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by Charles Wright


  Circle of voices slipstreaming through the oiled evening.

  Hmmm … Not exactly transplendent:

  Look to the nature of all things …

  The clouds slide from the west to the east

  Over the Berici Mountains, hiding the half of what he spoke of.

  Wind is asleep in the trees,

  weighing the shelled leaves down.

  A radio comes and goes from a parked car below the hill.

  What is it these children chant about

  In their games?

  Why are their voices so like those

  I thought I heard just moments ago

  Centrifugal in their extantsy?

  Concentrate, listen hard …

  A motor scooter whines up the hill road, toward the Madonna.

  —9 July 1985

  (Cà Paruta)

  —All morning the long-bellied, two-hitched drag trucks

  Have ground down the mountainside

  loaded with huge, cut stone

  From two quarries being worked

  Some miles up the slope. Rock-drilled and squared-off,

  They make the brakes sing and the tires moan,

  A music of sure contrition that troubles our ears

  And shudders the farmhouse walls.

  No one around here seems to know

  Where the great loads go or what they are being used for.

  But everyone suffers the music,

  We all sway to the same tune

  when the great stones pass by,

  A weight that keeps us pressed to our chairs

  And pushes our heads down, and slows our feet.

  Volcanic originally, the Euganean hills

  Blister a tiny part,

  upper northeast, of the Po flood plain.

  Monasteries and radar stations

  Relay the word from their isolate concentration,

  Grouped, as they are, like bread mold

  and terraced like Purgatory.

  Their vineyards are visible for miles,

  cut like a gentle and green

  Strip-mining curl up the steep slopes.

  During the storm-sweeps out of the Alps,

  From a wide distance they stand like a delicate Chinese screen

  Against the immensity of the rain.

  Outside my door, a cicada turns its engine on.

  Above me the radar tower

  Tunes its invisible music in:

  other urgencies tell their stories

  Constantly in their sleep,

  Other messages plague our ears

  under Madonna’s tongue:

  The twilight twists like a screw deeper into the west.

  Through scenes of everyday life,

  Through the dark allegory of the soul

  into the white light of eternity,

  The goddess burns in her golden car

  From month to month, season to season

  high on the walls

  At the south edge of Ferrara,

  Her votive and reliquary hands

  Suspended and settled upon as though under glass,

  Offering, giving a gentle benediction:

  Reality, symbol and ideal

  tripartite and everlasting

  Under the bricked, Emilian sun.

  Borso, the mad uncle, giving a coin to the jester Scoccola,

  Borso receiving dignitaries,

  or out hawking,

  Or listening to supplications from someone down on his knees,

  Or giving someone his due.

  Borso d’Este, Duke of Ferrara and Modena, on a spring day

  On horseback off to the hunt:

  a dog noses a duck up from a pond,

  Peasants are pruning the vines back, and grafting new ones

  Delicately, as though in a dance,

  Ghostly noblemen ride their horses over the archway,

  A child is eating something down to the right,

  a monkey climbs someone’s leg …

  Such a narrow, meaningful strip

  of arrows and snakes.

  Circles and purple robes, griffins and questing pilgrims:

  At the tip of the lion’s tail, a courtier rips

  A haunch of venison with his teeth;

  At the lion’s head,

  someone sits in a brushed, celestial tree.

  What darkness can be objectified by this dance pose

  And musician holding a dead bird

  At each end of the scales?

  What dark prayer can possibly escape

  The black, cracked lips of this mendicant woman on her pooled

  knees?

  The shadowy ribbon offers its warnings up

  under the green eyes of heaven.

  Up there, in the third realm,

  light as though under water

  Washes and folds and breaks in small waves

  Over each month like sunrise:

  triumph after triumph

  Of pure Abstraction and pure Word, a paradise of white cloth

  And white reflections of cloth cross-currented over the cars

  With golden wheels and gold leads,

  all Concept and finery:

  Love with her long hair and swans in trace,

  Cybele among the Corybants,

  Apollo, Medusa’s blood and Attis in expiation:

  All caught in the tide of light,

  all burned on the same air.

  Is this the progression of our lives,

  or merely a comment on them?

  Is this both the picture and what’s outside the picture,

  Or decoration opposing boredom

  For court ladies to glance up at,

  crossing a tiled floor?

  How much of what we leave do we mean to leave

  And how much began as fantasy?

  Questions against an idle hour as Borso looks to his hounds,

  Virgo reclines on her hard bed

  under the dragon’s heel,

  And turreting over the green hills

  And the sea, color of sunrise,

  the city floats in its marbled tear of light.

  From my balcony, the intense blue of the under-heaven,

  Sapphiric and anodyne,

  backdrops Madonna’s crown.

  Later, an arched stretch of cloud,

  Like a jet trail or a comet’s trail,

  vaults over it,

  A medieval ring of Paradise.

  Today, it’s that same blue again, blue of redemption

  Against which, in the vine rows,

  the green hugs the ground hard.

  Not yet, it seems to say, O not yet.

  Heavy Italian afternoon: heat drives like a nail

  Through the countryside,

  everything squirms

  Or lies pinned and still in its shining.

  On the opposite slope, Alfredo, his long, curved scythe

  Flashing and disappearing into the thick junk weeds

  Between the vine stocks, moves,

  with a breathy, whooshing sound,

  Inexorably as a visitation, or some event

  The afternoon’s about to become the reoccasion of:

  St. Catherine catching the martyr’s head

  in her white hands;

  St. Catherine urging the blades on

  As the wheel dazzles and turns,

  Feeling the first nick like the first rung of Paradise;

  St. Catherine climbing, step by step,

  The shattering ladder up

  to the small, bright hurt of the saved.

  —25 July 1985

  (Cà Paruta)

  —Rilke, di Valmarana, the King of Abyssinia

  And countless others once came to wash

  At his memory, dipping their hands

  into the cold waters of his name,

  And signing their own

  In the vellum, nineteenth-century books

  The Commune of Padova provided,

  each g
raced page

  Now under glass in the fourteenth-century stone rooms

  The poet last occupied.

  We’ve come for the same reasons, though the great registers

  No longer exist, and no one of such magnitude

  Has been in evidence for some years.

  On the cracked, restored walls,

  Atrocious frescoes, like those in an alcove of some trattoria,

  Depict the Arcadian pursuits

  He often wrote of,

  dotted with puffy likenesses

  Of the great man himself, intaglio prints of Laura

  And re-creations of famous instances

  In his life.

  Poems by devotees are framed and hung up

  Strategically here and there.

  In short, everything one would hope would not be put forth

  In evidence on Petrarch’s behalf.

  Arquà Petrarca, the town he died in,

  and this is,

  Dangles in folds and cutbacks

  Down the mountainside,

  medieval and still undisturbed

  In the backwash he retired to, and the zone remains,

  Corn, vineyards and fig orchards.

  The town’s on the other side of the hill, and unseen,

  And from the second-floor balcony,

  southward across the Po Valley,

  The prospect is just about

  What he would have looked at,

  the extra roadway and house

  Gracious and unobtrusive.

  I ghost from room to room and try hard

  To reamalgamate everything that stays missing,

  To bring together again

  the tapestries and winter fires,

  The long walks and solitude

  Before the damage of history and an odd fame

  Unlayered it all but the one name and a rhyme scheme.

  Marconi, Victor Emmanuel II, prince

  And princess have come and gone.

  Outside, in the garden,

  The hollyhocks and rose pips move quietly in the late heat.

  I write my name in the dirt

  and knock twice as we leave.

  Farfalla comes to my door frame,

  enters my window,

  Swivels and pirouettes, white in the white sunlight,

  Farfalla and bumblebee,

  Butterfly, wasp and bumblebee

  together into the dark

  Latitudes of my attic, then out

  Again, all but la vespa,

  The other two into the daylight, a different flower:

  Vespa cruises in darkness,

  checking the corners out,

  The charred crevices fit for her habitation, black

  Petals for her to light on.

  No clouds for four weeks, Madonna stuck

  On the blue plate of the sky like sauce

  left out over night,

  Everything flake-red and dust-peppered,

  Ants slow on the doorsill,

  flies languishing on the iron

  Railing where no wind jars them.

  Dead, stunned heart of summer: the blood stills to a bell pull,

  The cry from the watermelon truck

  hangs like a sheet in the dry air,

  The cut grain splinters across the hillside.

  All night the stalled dogs bark in our sleep.

  All night the rats flutter and roll in the dark loft holes over our

  heads.

  As St. Augustine tells us, whatever is, is good,

  As long as it is,

  even as it rusts and decays

  In the paracletic nature of all things:

  transplendent enough,

  I’d say, for our needs, if that’s what he meant

  Back there in the garden in that circle of voices

  Widening out of the sunset and disappearing …

  Dog fire: quick singes and pops

  Of lightning finger the mountainside:

  the towers and deep dish

  Are calling their children in, Madonna is calling her little ones

  Out of the sky, such fine flames

  To answer to and add up

  as they all come down from the dark.

  In the rings and after-chains,

  In the great river of language that circles the universe,

  Everything comes together,

  No word is ever lost,

  no utterance ever abandoned.

  They’re all borne on the bodiless, glittering currents

  That wash us and seek us out:

  there is a word, one word,

  For each of us, circling and holding fast

  In all that cascade and light.

  Said once, or said twice,

  it gathers and waits its time to come back

  To its true work:

  concentrate, listen hard.

  Enormous shadows settle across the countryside,

  Scattered and misbegotten.

  Clouds slide from the Dolomites

  as though let out to dry.

  Sunset again: that same color of rose leaf and rose water.

  The lights of another town

  tattoo their promises

  Soundlessly over the plain.

  I’m back in the night garden,

  the lower yard, between

  The three dead fig trees,

  Under the skeletal comb-leaves of the fanned mimosa branch,

  Gazing at the Madonna,

  The swallows and bats at their night work

  And I at mine.

  No scooters or trucks,

  No voices of children, no alphabet in the wind:

  Only this silence, the strict gospel of silence,

  to greet me,

  Opened before me like a rare book.

  I turn the first page

  and then the next, but understand nothing,

  The deepening twilight a vast vocabulary

  I’ve never heard of.

  I keep on turning, however:

  somewhere in here, I know, is my word.

  —3 August 1985

  (Cà Paruta)

  —A day licked entirely clean, the landscape resettled

  Immeasurably closer, focused

  And held still under the ground lens of heaven,

  the air

  As brittle as spun glass:

  One of those days the sunlight stays an inch above,

  or an inch inside

  Whatever its tongue touches:

  I can’t remember my own youth,

  That seam of red silt I try so anxiously to unearth:

  A handful of dust is a handful of dust,

  no matter who holds it.

  Always the adverb, always the ex-Etcetera …

  20 August 1985

  —On my fiftieth birthday I awoke

  In a Holiday Inn just east of Winchester, Virginia,

  The companionable summer rain

  stitching the countryside

  Like bagworms inside its slick cocoon:

  The memory of tomorrow is yesterday’s storyline:

  I ate breakfast and headed south,

  the Shenandoah

  Zigzagging in its small faith

  Under the Lee Highway and Interstate 81,

  First on my left side, then on my right,

  Sluggish and underfed,

  the absences in the heart

  Silent as sparrows in the spinning rain:

  How do I want to say this?

  My mother’s mother’s family

  For generations has sifted down

  This valley like rain out of Clarke County,

  seeping into the red clay

  Overnight and vanishing into the undergrowth

  Of different lives as hard as they could.

  Yesterday all of us went

  to all of the places all of them left from

  One way or another,

  apple groves, scrub oak, gravestones

 
; With short, unmellifluous, unfamiliar names,

  Cold wind out of the Blue Ridge,

  And reason enough in the lowering sky for leaving

  A weight so sure and so fixed …

  And now it’s my turn, same river, same hard-rock landscape

  Shifting to past behind me.

  What makes us leave what we love best?

  What is it inside us that keeps erasing itself

  When we need it most,

  That sends us into uncertainty for its own sake

  And holds us flush there

  until we begin to love it

  And have to begin again?

  What is it within our own lives we decline to live

  Whenever we find it,

  making our days unendurable,

  And nights almost visionless?

  I still don’t know yet, but I do it.

  In my fiftieth year, with a bad back and a worried mind,

  Going down the Lee Highway,

  the farms and villages

  Rising like fog behind me,

  Between the dream and the disappearance the abiding earth

  Affords us each for an instant.

  However we choose to use it

  We use it and then it’s gone:

  Like the glint of the Shenandoah

  at Castleman’s Ferry,

  Like license plates on cars we follow and then pass by,

  Like what we hold and let go,

  Like this country we’ve all come down,

  and where it’s led us,

  Like what we forgot to say, each time we forget it.

  25–29 August 1985

  —Ashes know what burns,

  clouds savvy which way the wind blows …

  Full moon like a bed of coals

  As autumn revs up and cuts off:

  Remembering winter nights like a doused light bulb

  Leaning against my skin,

  object melting into the image

  Under the quickly descending stars:

  Once the impasse is solved, St. Augustine says, between matter and

  spirit,

  Evil is merely the absence of good:

  Which makes sense, if you understand what it truly means,

  Full moon the color of sand now,

  and still unretractable …

  In a bad way,

  I don’t even know what I don’t know,

 

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