by Rice, Anne
Aaron had tensed but sought to hide it. Perhaps he could hide it from her, but not from me.
So he’s told her nothing of that dangerous Mayfair family. They haven’t spoken of it—the dreadful Garden District Mayfairs, a tribe with supernatural powers, whom he had investigated for years. Our files on the Mayfairs went back for centuries. Members of our Order had died at the hands of the Mayfair Witches, as we were wont to call them. But this child mustn’t know about them through us, I had realized quite suddenly, at least not until Aaron had made up his mind that such an intervention would serve the good of both parties, and do no harm.
As it was, such a time never came to pass. Merrick’s life was complete and separate from that of the white Mayfairs. There is nothing of their story in these pages that I now write.
But on that long ago evening, Aaron and I had sought rather desperately to make our minds blank for the little witch who sat before us.
I don’t remember whether or not Merrick had glanced at us before she went on.
“There are Mayfairs living in that Garden District house even now,” she had said matter-of-factly, “—white people, who never had much to do with us, except through their lawyers.” How worldly her little laugh had sounded—the way people laugh when they speak of lawyers.
“The lawyers would come back of town with the money,” she said with a shake of her head. “And some of those lawyers were Mayfairs too. The lawyers sent Angelique Marybelle Mayfair north to a fine school, but she came home again to live and die right here. I would never go to those white people.” The remark had been almost off-handed. She went on.
“But Great Nananne talks about Oncle Julien just as if he was living now, and they all said it when I was growing up, that Oncle Julien was a kind man. Seems he knew all his colored relations, and they said that man could kill his enemies or yours with the look in his eye. He was a houn’gan if there ever was one. I have more to say about him by and by.”
She had glanced quite suddenly at Aaron and I’d seen him glance away from her almost shyly. I wonder if she had seen the future—that the Talamasca File on the Mayfair Witches would swallow Aaron’s life, as surely as the Vampire Lestat had swallowed mine.
I wondered what she thought about Aaron’s death even now, as we sat at the café table, as I spoke softly to the handsome and well-defended woman whom that little girl had become.
The feeble old waiter brought her the fifth of rum she had requested, the St. James from Martinique, dark. I caught the powerful scent of it as he filled her small, heavy octagonal glass. Memories flooded my mind. Not the beginning with her, but other times.
She drank it just the way I knew she would, in the manner I remembered, as if it were nothing but water. The waiter shuffled back to his hiding place. She lifted the bottle before I could do it for her, and she filled the glass again.
I watched her tongue move along the inside of her lip. I watched her large searching eyes look up again into my face.
“Remember drinking rum with me?” she asked, almost smiling, but not quite. She was far too tense, too alert for that just yet. “You remember,” she said. “I’m talking about those brief nights in the jungle. Oh, you are so right when you say that the vampire is a human monster. You’re still so very human. I can see it in your expression. I can see it in your gestures. As for your body, it’s totally human. There isn’t a clue.…”
“There are clues,” I said, contradicting her. “And as time passes you’ll see them. You’ll become uneasy, and then fearful and, finally, accustomed. Believe me, I know.”
She raised her eyebrows, then accepted this. She took another sip and I imagined how delicious it was for her. I knew that she did not drink every day of her life, and when she did drink she enjoyed it very much.
“So many memories, beautiful Merrick,” I whispered. It seemed paramount that I not give in to them, that I concentrate on those memories which most certainly enshrined her innocence and reminded me of a sacred trust.
To the end of Aaron’s life, he had been devoted to her, though he seldom spoke of it to me. What had she learnt of the tragic hit-and-run accident that had caught Aaron unawares? I had been already gone out of the Talamasca, out of Aaron’s care, and out of life.
And to think we had lived such long mortal lives as scholars, Aaron and I. We should have been past all mishap. Who would have dreamt that our research would ensnare us and turn our destiny so dramatically from the dedication of those long loyal years? But hadn’t the same thing happened to another loyal member of the Talamasca, my beloved student Jesse Reeves?
Back then, when Merrick had been the sultry child and I the amazed Superior General, I had not thought my few remaining years held any great surprise.
Why had I not learnt from the story of Jesse? Jesse Reeves had been my student even more surely than Merrick ever became, and the vampires had swallowed Jesse whole and complete.
With great devotion Jesse had sent me one last letter, thick with euphemisms, and of no real value to anyone else, letting me know that she would never see me again. I had not taken Jesse’s fate as a caution. I had thought only that for the intense study of the vampire, Jesse Reeves had been too young.
It was all past. Nothing remained of that heartbreak. Nothing remained of those mistakes. My mortal life had been shattered, my soul soaring and then fallen, my vampire life erasing all the small accomplishments and consolations of the man I’d once been. Jesse was among us and I knew her secrets, and that she’d always be quite faraway from me.
What mattered now was the ghost that Jesse had only glimpsed during her investigations, and the ghost story that haunted Louis, and the bizarre request which I now made to my beloved Merrick that she call the ghost of Claudia with all her uncommon skill.
2
In the still café, I watched Merrick take another deep drink of the rum. I treasured the interval in which she let her eyes pass slowly over the dusty room.
I let my mind return to that long ago night at Oak Haven, as the rain struck the windowpanes. The air had been warm and heavy with the scent of the oil lamps and the busy fire on the hearth. Spring was upon us but the storm had cooled the air. She’d been speaking of the white family named Mayfair of whom she knew so little, she said.
“None of us with any sense would do that,” she continued, “go to those white cousins, expecting anything from any of them on account of a name.” She had brushed it all aside. “I’m not going to white people and try to tell them that I’m their own.”
Aaron had looked at me, his quick gray eyes concealing even his tenderest emotions, but I knew that he wanted me to respond.
“There’s no need, child,” I had said. “You are ours now, if you choose to be. We are your own. Why, it’s already understood. This is your home forever. Only you can change things, if you wish.”
A chill had come over me, of something momentous and meaningful, when I’d spoken those words to her. I had indulged the pleasure. “We’ll always take care of you.” I had underscored it, and I might have kissed her had she not been so ripe and pretty, with her bare feet on the flowered carpet and her breasts naked beneath her shift.
She had not replied.
“All gentlemen and ladies, it seems,” Aaron had said, perusing the daguerreotypes. “And in such excellent condition, these little portraits.” He had sighed. “Ah, what a wonder it must have been in the 1840s when they learnt to take these pictures.”
“Oh, yes, my great-great uncle wrote all about it,” she had said. “I don’t know if anyone can read those pages anymore. They were crumbling to bits when Great Nananne first showed them to me. But as I was saying, these are all his pictures. Here, the tintypes, he did those too.” She had a woman’s weariness in her sigh, as though she’d lived it all. “He died very old, they say, with a house full of pictures, before his white nephews came and actually broke them up—but I’ll come to that.”
I had been shocked and bruised by such a revelation, unable
to excuse it. Broken daguerreotypes. Faces lost forever. She had gone on, lifting the small rectangles of tin, many unframed yet clear, from her cardboard treasure chest.
“I open boxes sometimes from Great Nananne’s rooms, and the paper is all little bits and pieces. I think the rats come and they eat the paper. Great Nananne says rats will eat your money and that’s why you have to keep it in an iron box. Iron’s magical, you know that. The sisters—I mean the nuns—they don’t know that. That’s why in the Bible you couldn’t build with an iron shovel, because iron was mighty and you couldn’t put the iron shovel above the bricks of the Lord’s temple, not then, and not now.”
It seemed a bizarre intelligence, though she had been most technically correct.
She’d let her words wander. “Iron and shovels. It goes way back. The King of Babylon held a shovel in his hand with which he laid the bricks of the temple. And the Masons, now they keep that idea in their Order, and on the one-dollar bill you see that broken pyramid of bricks.”
It had amazed me, the ease with which she touched on these complex concepts. What had she known in her life, I wondered. What sort of woman would she prove to be?
I remember that she’d been looking at me, as she’d said those words, gauging my reaction, perhaps, and it had only then become clear to me how much she needed to talk of the things she’d been taught, of the things she thought, of the things she’d heard.
“But why are you so good?” she had asked, searching my face rather politely. “I know with priests and nuns why they’re good to us. They come and bring food and clothes to us. But you, why are you good? Why did you let me in and give me a room here? Why do you let me do what I want? All day Saturday I looked at magazines and listened to the radio. Why do you feed me and try to get me to wear shoes?”
“Child,” Aaron had interjected. “We’re almost as old as the Church of Rome. We’re as old as the orders of the sisters and the priests who’ve visited you. Yes, older, I would say, than almost all.”
Still she had looked to me for an explanation.
“We have our beliefs and our traditions,” I had said. “It’s common to be bad, to be greedy, to be corrupt and self-seeking. It’s a rare thing to love. We love.”
Again, I had enjoyed our sense of purpose, our commitment—that we were the inviolate Talamasca, that we cared for the outcast, that we harbored the sorcerer and the seer, that we had saved witches from the stake and reached out even to the wandering spirits, yes, even to the shades whom others fear. We had done it for well over a thousand years.
“But these little treasures—your family, your heritage,” I’d hastened to explain. “They matter to us because they matter to you. And they will always be yours.”
She’d nodded. I had got it right.
“Witchcraft’s my calling card, Mr. Talbot,” she’d said shrewdly, “but all this comes with me too.”
I had enjoyed the fleeting enthusiasm which had illuminated her face.
And now, some twenty years after, what had I done, seeking her out, finding her old house in New Orleans deserted, and spying upon her at Oak Haven, walking the broad upstairs galleries of Oak Haven like an old Penny Dreadful Vampire, looking into her very bedroom until she sat up and spoke my name in the darkness.
I had done her evil, I knew it, and it was exciting, and I needed her, and I was selfish, and I missed her, and it was as plain as that.
It had been only a week ago that I wrote to her.
Alone in the town house in the Rue Royale, I’d written by hand in a style that hadn’t changed with my fortunes:
Dear Merrick,
Yes, it was I whom you saw on the porch outside your room. It was not my intention to frighten you but merely to solace myself by looking at you, playing the guardian angel, I must confess, if you will forgive me, as I hovered outside the window for the better part of the night.
I have a request for you, which I make from my soul to yours. I cannot tell you what it is in this letter. I ask that you meet me in some place that is public, where you will feel safe from me, a place that you yourself choose. Answer at this post box, and I’ll be prompt in replying. Merrick, forgive me. If you advise the Elders or the Superior General of this contact, they will in all likelihood forbid you to meet with me. Please give me this little while to speak with you before you take such a step.
Yours in the Talamasca forever,
David Talbot.
What audacity and egoism to have written such a note and delivered it into the iron mailbox at the end of the drive in the hours before dawn.
She’d written back, a note rather tantalizing in its details, full of undeserved affection.
I cannot wait to talk with you. Be assured, whatever shocks this meeting will hold in store for me, I seek you inside the mystery—David, whom I have always loved. You were my Father when I needed you, and my friend ever after. And I have glimpsed you since your metamorphosis, perhaps more often than you know.
I know what happened to you. I know of those with whom you live. The Café of the Lion. Rue St. Anne. Do you remember it? Years ago, before we ever went to Central America, we ate a quick lunch there. You were so wary of us setting out for those jungles. Do you remember how you argued? I think I used a witch’s charms to persuade you. I always thought you knew. I’ll come early each evening for several nights in hopes that you’ll be there.
She had signed the note exactly as I had signed my own:
“Yours in the Talamasca forever.”
I had put myself before my love of her, and my duty to her. I was relieved that the deed was done.
Back then, when she’d been the orphan in the storm, such a thing had been unthinkable. She was my duty, this little wanderer who had come so surprisingly, on her own, one evening to knock on our door.
“Our motives are the same as your motives,” Aaron had said to her most directly on that long ago night at Oak Haven. He’d reached out and lifted her soft brown hair back from her shoulder, as if he were her elder brother. “We want to preserve knowledge. We want to save history. We want to study and we hope to understand.”
He had made another soft sigh, so unlike him.
“Ah, those white cousins, the Garden District Mayfairs, as you called them, and most correctly, yes, we know of them,” he had admitted, surprising me, “but we keep our secrets unless prompted by duty to reveal them. What is their long history to you just now? Their lives are interconnected like thorny vines forever circling and recircling the same tree. Your life might have nothing to do with that bitter struggle. What concerns us here now is what we can do for you. I don’t speak idle words when I tell you that you may rely upon us forever. You are, as David has said, our own.”
She had reflected. It had not been simple for her to accept all of this, she was too used to being alone with Great Nananne—yet something strong had impelled her to trust us before she’d ever come.
“Great Nananne trusts you,” she had said, as if I’d asked her. “Great Nananne said that I was to come to you. Great Nananne had one of her many dreams and woke up before daylight and rang her bell for me to come. I was sleeping on the screen porch and I came in and found her standing up in her white flannel gown. She’s cold all the time, you know; she always wears flannel, even on the hottest night. She said for me to come sit down and listen to what she had dreamed.”
“Tell me about it, child,” Aaron had asked. Had they not spoken of this completely before I’d come?
“She dreamed of Mr. Lightner, of you,” she’d said, looking to Aaron, “and in the dream you came to her with Oncle Julien, white Oncle Julien from the clan uptown. And the two of you sat by her bed.
“Oncle Julien told her jokes and stories and said he was happy to be in her dream. She said that. Oncle Julien said that I was to go to you, you here, Mr. Lightner, and that Mr. Talbot would come. Oncle Julien spoke French and you yourself were sitting in the cane-backed chair and smiling and nodding to her, and you brought her in a cup of cof
fee and cream the way she likes it, with half a cup of sugar and one of her favorite silver spoons. In and out of her dreams, Great Nananne has a thousand silver spoons.” The dream continued:
“You sat on her bed, finally, on her best quilt beside her, and you took her hand, and she had all her best rings on her hand, which she doesn’t wear anymore, you know, and you said in the dream, ‘You send me little Merrick,’ and you said you’d take care of me, and you told her that she was going to die.”
Aaron had not heard this strange recounting, and he’d seemed quite taken, amazed. Lovingly, he’d answered:
“It must have been Oncle Julien who said such a thing in the dream. How could I have known such a secret?”
I’d never forgotten his protest, because it had been very unlike him to commit himself even to ignorance, and to press so hard upon such a point.
“No, no, you told her,” the fairy child had said. “You told her the day of the week and the hour of the clock, and it’s yet to come.” She had looked thoughtfully once more at her pictures. “Don’t worry about it. I know when it’s going to happen.” Her face had been suddenly full of sadness. “I can’t keep her forever. Les mystères will not wait.”
Les mystères. Did she mean the ancestors, the Voodoo gods, or merely the secrets of fate? I’d been unable to penetrate her thoughts to any degree whatsoever.
“St. Peter will be waiting,” she’d murmured as the visible sadness had slowly receded behind her veil of calm.
Quite suddenly, she’d flashed her glance on me and murmured something in French. Papa Legba, god of the crossroads in Voodoo, for whom a statue of St. Peter with his keys to Heaven might do quite well.
I had noted that Aaron could not bring himself to question her further on the matter of his role in the dream, the date of Great Nananne’s imminent death. He had nodded, however, and once again, with both hands he’d lifted her hair back from her damp neck where a few errant tendrils had clung to her soft creamy skin.
