French nodded. "Fine."
"Just hit him," Mifflin said. He was nearly shouting. "You can't hit him once."
"No problem."
Mifflin suddenly changed his expression.
He looked over at French. "Forget it," he said.
"We've got a bet."
"No." The beer in his hand dropped to the ground; it fell over and the foamy contents ran out onto the tarmac. He found his shirt pocket and took the ten out. "I'll give you the money now."
"Give it to me when I hit him," French said.
John was silent for a moment, then said, "I'm afraid he'll do to you what he was going to do to that other guy."
And now he had hit Billy Potter, and he had the money folded tight in the front pocket of his jeans, and he knew what Mifflin had meant.
He had been afraid. For the first time, he'd been afraid of another kid. When he saw Potter walking toward him across the school yard, with an absolutely cool, unconcerned look on his face, he immediately had second thoughts. He'd never seen anybody look like that before. But Shane and Grainger were with him, and there was no way he could walk away. It would have been a pussy thing to do.
It was when he had taken Billy's lunch away and Potter had looked up at him that he really saw what John Mifflin meant. There was nothing in his eyes. It was like looking at two flat pennies. Flat pennies that if he lifted them off would reveal only two deep black wells that never ended.
And he was scared, so scared that if his fist hadn't done its fast work, then he would have turned and run, pussy or not.
He knew that he wouldn't go near Potter again. He'd taken Mifflin's money, but that would be the end of it. If Mifflin got drunk again and had any more big ideas, he would laugh them off. Mifflin would be good for a few more beers, but not if anything involving Billy Potter came up.
French felt the front pocket of his jeans to make sure the ten-dollar bill was still there. Well, it had been worth it for that anyway. He could get his old man a six-pack and still have almost seven bucks left. Maybe a six-pack for himself, some cigarettes, an album over at the record store. His old man would leave him alone for the rest of the week if he brought a six home without being told to.
He pulled up short at the door to Manny's deli. The BE BACK IN TEN MINUTES sign was in the window. Manny Zelcker was always closing for ten minutes, to go upstairs and check on his dog or to take a crap. Damn. And Danny's old man would be home from work in a half hour. Well, he could always cut across the alley out back and get over to Wilson Street to the market. It would cost an extra thirty cents, but it would be worth it to get his old man off his ass.
He made a quick right turn around the side of Manny's and entered the alley. It was cluttered with full garbage cans, waiting for pickup. Behind a stack of milk crates was a bend in the fence that led to an adjoining alley that came out right next to the market.
As he pushed the bend in the fence aside, someone called his name. A chill shot through him. He turned and saw nothing, so he pushed through the fence to the other side.
More garbage cans, more empty milk crates, and Pampers and toilet-tissue cartons. There was the sour milk smell of discarded cheese.
Someone called his name.
It came from somewhere ahead of him. A precarious stack of boxes on top of a trash bin tilted, then fell over. Behind the trash bin, a crouching figure moved.
"Who the fuck are you?" French said.
"Danny?" a muffled voice answered.
Sudden annoyance pushed French's uneasiness aside and he stepped forward, knocking the trash bin aside. "Who the fuck—" he began.
"Remember me?"
The boy standing there was vaguely familiar. He was five or six years old, skinny, with thick horn-rimmed glasses and pale, lightly freckled skin. He wore jeans with rolled up cuffs, and a checked shirt with wide collars.
His lips were thin. There was a peculiar familiar odor . . .
"Puke!" Danny French said in surprise. It was Puke Carteret, a boy he'd known in first grade. They called him Puke because he had something wrong with his perspiration glands and smelled like vomit. Puke Carteret had been the first guy he'd ever beat up on; they'd been in the school yard one day when French decided he didn't like Puke's smell.
When two lunchtime monitors finally got them apart, Puke had a chipped front tooth and a swollen lip. Danny spent the afternoon in the principal's office but, the next day, discovered he was a kind of hero.
"You popped him, Danny," someone said to him.
"Hit him good."
They were afraid of him. He had beaten up a kid for no reason, and they thought he might do the same to them, and they were afraid.
It was a revelation. This must be what his old man felt when he hit his mother. He could get friends and keep them around just by acting tough.
"Remember what you did to me?" Puke said.
"Yeah," French said, smiling. But something wasn't right with Puke Carteret.
"Do I still smell, Danny?" Puke asked.
"Yeah," French said. "Why—" he continued, but then there was a sound at the other side of the alley, behind another trash bin.
Another figure stood up. He was big and beefy, with a dull glint in his eyes. He had been left back two years for failing three subjects. He could barely think.
"Wikowski?" French said. "Charlie Wikowski?”
Wikowski smiled. None of the malevolent glint had left his dull eyes. In second grade Danny had jumped him from behind on the way home from school, hitting him hard twice on the left side of the head, leaving him screaming on the ground with a damaged eardrum.
There was something not right about him, too.
A trash-can cover fell over, and someone else appeared. "It's me, Danny. Duff Peters."
Duff, the small, slow grocery boy whom French punched out one day because a friend dared him to take on someone in high school.
"You broke my arm," Duff said mildly. "I didn't work that whole summer."
"What's going on?" French said.
"Roll call," someone new said. A girl this time, with a smooth, high voice, long red hair, an ascetic face with a slim nose.
"Beverly . . ." French gasped.
". . . Saper," she finished for him. "You threatened to beat up my brother Joey last summer if I didn't take off my panties and show you."
"I know," French said. Again, there was something strange . . .
He knew what it was. None of them had changed. Puke Carteret was still six years old, the same as the day Danny had thrashed him in the school yard. Charlie Wikowski, Duff Peters, were unchanged, Beverly Saper was without the breasts she had grown since he'd done what he did to her at the beginning of summer.
"What's happening?" Danny French demanded. Whatever thrill he had felt at seeing his old conquests had evaporated.
"Just this," Duff Peters said. "We came to tell you we know why you did those things."
"I know why you jumped on me," Puke Carteret said. "I know it was because you thought your mother was the only one in the world who loved you, but that when she left and didn't take you with her, she told your father that you were as rotten as he was because you were a man and all men were garbage.”
"We know all that," Beverly Saper said.
"But we don't care," Duff Peters said. "It makes no difference. You did all those things to us, and that's all that matters."
French saw that they had closed ranks, and realized that he was backed up against the fence between the two alleys. He felt around for the hole, then remembered that it could only be used from the other side, since the fence snapped back and couldn't be pulled back open.
"No . . ." he said.
They advanced on him like Frankenstein monsters, step after slow step. Even Charlie Wikowski's dull eyes filled with purpose.
"We know . . ." one of them said maliciously, and then another one of them touched him and he screamed and jammed his eyes closed, but then they didn't touch him anymore, and he heard someone soo
thing him, going, "Shhhh."
A soft hand fell on him, the fingers caressing him like feathers. He looked, up to see . . .
"Mother."
Her face was young. She was not scared, her eyes not blackened as they were that last night by his father. She wore lipstick, like she used when she went out shopping with him on Saturday, when he was two years old, when she took him by the hand and they walked together up the street, and the sun shone on him because he was with his mother and she loved him. She was his alone, and his father was working somewhere, getting drunk at lunchtime. But here they were, Mom and baby, and all the world knew that they were the only two. They were made for each other. She looked like that now. Her dress was the same, the blue one that looked and smelled like May, with little yellow and light pink flowers on it. Her hair smelled clean, her neck smelled like clean rose soap when she picked him up and held him, her skin smooth as the skin of a peach. Her eyes were blue as the sky. She loved him. She belonged to him.
"Don't cry, baby," she crooned.
"Mommy," he bawled. "Mommy." She rocked him. In the distance, beyond her clean smell, he smelled aging cheese in the alley. That didn't mean anything. They would leave the alley. She would hold his hand and everyone would see that she belonged to him. Out in the sun, as they walked . . .
"I didn't mean to beat them up, Mommy," he cried.
"But you did," she said softly. She held him away from her and looked into his eyes. "You did," she said. Her eyes were blue, but in the center they were black, and the black expanded to fill her eyes.
"You did," her stern voice said.
"Mommy," he bawled. "No, Mommy."
Her eyes were night-black, and then they turned bright copper gold, and she was not Mommy because her form shrank and there was no Mommy anymore in those copper, pitiless eyes.
"You," Danny French said.
"Yes," it answered, and Danny French said nothing more as the infinite sky dropped on him.
22
"The boy is evil, Jacob."
Jacob Beck couldn't believe the change in his wife. She had always seemed such a strong person—at least he'd always thought so. When, after he'd met her at college, she'd told him the religious background of her family, he could not believe that she could possibly be the product of such an environment. They'd had long talks about her "reading," which she had come to regard as a kind of hysteria brought on by her mother's demands. At the time, he'd taken her complete rejection of her Fundamentalist upbringing in stride—mostly because he was in love with her almost immediately, but also because it seemed natural that anyone with half a brain would turn away from such radicalism in anything, especially in religious belief. It had vaguely disturbed him that she was so willing to go along with whatever he thought was right in the manner of religion, since his own religious beliefs were based on such long and careful thought, but he had just chalked it up to the fact that it was the early 1970s and everybody around him seemed to be reevaluating everything—morals, sexual mores, values that in the 1950s had seemed as solid as rock.
He'd seen a lot of other changes in people since then, especially in the ones who had seemed to change so completely during the 1960s and 1970s. When the pendulum swung way out one way, it often swung back to the other extreme. Student activists became stockbrokers, revolutionaries opened trendy ice cream parlors or sold car insurance.
But it had always seemed to him that Mary was immune to that. She was a quiet woman, but underneath that seemingly frail exterior he had always found a source of strength. She believed in him, in their life, and, if she believed in God, it was one of her own making, one that suited her. Jacob had never thought that the other, older, demanding God would rise up within her to reclaim her.
But that's just what seemed to have happened. The pendulum had swung back for his wife, owing to shock or shaken beliefs or whatever, and he was now seeing a new, frightening side of her. It was almost as if all the doubts and frustrations he had endured the past months had been lifted from his shoulders and dropped squarely on hers. And she had cracked under the weight.
"Mary, how can you—"
"That," she said, pointing a shaking finger at the newspaper that lay open on their bed.
Once again, Beck looked at the article on page 43:
STRANGE DEATH
Curtis Maynard, an itinerant, was found dead just inside the entrance to Willard Street Park this morning by a passerby. Police say Maynard frequented the park at night and was often seen in the vicinity of the entrance, where he usually slept.
Though it was determined that Maynard had consumed at least one quart of whiskey and was legally drunk at the time of his death, police said that the direct cause of death was asphyxiation. Maynard was found with an empty bottle of scotch in his mouth, the neck of the bottle shoved halfway down his throat. "It looks like he tried to swallow the bottle itself," Officer Frederick Ripkin said.
Maynard had no close relatives . . .
"That's the man," Mary said, "that I saw Billy looking at that night in the park."
"But Mary—"
"I knew he was going to be hurt," she told him. "I could feel it."
"Mary," he answered rationally, "can't you understand that all you saw was an old alcoholic taking a pee and a little boy smoking a cigarette? What in heaven's name did you expect to see at eleven o'clock at night in a public park? Kite flyers?"
"I felt it!" she screamed, and for a moment a wild, fanatic light shone in her eyes before she suddenly began to sob and collapsed into Jacob's arms.
This came just when Jacob thought he was making progress with Billy. The boy had come out of his shell a bit, had even gone with him to a high school football game the previous weekend. Jacob had even gotten the boy to admit that he was still smoking cigarettes, but that he would try to quit.
"They help me concentrate," was the boy's way of explaining his habit.
He'd even completely dismissed the incident in the boy's room, realizing that he had been tired and could very well have imagined it.
And there was the matter of the boy's mother. He had located and talked Mrs. Potter into coming for her son. He thought this would solve everything (except, possibly, his own feelings for the boy, since, for the first time, he knew how much he really wished he had a son). Instead, it had seemed to solve nothing. Billy hadn't even acknowledged Beck's statement: "Your mother is coming for you, Billy." In a way he understood, since Mrs. Potter for some reason, out of guilt or because he was a minister, had spilled her guts out to him over the phone, talking for an hour and a half about Billy's father running out on her and her own alcoholism and negative feelings for the boy. She had sworn that she was no longer drinking. Beck had believed her, and though there was a curious tension beneath her words when she promised to come and "try" to take him back, Beck had thought the woman meant well and would do just that.
The fact that Billy might soon be leaving them had done nothing for Mary, either. She had merely shook her head and said, "That will solve nothing." Only Christine seemed genuinely pleased, saying sarcastically, "Now I can have my father back."
Jacob tried to gently pull his trembling wife away, but she clung to him. "I love you, Jacob. No matter what, even if it was wrong for me to leave my mother and to stop my readings, I know that it could never have been a bad thing for me to love you." A long shiver passed through her body. "But that boy is Satan. And he has a hold on you. He has a hold on your heart."
"Mary," he soothed.
"Now I know my mother was right. For a long time, especially after I met you, I fooled myself into believing that she was a hard, bitter old woman and that she was wrong about life. But she was right. There's only one thing in this world to watch for, and that's Satan. And now he's come. Just like my mother told me he would. I wasn't positive. Even after I read that boy, some small part of me told me I must be wrong, but that small part of me, in my heart, was run by Satan himself." She sounded almost as if she were in a trance. "My Aunt Stel
la always told me Satan played tricks. He played his tricks on Aunt Stella, and on me, but I've found him just the same. He's a little boy who smokes cigarettes. And God still won't tell me what to do."
She sobbed against him, shaking as if taken by a violent chill. "Oh, Momma, I wish you were alive so I could tell you I'm sorry."
From downstairs came the sound of the front door opening and loud sobbing.
"Christine?" Jacob shouted, pulling away from Mary and running for the stairs. He heard Mary cry out and follow.
When he reached the hallway, he found his daughter sobbing helplessly, hugging herself, a young policeman standing awkwardly at her side.
"What happened?" Beck asked, looking from his daughter to the cop.
"There was an accident," the police officer began.
"Oh, Daddy," Christine sobbed, her eyes red-rimmed, and then she ran to him.
Behind them, Mary stood in the doorway.
"Christine," he said, gently pushing her away from him with his hands on her shoulders, "tell me what happened."
"It was . . ." she said, and then recoiled at some memory.
The policeman said, "Your daughter is all right, Reverend Beck. She and her friend had quite a shock, I'm afraid."
The young officer looked as though he had had quite a shock also.
"I'll tell him," Christine said in a low, courageous voice.
Beck sat her down at the kitchen table and held her hand. "Tell me," he said.
"Annie and I were walking home from school," she said haltingly. "We were on the south side of Sullivan Street. Annie said she wanted to go to Manny's deli for a candy bar."
She took a shuddering breath and went on. "So we crossed over. We went into Manny's and Annie got a Clark bar and we looked at the magazines. Then we walked outside."
A shiver passed through her and she stopped speaking. Then she said slowly, "When we passed the alley next to the deli, Annie heard a noise. I heard it, too. It sounded like something was scraping along the ground."
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