by Jill Cooper
Catch Cassidy before she destroys anything else.
“Three years ago. Right after grad. He tried, Lara. It was just—.”
I refuse to look at him. “Where?” I bark out the word, chewing on my inner lip, desperate to stay ahead of the pain. But it’s clamoring. It’s running for me and I don’t know if I can.
“He was found in the back of the alley. Shot himself.”
Not ‘an’ alley. The alley. Does that mean what I think it does? “The same alley where my mother—.”
“Yeah,” Donovan says sadly, “I know, it’s ironic, but maybe that place meant something to him.”
It wasn’t ironic. It was mean. A message delivered straight from Rex and Cassidy. They were practically mocking and laughing at me. “And no one saw?”
“Lara,” Donovan sighs, “Why don’t you remember any of this? What’s going on? If it was anyone else but you…”
Thank God for Donovan’s faith in me, in every timeline I’ve ever been in. “Before I passed out tonight, he was alive. He was alive, and now he’s not. And I’m the only one who can make this go away. Fix it.”
“But the system…if someone was traveling in time, the TTPA would know, wouldn’t they?”
“They didn’t when that stock information was stolen for you.” A pained expression rolls over his face as I say it, but it needs to be said and I don’t have the time to coddle him. “The TTPA system was designed on my frequency, but someone else…well, she’s running on a different frequency.”
“She?” Donovan’s words cut off as the old woman from the hall comes in. Her hair is done up in tight pink rollers and she’s in a purple nightgown. It’s her place, but I feel like she’s intruding and I glower as she opens a cabinet and pulls out a small wooden box.
“When I first rented this place, I was told you’d come, Ms. Montgomery. I always thought it was a joke.” The old woman extends the box, encouraging me to take it.
Instead, I only gawk at it. Cassidy is two steps ahead of me and now it’s time to catch up to her.
Stick her in her own damn cage.
****
We take the box home to the penthouse suite. I settle on the sofa while Donovan sits on the ottoman in front of me. His face is drawn and we both watch the box on my lap as if it’s a ticking bomb. I’m thankful he doesn’t think I’m crazy, or that I’m making this all up.
I flip the box open and the inside is lined with crushed velvet. Cushioned on top lays a short note. “You want to stop me, you’re going to have to come back and get me.” Under that is Dad’s obituary from the Boston Globe, but instead of a smiling photo, they had used his mug shot. I cover my mouth with my hand as I read it, dissect it, and memorize every word.
It comes back to me all at once, in a tidal wave.
Mom arriving at the college campus to tell me about Dad. She’s crumbling and in despair.
I lean on Donovan and it brings us closer together than ever.
Watching Mom and Jax forging a new bond as he helps us go through Dad’s things. Helps us clear out the apartment, and, on the day of the funeral…
Squeezing my eyes shut, I block the rest of the memories. I can’t face them anymore. I won’t. This is all temporary.
“You’re going to do it, aren’t you?” Donovan asks with a twinge of anger. “You’re going to go and save him.”
My eyes widen, amazed he’d pick now to fight me on this. “Like I have a choice. She’s messing with the timeline to mess with me. She’s started with Dad. Who knows who will be next?”
“Exactly. She wants you. It’s a trap, Lara.”
“Then I go back even further. I go back and study her. What she’s up to. What she’s going to do.”
“And then what?” Donovan asks with narrowed eyes.
I’m frustrated he won’t drop this. “Then I beat her at her own game. My game. She shouldn’t even be here.” I put the letter back into the box and then slam it shut. Sliding it onto the sofa, I hurry into the kitchen. Donovan follows me.
“You’ll get caught. The system is designed to catch you.”
I pull the fridge door open and grab the corked bottle of wine. Nothing would make me happier than to drown my sorrows in a glass, but I need to stay clear-headed. So, I put the bottle back with a sigh.
“Lara, you’ll get caught.” Donovan’s words are more forceful.
“They’ll need to catch me to stop me.”
Donovan shakes his head. “You’re playing a dangerous game.”
“I’m going to finish the game, but I didn’t start it. You did, the second you took that stock information. So, either help me or get out of my way, Don. If we’re going to be married, if we’re going to be together, we need to support each other. So, are we a team or are we nothing?”
He pales and his eyes fix on the floor. “Just tell me what it is you want me to do.”
****
My duffle bag, the same one I’ve had since the beginning of all this, is packed. The weight of it is heavy as I slip it over my shoulder. The fancy clothes of who I had become, are gone. Now I’m wearing jeans and a blue hoodie, just like I used to before I’d changed the past.
If I’m going to do this, I want to do it soon. I don’t want to linger in a timeline where my dad is dead. One in which John Crane had committed suicide? My skin itches just being here.
Donovan and I linger in the living room. “I didn’t mean to come at you so hard earlier,” The apology isn’t easy for me, but it’s one I need to make, “I’m sorry.”
He just shakes his head. “He’s your dad. I know what he means to you. I’m just…scared. I thought this part of our life was over.”
“And if it’s never really over? Do I still have you?” My chest tightens and I’m afraid of the answer.
Donovan’s eyes are sad. “Live like this forever? I don’t know if I can, Lara,” he shrugs and I see the beginning of tears in his eyes, “I just don’t know.”
We might as well be standing worlds apart. There’s so much grief drowning me, that I barely hear the doorbell.
Donovan gets the door and ushers Marcus inside and after the usual greetings, Marcus leans against our mantle. “You’re going to have to hang in there a little longer. Cameron is still at the TTPA. I don’t know what he’s doing there so late—.”
“Then I’ll take my chances.” I have to move and it has to be now.
Donovan and Marcus exchange a glance and I know that’s not good. “If they catch you, you’ll be harnessed and arrested, Lara. You won’t get another chance.”
“You said yourself,” Donovan says, “that since you’ve retapped into your power, you can’t control it. If you rush it, you don’t know where you’ll end up. Or if it’ll work at all.”
“Look what happened earlier tonight. The cage. Rex. If you skip into the wrong timeline…” Marcus says to try to talk me down off the ledge, but I won’t be reasoned with.
I hold up my hand. “I get it.” Listening to them makes me nauseous. “I can’t take listening anymore. I get it, but there has to be something you can do.” I swallow and think hard, trying to come up with a plan. “Donovan could call Cameron. Arrange a meeting with him. They have a history together.”
Donovan’s eyes narrow as I get too close to revealing his secret, but I hold firm. I won’t tell Marcus more than he needs to know.
“When he does that, you can go in and deactivate the system. Then I’ll travel back in time and hope no one catches me on the other side.”
Marcus sighs and Donovan wipes his mouth. “Okay,” Donovan says gently, “Okay.”
“This might not work. We might all end up behind bars.”
I smile sadly. “Your political connections can get you off, but if you’d rather not involve yourself…well, I understand.”
Marcus takes my hand and I avoid his gaze. “I know how much he means to you. And I will always do whatever I can to help you. Just remember, they want you to time travel, they’ve been pushing you towar
d this for days. You need to find out why. Outsmart them. Use your gifts wisely.”
Donovan watches us. “I’ll call Cameron. Pull him out to meet me in half an hour.”
Marcus nods. “I’ll get into position. You too, Lara, but please…”
“Careful. I got it.” I wiggle my fingers at him in a final greeting. I hope that one day soon, none of this will be necessary. That no one but me will even remember this happened.
He says goodnight, but I can’t find anything to respond with. All I can do is sulk and gaze across at the mantel. Donovan shows him out, and when he returns, his arm slips around me. Inside, I stew. He set a lot of this in motion, but even he had been manipulated by Cameron. I can’t hold it against him, but parts of me want to.
He pulls out his cell phone, still holding me as he brings Cameron’s number up on speed dial. Our eyes talk to each other the entire time. Both of us with so much to say.
It’s time for this to end, but I fear it’s only the beginning.
When it’s done, we both prepare to head out. The spoken…and unspoken angst between us festers, but still I watch him, longing cementing in my chest. “Be careful, Don.”
As he slips on his jacket, his eyes darken. “You too.”
There’s nothing else to say. He moves toward the door, but at the last second, changes his mind and we embrace for a final time. I cling to him in a way I haven’t in a long time and I stroke his cheek.
“We’ll turn out on top.”
His eyes aren’t so sure. “Will you fight for us?”
My lips press tight into a thin line and we share a kiss. “Always.”
Even if I have to fight against all my doubts and myself. Always.
Chapter Seventeen
With a deep breath, I ring the doorbell at Mom’s townhouse. A moment later, she answers with surprise. Her mouth drops open and her eyes widen. They crinkle in that way they always do when she’s tired, and I do my best to smile.
How had she taken Dad’s suicide? It must’ve been harder on her than most. Even more than me.
“Lara?” she tightens the strap of her bathrobe around her waist, “Is everything okay? Come in.”
She backs away from the door. I smile at her and gaze past her into the living room. Jax is sitting on the sofa with the newspaper laid out in front of him. It’s just as I remember from when they were happy and together. I’m about to destroy that all again by changing the past.
There’s always grief. Every decision unravels another, but I have to save my dad’s life. This isn’t how things are supposed to be, but for destroying their happiness, I’m sorry. I have to stop Cameron before something is changed that I can’t fix.
Jax waves and steps from the living room to greet me. “Hey! I didn’t know we’d see you again tonight.”
“It was a long night. I was wondering if I could spend the night here? If my old room is still available.”
“Always, honey.” Mom fusses with my hair. She straightens it and runs her fingers through it as if they’re a comb. “Is everything okay with you and Don?”
I tense, but Jax shakes his head at her. “Miranda, come on.”
“Well, the wedding is in just a few days, Jax,” Mom huffs, but smiles for me, “I mean, if something’s wrong you can tell your mother. That’s all I’m saying here. I’ll go get your bed made up. It’ll be like you never left.”
I watch her hurry off while Jax and I fall into an uncomfortable silence. It’s on my part because of everything I know. Everything I’m about to do.
“If someone comes for me tonight, Jax, I’m not here. You never saw me.”
“Something is going on.” Jax places his hand on my shoulder. “What is it? You know you can trust me. I hope out of everything, you know that.”
“I do, but it’s better for you, Mom, and the kids… Where are they anyway?”
“They’re upstairs. Molly will be happy to see you. She was asking about you when we got home.”
“I’ll say goodnight to her before I turn in. See you tomorrow, Jax.” I swallow my little white lie as I climb the stairs.
“Is it about that speech Cameron made tonight? Lara—.”
“Good night, Jax.” The less he knows, the better. And that was the honest truth.
Upstairs, I can hear the twins arguing—but that’s nothing new. “Molly,” Mike’s voice strains with anger, “you’re not making any sense.”
Molly’s been crying; there’s a warble in her voice. “I know they wouldn’t believe me, but I thought you would. Mike, you’re my twin. You feel what I feel. You are what I am!”
“Not like this. Sorry, Molly, but not like this. You’re freaking me out!”
I cringe and move down the hall so the kids can have their private conversation. As I approach my room, I can hear Mom humming. It’s nice to hear her happy, no matter the timeline I happen to be in. I watch her fluff my pillows. “Thanks, Mom. For everything. I know…I wasn’t an easy teenager to raise.”
She laughs as she comes over. “No, but you’ve always been worth it,” she kisses my cheek, “Let’s talk tomorrow morning, okay? Whatever is happening between you and Don…”
I nod. “Promise. Good night.” She heads back downstairs. Before I enter my room, Molly pulls her bedroom door open. She looks like a typical fourteen-year-old girl in her purple pajamas. Her top has a picture of an electric guitar rather than fluffy bunnies and princesses. I’m struck by how fast she’s growing up.
In a few years, she’ll be the same age I had been when I’d first traveled in time. I can’t even fathom or imagine her taking on so much, or risking her life like that.
Molly holds a tissue to her nose. “Lara!” she crushes me with a hug, “I’m so glad you’re here.” She squeezes me so tightly it hurts to breathe. There’s a ton of distress in her voice and I wonder what’s the matter.
“It’s good to see you too, Molly.” I stroke her curly hair, which is very similar to my own and she lifts her head. I see a trail of blood under her nose and in the tissue she clutches in her fist.
It makes my heart skip a beat to see her distress, even though I know I only have a few minutes left to get set up. “You okay? What’s going on?” I usher her into my old bedroom and guide her over to the bed. Together, we sit.
Molly shakes her head she wipes her nose clean. Her splotchy cheeks signal she’s been crying. “Something weird is going on.”
“Okay,” I’m guarded and I sit on edge, while I wait for her to get started, “Weird how? You and Mike have another fight?”
“No, no.” Molly’s fingers clench tight. I haven’t seen her this agitated in a long time. “We’re fine. Lara,” she places a hand on my shoulder as if she is the one that should be comforting me, “Your dad… This is going to sound crazy.”
“Just tell me, Molly.” Inside, I feel like I’m sitting on pins and needles.
Molly sighs and closes her eyes. She blurts it out as if it hurts to keep the secret in. A secret that’s desperate to come out. “I don’t think he’s supposed to be dead.”
The words she speaks are ones I never expected to hear, especially in this timeline. “What do you mean?” My voice hushes and there’s a slight tremble in its undertone.
Molly sighs and glances around the room as if she expects someone to interrupt us. “I know I just saw him a few days ago. I know it, then I had the memories. Like flashes? Of things I know I didn’t do. A funeral? When I asked Mom about it, she got really upset. She said he’s been dead for three years, but I…”
Her face crumbles and Molly sobs. I want to help her so I rub her back, but I’m having trouble processing everything she told me. How is it possible in this altered timeline that Molly remembers things from the previous timeline? Except for me, that has never happened before, at least to my knowledge.
I grab her wrists to steady her and that’s when I once again notice the bloodied tissue in her hand.
The streak of dried blood beneath her nose.
The flashes she spoke of were memories—two timelines, merging into one. But how? Then it dawns on me; what Rex had said to me long ago. Rewind had perfected time travel thanks to my mother’s brain scan. Time travel had been taken a step further because of my brain… And Molly…
She was next in line and after her…Cassidy.
It’s all linked together. We’re the answer.
“It’ll be okay.” I whisper because I’m not sure it’s true. I rub the back of her neck to calm her down, but also to check for a port. I sigh with relief. There’s nothing on the base of her neck. She’s still normal. She hadn’t been taken, so how come her memories from the altered past still exist?
“Am I crazy?” Molly gazes up at me with tearful, wide-eyes. My stomach churns to see her so upset. I wish there was a way to save her from this, but I don’t think one exists.
“You’re not crazy,” I say forcefully, “What I’m about to tell you, can’t leave this room. You’re right about everything. Dad isn’t supposed to be dead.”
“But,” Molly interrupts, “then why…Mom.” She points at the closed door as if Mom might be right there.
“She doesn’t remember, but I’m going to fix it. Whoever’s trying to destroy my family…tear us apart…I’m going to go find them, and then I’m going to stop them.” For good, but Molly doesn’t need all the details. She doesn’t need to know.
“Time travel?” Molly’s words are barely a whisper, “You’ll get caught. We’ll lose you too.”
“I have friends who can help. I’m not going to get caught, but I need to go now. I’m almost too late.” Ironic words spoken by a time traveler. “Wish me luck.”
“Good luck, Lara.” Molly kisses my cheek and being a good little soldier, hurries out of my room. She closes the door.
I set up on the other side of the bed with my duffle bag. Sitting with my legs crossed, I pull my bag open and pull out the newspaper clipping of my dad’s obituary. I focus on the date. I want to go back to three days before this date. Before Dad’s ‘suicide’. I can find Cassidy and stop her before she gets to him.
