Well, the bells were a non-event but I have spoken to Mum, Marie, Casey, Mitch and Barry, so far, so that has got some of the ‘happy hogmanays’ out of the way, and I did end up staying awake till 3. Casey had left dads and went on to phone from her party and she said Happy NEW Year again, but this time she was crying because she said she was missing me and wanted to be with me and doesn’t want me to be alone and loves me so much. Oh, I love her so much and she feel exactly the same. My baby is so sensitive. She thinks I am here on my ‘own’, even though there are people around, and it’s very strange because I can honestly ‘feel a real large bump’ in my heart as if it is really hurting and I know Casey had just got that feeling as well, as we have both felt it before… it’s beautiful and sad at the same time. Bless my little darlings, l love her and Mitch so much and I really hope I can carry on with my rehab and eventually get into my chair and in time have a home for them to come up to in Scotland.
Oh, around 2ish I got another call from Maclean to say Happy New Year again, and he was even more drunk, and he kept putting other people on the phone to say Happy New Year as well, and it was getting noisier and he was STILL, trying to get me to sing Sweet Caroline down the phone again, and in the end we were cut off, and just then, I was caught on the phone again, and decided just to switch it off, and I just lay in bed thinking… .
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