I wanted something to be settled. Neither of us had talked about it, but both of us knew it was there. Unspoken longing is all very well in poetry, but I’m the outspoken type. I like things out there where I can touch them.
In a manner of speaking.
Danyel sat between Kaz and me, cross-legged and bare-chested, looking as comfortable in his surf jams as if he lived in them. Come to think of it, he did live in them. His, Kaz’s, and Lissa’s boards were stuck in the sand behind us. They’d spent most of the afternoon out there on the waves. I tried to keep from ogling his pecs. Not that I didn’t appreciate the view, because trust me, it was fine, but I know a man wants to be appreciated for his talents and his mind.
Of course, he could ogle me anytime he wanted. Maybe he had but was too much of a gentleman to let me see it.
Danyel’s melody sounded familiar—something Gillian played before her prayer circles at school got started. I nudged Carly. “You guys going to church tomorrow?”
She nodded and lifted her chin at Lissa to get her attention. “We are, right?”
“Wouldn’t miss it,” Lissa said. “Kaz and his family, too. Last chance of the summer to all go together.”
And where Kaz went, Danyel went. Happy thought. Certainly made church interesting for me.
“Why, are you thinking of coming?” Carly’s brows rose a little, and I heard the question she wasn’t asking. What brought this on?
It’s not like I’m anti-religion or anything. I just don’t know that much about it. My parents don’t go to church, so I didn’t catch the habit from them. When she was alive and I was a little girl, my grandma used to take me to the one in her neighborhood across town. I thought it was an adventure, riding the bus instead of being driven in the BMW. And the gospel choir was like nothing I’d ever seen, all waving their arms in the air and singing to raise the roof. I always thought they were trying to deafen God if they could just get up enough volume.
So I like the music part. I’m just not sure about the God part.
“Yeah, I was.” I gave her a look. “You got a problem with that?”
“Not me. You haven’t exactly been beating Lissa to the car on Sundays, that’s all. From what I hear.”
“That’s because we walk, smart apple.”
“Uh-huh.” She sat back on her hands, an “I so see right through you” smile turning up the corners of her mouth. “I bet.” That smile told me she knew exactly what my motivation was. And it wasn’t to keep the pew warm.
The music changed and Danyel’s voice lifted into a lonely blues melody, pouring over my half-joking words like cream. I just melted right there on the spot. Man, could that boy sing.
Blue water, blue sky
Blue day, girl, do you think that I
Don’t see you, yeah I do.
Long sunset, long road,
Long life, girl, but I think you know
What I need, yeah, you do.
I do a little singing myself, so I know talent when I hear it. And I’d have bet you that month’s allowance that Danyel had composed that one himself. He segued into the chorus and then the bridge, its rhythms straight out of Mississippi but the tune something new, something that fit the sadness and the hope of the words.
Wait a minute.
Blue day? Long sunset? Long road? As in, a long road to San Francisco?
Whoa. Could Danyel be trying to tell someone something? “You think that I don’t see you”? Well, if that didn’t describe me, I didn’t know what would. Ohmigosh.
Could he be trying to tell me his feelings with a song? Musicians were like that. They couldn’t tell a person something to her face, or they were too shy, or it was just too hard to get out, so they poured it into their music. For them, maybe it was easier to perform something than to get personal with it.
Oh, man.
Be cool, girl. Let him finish. Then find a way to tell him you understand—and you want it, too.
The last of the notes blew away on the breeze, and a big comber smashed itself on the sand, making a sound like a kettledrum to finish it off. I clapped, and the others joined in.
“Did you write that yourself?” Lissa removed a marshmallow from her stick and passed it to him. “It was great.”
Danyel shrugged one shoulder. “Tune’s been bugging me for a while and the words just came to me. You know, like an IM or something.”
Carly laughed, and Kaz’s forehead wrinkled for a second in a frown before he did, too.
I love modesty in a man. With that kind of talent, you couldn’t blame Danyel for thinking he was all that.
Should I say something? The breath backed up in my chest. Say it. You’ll lose the moment. “So who’s it about?” I blurted, then felt myself blush.
“Can’t tell.” His head was bent as he picked a handful of notes and turned them into a little melody. “Some girl, probably.”
“Some girl who’s leaving?” I said, trying for a teasing tone. “Is that a good-bye?”
“Could be.”
I wished I had the guts to come out and ask if he’d written the song for me—for us—but I just couldn’t. Not with everyone sitting there. With one look at Carly, whose eyes held a distinct “What’s up with you?” expression, I lost my nerve and shut up. Which, as any of the girls could tell you, doesn’t happen very often.
Danyel launched into another song—some praise thing that everyone knew but me. And then another, and then a cheesy old John Denver number that at least I knew the words to, and then a bunch of goofy songs half of us had learned at camp when we were kids. And then it was nearly midnight and Kaz got up and stretched.
He’s a tall guy. He stretches a long way. “I’m running the mixer for the early service tomorrow, so I’ve got to go.”
Danyel got up and I just stopped myself from saying, “No, not yet.” Instead, I watched him sling the guitar over one shoulder and yank his board out of the sand. “Are you going to early service, too?” I asked him.
“Yeah,” he said, sounding a little surprised. “I’m in the band, remember?”
Argh! As if I didn’t know. As if I hadn’t sat there three Sundays in a row, watching his hands move on the frets and the light make shadows under his cheekbones.
“I just meant—I see you at the late one when we go. I didn’t know you went to both.” Stutter, bumble. Oh, just stop talking, girl. You’ve been perfectly comfortable talking to him so far. What’s the matter?
“I don’t, usually. But tomorrow they’re doing full band at early service, too. Last one before all the touristas go home. Next week we’ll be back to normal.” He smiled at me. “See you then.”
Was he looking forward to seeing me, or was he just being nice? “I hope so,” I managed.
“Kaz, you coming?”
Kaz bent to the fire and ran a stick through the coals, separating them. “Just let me put this out. Lissa, where’s the bucket?”
“Here.” While I’d been obsessing over Danyel, Lissa had run down to the waterline and filled a gallon pail. You could tell they’d done this about a million times. She poured the water on the fire and it blew a cloud of steam into the air. The orange coals gave it up with a hiss.
I looked up to say something to Danyel about it and saw that he was already fifty feet away, board under his arm like it weighed nothing, heading down the beach to the public lot where he usually parked his Jeep.
I stared down into the coals, wet and dying.
I couldn’t let the night go out like this.
“Danyel, wait!” The sand polished the soles of my bare feet better than the pumice bar at my pedicurist’s as I ran to catch up with him. A fast glance behind me told me Lissa had stepped up and begun talking to Kaz, giving me a few seconds alone.
I owed her, big-time.
“What’s up, ma?” He planted the board and set the guitar case down. “Forget something?”
“Yes,” I blurted. “I forgot to tell you that I think you’re amazing.”
He
blinked. “Whoa.” The barest hint of a smile tickled the corners of his lips.
I might not get another chance as good as this one. I rushed on before I lost my nerve. “I know there’s something going on here and we’re all leaving on Tuesday and I need to know if you—if you feel the same way.”
“About . . . ?”
“About me. As I feel about you.”
He put both hands on his hips and gazed down at the sand. “Oh.”
Cold engulfed me, as if I’d just plunged face-first into the dark waves twenty feet away. “Oh,” I echoed. “Never mind. I guess I got it wrong.” I stepped back. “Forget about it. No harm done.”
“No, Shani, wait—”
But I didn’t want to hear the “we can still be friends” speech. I didn’t want to hear anything except the wind in my ears as I ran away.
Delivered by Hand
September 21, 2009
His Serene Highness Sheikh Amir al-Aarez
Kingdom of Yasir
Office of the Private Secretary
Dr. Natalie Curzon, Principal
Spencer Academy
2600 Washington Street
San Francisco, California 94111
Dr. Curzon, greetings.
I am pleased to inform you that final security checks of the Spencer Academy campus have been completed. As outlined by our office earlier this summer, this letter will confirm His Serene Highness’s requirements for the accommodation of his beloved son, Prince Rashid al Amir.
1. It is not acceptable that the heir to the Lion Throne should stay in anything other than a private room. Therefore, Mr. Travis Fanshaw must be removed to another room.
2. In view of the regrettable incident involving Lady Lindsay MacPhail of the United Kingdom last May, the Prince’s personal security force will number not one agent, but two. One agent will be accommodated within the Prince’s room itself. The other will sleep in an adjoining room. I trust the students will appreciate the privilege of supporting the safety of the heir and will not be too greatly discommoded.
3. If the Prince prefers not to take his lessons with the other students, male tutors will be provided for him.
4. The Prince will not under any circumstances disrobe in the presence of others. Therefore his participation in physical education classes will be limited to those that do not require a uniform or special clothing. Should it be his wish to participate, he will require private shower and toilet facilities.
5. The Prince’s focus shall be on his studies. Please do your utmost to encourage him in academic endeavors, keeping always in mind that you are assisting in the education of a future king.
I am sure that Spencer Academy, its faculty, and its students are cognizant of the honor done their institution. I trust His Highness will enjoy a happy and productive term.
With very best wishes for your health, I remain,
Farshad Ma’mun
Farshad Ma’mun, MBA, Ph.D.
Private Secretary to His Serene Highness
The Sheikh of Yasir
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