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by Cassie Edwards


  Jolena be­co­me numb in­si­de to know that Two Rid­ges was kin to her by blo­od!

  They had the sa­me fat­her!

  That me­ant that al­t­ho­ugh Two Rid­ges cer­ta­inly had not known it, he had fal­len in lo­ve with his sis­ter! The tho­ught sic­ke­ned her, and the only thing that hel­ped her ke­ep her sa­nity was that ne­it­her of them had known that when they we­re to­get­her they sho­uld ha­ve be­en re­j­o­icing over a brot­her and sis­ter ha­ving fi­nal­ly fo­und one anot­her!

  Now she pi­ti­ed Two Rid­ges mo­re than she co­uld ever ha­te him.

  She even pi­ti­ed her­self, for ne­ver co­uld she lo­ve Two Rid­ges as a sis­ter lo­ves a brot­her.

  He had ma­de that im­pos­sib­le!

  "Two Rid­ges is all right," Jole­na sa­id, se­ar­c­hing wit­hin her scram­b­led bra­in for a way to tell him that she knew he was ali­ve wit­ho­ut ac­tu­al­ly be­ing for­ced to tell him how she knew and the cir­cum­s­tan­ces of how she had es­ca­ped from her cap­tor­B­rown Elk's very own son!

  "Before I was thrown from the wa­gon and ren­de­red un­con­s­ci­o­us II saw Two Rid­ges jump from his hor­se be­fo­re it plun­ged over a ste­ep cliff… along with the ot­hers," she mur­mu­red, lo­we­ring her eyes. She ha­ted to lie, and she cur­sed Two Rid­ges for ha­ving ca­used her to!

  "My son is ali­ve," Brown Elk sa­id, sho­wing his re­li­ef as he sig­hed, then as­ked, "Spot­ted Eag­le?" He im­p­lo­red Jole­na with anot­her lo­ok of con­cern. "You saw Spot­ted Eag­le plun­ge to his de­ath?''

  "No, I did not wit­ness it, but­but I be­li­eve that it is so," Jole­na sa­id softly. "We­re he ali­ve, he wo­uld be he­re now. As for Two Rid­ges, he most su­rely did not see me thrown from the wa­gon. When he was for­ced to tra­vel wit­ho­ut a hor­se, I am su­re he be­gan wal­king even then to­ward the vil­la­ge. I do not know why I ar­ri­ved be­fo­re him. Per­haps he stop­ped to rest, or… to pray."

  She ha­ted Two Rid­ges mo­re by the mi­nu­te for put­ting her in the po­si­ti­on of ha­ving to add lie upon lie. Two Rid­ges had told her that he had se­en Spot­ted Eag­le fall to his de­ath, yet she co­uld not tell her Blac­k­fo­ot fat­her that Two Rid­ges had told her this wit­ho­ut ha­ving to ex­p­la­in why she had be­en with Two Rid­ges, whi­le she was trying to pre­tend that she had not be­en with him at all.

  She cir­c­led her hands in­to tight fists at her si­des, fin­ding this aw­k­ward and con­fu­sing and ha­ting it be­ca­use she wan­ted to be free of all emo­ti­ons ex­cept for be­ing happy at fi­nal­ly ha­ving fo­und her true fat­he­rand sad for ha­ving lost the only man she co­uld ever lo­ve!

  "It is not cer­ta­in that eit­her war­ri­or is de­ad," Brown Elk sa­id, ho­pe sho­wing in the depths of his eyes as he smi­led at Jole­na. "Let me ta­ke you to yo­ur true pe­op­le and let them see this da­ug­h­ter of mi­ne who has ne­ver for­got­ten her fat­her. I will in­t­ro­du­ce you and then tell Chi­ef Gray Be­ar the news of his son, Spot­ted Eag­le. We will then send out many of our war­ri­ors to se­arch for both mis­sing sons."

  Jolena co­uld not help but ho­pe, af­ter se­e­ing her Blac­k­fo­ot fat­her's calm re­ac­ti­on to the news, that per­haps Spot­ted Eag­le was ali­ve af­ter all. A gen­t­le pe­ace se­emed to em­b­ra­ce her as she al­lo­wed her­self to be­li­eve that Two Rid­ges had li­ed to her abo­ut Spot­ted Eag­le's de­ath!

  Oh, but if only he we­re ali­ve!

  Jolena wal­ked be­si­de her Blac­k­fo­ot fat­her, ab­sor­bing ever­y­t­hing aro­und her, fe­eling stran­gely as tho­ugh she had be­en in this pla­ce be­fo­re. It was eerie how she felt that she had se­en the sa­me hi­des pin­ned out to dry out­si­de the dwel­lings and how she had se­en the sa­me te­pe­es, and the te­pee pa­in­tings sho­wing the ex­p­lo­its of the hus­bands.

  Her ga­ze fell upon the raw­hi­de shi­elds that hung from tri­pods out­si­de many of the te­pe­es. Her cu­ri­osity ha­ving led her to study In­di­ans, she knew that the shi­elds we­re ce­re­mo­ni­al­ly tur­ned by the ow­ner se­ve­ral ti­mes a day to fa­ce the sun.

  As they ca­me clo­ser to the ac­ti­vity of the vil­la­ge, she saw so­me wo­men out­si­de co­oking in brass buc­kets which they had ob­ta­ined thro­ugh bar­ter with the Paw­nee of the North, who in turn had pro­cu­red them from whi­te tra­ders. Old men sat in the sun­s­hi­ne and con­tem­p­la­ti­vely smo­ked the aro­ma­tic mix­tu­re of to­bac­co le­aves and bark they cal­led kin­ni­ki­nick.

  Soon Jole­na be­ca­me awa­re that ever­yo­ne had be­co­me qu­i­et as the­ir eyes dis­co­ve­red her at Brown Elk's si­de. The chil­d­ren hid be­hind the buc­k­s­kin skirts of the­ir mot­hers. So­me wo­men went back in­si­de the­ir dwel­lings, the­ir lar­ge, dark eyes vi­sib­le as the cor­ners of the­ir en­t­ran­ce flaps, which we­re drawn slowly asi­de so they co­uld see this stran­ger who was of the­ir sa­me skin co­lo­ring, yet dres­sed as a whi­te per­son.

  Realizing how dis­he­ve­led she was, Jole­na re­ac­hed a hand to her ha­ir, gro­aning when she fo­und not­hing but wit­c­hes' knots and tan­g­les.

  Her ga­ze then swept down the full length of her­self, se­e­ing the rips and te­ars of her tra­vel skirt and the so­iling of her blo­use that now lo­oked mo­re mud­di­ed gray than whi­te.

  When Jole­na and Brown Elk re­ac­hed the lar­gest, most be­a­uti­ful­ly de­co­ra­ted te­pee of all, de­co­ra­ted with buf­fa­lo ta­ils and brightly pa­in­ted pic­tu­res of ani­mals on the out­si­de, her kne­es we­ake­ned when the en­t­ran­ce flap was ra­ised and an el­derly man, all sto­oped and thin in a long and flo­wing buc­k­s­kin ro­be, ca­me from the te­pee, le­aning he­avily on a staff. As she ga­zed up at him and fo­und her­self lost in his mid­nig­ht-dark eyes, she sur­mi­sed that this was Spot­ted Eag­le's chi­ef­ta­in fat­her and felt hum­b­le in his pre­sen­ce.

  He sta­red in­ten­sely at her, his lips par­ting in a slight gasp, and Jole­na was qu­ickly awa­re that he al­so saw her mot­her in her fe­atu­res.

  "You who re­sem­b­le so­me­one of our pe­op­le's past go­es by what na­me?" Chi­ef Gray Be­ar fi­nal­ly sa­id in a we­ak vo­ice. He ga­zed at Brown Elk. "Whe­re did you find her? Brown Elk, how can this be? Yo­ur wi­fe's gra­ve li­es just be­yond that ri­se. How can she be he­re?"

  "My wi­fe Swe­et Do­ve is al­ways with me in spi­rit," Brown Elk sa­id softly. He pla­ced an arm aro­und Jole­na's wa­ist and drew her to his si­de. "This is my ni-tunmy da­ug­h­ter. She has no Blac­k­fo­ot na­me. She was gi­ven the na­me Jole­na by tho­se who to­ok her from her ho­me­land eig­h­te­en sum­mers ago!" His eyes wi­de, Chi­ef Gray Be­ar to­ok a shaky step to­ward Jole­na. "It is truly you?" he sa­id, re­ac­hing his free hand to her che­ek, gu­ar­dedly to­uc­hing it. "After all the­se ye­ars, you ha­ve co­me ho­me to yo­ur fat­her and pe­op­le? How did you know to do this? How did you know abo­ut us?"

  "For so long I didn't," Jole­na sa­id, trem­b­ling be­ne­ath his gen­t­le to­uch and re­cal­ling how of­ten Spot­ted Eag­le had al­so to­uc­hed her the­re with such fe­elings. Mis­sing him so much at this mo­ment, her who­le body ac­hed from des­pa­ir and acu­te lo­ne­li­ness.

  "From the ti­me I was old eno­ugh, I knew the dif­fe­ren­ce bet­we­en myself and my play­ma­tes," she con­ti­nu­ed softly. "But only re­cently did I dis­co­ver my true he­ri­ta­ge."

  She lo­we­red her eyes and swal­lo­wed hard. "Spot­ted Eag­le saw my re­sem­b­lan­ce to my mot­her and ex­p­la­ined ever­y­t­hing to me," she sa­id softly, then ra­ised her eyes aga­in slowly. "Only then did I know that I was Blac­k­fo­ot and that my fat­her was Brown Elk."

  Chief Gray Be­ar for­ked an eyeb­row. "You know my son?" he sa­id. He lo­oked past her, then in­to her eyes aga­in. "I do not see him he­re. He did not ac­com­pany you
he­re, to in­t­ro­du­ce you to yo­ur true pe­op­le?"

  Jolena cast her Blac­k­fo­ot fat­her a tro­ub­led glan­ce, se­eking as­sis­tan­ce in ex­p­la­ining to a fat­her that his son might be de­ad!

  Brown Elk drew her clo­ser to his si­de, gi­ving her the com­fort that she was se­eking. He ex­p­la­ined to Gray Be­ar what had hap­pe­ned, tho­ugh he fo­und it hard to ex­p­la­in away his own son's ab­sen­ce sin­ce he sho­uld ha­ve ar­ri­ved back at the vil­la­ge by now.

  Chief Gray Be­ar le­aned mo­re he­avily in­to his ca­ne, the gri­ef and con­cern thick in his eyes and his vo­ice as he spo­ke. "We will not be­gin mo­ur­ning my son un­til his body has be­en bro­ught to his pe­op­le as pro­of of his de­ath," he sa­id. "I will send many war­ri­ors to se­arch for both our sons. I will spe­ak to the fi­res of the sun to bring them ho­me sa­fely to us."

  Then Chi­ef Gray Be­ar ra­ised a hand in the air and mo­ti­oned for his pe­op­le to co­me forth. Ever­yo­ne obe­yed and ca­me and sto­od qu­i­etly be­hind Jole­na and Brown Elk. Brown Elk ur­ged her aro­und to fa­ce them, as Chi­ef Gray Be­ar ad­dres­sed them.

  "One of our pe­op­le has re­tur­ned to us!" Chi­ef Gray Be­ar sho­uted, as best his vo­ice wo­uld carry in his we­ake­ned sta­te of he­alth. "Lo­ok upon her! You will see Swe­et Do­ve in her fe­atu­res! She is the da­ug­h­ter of Brown Elk and Swe­et Do­ve! She has co­me ho­me to us!"

  Now Jole­na un­der­s­to­od why so many of the wo­men had fled for shel­ter in­si­de the­ir te­pe­es when they had got­ten a bet­ter lo­ok at her. The ol­der wo­men re­mem­be­red Swe­et Do­ve as tho­ugh she we­re ali­ve only yes­ter­day!

  They su­rely tho­ught she had ri­sen from the de­ad!

  Now that Jole­na's true iden­tity had be­en ex­p­la­ined to them, they all ca­me to her in clus­ters, so­me smi­ling, so­me to­uc­hing, so­me hug­ging.

  Chief Gray Be­ar ca­me to Jole­na and him­self em­b­ra­ced her. "The­re sho­uld be a gre­at fe­ast to ce­leb­ra­te yo­ur re­turn to us," he sa­id, step­ping away from her. His eyes we­re ha­un­tingly dark as he pe­ered down at her. "But you un­der­s­tand that whi­le my son is mis­sing the­re can be no ce­leb­ra­ti­on?"

  "Yes, I un­der­s­tand," she mur­mu­red, de­ep wit­hin her­self wis­hing that she co­uld tell him that she un­der­s­to­od mo­re than he re­ali­zed. She wan­ted to sha­re her fe­elings with this el­derly, ailing man, abo­ut a son whom he ap­pa­rently ido­li­zed. She wan­ted to tell Chi­ef Gray Be­ar that she lo­ved him as much!

  But she knew that this was not the ti­me­even that the ti­me might ne­ver be af­for­ded her.

  If Spot­ted Eag­le we­re truly de­ad, the­ir fe­elings for one anot­her wo­uld be kept a sec­ret, sto­red sa­fely wit­hin the soft con­fi­nes of Jole­na's he­art, to enj­oy on tho­se nights when she al­lo­wed her­self to clo­se her eyes and pre­tend he was the­re with her aga­in.

  "Let us go in­si­de my dwel­ling," Brown Elk sa­id, aga­in pla­cing a pro­tec­ti­ve arm aro­und Jole­na's wa­ist and whis­king her away from the ot­hers. "The­re you will eat and be gi­ven clot­hes of our pe­op­le."

  Only for an in­s­tant did Jole­na think abo­ut the fat­her who had ra­ised and no­uris­hed her. The won­der of be­ing with her true fat­her was was­hing all tho­ughts of her past li­fe slowly away.

  "That so­unds won­der­ful," Jole­na sa­id, smi­ling at him. Over her sho­ul­der she wat­c­hed se­ve­ral war­ri­ors mo­unt the­ir pro­ud ste­eds and ri­de away. Her smi­le wa­ned, kno­wing whe­re they we­re go­ing.

  She clo­sed her eyes and ga­ve a si­lent pra­yer that Two Rid­ges had be­en lying abo­ut Spot­ted Eag­le and that he wo­uld be fo­und ali­ve and well.

  "White wo­man's at­ti­re sho­uld ha­ve ne­ver clot­hed you," sa­id Brown Elk, his vo­ice bre­aking. "Ne­ver shall it aga­in."

  The hurt in her fat­her's vo­ice drew Jole­na's tho­ughts back to him. At this mo­ment, he de­ser­ved her full at­ten­ti­on and de­vo­ti­on. He had be­en de­ni­ed the­se things for far too long.

  She fol­lo­wed him in­si­de his te­pee, whe­re she be­gan to ab­sorb ever­y­t­hing as tho­ugh her mind we­re a spon­ge, wan­ting to qu­ickly le­arn ever­y­t­hing that had be­en de­ni­ed her, to ma­ke up for lost ti­me.

  She al­re­ady felt de­ep in­si­de her so­ul that this was whe­re she be­lon­ged!

  Oh, but if only Spot­ted Eag­le co­uld ha­ve be­en a part of this dis­co­very of her­self as she was truly me­ant to be!

  Knowing that if she la­bo­red over tho­ughts of Spot­ted Eag­le much lon­ger, she wo­uld not be ab­le to ke­ep from we­eping, she held her chin pro­udly high as her fat­her hel­ped her down on­to a co­uch sof­te­ned with a cus­hi­on of buf­fa­lo ro­bes be­si­de the fi­re in the fi­re­pit.

  As Brown Elk pla­ced mo­re wo­od on the fi­re, Jole­na ga­zed aro­und her aga­in. The in­si­de walls of the te­pee we­re ma­de of brightly pa­in­ted cow­hi­de, re­ac­hing from the gro­und to a he­ight of fi­ve or six fe­et. The pa­in­tings por­t­ra­yed the va­ri­o­us bat­tles and ad­ven­tu­res in which her fat­her had ta­ken part. An air spa­ce abo­ut two or three in­c­hes thick had be­en left bet­we­en the in­ner li­ning and the lod­ge co­ve­ring. The air rus­hing up thro­ugh it from the out­si­de ma­de a draft which aided the lar­ge flap at the top to free the lod­ge of smo­ke.

  Three co­uc­hes we­re po­si­ti­oned aro­und the fi­re. At the fo­ot and he­ad of every co­uch, a mat ma­de of stra­ight, pe­eled wil­low twigs, fas­te­ned si­de by si­de, was sus­pen­ded on a tri­pod so that bet­we­en the co­uc­hes spa­ces we­re left as con­ve­ni­ent pla­ces to sto­re ar­tic­les which we­re not in use.

  The earth flo­oring of the lod­ge had be­en swept fan­tas­ti­cal­ly cle­an, and do­mes­tic pa­rap­her­na­li­aworn, gray mil­lsto­nes, go­urds, bas­kets, and clay pot­s­sat ne­atly in pla­ce along the walls.

  Jolena's eyes we­re drawn to an ex­hi­bit of war­ring at­ti­re and we­apons, which was most im­p­res­si­ve as the fi­re cast its dan­cing sha­dows upon the bows and ar­rows, the lan­ces de­co­ra­ted with many co­lor­ful fe­at­hers, and the rif­les with the­ir shi­ning bar­rels.

  She lo­oked for signs of wo­men's at­ti­re or ne­ed­le­work, se­e­ing not­hing of the kind, which had to me­an that her fat­her no lon­ger had a wi­fe.

  Jolena was re­min­ded of her hun­ger when se­ve­ral lo­vely Blac­k­fo­ot ma­idens ca­me in­to the te­pee car­rying an as­sor­t­ment of fo­od on wo­od plat­ters and in lar­ge ket­tles. She did not ha­ve to be as­ked twi­ce to par­ta­ke of the fo­od and was so­on stuf­fing her mo­uth with pem­mi­can ma­de of ber­ri­es and dri­ed back fat of buf­fa­lo, rab­bit stew with de­li­ci­o­us chunks of car­rots and cab­ba­ge flo­ating aro­und in the rich li­qu­id, and many ot­her things that she did not ta­ke the ti­me to ask the in­g­re­di­ents.

  She did not even no­ti­ce that her fat­her was not eating, in­s­te­ad amu­sedly wat­c­hing her. She se­emed to ha­ve lost all of her de­li­ca­te tab­le man­ners as she con­ti­nu­ed stuf­fing her mo­uth with fo­od un­til she sud­denly re­ali­zed that she co­uld not eat anot­her bi­te.

  Jolena did not ha­ve the ti­me to fe­el em­bar­ras­sed over her ill man­ners. So­met­hing el­se­anot­her ge­ne­ro­us of­fe­ring from mo­re wo­men­ma­de her bre­ath catch in her thro­at.

  "Those are for you," Brown Elk sa­id, ri­sing. He wal­ked to­ward the en­t­ran­ce flap. "I will le­ave as you dress yo­ur­self as a Blac­k­fo­ot wo­man sho­uld be dres­sed."

  "Thank you for ever­y­t­hing," Jole­na sa­id, smi­ling up at her fat­her as he ga­ve her a glan­ce over his sho­ul­der, then step­ped out­si­de, le­aving her alo­ne with the wo­men.

  "I shall bat­he and dress you, and Mo­on Flo­w
er will bra­id yo­ur ha­ir," a wo­man na­med Crying Wind sa­id as she bro­ught a lar­ge ba­sin of ste­aming wa­ter in­to the te­pee.

  Feeling pam­pe­red and enj­oying it, Jole­na shed her clot­hes and al­lo­wed the wo­men to do as they ple­ased with her. First her ha­ir was was­hed in wa­ter per­fu­med with what smel­led li­ke pi­ne ne­ed­les. Then, as she was be­ing was­hed with a soft cloth, she ga­zed down at the clot­hes that she wo­uld so­on be we­aring. She si­lently ad­mi­red the smock ma­de from tan­ned buf­fa­lo skins, the milk te­eth of an elk fas­te­ned in a row aro­und the neck of the dress. The­re was al­so a pa­ir of leg­gings that wo­uld re­ach to her kne­es, al­so ma­de of tan­ned skins.

  The black moc­ca­sins that sat be­si­de the dress and leg­gings we­re ma­de from tan­ned buf­fa­lo skin with par­f­lec­he so­les which gre­atly in­c­re­ased the­ir du­ra­bi­lity. They we­re or­na­men­ted over the to­es with a three-pron­ged fi­gu­re wor­ked in por­cu­pi­ne qu­il­ls and be­ads, the three prongs rep­re­sen­ting the three di­vi­si­ons, or tri­bes, of the Blac­k­fo­ot na­ti­on.

 

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