by Cilla Lee
“Yeah, I'm good,” I tell her
*
We spend the next half an hour taking photos, I really would have liked a photo with either of the twins, but apparently, they have somewhere else to be because I haven't seen Saint either. Everyone makes their way into the clubhouse taking a seat; there's no seating chart so everyone can sit where ever they want.
The laughter and happiness coming off of everyone is amazing, all the women look phenomenal in their pastel colors while the guys are in there usual bikery attire. Lena is in an amazing light blue dress that has sequence all over it's a mermaid style dress accentuating all of her gorgeous curves, Niya's in a light lilac dress with a sweetheart neckline backless dress that's skin-tight her hair up and curled as well. Everyone looks amazing; I sit at the main table next to Lilly. The table is dressed in whites and silver. I've only ever seen something like this in a magazine or on TV and never in a million years would I have thought that I'd be sitting at a table like this. I watch Lilly walk around laughing and smiling, god how we've come so far in just over a year and to think that maybe next year Lilly might become a mother (shit a mother) I couldn't imagine the women I met a few years ago would want to have a kid let alone a husband.
“You ok Tink” I look up and see Chelsea smiling at me.
“I'm good.”
“You looked lost in thought.”
“I was”
“Can I ask what you were thinking about” I look at her
“Just life, me Lilly how far we've come.”
“She looks happy doesn't she.”
“Yeah, she really does.”
“No date than” I smile
“No, no date” I know she wants to know what happened with me and the douche
“Well I'm going to find a hot biker to dance with,” she says making me smile again
“Well, you've got a great selection,” I tell her and she laughs
“See ya later Tink” I give her a chin lift as I see her make her way towards Cuff.”
I dance laugh and drink with the new family I have, I even take Logan off of Maggie and have a dance with him making him giggle his cute little smile. I can see why Lilly wants a baby; Logan is gorgeous.
The time for speeches comes just after dinner, and I watch Colt get up and give his speech about Stryker and him as kids than Tiny than it's my turn. I stand up and all eyes on me I take a deep breath and Lilly grabs my hand giving it a squeeze.
“I'm not sure if many of you know this, but Lilly is not my biological sister, we may not be sisters by blood but where sisters of the heart much like all of the men here tonight. We may not have grown up together, but we've lived a lifetime together in the short amount of time we've been together. When Lilly and I first met I was begging for food; I remember sitting in front of the store she found me at for days. I hadn't eaten in almost a week, and she stopped and helped me. I knew that God had sent Lilly to me and I'm thankful every day that he did. I know that if she hadn't helped me I would most likely be dead. I never knew what love was growing up, and Lilly showed me that, she was my savior in every way and I'm proud to call her my sister and my friend. I never wanted to stop in this town, but Lilly dragged me off of the train telling me she had a good feeling about it and I'm glad we did, we've found something that many people never find. Love happiness and family, The Devils Soldiers, Stryker and Tiny have been a godsend and I will always be grateful to you all. So, before I blubber everywhere and mess up my makeup more, lift your glasses to Stryker Lilly and the Devils Soldiers” Everyone lifts their glasses and then yells
“DEVILS SOLDIERS FOREVER” I smile as Lilly, and Stryker get up and pulls me in for a big hug.
“I love you Tink” Lilly whispers, and I kiss her on the cheek.
After all of the speeches were over with it was time for the first dance. Lilly had been listening for the past month trying to come up with the perfect song when one day we were headed to the grocery store when the perfect song came on the radio. She jumped for joy knowing she'd found her first dance song where she could dance as husband and wife.
'Say you won't let go by James Arthur' starts and Lilly and Stryker make it to the dance floor, and the room goes quiet, we watch as they dance together kissing and whispering to each other and I know whatever Stryker is saying to Lilly is not PG rated. I feel a tap and look up as Tiny holds out his hand, I know I'm supposed to dance with Colt, but I would prefer to dance with Tiny. We make our way to the dance floor, and I tell Colt to get Niya. The six of us dance around each other, and I can't help but smile. Even in my heels I look like a child in Tiny's arms, not as much when I'm near Sinner or Saint, but still, everyone is taller than me even Zoey Niya's sister “How are you Tink” Tiny asks
“How are you,” I ask him, and he smiles, and we both look at Lilly and Stryker
“They look good don't they,” he says, the look on their faces says it all
“Yeah, they do,” I tell him
We dance to another song, and I realize Tiny's not a bad dancer at all, I was worried that he'd crush my feet, but so far, he's dancing amazing
“Tiny”
“Yeah, darlin’.”
“Why did Sinner leave” Tiny looks at me
“Family business,” he says not elaborating
“Is there anything I can help with.”
“No darlin’.”
“Ok” I feel sad that I won't get to dance with Sinner, I know where never going anywhere together but I really wanted to dance with him just once.
Chapter Twenty
Sinner
When I pull up to the barn Mom and Dad are standing at their car talking to Saint “What's going on?” I ask them
“Mom and Dad want to put Rowen in a rehab facility,” Saint says, and I look at both of my parents
“Why now, why didn't you do it when you found out she was on drugs?”
“We didn't know it was that serious” I look at my mother.
“Not that serious, how serious did you want it to get when she was dead or selling her body to pay for the shit.”
“Jaxson don't talk to your mother like that” Dad says, and I look at him
“Then don't fuckin’ come here all worried now when you should have fuckin’ done something before.”
“We didn't know until she got expelled from college,” Mom says
“Don't fuckin’ go there you knew if she was hanging out with Taylor shit was gonna go bad.”
“We didn't know” my Mom cries do I feel like shit for yelling at my Mom, yes, but they've had their heads in the god damn sand for too long
“She's staying here,” I tell them
“Jaxson” Dad says
“It's fuckin’ Sinner,” I say to my Dad staring him down, he takes a deep breath
“Fine Sinner, she needs to be in a facility that can help her more like counseling professionals that will help her through it” I look at Saint, and he seems torn
“Saint,” I say, and he nods
“She's over the worst of it, but she needs more than we can do” I look at my parent’s Mom has tears in her eyes, and I can tell they feel like they've failed
“Fine”
*
It takes us two hours to get to the rehab center; Rowen slept most of the time, Mom held her hand the whole way. But when we got there the demon came out in Rowen, and they had to drag her in kicking and screaming cursing us all. We were shown around the place, and it did seem nice the counseling alone will hopefully be worth it for Rowen “How long has she got to be in here” Saint asked the chick
“Your parents have put Rowen in here for four months.”
“Do you think that's enough time.”
“It depends on Rowen; it's all up to her if she wants to get better.”
“Can she leave.”
“No, your parents have put an involuntary stay on Rowen.”
“Do you think forcing her to do this will work”
“Look locking up and forcing peop
le to be treated is challenging, in the end, the person has to want to be treated.”
“What's gonna happen now?”
“We'll watch Rowen until the worst part is over the first few weeks are extremely hard the fight, and because she's here at the request of your parents, she'll be in a secure part of the compound until we can assess her mental state and then go from there.”
“Can we visit her.”
“Unfortunately, the first month is just for her to adjust and like I said until we can determine Rowen's mental state, I'm not willing to make any assumptions” He shows us more of the place, and I feel a sense of failure why didn't I know she was in trouble.
The ride home is quite not one of us saying anything, getting back to the barn mom and dad left straight away “You going back to the wedding” Saint asks me
“Nah I'm not in the mood.”
“Me neither.”
“I think I'm just gonna head to bed,” I tell him
“It's only nine.”
“Yeah I know I just need to think.”
“Ok night Jordan.”
“It's Saint fuckhead,” I say, and he smiles, I watch TV for a few hours, but my mind keeps thinking about Tink in her dress. I bang on Saint's door, and he grumbles when I open it
“Yo dickhead I'm heading back to the clubhouse” he looks up at me surprised.
“You sure.”
“Yeah, I need a drink.”
“Fuck it; I'm coming.”
We lock up the barn and head back to the clubhouse, hopefully, the parties still going on. Pulling into the clubhouse we can see the party is still in full swing, we park the van and head inside
“Brothers” Cuff says dragging us in for a hug (ok he's drunk) “You come to party.”
“Yeah, man have the bride and groom left.”
“Yeah man Stryker was itchin’ to get Lilly out of her weddin’ dress” we laugh, I mean who wouldn't right, I look around but don't see Tink anywhere “She's in the kitchen,” Cuff says, and I look towards the kitchen
“Go get her Brother,” Saint says smiling
I walk towards the kitchen and hear laughing, as I walk in all eyes turn to me but Tink, she has her back to me. My heart rate picks up, and my palms start to sweat I nod for all the women to leave just before Tink turns. They all walk out leaving me and Tink alone
“I thought you left,” she says surprised to see me
“Had something to do.”
“With your new girlfriend,” she asks, and I frown at her
“What? I don't have a girlfriend.”
“Don't lie Jaxson; I saw you at the Den with her. The new stripper Rowen, Diamond said you and Jordan claimed her” I snort at her and she gives me the evil eye
“Baby Rowen's not a stripper she's my sister” she seems confused.
“Your sister,” she asks me.
“Yeah, my pain in the ass little sister.”
“Than what was she doing at the clubhouse the other day.”
“She got into some trouble and Saint, and I had to look after her.”
“Your sister like blood sister” I smile.
“Yeah, baby same Mom and Dad.”
“Is she ok?” she asks looking worried
“She will be,” I tell her (fuck she’s beautiful)
“Can I help.”
“Nah baby no-one can help her but herself” she looks down at the floor.
“You missed Lilly and Stryker leaving,” she tells me
“I know, but I'm here to see if you wanna dance with me” she looks up in shock again
“You wanna dance with me.”
“Tink, I wanna do more than dance with you” I step forward and lace my fingers through her hair pulling her to me and kissing her hard on the lips, she moans, and I walk her backwards until she at the counter. I lift her up and step between her legs pulling her forward, so her pussy can feel how hard I am.
“Jaxson,” she says all breathy, and my dick almost explodes, I kiss her neck sucking on it. I grind my dick on her and slide her dress up and run my fingers up her leg. She grabs my hand stopping me
“I thought you wanted a dance,” she says, and I smile, my head on her shoulder, she’s right I don't want to fuck her for the first time on the kitchen counter
“I do, come on” I help her down and pull her to me, I tuck her under my arm, and we walk out to the dance floor where we dance together body to body my lips never leaving her body.
****
Tink
The second I saw Abbey's face, I knew Jaxson was there. I turned slowly just so it wasn't a dream, and there he was. Standing there in front of me, my heart rate sped up so fast I swear you could hear it outside of my body. My nipples were rock hard, and that familiar ache started between my legs started. When he told me that Rowen was his sister my heart jumped for joy “You wanna dance with me” I asked scared at the way he was looking at me but excited as well
“Tink I wanna do more than dance with you” goose bumps broke out all over my body, with the thought of more and before I knew it. He steps forward threading his fingers in my hair as he pulled me to him, he kisses me hard on the lips and I involuntary moan. My body coming alive with his touch, he walks me backwards, and I feel the counter behind my back, and he lifts me up stepping between my legs, he pulls me forward, and I feel how hard he is (god he feels huge). I feel my panties get wetter with every flick of his tongue
“Jaxson,” I say out of breath (I need to slow this down you don't want to lose your virginity next to the kitchen sink), he kisses and licks my neck, then sucks hard and I know I'm going to have a hickey. He grinds himself on my very wet crotch and starts to slide up my dress; I grab his hand stopping him from going any further “I thought you wanted a dance” I feel him smiling, his head resting on my shoulder
“I do, come on” he helps me down and pulls me to him, where he tucks me under his arm. We walk out into the main hall, where he holds me tight to him kissing my neck driving me even more insane. His tongue and lips nip lick and suck my neck the whole time we dance, his cock rock hard rubbing my stomach. I feel out of my depth, Jaxson is like nothing I've ever experienced before, he's so intense the way he makes me feel is putting me off kilter, and I need a breath, but I don't want him to let me go. I've wanted this for so long when he looks me in the eye I feel it to my soul
“I want you Tink” I swallow hard every breath burning with want; I want him so much.
“Take me,” I tell him, this longing I have for him has been driving me insane, this is what I never had with the douche the need to be his.
“You sure baby” I nod my head, but my brain is screaming (yes)
“I want you Jaxson so much take me” he growls bending down and lifts me up over his shoulder and whistles erupt throughout the room. As we walk down the hall, I felt embarrassed but excited the fact that everyone just saw us is embarrassing but I've dreamt of this.
Sinner opens the door to his room, and I notice most of his furniture is broken. He puts me down and starts kissing me hard, he pulls me up, and I'm teetering on my tippy toes, and he walks me backwards. Maybe if where horizontal it will make it better. My legs hit the end of the bed
“Turn around baby,” he says kissing my neck, god I can't get enough of it. I turn slowly; I feel my zipper going down and hold the front of the dress up, so I'm not exposed. I know I have underwear on bit I've never been naked in front of anyone in my life “Baby let it fall” I hesitate to let him see me naked, I have horrible scars on my back from Mrs. Johnson's cane they've never really been a big issue until now. Plus, I can't see them unless I turn around and look at them through a mirror which I never do, I have a few on my stomach where the cane came all the way around, but I never look at myself naked “Tink” Jaxson says pulling me out of my thoughts. I take a deep breath and let the dress fall, it pools around my feet, and I hear Jaxson take a sharp breath in “Fuck baby what happened” I go to pick my dress up, but he steps on it
; “It's nothing,” I tell him
“Nothing Tink it looks like you've been whiplashed” I snort at his comments and turn around and look at him
“I was” his face drops in horror.
“Who the fuck did this” I look down trying to cover the marks on my stomach but he grabs my hands, and I feel tears falling down my face “Baby who did this?” he pulls me to him, and I cry, I cry so hard he picks me up and lays me on the bed holding me tight. I don't know how long I cry for, but Jaxson comforts me the whole time running his hands up and down my arm. My tears stop, and I've gotten control of myself again, and he lifts my chin, so I'm looking at him “Who done this Tink?” he asks again
