Return to Me

by Jill Sanders

  Return To Me

  ~ Pride Series ~

  Becca & Sean

  © 2015 Jill Sanders

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  Dedication

  To my family

  who have always

  been there for me.

  Summary

  Becca and Nick were destined to be together. He was the love of her life, or so she thought. Then tragedy strikes and Becca is left heartbroken and devastated. The road to recovery seems almost hopeless at times, but with love and support from the good people of Pride, she’s looking forward to putting the past behind her. When Nick’s best friend, Sean, returns home a year later, he brings with him an unexpected gift and she relives the past all over again.

  Sean’s homecoming is tarnished by the loss of his best friend and the recent discovery of his fiancée’s infidelities while he was deployed. If Sean needs anything right now, it’s a good friend to lean on, and Becca has always been there for him. When the two decide to get away for a while, they’re forced to accept the undeniable attraction between them. But now an unforeseen challenge threatens to rip them apart forever.

  Other books by Jill Sanders

  The Pride Series

  Finding Pride

  Discovering Pride

  Returning Pride

  Lasting Pride

  Serving Pride

  Red Hot Christmas

  My Sweet Valentine

  Return To Me

  The Secret Series

  Secret Seduction

  Secret Pleasure

  Secret Guardian

  Secret Passions

  Secret Identity

  Secret Sauce

  The West Series

  Loving Lauren

  Taming Alex

  Holding Haley

  Missy’s Moment

  Breaking Travis

  Roping Ryan

  Wild Bride

  The Grayton Series

  Last Resort

  Someday Beach

  Rip Current

  In Too Deep

  NEW Series

  (Coming Soon)

  Unlucky In Love

  Sweet Resolve

  For a complete list of books, visit http://JillSanders.com

  Return To Me

  by

  Jill Sanders

  Prologue

  Becca waited under the big oak tree for what seemed like hours. It was the eve of her sixteenth birthday, and Nick had promised that he’d give her her birthday gift early. She’d snuck out tonight, much like she’d been doing on and off for the past year.

  Her mother seemed too busy to even notice or care what she was doing lately. Half the time, Becca had to fend for herself for meals, hunting something to eat at home or running down to a friend’s house and bumming a meal off them.

  At least her mother had stopped smoking in the last few years. It was wonderful not to have to hide the smell of smoke on her clothes anymore. She’d become accustomed to dousing herself with perfume just before walking out the door, and now she didn’t have to.

  Her sister, Sara, had left for Portland a while back. She hated to admit it, but she really missed having her around. Sara had always been a wonderful cook. Becca really missed a good meal.

  Sighing, she looked down at her phone and frowned. Nick was supposed to be here at eleven thirty, but it was almost a quarter to midnight. Just then, she heard a branch snap not far away.

  “Nick?” she whispered. “Is that you?”

  “Who else would be coming to see you?” He chuckled as he walked forward. “Sorry I’m late. My dad was up watching the news, and I had to wait until he went to bed.”

  She wrapped her arms around his shoulders and kissed him. “You’re forgiven, this time.”

  He smiled. She really loved his smile. It was perfect except for the small chip in one of his front teeth that he’d gotten while playing soccer in grade school. But Becca thought the little imperfection just made him look more dashing.

  They’d been together for as long as she could remember. Well, as far back as second grade. Anything before that was just a blur.

  “So?” She leaned back and enjoyed his hands on her hips. “Where’s my present?”

  He smiled. “Not yet.” He took her hand and started walking.

  “Nick Becker, if this is some sort of trick.” She was starting to get a little anxious. She didn’t like surprises. Nick seemed to pick up on that and had always made a point of withholding things from her until the very last moment. Nick loved surprises, at least giving them.

  He looked over his shoulder at her and smiled. She was thankful the moon was full on the warm summer night.

  This fall they would be back in school and she hated knowing that they wouldn’t get to spend as much time together as they had this summer.

  When they walked into a clearing, she gasped. In the soft tall grass, a large blanket was spread out. A camp light sat in the middle and a picnic basket full of food was next to it.

  “Happy birthday.” He pulled her closer and kissed her, then pulled away quickly. “Here.” He tugged on her hand until she sat down. “I’ve brought some of your favorites.”

  When he pulled out a bowl of his mother’s mashed potatoes, she sighed. “My favorite.”

  “Mom’s going to kill me when she finds out I stole this. She made this especially for her book club meeting tomorrow night.” He smiled again. Then he turned and pulled out another bowl. “Here.” He handed it to her.

  When she peeled back the lid, she thought she’d died and gone to heaven. “Is this…”

  “Chocolate pudding. I made it myself. It might be a little runny.” He frowned.

  “Oh, Nick.” She laughed then set the bowl down and hugged him.

  He cleared his throat and straightened his shoulders. “Now, shall we have a proper picnic?”

  She giggled. “I’d love to.”

  They ate the little meal under the full moon as the warm summer breeze drifted around them. When all the food was gone, they lay back on the large pillows and watched the stars.

  “I’m really thinking about joining the army after school,” he said absentmindedly, playing with the ends of her hair.

  “Why?” She glanced at him. It was a conversation they’d had many times before. Since Nick was a year ahead of her in school, he was closer to leaving Pride, Oregon, than she was. They’d talked about leaving town together after graduation, but more recently, he’d started talking about going into the military.

  “Well, my father and my father’s father were military men.” She felt him shrug his shoulders. She could hear his heartbeat as her head rested against his chest.

  Placing a hand on his stomach, she leaned up and looked down at him. “How long would you be gone?”

  “Well, initially, two years.” He reached up and brushed her hair away from her face. “I know I’m asking you to wait around for a year after graduation, but…”

  She shook her head. “I’ll wait.” She smiled. “I’ll always wait.” She leaned down and placed a soft kiss on his lips. His hands went to her hips and held her closer.

  “Becca?” he said against her lips. “I know you said you wanted to wait until you were sixteen.” He looked at her and she felt that fluttery feeling she got every time they kissed. Then he glanced at his watch and smiled nervously. “Well, it is past midnight, so technically you’re sixteen.”

  She smiled. “Nick, why do you think I agreed to come out here tonight?” She leaned down and kissed him again, trying to show him exactly what she felt. “Make love to me t
onight for the first time, Nick.”

  His hands stilled on her hips, and she could have sworn she felt his heart jump in his chest. Or maybe it was her own heart that leaped.

  They made love under the full moon, fumbling around, not knowing what they were doing. As the night went on, they grew to know each other’s bodies and desires even better, bringing them closer than either of them could have ever imagined.

  As Becca snuck back in her bedroom window and lay down on her bed, she couldn’t stop thinking about how wonderful the whole evening had been. Looking up at her bedroom ceiling, she kept playing her name over and over again, this time adding Nick’s last name.

  Becca Beatrice Becker. Mrs. Becca B. Becker. Mrs. Becca Becker. That sounded the best. She sighed and turned over in her bed, closed her eyes, and dreamed about the day she’d marry the man of her dreams.

  Chapter One

  Six years later…

  Pride, Oregon. What could Becca say about it. She had a love-hate relationship with the small town. Sometimes she felt trapped by it and the people who lived here. Other times she didn’t think she could live another day without the help and support they provided.

  Today was one of those days. It had been almost one year. One year ago, she’d gotten word that Nick, her one and only love, was gone forever.

  She’d tried to keep herself busy ever since the day that he had jumped on the bus that would take him to basic training. After that, he’d joined the Special Forces along with his best friend, Sean.

  The first year after he’d left had been filled with school and part-time work at her sister Sara’s bakery. The second year, she’d gone to work full time helping her sister out with the business. Time had just flown by after that.

  Until the day she’d gotten word that Nick was gone. Then everything had slowed down to a crawl. Every day it seemed like a chore to get out of bed, dress, and make her way down to the bakery. It took all her willpower just to greet the people as they entered the shop and to smile and act as if life was good.

  For their part, everyone in town had made a point to be there for her. Every time she would burst into tears at the slightest thing, there was always someone there to hug and comfort her.

  She’d never really felt like she’d been alone during her grieving, and she really hadn’t. The whole town of Pride had been right there with her. They’d lost one of their own, and everyone was feeling the pain.

  Sara was married now, and she’d moved out of their mother’s house. And since their mother had sold her online accounting firm to a company in San Antonio, she was never really at home. Their mother spent half the year in Rio, where she’d bought a small condo on the beach.

  The last time her mother had been home, she’d mentioned selling the house and living full time in the warmth.

  “It’s not like I can’t come up here and visit once in a while. I mean, once I finally have some grandkids, I might be convinced to come up more often.”

  She’d looked at Sara and Allen when she’d said that. The couple had blushed a little and then Allen had smiled and said,

  “We’re working on it.”

  So most of the time, Becca was left alone in her childhood home, feeling lonely.

  Half a year after Nick had died, her mother had come home and packed up for the last time. The house had sold more quickly than even she had imagined. To be honest, the place was too big for just her. Besides, she was having a hard time keeping it up all by herself.

  Her mother had arranged for her to move into the apartment over O’Neil’s, the local grocery store, which happened to be right across the street from her sister’s bakery, Sara’s Nook.

  Now her whole world consisted of two blocks. And it was two blocks only because she spent a lot of her time at the Golden Oar, the best—and only—restaurant in town.

  Her sister was the chef and baker in the family, not her. Sara had shown her how to bake, and she spent almost every morning at work. Putting together ingredients or taking out warm bread and baked goods was easy, but when it came to feeding herself, she was clueless.

  She knew how to heat up those little frozen meals she bought at Patty’s downstairs. She’d tried to make chicken and rice once but had almost burned down the kitchen in the process.

  It had taken her some time to get back in the groove of things after Nick’s death. She’d thought about moving down to Rio with her mother but after finding out that her mother had a new live-in boyfriend, she’d decided against it. Besides, she’d never been out of Oregon before and the thought of hopping on a plane for the long trip scared her. Especially after losing Nick in a plane accident.

  In the last year, she’d had more up days than down, thanks to the people in town and her sister. But she didn’t think anything or anyone could lift her spirits today. Today was the day that she had initially set for their wedding and the day Nick’s best friend, Sean, was returning home from his tour.

  The whole town was abuzz about the war hero returning home. But the only thing that kept running through Becca’s mind was that it should have been Nick. Not that she wished anything bad would happen to Sean. Just the opposite. Sean had always been there, a few steps behind Nick and her.

  She was currently sitting in the back seat of Allen’s truck as they headed up the hill to go to Sean’s homecoming party. There was a fresh plate of Sara’s brownies on her lap, which were still piping hot, warming her legs.

  Spring was in full swing in Oregon, and she couldn’t even look out her window to enjoy her favorite season of the year. Instead, her mind kept running back to the fact that Nick wasn’t coming home. Ever.

  She closed her eyes on a wave of pain, and her sister’s voice broke into her dark thoughts.

  “We’ll stay only as long as you want. Okay?”

  Becca’s eyes opened and she looked up to see Sara staring back at her. Concern dominated her dark brown eyes.

  Becca had always been jealous of her sister’s dark hair and brown eyes. She knew that Sara had felt the same about Becca’s light hair and hazel eyes.

  The two sisters were pretty much matched when it came to everything else, except Becca had a few inches on her older sister. Not that she was tall, but she did love to rub those two inches in Sara’s face.

  “I’ll be fine,” she said and looked back down at her hands. She wouldn’t. She was lying. What she wanted to do was go back to her little apartment with the plate of brownies and watch movies all evening to help her get her mind off of things.

  “I thought you and Sean used to be friends,” Allen asked, taking the last turn off the highway and driving his truck up the bumpy lane that led towards Sean’s parents’ house.

  “Sure,” she said, holding on as the truck hit a rut. She’d been up the drive plenty of times before. But it had been years since the last time.

  “They need to fix this drive,” Allen said under his breath.

  “Maybe now that Sean is back in town, he’ll help them. Patty was telling me that their house was falling into disrepair as well.” Sara said, glancing out her window.

  “Mr. Farrow had some health issues a few years back,” Becca chimed in. “He’s doing the best he can.”

  “I’m sure he is. I know when I ran into Mrs. Farrow the other day in the grocery store, she was looking forward to having Sean back. The woman was practically walking on air.” Sara turned and looked at Becca.

  Becca nodded and looked out the front window as they pulled into the large parking area in front of the old house. It did need some repair work. It could use a new coat of paint and all the bushes around the place had grown so tall, half of the house was invisible.

  They parked in an available spot and when they got out, Becca noticed a few more cars driving up the driveway. She sighed. She knew almost everyone in town would show up, but she hoped to find a corner to hide in before too many had arrived.

  “Here, I’ll take that,” Sara said, taking the tray of brownies from her. Instantly, Becca missed the
warmth and the shield of holding something.

  She followed her sister and brother-in-law up the stairs and through the open front door.

  The room was already filled with voices and crowded with people.

  Sean’s parents stood just inside the door, greeting everyone as they arrived. Becca’s heart skipped when she noticed the man in uniform standing next to them.

  Pain shot through every pore of her body as their eyes locked. She couldn’t stop the tears from coming as her eyes burned. She found it hard to breathe. Her eyes darted around the room, and she noticed everyone looking at her. Taking a step back, she felt the cool air and turned to rush out of the room.

  *******

  Sean hated parties. Especially when he didn’t think there was anything to celebrate. He was home, so what? It wasn’t as if he had single- handedly taken down the enemy. Or saved a group of children from a burning building.

  To top it all off, Nick was gone. Home wasn’t home without his best friend and blood brother. Losing Nick was like losing part of himself. He’d known Nick since the cradle. His parents had practically raised the two boys as brothers. It helped that they lived within walking distance of one another and that their parents were also best friends.

  It had been almost a year since Nick had died. He’d taken it hard, but being in the Special Forces, he hadn’t really had time to mourn. Coming home and seeing the empty look on Nick’s parent’s faces had made reality sink in.

  Then he’d seen Becca walk in his door. He’d watched her eyes zero in on his and flood with such emotion, he’d felt like he’d been shot in the heart.

  Becca’s sister, Sara, and her new husband, Allen, had stepped in first. He was still shaking Sara’s hand when Becca ran out.

  “I’ll go get—” Sara started to say.

  “No.” He tugged on her hand gently. “Let me.”

  When Sara nodded, Sean excused himself and stepped outside. He shivered. This weather was going to take some getting used to again. Six years of being overseas, and he’d grown accustomed to always sweating.