“We got to move up out of this,” he said, shouting against the surf.
Sweetland nodded, breathing heavy. “You got Jesse?”
“I got him. We’re going to take a step up. You ready?”
The ladder was too narrow for them all and it was a slow, awkward climb above the reach of the ocean. Seawater pouring from their clothes as they went. Barry braced the boy’s deadweight between them when they stopped to rest and both men kept their eyes averted from the ruined face, the flesh there shredded and torn, the busted nose misshapen. The left ear shorn from the side of the head.
“We’re never going to make it up this ladder,” Barry said. “We got to tie him on and go for a boat.”
“You go on,” Sweetland said. “I’ll hold him here till you can send someone around.”
“There’s nothing worse can happen to that youngster, Mose.”
Sweetland swung his hand blindly for the rope and grapple where it was dangling below them, lifted it toward Barry. “Tie us on,” he said.
“It’ll be a couple of hours before a boat gets out here.”
Sweetland stared at him over the boy’s mutilated head. “I’ll never make it up those stairs,” he said.
Barry looked away and shook his head. “You miserable cunt,” he said. He swore up at the ladder rising above them. A moment later he hooked the grapple to the rung beside Sweetland’s head and threaded the rope under his arms. “You get a good grip on him there,” he said and he built a cat’s cradle around the two figures and the ladder rails, cursing as he worked. He started up the rungs then, leaving Sweetland with the lost boy in his arms.
“Don’t be too long,” Sweetland called after him.
“I expects you’ll be dead before I gets back,” Barry said.
Sweetland glanced down at Jesse, at the pale coins of scalp showing through on the double crown of his head. “I don’t doubt but I will be,” he said.
THE KEEPER’S HOUSE
And the sea gave up the dead which were in it …
—REVELATIONS
1
HE BROUGHT THE BOAT AROUND to the lee side of Sweetland, to the alcove below Music House. The noise of the engine coming along the rock face setting the gannets to wing over the headlands, the sky above him like a snow globe after it’s shaken—a raucous swirl of white. He coasted alongside a ledge of granite that sloped into the ocean, turned from the wheel to toss his food pack above the waterline, and then stared over the gunwale to see how much draft he had to work with.
He brought her around a second time along the echoing cliffs, reversing the engine to make the sharp U-turn in the bowl of the alcove. It was the only spot outside Chance Cove that a body could get onto the island, but it was never any practical use as a landfall. Sweetland throttled the motor low and set the tiller level, crouched on the gunwale as she crawled by the ledge, so close to the slab that the fibreglass scraped the rock below. He lifted his legs out over the side, letting the gunwale slide under his hand as he found his feet. Leaned into the stern as it passed, shoving the vessel into open ocean, and she putt-putted toward the horizon. She had enough gas to make it as far as St. Pierre or into open ocean somewhere beyond the Burin if the wheel kept steady and no one intercepted her in the meantime. He stood watching until the boat had all but disappeared. Thinking it was a mistake to have let her go.
There was a steep grassy climb up from the water, and he stashed the food pack out of sight among the rocks, planning to come back for it once he’d settled on a site. Above that first rise he walked half an hour across a swale crowded with petrel burrows, toward the valley’s climb where the ground turned suddenly marshy and wet. He could hear the brook running down from the top of the island, though it was impossible to see it under the maze of alder and larch and silvery deadfall that clogged the valley’s heart. You could drag a trawler into that mess and no one would ever guess it was there.
He turned to look back the way he’d come. The ocean out there flat calm, blue as new denim. Already there was no sign of his boat and he tried to put it from his mind. Looked up the gnarly length of the valley. He could see the peak of the Priddles’ cabin three-quarters of the way up the rise, just where the trees began to thin out. The brothers were there, he knew, come to the island for one last blowout before the final ferry, and he wanted to keep well below that height. He tried to fix on a landmark, but there was nothing particular or distinguishable to shoot for. Everything above him disappeared as soon as he started picking his way into the tangle regardless, and he made his way blindly, stepping over deadfall logs, the bog sucking at his boots.
He had a hatchet to hack through the worst of it, his pack and jacket and pants snagging on brittle fingers of bush as he pushed through. He tripped and scraped his neck raw on a claw of tuckamore. Lost his footing and fell backwards onto his pack, his crown clipping hard off a rock.
He was facing down the slope when he came to and he tried desperately to sit up, then to turn over, lay trapped there like a turtle on its shell, winded and panicky, blood pooling in his head. Blue sky beyond the angry criss-cross of branches above him.
He hadn’t thought any of this through clearly enough.
Sweetland tried to force his arm free of the pack, felt something pop in there. “Jesus fuck,” he said. He considered cutting the shoulder strap before the adjusting buckle finally came to mind. Once his arm was loose he pushed himself awkwardly upright at the waist. He had to scooch his legs downhill, like the hands ticking on a clock, before he could kneel up and climb to his feet. The back of his head pulsing where he’d smacked it. He tried to guess by the sun how long he’d been out, though it hadn’t moved perceptibly from where he remembered it. A few seconds maybe, minutes at most. He hefted his pack, readjusted the strap. Feeling like an idiot.
Ten days he’d have to camp out here in the woods, before the final few residents—Loveless and Clara and Pilgrim, the Priddles, Rita Verge—left on the last ferry run and the place was officially erased from the map. Sweetland’s ass was soaking wet. The raw patch on his neck stinging, his head and his shoulder throbbing. He supposed he could get himself killed out here in the meantime and no one would ever find the body. And wouldn’t that be a funny end to it all.
He’d thought there would be some kind of send-off to end it, a gathering in the final days at the Fisherman’s Hall where the residents would wake the cove before they left en masse on the ferry. Speeches and a few songs and maudlin reminiscence. A chance to drink the island under before surrendering it for good.
But the place emptied out in morose dribs and drabs. Most residents were gone before last winter had settled in. Everyone with school-aged children left by the Labour Day weekend, to enrol their kids elsewhere. The ring of houses growing darker and darker on his way back in the arm from his evening walks as the community was abandoned. Once or twice he fancied he saw a light winking in Queenie’s window as he came up the path, that phantom glow like an itch in an amputated limb. He remembered Jesse claiming to have seen the light just after Queenie died and he felt like a sentimental fool to be suffering the same delusion.
You needs to give your head a goddamn good shake, Duke told him when he reported the peculiar phenomenon.
Glad and Alice Vatcher and all their animals shipped out by the end of September and they took Sara Loveless’s cow with them. Alice ran the only convenience store on the island and there was nowhere to buy milk or flour or salt beef or liquor after that. Once a month Sweetland or Duke or Clara made a trip across to Burgeo while the weather held in the fall, with half a dozen grocery lists and a wad of cash. But there were months before the spring took hold when the crossing was too risky in an open boat and only what came in on the ferry kept them fed. Loveless seemed to persist solely on candy bars and potato chips from the ferry’s canteen, emptying the shelves of Big Turks and Milky Ways and Hickory Sticks every time the ship docked at the wharf.
You’re not feeding that junk to your little dog, are you? S
weetland asked.
He looks after hisself up in the woods.
Jesus, Loveless. That’s a fucken lapdog you got.
He don’t go hungry, Loveless said, never you mind.
Sweetland took to setting bits of salt meat gristle or the leavings after he cleaned his rabbits where he thought the dog might find them, though he expected he was only feeding gulls and rats in the end. Which was what the island was about to be left to.
It was a miserable winter and one household after another packed up and stacked their worldly possessions on the government wharf, ATVs and suitcases and boxes of dishes, waiting for the ferry crew to winch it all aboard, motorboats and washing machines and table saws. Shaking hands and hugging the fewer and fewer left behind. It was like watching dirty water drain from a tub. Sweetland never went down to the dock to see them off, though he could see it all from his kitchen window. The leavers invariably stood at the ferry rail to stare back into the cove and he raised his hand to wave an invisible goodbye just before they slipped out of sight.
He fashioned a lean- to on a ledge the size of a double bed, made himself a thickly needled bunk of spruce branches. It was too late in the afternoon to consider going back for the food pack and the headache he’d given himself when he fell was too fierce to face the hike regardless. He allowed himself a small fire before the dark settled in, laying it against the mossy rock face overhanging the ledge to reflect the heat into the shelter. He hung his soaking pants and jacket from the lean-to’s frame to dry. Lay out in the warmth, grateful to be off his feet.
The fire went out as he slept and he woke stiff and chilled. He reached to pull the blanket over his shoulders before he realized where he was. It was nearly dark in the valley, though he could still see a strip of blue sky above his lean-to. A single star just coming clear in the deepening evening. The ache in his head reduced to a sullen discomfort, as if he was wearing a helmet two sizes too small. He ate a cake of sweet-bread and a sliver of bottled rabbit out of his pack and washed it down with half a jar of water.
He thought of his boat again, abandoned and still travelling out there in the waning light. Years ago, he’d spotted a fishing boat from the lighthouse on a wet afternoon, an empty thirty-footer, the outboard locked in low gear. Radioed in the call letters to the Coast Guard, then phoned over to Duke Fewer to drive out and retrieve it. He followed its progress with the binoculars as it chugged past the island, two or three miles offshore. Saw Duke’s vessel motoring toward it, steadily closing the distance, corralling the empty boat and turning for home with it tied to the stern.
Sweetland had known as soon as he spotted the boat there was no reason to hurry. Duke found a few dozen cod in a plastic fish box and a lifejacket under the thwart. A pair of cotton gloves on the decking near the outboard. It was registered out of Miquelon where the French were still allowed to fish for cod, and they learned after the fact the man had been hand-lining on his own. It was anyone’s guess what had happened to send him into the sea and the body was never found. Another absence without fences or edges or boundaries. Just the boat by its eerie lonesome on the ocean’s swell.
No one watched from the lighthouses anymore. And even if someone had come across Sweetland’s boat by now, there’d be nothing in the way of organized searchers before morning and no urgency to the looking. He’d be given up for lost before the first rescue vessel turned out.
It was difficult to say, looking back, when he’d made up his mind to stay. He didn’t announce or discuss it, barely acknowledged the notion in his own head. Simply carried on with his life like it was just another summer, hauling up his seaweed and planting his garden, cutting and stockpiling firewood. People dismissed the activity as simple bloody-mindedness. Sweetland eating against his end.
As well as his own, Sweetland planted the old garden at the keeper’s house, driving out to tend it through July and August, weeding and watering and picking the cabbage bugs off by hand. It wasn’t a practical spot for a second garden, but it offered an escape from the draining misery in the cove. And saved having to explain himself to everyone and their dog.
Less than a dozen people were still resident on the island at the beginning of July. Pilgrim came up to the house occasionally to sit an hour with the radio, to report on the latest plans to move into St. John’s. Their departure date kept being pushed ahead while Clara tried to arrange a spot for Pilgrim in some kind of assisted living facility.
Assisted living? Sweetland said.
That’s what they calls it.
Some stranger comes in to wipe your ass, is it?
Don’t be a bastard, Pilgrim said.
Sweetland shook his head. I hope to Jesus I’m dead before I comes to that.
Clara was planning to find a place to live nearby, Pilgrim told him, and she was applying to do a master’s degree in some field that involved digging up the ancient dead and guessing at how they styled their hair and what they ate and how they came to their unexceptional ends. It seemed a ludicrous thing to devote your life to.
You haven’t said nothing about where you might be shifting, Pilgrim said one afternoon.
I’m not going anywhere, Sweetland told him. Even to himself it was a surprise to have his mind stated so plainly.
What do you mean, you’re not going?
I still got title to my property.
You took the hundred grand.
I’ll give it back.
It don’t work like that, Moses.
Look, Sweetland said. What if I leaves on the ferry in September and comes back on my own a week later. Where’s the law says I can’t do that?
Pilgrim worked his mouth a few moments. There’s no law.
Well I’m just skipping that step.
Skipping it?
I’m not getting on the ferry.
I don’t know, Pilgrim said. Seems to me there’s nothing that simple about it.
And the blind fucker had been right about that.
In the morning he made the walk down to Music House to retrieve the food bag, setting off at first light, wanting to be out of the open as early as possible. When he worked himself clear of the valley he spent a moment watching the ocean, scanning east and west. But it was quiet out there.
The bag was a green duffle with a single strap that he wore across his chest, leaning forward to balance the weight as he carried it up the rise. In the valley he had to slough it off in spots to drag it through brush, heft it over piggledy moss-covered rock. It was like travelling with a corpse for company. The valley falling into afternoon shadow by the time he settled on his bed of branches, too tired for the moment to open the goddamn bag. He wanted a cup of tea but wouldn’t chance the fire. Draped an arm across his eyes and slept.
The noise of the Coast Guard chopper woke him before dark, coming in low over the shoreline. Likely they had spent the day searching the waters beyond St. Pierre and worked their way back toward Sweetland. Three people in the open bay doors, all wearing orange floater suits, all focused on the ocean below, and the sight of them made him feel suddenly ridiculous. He’d thought of it as a private decision to come out to the valley and turn his back on the world, something that concerned no one but him. But he felt now like he’d made a public fool of himself somehow.
He watched the vessels on the water all through the following day. A Coast Guard ship travelling slow toward Fortune Bay. Fishing boats out of Burgeo and Francois volunteering for the search. Searchlights swinging against the black into the evening, the beams scissoring along the shore. One more day at most they’d be out there. And that thought was all the comfort he had to offer himself.
In the days after he’d recovered Jesse’s body at the Fever Rocks, before he was well enough to get out of bed, he woke to see Clara sitting beside the window, one hand across her eyes as if she was dozing, or fending off a headache.
Ruthie, he said to her.
It’s Clara, she said, lifting her head to him.
He nodded slowly. Yes, he said. An
d the world began pouring in through that single thumb-sized fact.
We buried him yesterday, Clara said.
Who?
Jesse.
Yes, he said again.
We wanted to wait until you was well enough, she said, but.
He was a good boy, Sweetland said.
Clara stood and crossed the room at the foot of the bed, opened the door to leave. She paused there before she closed it, hidden from his view. She said, I wanted to thank you for getting him. Out at the light, she said.
She wasn’t able to say more than that for a long time. He thought she’d left and gone down the stairs when she said, Did you want anything, Moses? Something belonged to him?
Sweetland was too addled to decipher what she was suggesting and he let it sit awhile, though the longer he waited the less substantial it seemed, like a lozenge dissolving under his tongue.
You let me know, she said finally, if you thinks of something.
He had a boatload of dry goods set by for the coming winter, materials he’d smuggled in from Miquelon in the middle of August. Every night for a week he’d made a trip down to the shed that housed the ATM and withdrawn his daily limit. Seven thousand dollars in cash all told. He considered going into Fortune or Placentia or Burgeo, but there wasn’t a soul on the south coast of Newfoundland who wouldn’t hear of it within three days’ time. And after his conversation with Pilgrim, he thought it best to keep his intentions to himself. Took the boat across to Miquelon where no one knew him from Adam.
He tied up next to a raft of sailboats in the tiny marina. There was an office at the gate, a man in uniform behind the plate glass, and Sweetland waved a hand as he passed by, walked up through the town. Single-storey bungalows on an expanse of land that seemed to have been graded level, the streets laid out in a careful grid. He wandered half an hour looking for a shop that might carry salt beef and pickling salt. Stopped into the first grocery store he saw. He took a small cart and drove it up and down the aisles, filling it with flour and sugar and tea. He found a rack of batteries and loaded them all into the cart.
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