She screamed out in pleasure as I feasted on her sweet juices. I felt like I’d been starving forever and her body was giving me all the nourishment I’d ever need.
“Kris, I’m close,” she moaned, gently tugging at my hair.
“Come for me Jess, let me taste you,” I murmured against her sensitive flesh.
My words were her undoing and she came hard against my tongue, her body shaking vigorously.
“God that was amazing,” she breathed as I kissed her stomach and I leaned up on my knees. I took my painfully hard dick into my hand again and stroked it as she raised her head to watch me. Her chest was heaving as she watched me, a hungry look in her eyes.
“Yeah? Well it’s about to feel even fucking better baby,” I answered, wiping a bead of moisture that was seeping out of the tip of my cock. I’d dreamed of so many ways to make my girl crazy with need but right now I wasn’t going to tease her. We’d been apart for three months and the only thing I wanted right now was to be buried deep inside her and get lost.
“Hurry, please,” she begged. I moved her knees up, opening her up more. I almost started salivating when my eyes landed on her drenched folds. Seeing her dripping for me from already being worked over by me was making it hard not to come right then, but I wasn’t going to disappoint my girl tonight. Not after we’d been apart for so long.
I rubbed my cock on her swollen clit a few times before finding her opening and slowly easing myself in. I inhaled sharply as I felt her damp walls clinging to me as I slid into her tight pussy…fuck she felt incredible.
Jessie screamed out in pleasure as I pushed her knees up and drove into her over and over. Nothing had ever felt better to me in that moment as I was buried inside her. Making love with Jessie was always earth-shattering, but being away from her for months made this time with her so much better.
I could feel her inner walls clenching and pulling me in deeper and I knew she was close to another orgasm. She was digging her nails into my arms and that spurred me on. I could feel a strong tingle at the base of my spine as I felt my release building within me. She felt so fucking incredible that I could feel tingling down my legs all the way to my toes. I was about to explode and I needed to make her come soon before I lost control. I wasn’t about to leave her hanging.
There was something I’d always wanted to see her do and there was no time like the present, I just hoped she’d go for it. I took one of her hands and lifted it to my mouth and sucked her first two fingers inside. Her eyes flicked open and she gasped as I rolled my tongue around them.
“W-what are you doing?”
“Trust me?” I asked through gritted teeth. She nodded and I moved her fingers down to her clit. Her eyes went wide and her cheeks instantly turned red as I pressed her fingers into her clit and swirled them around.
“Oh my fucking god,” I groaned as I watched her pleasuring herself. I could tell she was shocked and a little shy, but I could also tell that this made her feel good and watching her was making it damn near impossible to keep from blowing inside her way too soon.
“Feels good, doesn’t it baby?”
“Y-yes,” she whispered breathlessly.
“I love watching you touch yourself, Jess. I want you to make yourself come.”
She barely opened her heavy-lidded eyes and looked at me with uncertainty. “I…I don’t know.”
“I can feel that you’re close. Come on, let’s finish together,” I replied, thrusting into her harder. Her eyes rolled back and she bit her lip as she continued to roll her fingers over her tiny clit and worked herself into a frenzy.
“Oh God I’m coming,” she cried out as I moved my hand down and made her hand move faster.
“Fuck Jess,” I growled just as I felt her release start to roll down and over my cock. I threw my head back and moaned loudly as my orgasm finally hit me and I came hard inside her. As soon as I was drained, I collapsed on top of her, completely sated.
“Oh my God, that was incredible,” she stated, trailing her fingers up and down my spine.
“That was fucking hot, Jess. I’ve always wanted to watch you touch yourself like that and it was the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen.”
“Really? I have to be honest with you. I will always do what I can to make you happy, but that was a little embarrassing.”
I raised my head to look at her and smiled at her expression. Even in the dark I could see she was still blushing.
“Jess, you don’t have anything to be embarrassed about. You don’t have to do it again if you don’t want to but if I’m being honest, watching you making yourself come while I was inside you was literally the fucking sexiest you’ve ever looked to me.” Even though I could tell she was trying to fight it, the corner of her mouth turned up into a smile.
“You’re a bad influence on me, you know that?” she teased, reaching her hand up and ruffling my already messy hair.
“I’ll gladly influence you like that anytime,” I replied, leaning in and kissing her lips.
“So, do you think Jude will mind that we had sex in his bed at the new place before he could?” she asked.
I chuckled and rolled onto my back so I wouldn’t crush her and tucked her into my side.
“Nah, this is Jude. If it were him he’d have done the same thing.”
“True,” she answered, giggling. “So, are you really ready for us to be roomies?”
“Abso-fucking-lutely, baby,” I answered as I kissed her forehead. “I can’t stand spending another night without you. Don’t get me wrong; the tour was amazing and playing for all those people was a total rush but nothing compares to the rush I get from being with you.”
Jessie let out a breathy sigh and I could feel her smile against my chest.
“I’ve missed you so damn much,” she said sleepily.
“Believe me, I’ve missed you more. No matter what happens from here on out because if I have to leave you behind again I’m fucking walking.”
She raised her sleepy head and looked at me with concern.
“W-what? Why would you say that?”
“Because I love you and you’re more important than anything else in my life.”
“You’d actually quit the band that you helped build if someone tells you I can’t be by your side?” she asked worriedly. She sounded like she was on the verge of a panic attack and I smiled as I kissed her forehead.
“Calm down, I didn’t mean it like that. I wouldn’t just walk away from them, they are my brothers. I’m just saying that if there was a time that we had a chance at something huge but it meant leaving you again, I’d say no in a minute.”
“Kris, I can’t let you do that,” she said, her eyes wide with worry.
I kissed her lips quickly and said, “Calm down Jess, we’ve not even been back a day. Nothing’s going to happen. Come on, let’s go find my room so we can get some sleep. You look like you’re about to crash.”
“Okay,” she mumbled and half-smiled at me. I reluctantly got out of bed and Jessie followed. We picked up our clothes along the way and walked out into the open living room. Just as we found my room and were climbing into bed, I was suddenly hit with a realization; I hadn’t used protection. I was so desperate to be with her again that I didn’t stop to use a condom.
I looked at Jessie and watched her sleepily climbing into my bed. She seemed blissfully unaware that it had happened so I decided not to worry her with it tonight. However, it was definitely something we’d have to talk about in the morning because even though we’d talked about this before, I knew if she ended up being pregnant I had absolutely no idea what to do about it.
The next morning when we both got out of bed (I hadn’t slept for shit thinking about us possibly having a kid) I immediately talked to Jessie about me forgetting to use protection. She shrugged it off and told me not to worry because since we’d left for our tour she’d gone to a clinic and had started taking birth control. She said that after spending all that time apart that she knew we�
�d not be able to keep our hands off each other so she decided to have a backup plan just in case this happened. I had to hand it to her; my girl thought of everything.
After I breathed the hugest sigh of relief, I was able to relax and enjoy my time with Jessie and was looking forward to having her living with me and the guys. She’d only stayed a few nights at the apartment because she wanted to ease into letting Crystal know she was moving out. She definitely wasn’t going to miss the bitch, but she was afraid that she would try to destroy her things or find her money stash before she could get out.
We’d been home for only a week and things were starting to settle down into a normal rhythm when we got the phone call that would change everything. Sticks and Stones’ manager Steve Roberts had taken an interest in us while we were touring with them and not only wanted to represent us, but had sent recordings of our live shows to a major label scout from Bulldoze Records and they were seriously interested in signing us. They wanted us to fly out to New York City for a meeting with Stanley and Rick Isaacs, the two brothers that owned the label. To say we were excited was a huge fucking understatement because if all went well and we were signed, we’d be booked for more live shows, studio time, and get a pretty big signing bonus. Everything the guys and I had been working for had come true and things were finally going our way.
The only problem we’d had with our good news was that Steve wasn’t going to let me bring Jessie along. He said personally he had no problem with it, but didn’t know if the label would go for it. I told him that I didn’t care what the label said and that there was no way in hell I was leaving her behind again. This summer away from her had been agony and there was no way I’d make it another day or, if things went well, much longer if Jessie wasn’t by my side. There had been some hesitation with Ryder, Beau, and Jude but I also knew that they didn’t want to leave her here with Crystal any more than I did. I thought everything was all set, but what I hadn’t been expecting was for my whole world to come crashing down just as it was finally looking up.
Jessie and I had spent our last night in our new apartment (at least for a while) in the best way; with her writhing in ecstasy underneath me. The sex was incredible like it always was, but something about it felt off to me and I couldn’t figure it out. She was quieter than normal and it seemed almost as if she was savoring it…like it was the last time we’d make love. I tried to shake it off and chocked it up to nerves since she was about to come with us to New York City and she’d never been outside of Ohio before. Steve had booked a flight for us that was leaving in two hours so the guys and I were in our rooms packing. Jessie was sitting on my bed as I was tossing things into my bad left and right with a very calm look on her face.
“Can you fucking believe this? I mean, we were hoping that being on tour would make a label take notice, but only after one week? This is fucking crazy!”
“I know. It’s so exciting,” she said sweetly, but something was off about her voice.
“Hey, Jess, is everything okay?” I asked as I tossed a few tee shirts in my bag.
“Yeah, I was just thinking,” she said, toying with the blanket nervously.
“Thinking about what?”
I heard her sigh deeply and when I turned to look at her she had tears in her eyes.
“I’m not coming with you.”
My head snapped up and I stared at her like she’d grown a second head. She had to be kidding.
“Jess, of course you’re coming. Quit joking around. We’ve got to be on that plane in two hours and as soon as I’m finished here I’ll take you to the apartment complex so you can grab everything you can.”
“Kris, I’m not going. I’m staying here.”
I looked at her and was waiting for her to start laughing and tell me that this was all a joke, but when I saw a tear fall from her eyes and hit the blanket, I felt my stomach drop.
“What the hell are you talking about?” I asked, dropping down next to her on the bed. “Why would you say that?”
“Kris, I can’t go with you because this just isn’t going to work for us. I can’t be the reason this band doesn’t succeed.”
“What the hell do you mean by that? Who the fuck is saying shit?” I demanded.
“No one has said anything, but Kris, your band is on the verge of being signed to a major record label. This is huge for you and the guys and when the manager told you that I had to hang back this time, you freaked on him and basically said ‘if she doesn’t go I don’t go’. How can you do that to your band? To your friends?” she replied.
“Is this because you’re scared of being in a big city? You know that I’ll protect you from anything.”
She sighed frustratingly and ran her hands through her hair. She stood up and walked across the room.
“Kris, you aren’t listening to me! You were willing to give up on not just your dream but your friend’s dreams too just because the guy that holds your ticket out of this hell hole said you can’t bring your girlfriend along. I’m not going to be the reason that all of this goes away. You need to go out on your own and not be distracted from what you’ve been working for. I won’t let it happen.” She stopped and took a shaking breath. With tears in her eyes, she said, “I’m breaking up with you, Kris.”
I stood and put my hands on her shoulders, gripping a bit harder than I should have.
“No. You aren’t doing this. You’re not breaking up with me. You love me, I know you do.”
“I do love you,” she cried, “and that’s why I’m ending this now before things get worse.”
“Jess, don’t do this,” I pleaded.
She shrugged out of my grip and backed away from me.
“Look, don’t make this any harder than it needs to be. My mind is made up and I’m not going to change it so don’t bother trying. It’s better this way.”
I felt like I was in a fucking nightmare; this couldn’t be real. How could the only girl I’ve ever loved-my best friend in the world-tell me that she was dumping me to go off and chase my dreams and leave her behind? This had to be a sick fucking joke. I felt like my whole world had just been ripped apart.
“Why?” I asked again, not knowing what else to say.
“Because I love you too much to hold you back.” With one final glance at me, she turned and ran out of the apartment and slammed the door before I could even blink.
I ran after her and flung the door open so hard that it slammed against the wall and I heard something fall and break. At that point I didn’t fucking care what it was…I had to get to her and try to make sense of what the fuck just happened.
“JESS!” I screamed as I ran down the steps after her. I could see her about to make it out the front door of the building and I wasn’t about to let her go that easily. I didn’t care if I looked like some lovesick pussy…who the fuck was I kidding? That’s exactly what I was.
She kept running and once she reached the door she busted through without so much as a glance back at me. I ran outside, hoping to catch her, but once I got out to the street I could see her getting into some cheap cab and yelling at the driver to go faster.
I stood there on the sidewalk and watched her moving farther and farther from me and I felt like my feet were rooted to the spot. It wasn’t until I hear Beau yelling my name from the window upstairs that I finally moved and shuffled back up the stairs, completely stunned.
“What the hell was that about?” Ryder asked as I walked back into the apartment. He was walking out of his room with his duffel bag on his arm.
Still in shock, I leaned against the wall and said, “Jess just dumped me.”
Jude huffed out a laugh.
“Yeah right, sure she did. And I woke up this morning and decided I like guys.”
“It’s not a fucking joke, Jude! She just fucking broke up with me because she said she ‘loves me too much to hold me back’!” I shouted, mocking her words before picking up the closest thing I could find and throwing it with force against the wall.
“Whoa, calm down man! Jess seriously dumped you? Why the fuck would she do that?”
Picking up my bag and angrily throwing it over my shoulder, I snapped, “I don’t fucking know.”
My heart was completely broken. I was devastated. We heard honking coming from outside and it sounded like the van; Alan was waiting outside to take us to the airport. I couldn’t leave Jess behind but I also couldn’t let my friends down. I was forced into a no win situation and in that moment, I almost hated her. This was supposed to be one of the happiest days of my life and now because of her shitty timing, I couldn’t imagine my life any shittier.
I had no idea that my life was about to get a hell of a lot fucking worse.
Chapter 8
Jessie
Three Months Later
The last three months without Kris had been the worst of my life. Not only had I pushed him away for his own good, but after he left I’d also gotten the biggest shock of my life and it was definitely more than I’d ever bargained for.
I was pregnant.
After the guys had left for New York City, I had spent most of my days locked in my room and crying my eyes out. I slept all the time and when I was awake I was sobbing into my pillow and holding it like I wanted to hold Kris. I had barely eaten and only forced down food so that I could stay alive, if that’s what I was these days. However, on the morning when I finally decided to get out of bed, an instant wave of nausea hit me and I immediately knew something wasn’t right. How could I have been nauseous when I hadn’t eaten a thing?
Even though I wasn’t a doctor, I knew my body and already knew I was pregnant long before I took the test. When I bought it at a convenience store, I immediately ducked into the bathroom and took the test. Within minutes there were two lines in the results window and as I watched the two solid pink lines get darker and darker, I’d never felt more alone in my life. I’d always dreamed of having a family someday with Kris, but I always imagined us finding out we were pregnant together and it being a happy occasion. Peeing on a cheap stick in a dirty bathroom all alone was as far from my dream as I could have imagined.
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