the main guy- and some other guy, some guitar geek been there forever. He's the one taught Billy LaBelle."
"You remember his name?"
"Fuck, no."
"McLeod, we're trying to nail a killer here."
"I wasn't. I was just tracing Billy LaBelle's steps, for Christ's sake. We weren't working a homicide back then. We were working a routine missing kid, so don't come on like I'm Mr. Dereliction-of-Duty, all right? I think our late lamented leader Detective Sergeant Dickhead Dyson takes that title. Carl Sutherland, that's the guy's name. Carl Sutherland."
"You have a middle initial?"
"F for Fucking. Try the file, Cardinal." McLeod left the boardroom, muttering to himself.
Cardinal wasted another ten minutes riffling through folders from the previous fall. "Delorme, why don't you feed Troy's ID into the computer and see what it spits out."
"I did. We're waiting."
McLeod came back in. "Carl A. Sutherland," he said, shoving a report into Cardinal's hand. "Some asshole stuck it in the Corriveau file by mistake. If people would stop second-guessing my work for a change- and maybe stop fucking with my stuff for five minutes- maybe I could get some work done around here."
Delorme took the report over to the computer and typed the information into it. She tore a sheet from the printer. "Negative on Alan Troy. No record in local or national."
Cardinal was reading McLeod's report on his interview at the music store four months previously; it was one page, single-spaced. The first paragraph stated the positions of the two men- Troy the owner, and Sutherland the assistant manager- and how long they'd been working there. Troy had been running the place, at various locations in the city, for the past twenty-five years. Sutherland had been with him for ten, joining just before the store moved into the mall.
The second paragraph discussed Billy LaBelle. Both men knew him and were concerned (where concerned, McLeod had written) about the boy's disappearance. Sutherland was the one who actually taught him guitar. The boy had come in for his usual Wednesday evening lesson and left without incident. The next night, Billy LaBelle disappeared from the Algonquin Mall parking lot.
Cardinal stared out the boardroom window at the filthy meringue of slush in the parking lot. The snowbanks looked like slag heaps, and black puddles glittered in the sunlight. What about Katie Pine? Troy and Sutherland hadn't been asked about Katie Pine; the cases hadn't been connected then.
Delorme stepped in front of him with a sheet of computer paper. "I don't know about you, but Carl Sutherland just jumped to number one on my hit parade."
Cardinal took the printout from her. Carl Sutherland had been arrested in Toronto two years previously for public indecency.
Seeing this, Cardinal suddenly felt that he was moving through the slow, inevitable motions of a dream. Seeing this, he knew, even though no one had told him and he could not prove it, he knew that Katie Pine had been in the Troy Music Center and had met Carl Sutherland. Then the ground had opened.
Reading his thoughts, Delorme said, "We have to close the circle. We have to put her in Troy Music."
Still moving in the dream, Cardinal reached for the phone. Delorme watched him as if she, too, were caught in the dream, biting her lip.
"Mrs. Pine, it's John Cardinal." He had always hoped his next conversation with Dorothy Pine would be to tell her that her daughter's murderer was in jail. "You remember telling me Katie wanted to be in the school band?"
The dull affectless voice was barely audible. "Yeah. Don't know why she wanted to so bad."
Then Dorothy Pine went so silent, Cardinal thought the line had gone dead. "Are you still there?"
"Yeah."
&nbs
p; "Mrs. Pine, did Katie ever take any music lessons of any kind?"
"No." She'd already told him this. She'd told McLeod, too; but Dorothy Pine was not the type to complain.
"Never took piano or guitar? No lessons at all?"
"No."
"But she wanted to be in the band, you said. She had a picture of the school band on her closet door even though she wasn't a member."
"Right."
"Mrs. Pine, I don't understand how Katie got so excited about music if she hadn't studied it. She was obsessed with the band, and she had a charm bracelet with musical instruments on it."
"I know. Found it at some music store somewheres."
There it was, the dream was in control again. It was dreaming Cardinal, and Mrs. Pine, and it was dreaming the words she was about to say. He could feel them traveling down the telephone line before he even asked the question. "Which music store did she get it from, Mrs. Pine? Can you remember the name? It's very important."
"No."
The words would come. Dorothy Pine would say them. She was going to tell him the name of the store, and it would be Troy Music Center, and they would have their man. Cardinal could feel a breeze from the phone, like the wind that arrives before the train pulls into the station.
"I don't know the name," Dorothy Pine said. "The store out in the mall there."
"Which mall, Mrs. Pine?"
"It was the only place she could get the charms for it. She'd go back every month or so and buy a new charm. She got a tuba last time, just like two days before she went away. Before she, uh…"
"Which mall, Mrs. Pine?" Tell me, now, he thought. You're going to say the words. The same dream that's pulling me and Delorme is pulling you, too, and it's pulling the words from your throat. He wanted to scream Which mall, Mrs. Pine? Which mall?
"Was the big one out on Lakeshore there. The one with the Kmart and the Pharma-City."
