by Dalia Wright
CHAPTER SEVEN:
“Duke, I know you’re in there, please open the door.”
She knocked some more and called out through the front door. Nothing but silence greeted her. Frustrated, she knocked again,
“I’m not going anywhere, Duke, I’m going to park myself outside your door until you come out. You can’t skip out on me, not if you ever want your life to go back to normal. And I have zero problems discussing all your issues and everything in your file out here in the hallway, through the door. If that’s what you want.”
A minute later, the door swung open. Kara was shocked at the change in Duke in just two weeks. His face was unshaven, his eyes bloodshot, he was dressed in boxers and a ratty t-shirt and smelled strongly like alcohol.
“That was dirty. Anyone ever tell you you’re irritatingly stubborn?”
“All the time.” She stated and stepped past him and into his condo.
The place was drenched in darkness. The blinds pulled shut, the windows closed, take out boxes with half eaten meals littered the dining table and empty of bottles of alcohol were peppered throughout. The whole place felt stifling.
“What do you want Doc?”
“I’m here to find out why you haven’t shown up to your last two sessions.”
“Because I don’t need help. I don’t need shrink talk.”
“You might not believe in it, but I promise you I can help you if you’ll only give me a chance.”
A slow grin spread across his face and even in his less than perfect state, Kara couldn’t help but find him handsome.
“I told you Doc, you can help me any time at all…in fact I have some time right now…if you wanted to help me out.”
“Be serious, Duke.” Kara snapped. She walked over to the living room windows and pulled the blinds open, bright sunlight spilled into the room. She opened the windows as far as she could, hoping to get rid of the stuffy odour suffusing the place. She did the same in the kitchen and the bedroom. It was a loft-style condo so everything was spread out in the open.
“What do you think you’re doing?”
Kara turned to look at him. “Trying to help you. This isn’t healthy, you binge drinking and shutting yourself away from the world. You don’t need to talk to me if you don’t want to, but you can’t keep doing this either. You know where this ends.”
She paused, wondering if she should continue and how far she could push, but Duke didn’t say anything and he seemed to be listening so she plunged ahead.
“I’ve read your file, Duke. You’ve had a great career and have a brilliant future in the army. You’ve seen what alcohol and addiction can do to military men. You think you have control but deep down you know you don’t. Are you ready to give up everything you’ve worked so hard for you only so that you can live on streets drunk out of your mind? Or worse?”
“I’m not going to end up homeless,” he growled. “I’m not a drunk, I’m dealing with things my way.”
“And how many times have you heard that from your colleagues? And how did it go for them?”
Duke didn’t respond and started stacking up the take out boxes instead.
“I know Jake’s death was hard on you, but punishing yourself isn’t going to bring him back.”
Jake’s name triggered an unexpected reaction from him, he whirled around and shouted, “YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT! Get out, get out of my house, I don’t need you here.”
But Kara stood rooted on the spot. Now that she was here, now that she had started this, she was going to leave only when she was done speaking her mind.
“No,” she agreed calmly. “I don’t know what I’m talking about because I don’t know what you’re going through. But what I do know is that if you keep going down this path, you’ll be dead before long, too, and I don’t think he would have wanted that. At least, not if you guys were as close as I believe you were. I cleared my schedule for tomorrow and I hope you’ll come by, showered, shaved and clean.”
“I’m not coming. You don’t know anything about me.”
“No, I don’t but I would like to. I don’t want to see a great life wasted.”
Feeling she had overstayed her welcome and said as much as she needed to, Kara left the condo, hoping she wasn’t seeing him for the last time.
The next day she waited all day for him to come, in the early afternoon, she finally decided he wasn’t going to show up when, to her shock and surprise, Tamra buzzed her phone to let her know Duke was waiting to see her.
“Send him right in, Tamra. Thank you.”
CHAPTER EIGHT:
As much as Duke didn’t like to admit it, Kara showing up at his place had been somewhat of a wake-up call. Hearing the blunt words come out of her mouth had made him realize he wasn’t ready to give up his career just yet. And even though he didn’t think speaking to a shrink was going to help him emotionally, he also didn’t want to be discharged. If he didn’t have the military, he had nothing. So after spending hours debating the pros and cons he did as Kara told him. He cleaned himself up and showed up at the VA clinic, wondering if she was still waiting for him or if that had all been a load of crock.
It soon became clear the Doc wasn’t one to bullshit, she had apparently cleared out her day and was waiting for him to show up because Tamra ushered him right inside within moments. If she was surprised or relieved to see, she didn’t betray either of those emotions. Instead, she greeted him warmly and asked him to come inside.
“How are you doing today?”
“Fine.”
Sitting on the couch, facing Kara, Duke suddenly felt ridiculous and regretted his decision to come. He got to his feet and ran a hand through his hair.
“Listen, this was a mistake.”
Kara got to her feet too,
“Look you’re here now, let’s just give this a chance, okay? People do therapy for a reason; counselling is offered for a reason. It helps people overcome problems, it helps them heal.”
“Okay, Doc.” Duke nodded. “We’ll do it your way.”
He settled back on the sofa and crossed his arms behind his neck and stretched his muscular legs in front of her. He looked down at his crotch briefly and said, “I’m all yours. Let the healing begin, Doc.”
“Why don’t you talk about your last tour in Afghanistan first?”
“It was hot and the girls aren’t as available.”
“Duke, if you’re not serious about this, I can’t help you.”
“I am being serious!” he protested. “Have you ever been there? It’s fucking boiling in there and the women, if you ever happen to glimpse one are covered from head to toe in black. Hard to feel aroused or get any action.”
“Did Jake find it hot too?”
Duke shrugged, “I’m sure he did.”
“Did you two always go on tour together?”
“Is there anything else we can talk about? You keep bringing up Jake, but I’m going to talk about him.”
“Okay,” Kara nodded, “we can talk about something else, tell me why you were drinking so heavily.”
“Because I felt frustrated.”
Duke could tell from the look on Kara’s face she felt like she was finally starting to make progress. It was too bad she was so mistaken.
“And what are you frustrated about?”
“About my blue balls of course! I’ve been suffering from severe blue balls since you left me hanging that night at the bar. So hell yeah, I’m frustrated because I just want to screw you and you know what you can do to help me through it.”
He knew he had gone too far because she got to her feet, clearly at end of her patience with him.
“If you’re not going to take this seriously, for even one session, for YOUR OWN good, then you better leave.”
“And what about us and what we started?”
She threw up her hands in the air and shook her head.
‘There is nothing between us, I’m your doctor and you’re my patient. I’m
here to help you get back on your feet so you can resume a normal life but I can’t do that if you refuse to help yourself.”
“Yeah, whatever.” Duke said, “Thanks a lot for the session Doc and my offer still stands by the way. You know where I live now, drop in anytime.”
He winked at her, leaving her staring after him, looking outraged. But Duke could tell her by the flush on her cheeks what her real feelings were. She was horny as hell.
By the time he got home, he was starting to feel pretty shitty about how he had treated the session. He knew Kara was just trying to help him but he couldn’t allow himself to open up about the incident. That was a box best left closed. He decided when he got home he would call Kara, apologize to her and maybe even ask her out; just because they weren’t getting along as doctor and patient didn’t mean they couldn’t hook up, right?
But when he got to his front door, Kara and sex were the last two things on his mind, because patiently waiting by his front door, with a box at her feet stood Jenna.
CHAPTER NINE:
While Duke dealt with the ghosts of a boxful of memories, Kara was lying awake in bed suffering from a sleepless night. Her mind consumed with thoughts about Duke. Both personal and professional.
Personally, she felt disturbed sexually just thinking about him. And there was nothing she could do about it, short of taking him up on his offer and jumping his bones and getting him out of her system. But she knew it would be unethical and she couldn’t risk her reputation or career because of hormones, no matter how much she may want to. She regretted not sleeping with him the night they met at the bar, because then maybe she wouldn’t be feeling so sexually aroused whenever he was around her or whenever she thought about him. But it was too late for that.
Professionally, Duke’s case was bothering her because she felt she had failed as a doctor. She was ashamed of her behavior from earlier that day during their session. She had done what she promised herself never to do, lost patience with a patient and kicked him out. In the few interactions she had with Duke, she had gleaned enough to know the tough guy attitude he was pulling in front of her was masking deep pain. It was a front he was putting up so he wouldn’t have to face the truth of whatever problem he was grappling with. The fact that he had come to the office was encouraging and Kara felt certain it wasn’t too late to help him. But clearly therapy and psychobabble as he would put it, wasn’t the way to go. In order to get through to him, she knew she had to figure out what made him tick. Tomorrow, I’ll see if I can meet his Captain for a quick chat, she told herself. Who else would know him better than the man he’s been reporting to for so many years?
Bright and early the following day, she called Captain Lyndon’s office and made arrangements to stop by later that afternoon. The Captain was an imposing man in his early fifties who carried a no-nonsense, hardened air about him. But his smile was friendly and his handshake was warm.
As Kara sat across from his desk, she decided the best thing would be to get directly to the problem at hand. So she explained how she had met with Duke a couple of times now but that he seemed reluctant to speak about anything relevant.
“He’s not keen on therapy of any sorts, that much he made clear but at the same time I feel like if I could just find a way to connect with him he may open up. I read the reports and the insinuations that he may have orchestrated the ambush are also worrisome,” she concluded.
The Captain nodded and she could tell this was all familiar to him. He was a man who obviously knew Duke very well. After a brief moment of silence in which he seemed to be going through an internal debate, he put the tips of his fingers together and said,
“I’m going to share something with you, which I expect you to keep to yourself for now. Between you and I, I think the insinuations against Duke are a load of crock and bull. He doesn’t have a disloyal bone in his body.”
“So you think the report is wrong? What about what the other soldier said to his doctor before he died?”
“I’m not saying it’s wrong entirely, I’m convinced something more went down that night then what he’s telling us, but I’m willing to bet my life Duke had nothing to do with it. I’ve known him since he was a kid and he’s proven time and again that his country and his men come first for him. There’s more to this story and unfortunately he’s refusing to share it. I’m hoping you’ll be able to get it out of him. I knew your father, you know…and I know you haven’t been practicing very long but you’re building a nice reputation. I thought you may be best person for him.”
Kara was surprised and touched at the sentiment. She had no idea Captain Lyndon even knew she existed, much less held her in such a high regard! It made her feel worse about her unprofessional behaviour. She cringed at the thought of him finding out she had kicked Duke out of her office during a session.
“Thank you Sir, that means a lot to me,” she said sincerely.
“You can thank me by cracking that tough shell of Duke’s. He’s always been modest and not the greatest talker. He never likes talking about his achievements and ditto about feelings and emotions.”
“Yes, I’m starting to see that.” Kara replied dryly. It did warm her heart to hear the Captain speak so fondly of Duke. It was clear he had a soft spot for him and Kara was relieved he didn’t seem to think Duke was some kind of murderous nut job. She got to her feet and thanked the Captain for taking the time to meet with her.
“Least I can do. I’m looking forward to having him back on his feet. I’m afraid I haven’t been very useful but I have faith in you,” he said.
“You’ve actually been a great help and I think I have a better idea on how to approach him now.”
Thanking him again, Kara left the Captain’s office determined to get to the bottom of Duke’s mystery. As she walked to her car, a plan was already formulating in her head. If she couldn’t get through to him as a therapist, she would penetrate his hard shell using the one thing about her he seemed unable to resist, her sex appeal. Besides, she justified to herself, he did leave me with an open door invitation.
CHAPTER TEN:
“Jenna!” Duke tried to make his voice friendly and warm, but it came out sounding overly forced and strained. “What a nice surprise.”
“Cut the crap Duke,” she said coldly. “We both know I’m the last person you want to see.”
“That’s not true,” he protested.
“It is, we’ve known each other for way too long for silly games and lies. You’ve been avoiding me ever since Jake’s funeral and I want to know why.”
A door opened down the hall, one of Duke’s neighbour’s stepped out of his condo, on his way out. He saw Duke and Jenna and waved hello. Duke waved back and ushered Jenna into his condo. The last thing he wanted was a public showdown witnessed by his floor. Jenna came in and walked a few feet inside, but refused to go any further, politely declining Duke’s offer of a drink.
“I didn’t come here on a casual visit Duke. I want to know why you’ve been acting so strangely. Ignoring my calls, running away from us that day at the gas station.”
Duke shifted away his eyes in embarrassment, ashamed of being caught out like this.
“Oh yes,” she added seeing his shifting eyes, “I saw you that day. Luka saw you that day and he couldn’t understand why his favourite uncle wanted nothing to do with him. Real nice, Duke.”
With every word she spat out, Duke felt smaller and smaller. He had always loved Jenna like a little sister and vice versa from the moment Jake had first introduced her into their lives, and now in her greatest moment of need he had turned his back on her. But knowing what he knew, how could face her?
“I’m sorry., he said humbly, “There’s no excuse. Jake’s death has been hard and I guess I don’t really know how to deal with it.”
“And you think it’s been what, a walk in the park for me? His wife?! His children? His parents? We’re all suffering, Duke, every one of us. And you should have been there. We all wanted to be t
here for you, too. Anyways, I’m not really here looking to hear bullshit excuses.” She gestured towards the box by the door she had carried inside with her.
“I came by to give this to you. It’s some stuff I thought you might like to have from when you guys were growing up and from the army…I would have given it to you earlier, convinced I was going to be seeing you weekly if not more. But,” Jenna shrugged her slim shoulders, “whatever.”
“How are the kids?” Duke asked slowly, scared that Jenna would bite his head off. But he needed to know. Seeing Jenna, he acknowledged to himself for the first time how much he missed them all.
Jenna’s features softened a tad and her eyes got misty,
“Luka cries for his dad every night, but thankfully Emma is too young to really understand anything. I’m sure with time Luka will start to heal as well.”
“And you? Do you need anything? Are you okay financially?”
The moment he showed concern towards her, her guard came back up and she tilted her head stiffly at him.
“You don’t have to worry about any of that. Jake made sure we would be well taken care off. Goodbye, Duke.”
And with that she was out, slamming the door shut behind her. Duke sank into the nearest chair feeling like the biggest dick in the world. No matter what had happened between them, he knew Jake would have wanted him to look out for his family, be there for his wife and kids and he had let him down.
Again.
He wondered if he could ever make amends or fix this.
Less than three minutes later, a firm knock sounded on the door and he rushed to his feet, relieved that Jenna had come back. He opened the door, words of apology tumbling out of his mouth, but it wasn’t Jenna at the door. It was Kara. With her long hair flowing in curling waves around her shoulders, dressed casually in jeans and a t-shirt, she looked hot and utterly delicious. He groaned silently in frustration, his body already responding to her curves, but she was another person he owed an apology too. Might as well get it over with.
“Kara. Look, I owe you an apology for the way I handled our last session.”
