I know she had to have been hurt when I didn’t call this morning. I felt like an asshole but I didn’t know what to say. Happy birthday didn’t seem good enough and I sure as shit couldn’t say what I really wanted to…Happy birthday, Jess. I think I might be falling for you and you’re finally eighteen and legal and the only thing I can think about is kissing your lips and holding you close and stripping your sexy little body and…
My wandering thoughts were interrupted when she stepped out of the bathroom. If I had been unsure of my feelings before I was damn sure of them now…she completely stole my breath.
She stood at the bathroom door wearing my tee shirt and waited for just a moment before shutting off the light. I felt all the blood rushing to my dick and I sat up out of instinct. The light was shining just right on her and it made her look like she was glowing. Her soft brown hair looked almost golden and her skin looked so creamy and beautiful. She was a goddess.
When her eyes found mine, heat seared through my chest and spread all through me and suddenly my entire body was awake. How in the hell had I been around her almost every day for thirteen years and not noticed how fucking breathtaking she was?
She flicked off the light and padded across the carpet slowly. She seemed nervous as she slid under the blankets and took her place beside me. As I turned off the lamp that was on the table at my bedside, I lie down and turned on my side to face her.
“So, did you really have fun tonight?” I asked, trying my hardest not to touch her. She was so close and she smelled like heaven…
She smiled sweetly at me.
“I had the most amazing night. I still can’t believe I got to see Demon’s Wings so close. It almost doesn’t feel real.”
“They rocked that fucking stage for sure,” I said.
“Yeah, especially Jesse Thornton. He’s so amazing on those drums.”
“Hey now, I thought I was your favorite drummer,” I laughed, taking her pillow and lightly hitting her with it.
She took her pillow back and stuck her tongue out at me as she tucked it under her head.
With her voice barely above a whisper, she sighed and said, “Kris, you know you will always be my favorite.”
I know I told Jessie that the kiss was no big deal and to forget it but I couldn’t. I had to talk to her about it and now was the perfect time. We were here, alone, in a hotel room with nothing but the night ahead of us. Even if she rejected me, I had to know how she felt.
“Jessie, I know I said to forget the kiss but I’ve put myself out there and we are going to be sleeping next to each other all night with hardly any clothes on. I need to know where I stand with you.”
Her cheeks were turning a beautiful shade of pink and I could see her pulse fluttering in her neck. She started to breathe heavy and she licked her lips lightly.
“Kris, I…I have to tell you something. It’s big and I’m having a hard time getting it out.”
I reached up and tucked a stray lock of hair behind her ear.
“Whatever it is, tell me. I can handle it.”
I won’t lie; I was nervous as fuck about what she was going to say. I’d kissed her and confessed how I felt and this was when she was going to tell me that she either only saw me as a friend or she’d already met someone else.
She took a deep breath and said so quietly, “When you kissed me…I, uh…”
“Yeah?” I asked, my heart pounding rapidly.
I could see her blushing even in the dark.
“I liked it.”
Relief washed through me like a tidal wave. I couldn’t stop the smile on my face and my fingers instinctively traced the curve of her cheek.
“You did?”
She looked down and started twisting the top of the blanket.
“Of course I did. In fact I…I’ve wanted…ugh, man, why is this so hard for me to say?”
I lifted her chin gently with my index finger, forcing her eyes to meet mine.
“Jess, this is me. You can tell me anything. Don’t be afraid.”
Jess blew a nervous breath through her lips.
“I’ve wanted you to kiss me for a long time. Like, a really long time.”
I blinked in surprise and smiled wider.
“You have?”
She nodded and said, “I’ve been in love with you ever since I first saw you.”
Her confession knocked the wind out of me. Holy fuck…she’s been in love with me since she was five years old?
“W-whoa. Jess, why didn’t you say anything?”
“Because I was afraid to,” she answered timidly. “You never seemed like you were into me anyway because you had all of your girlfriends following you around. You just said it yourself. You were only starting to look at me differently lately. If I had admitted I loved you before that you would have been freaked out and you know it. You would have been all uncomfortable being around me and then you would have started to distance yourself and I would have been alone. Keeping quiet kept you in my life.”
I scooted closer to her and was feeling myself getting aroused from the heat of her body being so close.
“Nothing would have kept me out of your life, Jess. Hell, the guys have been teasing me for years that you had a crush on me but I never listened to them because you had a pretty good way of hiding it.”
“Well, I’m not anymore. Before I came out here I told myself that I wasn’t going to hide my feelings for you any longer and whatever happens from here on out I am ready for it.” She reached out and touched my bare chest with her shaking hand and whispered, “I love you Kris.”
Her confession hit me straight in the chest. She loved me…I couldn’t stop myself from moving my hand from her cheek to her waist and pulling her close to me. I shut my eyes for a moment as I felt her delicate fingertips on my bare skin. It was like I’d been electrocuted. Never in my life had a simple touch felt so incredible.
“So, does this mean I can kiss you again? For real this time?”
She shivered and bit her lip before she nodded.
Tracing the tattoo of the phoenix I had on my chest, she replied, “Kiss me, Kris.”
No more words were spoken as I lowered my mouth to hers for the second time. Her lips parted in invitation and I wasted no time and slid my tongue past them and touched her tongue with mine. She softly moaned and hearing her little whimper of pleasure made my swelling erection go rock hard. I didn’t know how far she wanted to take this but Jessie always had been a girl that was sure of what she wanted. Nothing would happen unless she wanted it to.
She laid back and I moved so I was on top of her and she hooked a long, bare leg around my waist, pulling me into her. Her body felt so good against mine and when I settled between her legs my dick was pushing right against her heat. My cock quivered in anticipation as my hand roamed up the shirt she was wearing and I explored the curve of her back.
When my fingers stopped at the clasp of her bra, I toyed with it for a moment before she pulled away from my lips. She quickly sat up and I watched open mouthed as she pulled my shirt over her head and threw it to the floor.
Jess was sitting next to me in the bed wearing nothing but a pink cotton bra and white cotton panties with little hearts on them. Her body was so tight and tiny and perfect. She had a slight curve to her hips and her breasts weren’t the biggest I’d ever seen but they were perfect sized, enough to fill my hands. I ached to touch and tease them so without thinking I started to move my hands toward them. I could practically see her nipples tighten in anticipation but I hesitated before I touched them. I had to know she wanted me to touch her.
Jessie nodded her head and whispered, “Please.”
That was all the invitation I needed and I gently ran my thumb across one of her pebbled nipples. Her breath caught and she whimpered as I took one of her firm breasts into my hand and massaged it. She felt so good and now my mouth started to water. I was dying to taste her delicious skin.
I continued exploring her and slid my fin
gers under the strap of her bra. She started to breathe heavier but nodded her head, silently telling me to slide it down her shoulders. I leaned up and gently moved the strap down, leaning in to kiss her bare skin.
I trailed my tongue along her shoulder up to her graceful neck and savored the flavor of her sweet, delicate skin. She smelled like summer and rain and tasted like the most delicious dessert I’d ever had and I’d barely even tapped how rich her flavor was. As I tasted her supple skin, I roamed my hands around her back and they instinctively found the clasp on her bra.
She wriggled in my arms and whimpered, “Kris…please.”
“You sure?” I murmured against her sensitive flesh.
“Y-yes,” she panted, and I pinched the clasp in my fingers. Her bra opened with a snap and she wiggled out of it.
I stopped kissing her neck long enough to stare at her naked chest. When my eyes landed on her perfect, firm breasts I almost came in my boxers. They were beautiful. I was practically salivating at the sight of them, the curve under them, her gorgeous rosy pink nipples…the more I saw of Jessie the better the view got.
“Oh fuck,” I growled. “I…have to taste them.”
She just nodded at me and I leaned down to lick one of her nipples before I sucked it into my mouth. She cried out in pleasure and I moaned loudly. Jessie arched her back and tossed her long hair over her shoulders. I moved my mouth from one breast to the other, making sure to trace my tongue over each part of her sensitive buds.
She combed her fingers through my hair as I kissed my way back up to her mouth. My lips found hers again and this time she was the one to thrust her tongue into my mouth.
We tasted each other for a few intense moments before she broke away and panted, “Kris, I…I want you. I want this. I’m ready.”
I wanted so badly to be her first lover but something made me hesitate. We’d already taken a huge step over the line from friendship to something more and at this point there was no going back. She said she was ready…but was I?
If we slept together tonight that was it. She wasn’t going to be some random hookup or an ex-girlfriend I could successfully avoid. This was Jessie, my Jessie. I couldn’t take this step with her and just treat her like the others. She was special.
As I sat next to her in the bed, looking at her in all her innocence and vulnerability, I realized in that moment that I wanted to do whatever it took to make her happy in every way. If I was who she wanted tonight, then I was going to choke down my fears of ruining what we had and give her what she needed.
I cupped her cheek and asked, “Are you sure?”
Jessie nodded and batted her big blue eyes at me. Taking my other hand in hers, she brought it to her lips and lightly traced my fingers with her tongue.
“I’m very sure. I want you to be my first, my only,” she breathed.
Warmth spread through me as her words sunk in. It really hit me how important this moment was for both of us. We weren’t just two friends that were about to sleep together. Jessie was giving me an amazing gift that she could only give once and no matter what I would make this special for her.
I didn’t say anything else and leaned in to kiss her again. This time, she laid back and pulled me down with her. I instinctively moved on top of her and she parted her legs for me. I fit perfectly right between them and as we kissed my eyes were crossing beneath my eyelids from the feel of my cock pressing against her heat.
My hands started to wander down her body and when they stopped at the waist of her panties, I slipped my fingers inside them at her hips. I was about to ask if she wanted me to take them off but before I could she started to tug them down. I leaned up on my knees and grabbed them and she lifted her hips so I could slowly take them off. I tossed them to the floor and looked back at her and when my eyes landed on her my breath caught again.
She was lying completely naked beneath me and my erection was so hard I was about to tear through my shorts. I looked from her face to her breasts and down her stomach until my eyes finally rested on her beautiful mound that was already drenched with need. I could smell her sweet scent and it was mouthwatering and driving me wild.
She was breathing heavily and her legs were shaking in anticipation. She was already nervous and I didn’t want to make her wait any longer so I slipped out of my shorts and threw them next to her panties. When I straightened back up on my knees, her eyes landed on my rigid dick and they went wide. She bit her lip and started to breathe heavier, but I could now see the nervousness was starting to take over.
“Jess, are you sure you’re really ready for this?”
She nodded and said, “I am. It’s just…”
“What is it? You know you can tell me anything.”
“You’re way bigger than I imagined you would be. I know how sex works and all but…how is that thing going to fit?”
I smiled at her naivety and leaned down to cover her body with mine.
“It will fit, Jess, don’t worry. Your body will adjust and we will fit together. I will go as slow as you need me to.”
“Kris,” she whispered, touching my cheek. “If…if it hurts, will you stop?”
My heart skipped a beat right before it started pounding. “Of course I will. I would never, ever hurt you, Jess. You know that right?”
She bit her bottom lip again and nodded her head slightly. I could feel her thighs quaking against me and I could practically hear her heart beating through her chest.
“I know you wouldn’t. I trust you,” she said, leaning up and kissing me.
I could tell she was trying her hardest to act like she wasn’t nervous but it was obvious she was. Everyone is their first time. Even though this was going to hurt her no matter how slow and gentle I was, I was going to do whatever I could to make this as comfortable as possible for her.
“Your trust means a lot to me. I want this to be perfect for you, so I want to try to help you relax first, okay?”
“Relax? How?” she asked me, a puzzled look on her beautiful face.
I smiled at her and leaned into her lips. I ran my tongue across her bottom lip before moving my hand between her legs.
I traced my fingers along the fine soft curls above her innocence and whispered against her lips, “Is it okay if I touch you?”
“Yes,” she said, her voice barely above a whisper. “P-please touch me.”
I slowly moved my hand down and gently ran my fingers along the outside of her opening and up to her clit. I moaned at the feel of her. She was drenched with need and I had barely even begun to warm her up. She gasped and rolled her eyes back.
“Oh wow,” she exclaimed.
I moved my fingers down and teased right at her entrance and whispered, “Feel good?”
“Yes…” she breathed.
“This is just the beginning. I am going to make you feel so good tonight that you’re going to remember it forever,” I said softly, aching to dive my fingers deep into her warmth.
“I already know I will. This is everything I’ve ever dreamed of.”
I smiled and kissed her lips quickly before I gently began to slide a finger into her searing heat. She sucked in a breath as I began to slowly feel her from the inside. She felt amazing…just this one taste and I was hooked. My cock was so hard that it was hurting; I’d never been more turned on in my life.
“Oh God,” Jessie whimpered. “Kris, that f-feels…”
“Feels good for me too. I’m not hurting you, am I?”
‘N-no. Ah,” she panted. She lightly thrust her hips into my hand and my finger sank deeper inside her.
I leaned in to kiss her neck and started to move lower, gently licking her perfect pink nipples along the way. I kept moving my finger in and out of her and her breathing increased as my mouth reached her belly button.
I dipped the tip of my tongue inside her belly button and gently kissed her as she asked in a shaking breath, “W-what are you doing?”
“Tasting you,” I whispered against her skin.<
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“Kris,” she said nervously, but I interrupted.
“Jess, you need to be really ready for me when it finally happens. You’re already so wet but you need to be wetter or this will be uncomfortable. Besides, you’re so delicious that I have to taste all of you.”
“I’m nervous,” she admitted and I smiled at her.
“If you don’t want me to do this I won’t. Just say the word and we’ll stop,” I replied.
She blinked at me a few times. With a blush that I could see even in the dim light, she said, “I want to try. I’m just nervous.”
“I’ll make it feel good, Jess, I promise,” I said softly and before she could take a ragged breath I moved my head down between her legs and gave her sweet folds a long, torturous lick. She inhaled sharply and cried out loudly while gripping the sheets with her hands.
“Oh my God, Kris!”
I closed my mouth over her scorching heat and sucked her hard. I closed my eyes and moaned at her flavor…she was the single most delectable thing I’d ever tasted in my life.
“Fuck you taste so good,” I whispered before I continued feasting on her.
I continued to move my finger inside her and as my tongue found her tiny swollen clit I could already feel her inner walls clamping down and pulling my fingers in deep. She was close to coming and I wanted to taste every bit of what I could do to her. She was writhing and moaning loudly and I never let up…I wanted her to come so badly.
“Kris,” she screamed, “I…”
“Just feel it Jess,” I demanded, and suddenly her back arched and her hands tangled in my hair. I felt my dick start to weep as she tugged my hair and came hard against my mouth. She screamed loudly and my mouth never left her opening as it flooded with her sweet release.
She was shaking as she came down from her orgasm and judging by how hard she came she was definitely wet enough for me to be able to ease in slowly without hurting her.
“W-what…that was…oh my God,” she moaned.
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