by Unknown
Was it real or was it a play ?
It was Rhea, never Eunie, who would get frazzled by these questions. Eunie would just get on her bicycle and ride away.
"Toodeley oodeley oo! See you in the zoo!"
Eunie's job suited her, surely. The glove factory occupied the second and third floor of a building on the main street, and in the warm weather, when the windows were open, you could hear not only the sewing machines but the loud jokes, the quarrels and insults, the famous rough language of the women who worked there. They were supposed to be of a lower class than waitresses, much lower than store clerks.
They worked longer hours and made less money, but that didn't make them humble. Far from it. They came jostling and joking down the stairs and burst out onto the street. They yelled at cars in which there were people they knew, and people they didn't know. They spread disorder as if they had every right.
People close to the bottom, like Eunie Morgan, or right at the top, like Billy Doud, showed a similar carelessness, a blunted understanding.
During her last year at high school, Rhea got a job, too. She worked in the shoe store on Saturday afternoons. Billy Doud came into the store, in early spring, and said he wanted to buy a pair of rubber boots like the ones hanging up outside.
He was through college at last, home learning how to run Douds piano factory.
Billy took off his shoes and displayed his feet in fine black socks. Rhea told him that it would be better to wear woollen socks, work socks, inside rubber boots, so that his feet wouldn't slide around. He asked if they sold such socks and Spaceships Have Landed.
said he would buy a pair of those, too, if Rhea would bring them. Then he asked her if she would put the wool socks on his feet.
This was all a ploy, he told her later. He didn't need either one, boots or socks.
His feet were long and white and perfectly sweet-smelling.
A scent of lovely soap arose, a whiff of talcum. He leaned back in the chair, tall and pale, cool and clean—he himself might have been carved from soap. A high curved forehead, temples already bare, hair with a glint of tinsel, sleepy ivory eyelids.
"That's sweet of you," he said, and asked her to go to a dance that night, the opening dance of the season in the Walley Pavilion.
After that, they went to the dance in Walley every Saturday night. They didn't go out together during the week, because Billy had to get up early and go to the factory and learn the business—from his mother, known as the Tatar—and Rhea had to do some housekeeping for her father and brothers. Her mother was in the hospital, in Hamilton.
"There goes your heartthrob," girls would say if Billy drove by the school when they were out playing volleyball, or if he passed on the street, and in truth Rhea's heart did throb—at the sight of him, his bright hatless hair, his negli-gent but surely powerful hands on the wheel. But also at the thought of herself suddenly singled out, so unexpectedly chosen, with the glow of a prizewinner—or a prize—about her now, a grace formerly hidden. Older women she didn't even know would smile at her on the street, girls wearing engage-ment rings spoke to her by name, and in the mornings she would wake up with the sense that she had been given a great present, but that her mind had boxed it away overnight, and she could not for a moment remember what it was.
Billy brought her honor everywhere but at home. That was
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not unexpected—home, as Rhea knew it, was where they cut you down to size. Her younger brothers would imitate Billy offering their father a cigarette. "Have a Pall Mall, Mr. Sell-ers." They would flourish in front of him an imaginary package of ready-mades. The unctuous voice, the complacent gesture made Billy Doud seem asinine. "Putty" was what they called him. First "Silly Billy," then "Silly Putty," then "Putty"
by itself.
"You quit tormenting your sister," Rhea's father said. Then he took it up himself, with a businesslike question. "You aim to keep on at the shoe store?"
Rhea said, "Why?"
"Oh. I was just thinking. You might need it."
"What for?"
"To support that fellow. Once his old lady's dead and he runs the business into the ground."
And all the time Billy Doud said how much he admired Rhea's father. Men like your father, he said. Who work so hard. Just to get along. And never expect any different. And are so decent, and even-tempered, and kindhearted. The world owes a lot to men like that.
Billy Doud and Rhea and Wayne and Lucille would leave the dance around midnight and drive in the two cars to the parking spot, at the end of a dirt road on the bluffs above Lake Huron. Billy kept the radio on, low. He always had the radio on, even though he might be telling Rhea some complicated story. His stories had to do with his life at college, with parties and practical jokes and dire escapades sometimes involving the police. They always had to do with drinking.
Once, somebody who was drunk vomited out a car window, and so noxious was the drink he had taken that the paint was destroyed all down the side of the car. The characters in these stories were not known to Rhea, except for Wayne. Girls'
names cropped up occasionally, and then she might have to in-Spaceships Have Landed.
terrupt. She had seen Billy Doud home from college, over the years, with girls whose looks, or clothes, whose jaunty or fragile airs, she had been greatly taken with, and now she had to ask him, Was Claire the one with the little hat that had a veil, and the purple gloves? In church? Which one had the long red hair and the camel's-hair coat? Who wore velvet boots with mouton tops?
Usually, Billy was not able to remember, and if he did go on to tell her more about these girls, what he had to say might not be complimentary.
When they parked, and sometimes even while they drove, Billy put an arm around Rhea's shoulders, he squeezed her. A promise. There were promises also during their dances. He was not too proud to nuzzle her cheek then, or drop a row of kisses on her hair. The kisses he gave her in the car were quicker, and the speed, the rhythm of them, the little smacks they might be served up with informed her that they were jokes, or partly jokes. He tapped his fingers on her, on her knees, and just at the top of her breasts, murmuring apprecia-tively and then scolding himself, or scolding Rhea, saying that he had to keep the lid on her.
"You're quite the baddy," he said. He pressed his lips tightly against hers as if it was his job to keep both their mouths shut.
"How you entice me," he said, in a voice not his own, the voice of some sleek and languishing movie actor, and slipped his hand between her legs, touched the skin above her stocking—then jumped, laughed, as if she was too hot there, or too cold.
"Wonder how old Wayne is getting on?" he said.
The rule was that after a time either he or Wayne would sound a blast on the car horn, and then the other one had to answer. This game—Rhea did not understand that it was a contest, or at any rate what kind of a contest it was—came
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eventually to take up more and more of his attention. "What do you think?" he would say, peering into the night at the dark shape of Wayne's car. "What do you think—should I give the boy the horn?"
On the drive back to Carstairs, to the bootlegger's, Rhea would feel like crying, for no reason, and her arms, her legs, would feel as if cement had been poured into them. Left alone, she would probably have fallen fast asleep, but she couldn't stay alone because Lucille was afraid of the dark, and when Billy and Wayne went into Monk's Rhea had to keep Lucille company.
Lucille was a thin, fair-haired girl, with a finicky stomach, irregular periods, and a sensitive skin. The vagaries of her body fascinated her and she treated it as if it was a troublesome but valuable pet. She always carried baby oil in her purse and patted it on her face, which would have been savaged, a little while ago, by Wayne's bristles. The car smelled of baby oil and there was another smell under that, like bread dough.
"I'm going to make him shave once we get married,"
Lucille said. "Right before."
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sp; Billy Doud had told Rhea that Wayne had told him he had stuck to Lucille all this time, and was going to marry her, because she would make a good wife. He said that she wasn't the prettiest girl in the world and she certainly wasn't the smartest and for that reason he would always feel secure in the marriage. She wouldn't have a lot of bargaining power, he said. And she wasn't used to having a lot of money.
"Some people might say that was taking a cynical approach," Billy had said. "But others might say realistic. A minister's son does have to be realistic, he's got to make his own way in life. Anyway, Wayne is Wayne.
"Wayne is Wayne," he had repeated with solemn pleasure.
One time Lucille said to Rhea. "So how about you? Are you getting used to it?"
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"Oh, yes," Rhea said.
"They say it's better without gloves on. I guess I'll find out once I'm married."
Rhea was too embarrassed to admit not having understood at once what they were talking about.
Lucille said that once she was married she would be using sponges and jelly. Rhea thought that sounded like a dessert, but she did not laugh, because she knew Lucille would take such a joke as an insult. Lucille began to talk about the con-flict that was raging round her wedding, about whether the bridesmaids should wear picture hats or wreaths of rosebuds. Lucille had wanted rosebuds, and she thought it was all arranged, and then Wayne's sister had got a permanent that turned out badly. Now she wanted a hat to cover it up.
"She isn't a friend, even—she's only in the wedding because of being his sister and I couldn't leave her out. She's a selfish person."
Wayne's sister's selfishness had made Lucille break out in hives.
Rhea and Lucille had rolled down the car windows for air.
Outside was the night with the river washing out of sight, at its lowest now, among the large white stones, and the frogs and crickets singing, the dirt roads faintly shining on their way to nowhere, and the falling-down grandstand in the old fairgrounds sticking up like a crazy skeletal tower. Rhea knew that all this was there, but she couldn't pay attention to it.
More than Lucille's talk prevented her—more than the wedding hats. She was lucky: Billy Doud had chosen her, an engaged girl was confiding in her, her life was turning out perhaps better than anybody might have predicted. But at a time like this she could feel cut off and bewildered, as if she had lost something instead of gaining it. As if she had suffered a banishment. From what?
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Wayne had raised his hand to her across the room, meaning, was she thirsty? He brought her another bottle of Coca-Cola and slid down to the floor beside her. "Sit down before I fall down," he said.
She understood from the first sip, or maybe from the first sniff, or even before that, that there was something else in her drink besides Coca-Cola. She thought that she would not drink all, or even half of it. She would just take a little drink now and then, to show Wayne that he had not flummoxed her.
"Is that all right?" said Wayne. "Is that the kind of drink you like?"
"It's fine," Rhea said. "I like all kinds of drinks."
"All kinds? That's good. You sound like the right kind of girl for Billy Doud."
"Does he drink a lot?" Rhea said. "Billy?"
"Put it this way," said Wayne. "Is the Pope Jewish? No.
Wait. Was Jesus Catholic? No. Continue. I would not want to give you the wrong impression. Nor do I want to get clinical about this. Is Billy a drunk? Is he an alcoholic? Is he an assoholic? I mean an asshole-oholic? No, I got that wrong too.
I forgot who I was talking to. Excuse please. Eliminate. Solly."
He said all this in two strange voices—one artificially high, singsong, one gruff and serious. Rhea didn't think that she had ever heard him say so much before, in any kind of voice.
It was Billy who talked, usually. Wayne said a word now and then, an unimportant word that seemed important because of the tone in which he said it. And yet this tone was often quite empty, quite neutral, the look on his face blank- That made people nervous. There was a sense of contempt being held in check. Rhea had seen Billy try and try to stretch a story, twist it, change its tone—all in order to get Wayne's grunt of approval, his absolving bark of laughter.
Spaceships Have Landed.
"You must not come to the conclusion that I don't like Billy," said Wayne. "No. No. I would never want you to think that."
"But you don't like him," Rhea said with satisfaction. "You don't at all." The satisfaction came from the fact that she was talking back to Wayne. She was looking him in the eye. No more than that. For he had made her nervous, too. He was one of those people who make far more of an impression than their size, or their looks, or anything about them warrants. He was not very tall, and his compact body might have been pudgy in childhood—it might get pudgy again. He had a square face, rather pale except for the bluish shadow of the beard that wounded Lucille. His black hair was very straight and fine, and often flopped over his forehead.
"Don't I?" he said with surprise. "Do I not? How could that be? When Billy is such a lovely person? Look at him over there, drinking and playing cards with the common people. Don't you find him nice? Or do you ever think it's a little strange when anybody can be so nice all the time? All the time. There's only one time I've known him to slip up, and that's when you get him talking about some of his old girlfriends. Don't tell me you haven't noticed that."
He had his hand on the leg of Rhea's chair. He was rocking her.
She laughed, giddy from the rocking or perhaps because he had hit on the truth. According to Billy, the girl with the veil and the purple gloves had a breath tainted by cigarette smoking, and another girl used vile language when she got drunk, and one of them had a skin infection, a fungus, under her arms. Billy had told Rhea all these things regretfully, but when he mentioned the fungus he broke into a giggle. Unwillingly, with guilty gratification, he giggled.
"He does rake those poor girls over the coals," Wayne said.
"The hairy legs. The hal-it-os-is. Doesn't it ever make you
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nervous? But then you're so nice and clean. I bet you shave your legs every night." He ran his hand down her leg, which by good luck she had shaved before going to the dance. "Or do you put that stuff on them, it melts the hair away? What is that stuff called?"
"Neet," Rhea said.
"Neet! That's the stuff. Only doesn't it have kind of a bad smell? A little moldy or like yeast or something? Yeast. Isn't that another thing girls get? Am I embarrassing you? I should be a gentleman and get you another drink. If I can stand and walk, I'll get you another drink.
"This has not got hardly any whisky in it," he said, of the next Coca-Cola he brought her. "This won't hurt you." She thought that the first statement was probably a lie, but the second was certainly true. Nothing could hurt her. And nothing was lost on her. She did not think that Wayne had any good intentions. Nevertheless, she was enjoying herself. All the baf-flement, the fogged-in feeling she had when she was with Billy had burned away. She felt like laughing at everything that Wayne said, or that she herself said. She felt safe.
"This is a funny house," she said.
"How is it funny?" said Wayne. "Just how is this house funny? You're the one that's funny."
Rhea looked down at his wagging black head and laughed because he reminded her of some kind of dog. He was clever but there was a stubbornness about him that was close to stupidity. There was a dog's stubbornness and some misery, too, about the way he kept bumping his head against her knee now, and jerking it back to shake the black hair out of his eyes.
She explained to him, with many interruptions during which she had to laugh at the possibility of explaining, that what was funny was the tin curtain in the corner of the room.
She said that she thought there was a dumbwaiter behind it that went up and down from the cellar.
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"We could curl up on the shelf," Wayne said.
"Want to try it? We could get Billy to let down the rope."
She looked again for Billy's white shirt. So far as she knew, he hadn't turned around to look at her once since he sat down. Wayne was sitting directly in front of her now, so that if Billy did turn around he wouldn't be able to see that her shoe was dangling from one toe and Wayne was flicking his fingers against the sole of her foot. She said that she would have to go to the bathroom first.
"I will escort you," Wayne said.
He grabbed her legs to help himself up. Rhea said, "You're drunk."
"I'm not the only one."
The Monks' house had a toilet—in fact a bathroom—off the back hall. The bathtub was full of cases of beer—not cooling, just stored there. The toilet flushed properly. Rhea had been afraid it wouldn't, because it looked as if it hadn't for the last person.
She looked at her face in the mirror over the sink and spoke to it with recklessness and approval. "Let him," she said. ".'Let him." She turned off the light and stepped into the dark hall. Hands took charge of her at once, and she was guided and propelled out the back door. Up against the wall of the house, she and Wayne were pushing and grabbing and kissing each other. She had the idea of herself, at this juncture, being opened and squeezed, opened and squeezed shut, like an accordion. She was getting a warning, too—something in the distance, not connected with what she and Wayne were doing.
Some crowding and snorting, inside or outside of her, trying to make itself understood.
The Monks' dog had come up and was nosing in between them. Wayne knew its name.
"Get down, Rory! Get down, Rory!" he yelled as he yanked at Rhea's crinoline.
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The warning was from her stomach, which was being shoved so tightly against the wall. The back door opened, Wayne said something clearly into her ear—she would never know which of these things happened first—and she was suddenly released and began to vomit. She had no intention of vomiting until she started. Then she went down on her hands and knees and vomited until her stomach felt wrung out like a poor rotten rag. When she finished, she was shivering as if a fever had hit her, and her dance dress and crinoline were wet where the vomit had splattered.
