by Sara Craven
Where, she realised with shock, the light was on.
Also—the room was occupied.
She stopped so abruptly that Alan nearly cannoned into her as she saw with horror exactly who was waiting for her.
Lorenzo Santangeli was lounging full-length on the sofa, totally at ease, jacket and tie removed, with his white shirt unbuttoned almost to the waist, its sleeves turned back over his bronze forearms.
An opened bottle of red wine and two glasses, one half-filled, stood on the low table in front of the sofa.
As she stood, gaping at him, he smiled at her, tossed aside the book he was reading and swung his legs to the floor.
‘Maria Lisa,’ he said softly. ‘Carissima. You have returned at last. I was becoming worried about you.’
Throat dry with disbelief, she found a voice from somewhere. ‘Renzo—I—I…’ She gulped a breath, and formed words that made sense. ‘What are you doing here?’
‘I wished to surprise you, my sweet.’ His voice was silky. ‘And I see that I have done so.’ He walked to her on bare feet, took her nerveless hand, and raised it briefly and formally to his lips before looking past her. With a feeling of total unreality she saw that he needed a shave.
He went on, ‘Will you not introduce me to your escort, and allow me to thank him for bringing you safely to your door?’
In the ensuing silence she heard Alan swallow—deafeningly. Got herself somehow under control.
She said quietly, ‘Of course. This is Alan Denison, an old friend, home on leave from Hong Kong.’ And he seems to have turned the most odd shade of green. I didn’t know people really did that.
For a moment she thought she saw a swift flicker of surprise in Renzo’s astonishing golden eyes. Then he said smoothly, ‘Ah, yes—I recall.’
‘We just—happened to run into each other.’ Alan spoke hoarsely. ‘In the street. This morning. And I asked your—Signora Santangeli—to have dinner with me.’
‘A kind thought,’ Renzo returned. He was still, Marisa realised, holding her hand. And instinct warned her not to pull away. Not this time.
All the same, he was far too close for comfort. She was even aware of the faint, beguiling scent of the cologne he used, and her throat tightened at the unwanted memories it evoked.
Alan began to back towards the door. If she hadn’t been in such turmoil, Marisa could almost have found it funny. As it was, she wanted to scream, Don’t go.
He babbled on, ‘But now I can safely leave her in your…’ He paused.
Oh, God, Marisa thought hysterically, please don’t say capable hands.
But to her relief, Alan only added lamely, ‘In your care.’
Which was quite bad enough, given the circumstances.
‘You are all consideration, signore. Permit me to wish you goodnight—on my wife’s behalf as well as my own.’ Keeping Marisa firmly at his side, Renzo watched expressionlessly as the younger man muttered something incomprehensible in reply, then fumbled his way out of the flat, closing the door behind him.
Once they were alone, she wrenched herself free and stepped back, distancing herself deliberately, her heart hammering against her ribcage.
As she made herself meet Renzo’s enigmatic gaze, she said defensively, ‘It’s not what you think.’
The dark brows lifted. ‘You have become a mind-reader during our separation, mia cara?’
‘No.’ It was her turn to swallow. ‘But—but I know how it must look.’
‘I know that he looked disappointed,’ Renzo returned pleasantly. ‘That told me all that was necessary. And you are far too young to claim a man as an old friend,’ he added, clicking his tongue reprovingly. ‘It lacks—credibility.’
She drew a deep breath. ‘When I want your advice I’ll ask for it. And Alan and I were friends—until you stepped in. Also,’ she went on, defiantly bending the truth, ‘he came back here this evening at my invitation—for coffee. That’s all. So please don’t judge other people by your own dubious standards.’
He looked at her with amusement. ‘I see that absence has not sweetened your tongue, mia bella.’
‘Well, you’re not obliged to listen to it,’ she said raggedly. ‘And what the hell are you doing here, anyway? How dare you walk in and—make yourself at home like this?’
Renzo casually resumed his seat on the sofa, leaning back against its cushions as if he belonged there. He said gently, ‘Not the warmest of welcomes, mia cara. And we are husband and wife, so your home is also mine. Where else should I be?’
Marisa lifted her chin. ‘I’d say that was an open question.’ A thought occurred to her. ‘And how did you get in, may I ask?’
Renzo shrugged. ‘The apartment is leased in my name, so naturally I have a key.’
There was a silence, then she said jerkily, ‘I—I see. I suppose I should have realised that.’
He watched her, standing near the door, her white cotton jacket still draped across her shoulders. His mouth twisted. ‘You look poised for flight, Maria Lisa,’ he commented. ‘Where are you planning to go?’
Her glance was mutinous. ‘Somewhere that you won’t find me.’
‘You think there is such a place?’ He shook his head slowly. ‘I, on the other hand, think it is time for us to sit down and talk together like civilised people.’
‘Hardly an accurate description of our relationship to date,’ she said. ‘And I’d actually prefer you to be the one to leave.’ She marched to the door and flung it wide. ‘You got rid of Alan, signore. I suggest you follow him.’
‘A telling gesture,’ he murmured. ‘But sadly wasted. Because I am going nowhere. I came here because there are things to be said. So why don’t you sit down and drink some wine with me?’
‘Because I don’t want any wine,’ she said mutinously. ‘And if there’s any talking to be done it should be through lawyers. They can make all the necessary arrangements.’
He stretched indolently, making her tinglingly and indignantly aware of every lean inch of him. ‘What arrangements are those?’
‘Please don’t play games,’ she said shortly. ‘Our divorce, naturally.’
‘There has never been a divorce in the Santangeli family,’ Renzo said quietly. ‘And mine will not be the first. We are married, Maria Lisa, and that is how I intend us to remain.’
He paused, observing the angry colour draining from her face, then added, ‘You surely cannot have believed that I intended this period of separation to be permanent?’
She looked at him defiantly. ‘I certainly hoped so.’
‘Then you will have to preserve your optimism until death parts us, carissima.’ His tone held finality. ‘This was a breathing space, no more than that.’ He paused. ‘As I made clear, though you may have chosen to think otherwise. But it makes no difference. You are still my wife, and you always will be.’
Her hands were clenched at her sides, the folds of her skirt concealing the fact that they were trembling.
‘Is that what you’ve come here to tell me—that I can never be free of you, signore? But that’s ridiculous. We can’t go on living like this. You can’t possibly want that any more than I do.’
‘For once we are in agreement,’ he said softly. ‘Perhaps it is a good omen.’
‘Don’t count on it.’
His mouth twisted. ‘With you, Maria Lisa, I count on nothing, believe me. Tuttavia, I am here to invite you to return to Italy and take your place beside me.’
For a moment she stared at him, appalled, and then she said, ‘No! You can’t. I—I won’t.’
He poured more wine into his glass and drank. ‘May I ask why not?’
She stared down at the carpet. She said huskily, ‘I think you know the answer to that already.’
‘Ah,’ he said. ‘You mean you are still not prepared to forgive me for the mistakes of our honeymoon. Yet even you must admit they were not completely one-sided, mia cara.’
‘You can hardly blame me,’ she flashed. ‘After all,
I promised you nothing.’
‘Then you were entirely true to yourself, mia bella, because you gave nothing,’ Renzo bit back at her. ‘And you cannot pretend you did not know the terms of our marriage.’
‘No, but I didn’t expect they’d be exacted in that particular way.’
‘And I did not expect my patience to be tried so sorely, or so soon.’ His golden gaze met hers in open challenge. ‘Maybe we have both learned something from that unhappy time.’
‘Yes,’ Marisa’s voice was stony. ‘I have discovered you can’t be trusted, and that’s why I won’t be going with you to Italy, or anywhere else. I want out of this so-called marriage, signore, and nothing you can say or do will change my mind.’
‘Not even,’ he said slowly, ‘when I tell you my father is sick and has been asking for you?’
She came forward slowly and sat down on the edge of the chair opposite, staring at him. She said shakily, ‘Zio Guillermo—sick?’ She shook her head. ‘I don’t believe you. He’s never had a day’s illness in his life.’
‘Nevertheless, he suffered a heart attack two nights ago.’ His tone was bleak. ‘As you may imagine, it was a shock to both of us. And now to you also, perhaps.’
‘Oh, God. Yes, of course. I can see…’ Her voice tailed away in distress. She was silent for a moment, then moistened her dry lips with the tip of her tongue. ‘Poor Zio Guillermo. Is it—very bad?’
‘No,’ he said. ‘He has been very fortunate—this time. You see that I am being honest with you,’ he added, his mouth curling sardonically. ‘At the moment his life is not threatened. But he has to rest and avoid stress, which is not easy when our marriage continues to be a cause of such great concern to him.’
She’d been gazing downwards, but at that her head lifted sharply. She said, ‘That’s—blackmail.’
‘If you wish to think so.’ Renzo shrugged. ‘Unfortunately, it is also the truth. Papa fears he will not live to see his grandchildren.’ His eyes met hers. ‘He does not deserve such a disappointment, Maria Lisa—from either of us. So I say it is time we fulfilled the terms of our agreement and made him a happy man.’
She stared back at him. She said, in a small, wrenched whisper, ‘You mean you’re going to—force me to have your child?’
He moved suddenly, restively. ‘I shall enforce nothing.’ His tone was harsh. ‘I make you that promise. What I am asking is your forgiveness for the past, a chance to make amends to you—and begin our life together again. To see if we can at least become friends in this marriage, if nothing else.’
Marisa sank her teeth into her bottom lip. ‘But you’ll still want me to do—that.’
His mouth hardened. ‘That,’ he said, ‘is how babies are made.’ He paused, then added quietly, ‘It is also how love is made.’
‘Not a word,’ Marisa said, icily, ‘that could ever be applied to our situation.’
He shrugged cynically. ‘Yet a girl does not have to be in love with a man to enjoy what he does to her in bed. Did your charming cousin not mention that in her pre-marital advice?’ He saw the colour mount in her face and nodded. ‘I see that she did.’
She said curtly, ‘It is not an opinion that I happen to share.’
‘And were you hoping for a more romantic encounter tonight, which I have spoiled by my untimely arrival?’ His smile did not reach his eyes. ‘My poor Marisa, ti devo delle scuse. You have so much to forgive me for.’
Her glance held defiance. ‘But not for this evening—which was a—mistake.’ One of so many I’ve made…
‘Che sollievo,’ he said softly. ‘I am relieved to hear it. He paused. ‘I have reservations on the afternoon flight tomorrow. I hope you can be ready.’
‘I haven’t yet said I’ll go with you!’ There was alarm in her voice.
‘True,’ he agreed. ‘But I hope you will give it serious consideration. However poorly you think of me, Maria Lisa, my father deserves your gratitude and your affection. Your return would give him the greatest pleasure. Can you really begrudge him that?’
She hesitated. ‘I could come for a visit…’
He shook his head. ‘No, per sempre. You stay for good.’ His mouth twisted. ‘You have to learn to be my wife, mia bella. To run the household, manage the servants, treat my father at all times with respect, entertain my friends, and appear beside me in public. This will all take time, although by now it should be as natural to you as breathing. I have waited long enough.’
He paused. ‘Also, at some mutually convenient time, you will begin to share my bed. Capisci?’
She turned away, saying in a suffocated voice, ‘Yes, I—I understand.’ She took a deep breath. ‘But I can’t possibly leave tomorrow. You see—I—I have a job, and I need to give proper notice.’
‘Your job at the Estrello Gallery is a temporary one,’ Renzo said casually. ‘And I am sure Signor Langford will make allowances once he understands the position.’
She swung back, staring at him in stunned silence. At last she said unevenly, ‘You—already knew? About my work—everything?’ Her voice rose. ‘Are you telling me you’ve been having me watched?’
‘Naturally,’ he returned, shrugging. ‘You are my wife, Marisa. I had to make sure that you came to no harm while we were apart.’
‘By having me—spied on?’ She took a quick breath. ‘My God, that’s despicable.’
‘A precaution, no more.’ He added softly, ‘And with your best interests at heart, mia cara, whatever you may think. After all, when you would not answer my letters or return my calls I had to maintain some contact with you.’
She pushed her hair back from her face with a shaking hand. ‘I only wish I’d thought of setting detectives on you. I bet I’d have all the evidence I need to be rid of this marriage by now.’
He said gently, ‘Or perhaps you would find that I am not so easily disposed of.’ He poured wine into the second glass and rose, bringing it to her. ‘Let us drink a toast, carissima. To the future.’
‘I can’t.’ Marisa put her hands behind her back defensively. ‘Because I won’t be a hypocrite. This is the last thing in the world I was expecting. You—must see that, and you have to give me more time—to think…’
‘You have had months to think,’ Renzo said. ‘And to come to terms with the situation.’
‘You make it sound so simple,’ she said bitterly.
‘You are my wife,’ he said. ‘I wish you to live with me. It is hardly complicated.’
‘But there are so many other girls around.’ She swallowed. ‘If not a divorce, we could have an annulment. We could say that nothing happened—after all, it hardly did—and then you could choose someone you wanted—who’d want you in return.’
‘There is no question of that.’ His tone was harsh. ‘I have come to take you home, Maria Lisa, and, whether it is given willingly or unwillingly, I shall require your agreement at breakfast tomorrow. No other answer will do.’
‘Breakfast?’ she repeated, at a loss. ‘You mean—you wish me to come to your hotel?’
‘You will not be put to so much trouble,’ he said. ‘I am spending the night here.’
‘No!’ The word burst from her. ‘You—you can’t. It’s quite impossible.’ She paused, swallowing. ‘Even you must see that the flat’s far too small.’
‘You mean that there is only one bedroom and one bed?’ he queried with faint amusement. ‘I had already discovered that for myself. But it need not be an obstacle.’
She wrapped her arms defensively round her body. ‘Oh, yes, it is,’ she said, her voice shaking. ‘Because I—I won’t…’ She flung her head back. ‘Oh, God, I knew I couldn’t trust you.’
‘Calmati!’ His voice bit. ‘I am under no illusion, mia bella, that I am any more welcome in your bed now than I was on our wedding night. And for the time being I accept the situation. So believe that you are quite safe. Inoltre, your sofa seems comfortable enough, if you will spare me a pillow and a blanket.’
She stared at him
almost blankly. ‘You’ll—sleep on the sofa?’
‘I have just said so.’ His brows lifted. ‘Is there some law forbidding it?’
‘Oh, no,’ Marisa denied hastily. She sighed. ‘Well, if—if you’re determined to stay, I’ll—get what you need. And a towel.’
‘Grazie mille,’ he acknowledged sardonically. ‘I hope you will not be so grudging with your hospitality when you are called upon to entertain our guests.’
‘Guests,’ she said grittily, ‘are usually invited. Also welcome.’
‘And you cannot imagine that a day might come when you would be glad to see me?’ he asked, apparently unfazed.
‘Frankly, no.’
‘Yet I can recall a time when your feelings for me were not quite so hostile.’
Pain twisted inside her as she remembered how hopelessly—helplessly—she’d once adored him, but she kept her voice icily level. ‘The foolishness of adolescence, signore.’ She shrugged. ‘Fortunately it didn’t last. Not once I realised what you really were.’
He said reflectively, ‘Perhaps we should halt there. I think I would prefer not to enquire into the precise nature of your discovery.’
‘Scared of the truth?’ Marisa lifted her chin in challenge.
‘Not at all,’ he said. ‘When it is the truth.’ He looked at her steadily, his mouth hard. ‘But I swore to myself on my mother’s memory that I would not lose my temper with you again, whatever the provocation.’ He paused significantly. ‘Yet there are limits to my tolerance, Maria Lisa. I advise you to observe them, and not push me too far.’
‘Why?’ She looked down at the floor, aware of a sudden constriction in her breathing. ‘What more can you possibly do to me?’
He said quietly, ‘I suggest you do not find out,’ and there was a note in his voice that sent a shiver the length of her spine. ‘Now, perhaps you will fetch me that blanket—per favore.’
She was halfway to her room when she realised he was right behind her.
She said, ‘You don’t have to follow me. I can manage.’
‘My travel bag is on your floor,’ he said tersely. ‘Also I wish to use the shower.’