“The Timekeeper is close,” I said. “He’s fifteen miles northwest; three of his dogs are sick inside his hut, and the aklia he opens today will be empty.”
“Scryer talk.”
“If we sled all night, we’ll surprise him in the morning.”
“If we sled all night,” he said, “we’ll drop down the first crevasse, won’t we?”
From a piece of newl skin I began cutting socks for the dogs. “No,” I told him, “I know where the crevasses are.”
“We’ll sled circles in the blackness.”
“No,” I said. “The stars will be out. We’ll steer by the stars.”
He smiled at this old saying and bowed his head. “All right, Pilot, we’ll steer by the stars, if they come out.”
When night fell the wind was blowing from the north, blowing the last of the warm air and snow clouds away. It was very cold. The sky was as black as a rippling pilot’s robe, and it was full of stars. In the north Shonablinka lit the rim of blackness; westward the hexagonal array of the Fravashi Ring twinkled high above the horizon. We drove the sled northwest through the silky, new snow. The dogs must have thought we were crazy, sledding through chest–high powder at night (chest–high to them, that is), skirting the crevasses that they must have feared lay beneath their covered paws. Far into the night it turned deep cold. The air was like frozen oxygen; my lips were so numb that I could not whistle, nor could I speak. We sledded silently across the seascape that I had seen in my scryer’s vision, every gleaming fold and drift. We did not stumble across any crevasses. We stopped only once, to boil water for coffee. I kept my eyes fixed on the stars and on the horizon beneath the stars. In the twilight, just before morning, I saw a tiny hump of snow raised up from the immense white hump of the world. “There it is,” I huffed out and pointed, “the Timekeeper’s hut. Do you see it?”
“Yes, there it is. You were right.”
He whistled to Kuri—and how I marvelled at his beautiful whistle, his way with dogs—and with the wind lashing our faces, we slid over the snow–drowned sea.
29
The Secret of Life
When the Fravashi first became a people, the Dark God came down from the stars and spoke to the First Least Father of the Adamant Mindsinger Clan. “First Least Father,” he said, “if I promise to tell you the secret of the universe at the end of ten million years, will you agree to listen to my song?”
The First Least Father was thirsty for new music so he told him, “Fill my windpipes; sing me your song.”
So the Dark God sang his song, and ten million years passed while the Adamant Mindsinger Clan warred against the Faithful Thoughtplayer Clan and the other clans, and in all this time on all of Fravashing there was only this single, dreadful song.
When the Dark God returned he told the First Least Father the secret of the universe. “I don’t understand,” the First Least Father said at last.
Whereupon the Dark God laughed at him and said, “How did you expect to understand? Your brain hasn’t changed at all in ten million years.”
The First Least Father contemplated these words and sang out: “My God! I didn’t think about that when we made the bargain!”
Fravashi Parable
We came at the Timekeeper from the south in the very first part of the morning. He had built his hut fifty feet away from a newly opened crevasse. Fifty miles away, Kweitkel stood revealed by the dawn; the holy mountain was like a great blue and white pillar holding up the western edge of the sky. When the Timekeeper saw us sledding towards his hut from the south, he must have thought we were Devaki hunters returning home. We wanted him to think this. We had circled south just so he would think this. In truth, even if he had guessed who we were, we gave him no time to ice his sled, to load his furs and food (what little food remained), to harness his dogs and flee. We slid into his camp just after first light, and he was outside his hut politely waiting for us in Devaki fashion with steaming mugs of blood tea.
“Ni luria la!” he called out, “Ni luria la!” In his white furs, which covered almost all of his face except his black eyes, he seemed as watchful as a wolf.
“Ni luria la!” I answered.
All at once three starved dogs bounded from the tunnel of his hut and ran among our dogs, barking, sniffing and licking each other’s black noses. The Timekeeper must have recognized my voice immediately; he must have seen that our sled was a city sled, that our dogs were city dogs who greeted his dogs with wagging tails and red tongues lolling. He set the mugs of blood tea down into the fluffy snow, ignoring the largest of his dogs when he began lapping down our welcoming drink. He threw back the hood of his furs. His smooth brown face was shiny with grease, set with the stamp of grim humor and fate.
“So, the bastard Ringess has tracked me. Or should I call you ‘Lord Ringess’? Ha!”
Before we had come to a stop, Soli was off the sled with his spear cocked behind his ear, aiming the point at the Timekeeper’s belly.
“Leopold,” the Timekeeper said. “Have you made your peace with your son? Tell me, does the City still stand? How did you escape my old bomb?”
Soli ground his teeth so hard that blood ran from his nose. I could see that he trembled to spear the Timekeeper, so I said, “Wait!”
“Yes, wait,” the Timekeeper repeated.
Quickly I told him that part of the City had been destroyed, that my mother and six thousand others lay frozen in a mass grave. I told him how my mother had died trying to save me from his slel–clone’s killing knife.
“I knew the bomb was old,” he said. “So old.”
“You’re a murderer,” Soli said. He kicked up a shower of snow as he planted his rear foot.
“So, here I stand, a murderer tracked and trapped by murderers.”
Soli’s fist tightened around the spear. I felt certain he was about to kill the Timekeeper. I watched the murder programs begin to run. But he surprised me. He stared the Timekeeper up and down and asked simply, “Why the City? The City you founded three thousand years ago? Is that true?”
The Timekeeper let out a puff of steam and turned to me. He said, “So, you’ve been inside the goddess, and she’s talked to you. What did she tell you about me, eh, Mallory?”
“She said you were the oldest human being, that you’ve been alive for thousands of years.”
“How old am I? What did she say?”
“She said you’ve been alive at least since the Holocaust Century.”
“I’m old, it’s true.”
I climbed out of the sled and stood by Soli. He stepped closer to the Timekeeper; the Timekeeper stepped backwards in the direction of the crevasse. “How old?” I asked.
“So old,” he said. “Very old. Older than the snow. Older than the ice of the sea.”
“You’ll have to pay for your murders,” Soli said.
For no good reason, the Timekeeper quickly looked up into the sky. I saw the old hell bubbling in his black eyes, and I knew that he had already paid for the murders with pieces of his soul. He was paying still; he would never stop paying.
“It’s so quick,” the Timekeeper said. “All human lives happen so quickly, a few hard seconds, no more. Is it murder to mercifully end their lives a few moments before the ticking stops of its own and they die a natural death? Tell me!”
But neither Soli nor I had anything to add about the nature of murder so we said nothing.
“The City’s had its time,” the Timekeeper said. “The Order, too. You know why I did what I did.”
“Did you have to kill my mother, then?”
“It was my double that killed her, not I.”
“No, you killed her.”
He made a fist and growled out, “Your mother and you, the bastard Ringess with your carked brains, your wild new ideas, all of you, the doom of the human race.”
I wiped ice from my eyelashes and said, “You would have killed me.”
“Once I tried to save you—do you remember?—saved you becaus
e I loved you like a son.” He glanced at Soli then quickly turned back to me. “Do you still have the book of poems? I wanted to save you from the goddess. I saved you too well, goddamn me for trying!”
I stepped closer to him. He was scratching Tusa’s ear, pointedly not looking at Soli’s raised spear. Jets of steam billowed from his nostrils in slow, even spurts. In the morning air I smelled his sour skin, his sweat, his carnivorous breath. He was afraid of something. His face was as hard as any human face I had ever seen, but there was fear cut into it. I moved closer, stepping between him and Soli. Soli cursed and began circling in order to have a clear line of sight should he decide to spear him after all.
I rubbed my cheeks, trying to warm them so my words wouldn’t be slurry. I said, “When the Lord Imprimatur unravelled your slel–clone’s DNA, he found nothing.”
“So? There’s nothing to find.”
“The Elder Eddas,” I said. “The secret of the Ieldra.”
“Gobbledygook!”
“The Entity told me their secret was embroidered in your chromosomes.”
“Gobbledygook!”
“What do you know about the Ieldra?”
“Piss on the Ieldra!”
“Why would the Ieldra warn me—warn all of us—of the goddess?”
He smacked his fist into his mitten and yelled out, “Why this? Why that? Why, why, why?”
“How old are you?” I asked.
“Old as stone.”
“What did the Ieldra do to you? I need to know.”
“Piss on you!”
I stepped closer; he stepped back. “Tell me, Kelkemesh,” I said. “I’ve come so far to know.”
He closed his eyes and grimaced. With his mouth open he threw his head back as if he were about to scream. It was the first time I had ever seen his eyes closed. “So, you know my name; then you know everything. What’s left to tell you, eh?”
“The secret.”
“How old?” Soli asked.
He pointed his chin at me and opened his eyes. He held his palm pushing out towards Soli. “I was born thirty thousand years ago,” he said. “Old Earth years. Do you need to know exactly how many years? One hundred and forty–two years more than thirty thousand years ago. One hundred and forty–two years, eighteen days and five hours more.” As he said this he pulled a fiat, gold clock from his furs, opened it, and said, “And fifteen minutes, more, twelve seconds, thirteen, fourteen, fifteen seconds...how many more seconds do I have? If the Ieldra would have had their way, I’d live forever. They made me to live forever, damn them! It’s my purpose, they would say. Their purpose.”
“That’s impossible,” Soli said. He circled back the other way so the Timekeeper stood between him and the crevasse. “No one could live that long.”
“Ha, Leopold, you’re wrong! Shall I tell you? One day, long ago, when the forests of Old Earth were green and seamless as a mechanic’s robe, they came down from the sky and told me they had chosen me to carry their message. The damn gods! I never saw their bodies; I don’t think they had bodies, maybe they had never had bloody bodies. Do gods have bodies like men? They appeared as balls of light, bright blue balls like the hottest flames of a woodfire. They told me this: They said that the Earth—even my Earth of thirty thousand years ago—they said it was too full of men. The lights in the sky were stars, they said. Soon men would leave Earth and wander among the stars. I thought I was going mad. No, they said, I was not going mad; I was one of one hundred and twenty–five immortals chosen to carry the Ieldra’s message through time. To carry their damn message so human beings, when we learned to burn the fuel of the stars, would listen to the voice of wisdom and not go mad, and we would not burn ourselves with starlight or other heavenly fires. The Ieldra—damn their faceless faces!—they said their spirits were ready to live within a sky so black and vast that not even the starlight could escape the blackness. A black hole, they said. I didn’t understand a word of their gobbledygook, of course. They told me they were sad to leave the human race alone, naked in our ignorance. “Naked!” I said to them. “Ignorant!” Why, I wore the skin of the wolf that I killed with my own hands, and I knew the name of every plant and animal in the forest! The Ieldra didn’t laugh at me because they had no mouths, but I heard them whispering and laughing inside me, all the same. Then they opened me, the bloody gods. They filled me with their crewelwork, every bit of me, embroidering every cell of my body, down to the last strand of DNA. They carked my seed, my goddamned soul! I didn’t understand what they were doing. I was so pissing afraid that I knocked my own teeth out with my fist. I was burning from inside out. It felt like I’d swallowed hot tallow, like I’d eaten the magic mushroom and lay dying of fever, all at the same time. After that they left me to my fate. They carked their consciousness into the core singularity and left me to wander Old Earth for most of thirty thousand years. My teeth soon grew back, of course, once, twice, many times, my damn teeth, every time I wore them out. They left me with these fine white teeth, to chew the bitter root of immortality, to taste the fruit of the world over and over until I was so sick of the world I could have died. But I couldn’t die, and that’s the hell of it. So now you know.”
I looked down for a moment, thinking about gods and immortality. The snow was up to my knees; it was so powdery and dry I could see each ice crystal tumbling down the holes I made as I stepped closer to the Timekeeper, closer to Soli.
To the Timekeeper I said, “The message inside you—don’t you want to know?”
“No.”
“Embroidered in your DNA.”
He grimaced again, revealing his long, white teeth. “No, there’s nothing there but disinformation and noise.”
“They’re gods! Why would you doubt the message of the gods?”
“Because they lie,” he said. “The gods, they lie.”
Soli pushed through the snow, circling right, then left. His hand was hard over the leather grip of the spear while he wiped his bleeding nose with the other. He was backing the Timekeeper towards the crevasse.
I held a naked hand to my chapped lips, then asked, “The other immortals, what happened to them? Where are they?”
“They’re dead,” the Timekeeper told me. “The Ieldra made us immortal, but we could be killed. A stone through the forehead, a knife...” and here he looked straight at Soli, “a spear through the heart—there are ways.”
“All of them? Dead by accident?”
“Old Earth was a very violent place.”
I saw that he was lying, or at least, he was keeping part of the truth from me. He watched Soli circle, watched the tip of his spear glowing golden as it caught the light of the rising sun. “You killed them, didn’t you?” I asked suddenly.
He jerked his chin up and caught me with his eyes. “So quick, Mallory. Always too damn quick. So, I hunted them down like sheep, now you know, all of them, one by one, even the five of them—shall I tell you their names?—even the five immortals who escaped the Holocaust and fled into the manifold.”
“Too bad,” I said.
“They’d lived too long and the secret had to be kept, eh?”
“And you’re the keeper of the secret?”
“So, I’m the Timekeeper and I’ve kept it all this time.”
“You’ve decoded the Eddas—am I right? Tell me what they say.”
“Tell yourself.”
“You’ve no right to keep this secret,” I said.
His eyes grew hot as coals and he shouted, “Rights? You talk of rights? The damn Ieldra took apart my soul! Not even gods have such a right.”
I held up my fist to show him my pilot’s ring. I said, “The day I received this, you called the quest for the Elder Eddas. The quest is over, then.”
“No, Mallory, it’s not over.”
“The imprimaturs could decode the Eddas from your insides
if—”
“There’s nothing to decode.”
“—if we brought you back to the City.”
Soli could kill him, I thought; he and I had raced across the sea just to kill him. I knew he blamed the Timekeeper for Katharine’s death, so when he moved his spear, I thought he was about to kill him. He was aching to kill him, but struggling to restrain himself. He licked blood from his mustache and said to me, “If you want this old killer to live, we don’t need his whole body. Yes, cut a few fingers off and freeze them. The imprimaturs can decode the Eddas from the DNA of his fingers.”
He stared at the Timekeeper, and the Book of Silence opened. I read a whole chapter of the Book. He, the proud Soli, was well pleased with himself for rising to his humanity and not spearing the Timekeeper. He loved the idea of being merciful and gracious at the last instant.
The Timekeeper’s lips pulled back in what could have been either a snarl or a smile. “Ha, is this all you want?” So saying he snapped his arm like a whip, and a long steel knife fell from his sleeve into his hand. He shook off the mitten from his other hand. As easily as I might trim the wick of an oilstone, he stretched out his little finger and lopped it off. The finger dropped into the fluffy snow and disappeared down a hole rimmed with blood, which quickly froze into little ruby crystals. He held his splayed, four–fingered hand in front of Soli’s face. White bone gleamed in the dark, red suck of the wound, but strangely there was little blood.
“Take my finger,” he said. And then he bent down, retrieved the finger from the punched–in hole. He flung it at Soli’s face. Soli moved his head aside, and it went sailing past him, sailing past me, and it fell again into the snow.
Such a little gesture of scorn, but the Timekeeper had read the Book of Silence, too. He must have known about Soli and scorn. Soli went mad, then. He fell into rage; every bit of humanity and graciousness fell away from his mad eyes. He ground his teeth and snorted, and blood sprayed out of his nose. His spear arm drew back behind his ear, far back with his forefinger straight along the spear shaft, pointing behind him at me.
“Read the book, Mallory,” the Timekeeper suddenly called out. I had no idea which book he was referring to. I tried to step closer, to stop the tide of violence beginning its surge, but I was already beginning to remember, and I could hardly move. “The book is for you.”
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