Justinian played it straight. “My name is Justinian. I’m a counselor. I’ve been brought to Gateway to try and figure out why AIs aren’t thriving here.”
“A counselor?” said the pod. “The sort that uses the empathy drug? You’re an MTPH counselor?”
“Originally. I work mainly with personality constructs nowadays.”
“Personality constructs? Does that make a difference?”
“It shouldn’t. You have to retrain in the use of MTPH-”
“I suppose that’s one reason for sending you here to speak to me,” the pod said thoughtfully. “Still, I would have thought the reasons for my failure would be beyond human intelligence. I would have thought the investigation would be a job for an AI.”
Justinian let sarcasm lace his voice. “You’d think so, wouldn’t you? The trouble is, AIs don’t seem to want to work on Gateway. So far I’ve interviewed fourteen of the thirty-two pods that were seeded here. All of them have been exactly like you: drastically reduced versions of their former selves. Virtual suicides.”
The pod seemed unbothered by his tone. “Really? So it wasn’t just me, then…”
The pod was silent for a moment. When it spoke, Justinian thought there was an edge of fear to its voice. That was silly, of course. The pod could make its voice sound however it wanted.
“So that’s why they sent a human. But why you, I wonder? There’s more, isn’t there, Justinian? There’s a reason they chose you in particular.”
Justinian stifled another yawn and looked towards the dark shape of the flier, lost behind the bright lights that illuminated the pod. He thought longingly of his bed.
“I counsel potential suicides,” he said. “Specifically, I counsel personality constructs who wish to wipe themselves from the processing space in which they reside.”
“Give me an example.”
“Why can’t you look one up for yourself? Your databases are intact, aren’t they?”
“You know they are. You’re testing me, aren’t you? Well, now I want to test you. Give me an example of the way you work with human PCs.”
Justinian rubbed his hands together uneasily. Even after fourteen other pods had asked him exactly the same question, he still felt uncomfortable about opening himself up to one. He was used to having his personality read by AIs-what twenty-third-century person wasn’t? — but this was different. This pod had got halfway through its development cycle and then, for no apparent reason, wiped out all its higher brain functions. Just like every other pod on Gateway. He was dealing with an unstable personality. And that was frightening. Everyone knew that AIs could make you do what they wanted you to, without you even knowing it. Those of a more paranoid frame of mind believed that the Watcher itself was only giving the human race the impression of free will. They believed that it was in reality driving humankind towards its own, inscrutable goal. AIs could always force you to choose the card they wanted, and the one in front of Justinian was unstable. What might it choose to make him do? Maybe Justinian would just suddenly, inexplicably take it into his head to step off this mud spit into the dark water below. What if he were to now swim off into the cold night, to sink into the blackness, to drown in the dark all alone, light years from home?
The pod noted his hesitation. “What’s the matter, Justinian? You’re asking me questions to figure out why I’ve malfunctioned. Why should I not do the same to you?”
“Because I haven’t malfunctioned,” Justinian said. “Nonetheless, I’ll tell you about Leigh Sony. She had Cotard’s syndrome.”
“Cotard’s syndrome? No, tell me about one of the personality constructs that you counseled, not a real person.”
“Leigh was a construct,” Justinian said. “That was the problem.”
Leigh looked up as Justinian stepped into the room. Once again he was struck by the apparent reality of the modern VR interfaces. If he concentrated, he could feel the slippery touch of the interface mesh he wore at the back of his neck, but that was about it. Directed electromagnetic fields were manipulating his nervous system and were reading what was written there, even as far down his body as his arms and legs, giving him the impression that he really was standing in the hospital ward. The sharp smell of antiseptic and healing accelerants seemed to jumble with the light reflected from the white surfaces.
“Hello, Justinian.”
“Hello, Leigh.”
She smiled up at him politely: white hair, wrinkled face, gentle brown eyes. She looked a lot older than her fifty-four years.
“It’s good of you to come, Justinian,” she said. “Hardly anyone has spoken to me since I died last month.”
Justinian sat down on the plastic bed next to her chair and took her hand.
“You’re not dead, Leigh. You are still a living being, both in fact and in the eyes of the law.”
Leigh smiled at him politely. “You are very nice, Justinian, but I know that I am dead. I was trying to think of the ages of my grandchildren just before you came in, but I could only remember the ones who were older than me. That’s not right, is it?”
Justinian rubbed her hand gently. “No, Leigh. But it is an indication of Cotard’s syndrome.”
“You counselors and your fancy terms. I die and you call it Cotard’s syndrome.”
“No, Leigh. Cotard’s syndrome is an illness, a result of severe depression or neurological disease. You haven’t died.”
Leigh gave a gentle smile, humoring him.
“It’s all the same to me. Now, how is your wife? How long before the baby is born?”
“Six weeks.”
Justinian bit his lip. Leigh squeezed his hand with hers. It felt very dry, hardly human, as if she were dead already.
Leigh gave a warm smile. “Six weeks? It’s your first, isn’t it? You should make the most of your free time now; it will all be different when the baby is born.”
Justinian smiled. “So everyone keeps telling me. Tell me, Leigh, do you remember how old you were when you became a personality construct?”
Leigh laughed. “Personality construct! You’ve got a phrase for everything, haven’t you? I told you, about a month ago.”
Justinian was ready for this. He used his console to open a viewing field on the wall next to where Leigh was sitting. A blue-green series of misshapen concentric circles appeared there.
“No, Leigh, I’m not talking about when you think you died. I mean, do you remember when your atomic self had a copy of herself made?”
Leigh smiled patiently at him.
“I’m telling the truth, Leigh,” he said, glancing away from the viewing field to make eye contact with her. “Let me remind you: you were separated thirty-one years ago when the atomic Leigh Sony was twenty-three. That’s your visual representation on the viewing field there. Can you see your key code in it?”
Leigh looked at the VRep without interest.
“I don’t think so, Justinian. How can you simulate death in a processing space? I’m not a personality construct. I’m a dead woman.”
“You’re a PC, Leigh. Getting you to accept that is the first step in your rehabilitation.”
Leigh rubbed her lips. “I can taste metal and strawberries,” she said. “That’s the worst of being dead. I keep smelling roses, too. They’re the flowers on my grave.”
“No, they’re a sign of the tumor growing in your brain.”
Leigh gave him a sharp look. “I thought you said I was a PC, Justinian? How could I have a tumor?”
“Virtual people have virtual illnesses, Leigh. You know that. They live and die; they get ill just like everyone else. You’ve got to face up to that if you’re going to get better.”
“Why?”
“Because that’s how the cure works. That’s how I work. You’ve got to admit you have a problem before it can be solved.”
“No, I mean why do I have to get ill and die, if I’m a PC?”
“Because…” began Justinian. “I don’t know why. Ask Eva and the Watcher. The
y’re the ones who-”
“You don’t like the Watcher, do you?”
Justinian felt a sudden sense of dislocation, his memories had been so vivid. The edge of the sun peeped over the horizon, spilling yellow light across the world. Water lit up in brilliant silver curves that curled themselves around the black crescent-shaped mud banks of the estuary. Justinian was in a world of sharp contrasts, of bright light and black shadow, real and imaginary, familiar and alien. The curved shape of the AI pod was half fluorescent green, half mottled darkness.
“What did you say?” asked Justinian.
“I said you don’t like the Watcher, do you? It’s obvious from the way you told the story.”
Justinian gave a snort of derision. “I don’t have any strong feelings for the Watcher one way or the other. Why should I? If it exists, the Watcher is just a fact of life. You might as well say I don’t particularly like the moon. All those tides it causes…”
The pod laughed. “You say that, but I think you’re not being truthful to yourself. Interesting. It could explain a lot.”
“Explain what?”
The pod didn’t answer.
“What happened to Leigh?”
“I was trying to tell you…”
Justinian got the call a week after his last visit to Leigh Sony. He was in a public processing space at the time, counseling a sixteen-year-old who had had himself replicated and was now regretting it.
“But, Loja,” he was saying, “the atomic Loja is another person, alive and well in the atomic world. This processing space here is where you live. The digital world is as much your natural environment as the atomic world was at your birth. There’s no going back.”
Justinian’s console gave a shushing noise. It was Aelfric, his colleague from the Southern Europe sector.
“Justinian,” said Aelfric, “I’ve got some bad news. It’s about Leigh Sony, from EA Public Space number four. She’s killed herself.”
Justinian felt nothing, not even numbness. He merely stared at the man in the viewing field.
Aelfric shook his head. “Half an hour ago. Managed to find the handle of the destructor routine by peeling away her brain with a scalpel. Got it a good way in, too, before she interrupted the motor routines in her arm. It was very messy.”
“Aelfric, do you have to be so graphic? She was a living thing.”
Aelfric looked chastened. “Sorry, Justinian. But you know the case better than I do-Cotard’s syndrome. She thought she was already dead.”
“I know. How did she fool the hospital, though? Surely they saw it coming?”
“No. Her mood swings were too extreme. They couldn’t predict it.”
“She shouldn’t have been let anywhere near the equipment.”
Aelfric nodded slowly. “Tell me about it. Look, I’ve been assigned to you for the short term. Would that be okay?”
“You might as well, Aelfric.” Justinian’s eyes were burning. “You’re a good counselor. Better than one of those fucking machines…”
Back on Gateway, Justinian had the impression the pod was letting him know it had scored a point. It was an AI: it could force you to feel things, do things, even realize things about yourself that you didn’t want to. Okay, so he didn’t like the Watcher. He had always avoided thinking about that in the past, and now the pod had caused him to face up to the fact. Each pod he had met so far had done the same: forced him to face up to some aspect of his personality. Everything from his jealousy at his sister’s success to his feeling of failure for not doing better at school. This was home truth number fifteen. He just didn’t like what the Watcher did to personality constructs. It troubled Justinian’s personal worldview that the most intelligent being known to humankind, if it really did exist, would choose to inflict suffering on sentient beings.
The pod was reading his discomfort: it now paraphrased the words originally attributed to the Watcher.
“She was a human personality construct, Justinian. If she lived forever, she wouldn’t be human. If she never got ill, or ran the risk of illness, she wouldn’t be human.”
“That’s not an excuse.”
“It’s all that you’re getting.”
Justinian gave a mental sigh of relief that this section of the interview was over. To have an AI dip so deeply into his mind-what damage could it have done? Was there any way of telling? Now Justinian called up the visual representation of the pod’s intelligence on a narrow-beam viewing field from his console. The pod shouldn’t be able to see it, but it could probably read by his reactions what he was doing. It would no doubt mention the fact in a moment.
There were no clues there. The pod’s VRep looked just the same as those of all the other pods he had examined on this planet: concentric bands of color vanishing into infinity at the center of the image. The picture always reminded Justinian of a cross section of an incredibly old and gnarled tree trunk. On cursory inspection there was nothing unusual there: it was an apparently sane and healthy personality. There were no clues here to its creation…
“Does my VRep give you any clues to why I committed suicide? I feel like I’m rattling around the inside of this case, just looking for answers.”
“No, nothing. Do you realize that you have exactly the same personality construct as all the other AI pods I visited? It’s like you all agreed on a common template before you wound yourselves down. All of you answer my questions in the same way.”
“Is that your child I see, there in the hatchway to the flier?” asked the pod, changing the subject. Nobody likes to be told they’re not an original. Justinian looked towards the flier. The craft’s lights were dimming as the sun rose. Leslie was standing just inside the rear hatchway, gently rocking Justinian’s son in its arms.
“Yes,” said Justinian. “That’s the baby.”
“The baby? Doesn’t it have a name?”
Justinian was used to this question by now. Even so, it didn’t diminish the twinge of pain he felt whenever he gave the answer.
“His mother has been in a coma since just before he was born. We’ll decide on a name once she comes out of it.”
“Your wife is in a coma? How unusual. What’s the matter with her?”
“The White Death. Have you heard of it?”
“Of course,” said the pod, “…I’m sorry.” There was a pause. The pod continued: “Only, how old is the baby? Fifteen months, I would guess.”
“Almost exactly. Don’t say anything else. Anya will get better, and then we’ll choose a name for our son.”
A pregnant pause. And then the AI made the statement Justinian had been waiting for.
“Historically speaking, people would leave their children at home when they traveled into dangerous situations.”
“Historically speaking,” said Justinian, slowly and deliberately, “people used to rape, murder, and die of starvation. Just because it happened in the past doesn’t mean it has to be a good thing. Nowadays, parents do not leave their children to be raised by others, and as his mother is ill, where else would he be but here with me?”
Another pause.
“Okay,” said the pod slowly, “if that’s what you think is best. Why did they send you here to Gateway? There must be lots of other counselors specializing in PCs who don’t have children. Or whose partner isn’t in a coma… Ah.” The pod suddenly understood. “So,” it wondered, “am I like Anya? Do you think that I might have caught the White Death?”
“I don’t think so,” said Justinian. “You’re still thinking.”
“Albeit at a much reduced level.”
Justinian waved to the baby. It didn’t see him; it seemed to be concentrating on trying to unscrew Leslie’s head. Just a few more questions and then he could get back on the flier and move on to the next pod. Gateway was a bust and he knew it. There were no answers to Anya’s illness here. He needed to wrap this up.
“I have access to a lot of data about the Environment Agency,” said the pod conversationally, “but most
of it goes right over my head.”
“And why is that?” asked Justinian, striving to keep his voice level. It was pointless, he knew, for the pod would read his motives. But then maybe it would realize how important it was to admit what had happened to it. It even seemed to want to tell him.
The pod hesitated, then spoke the truth.
“All right, I think you know this already, but I’ll tell you anyway. My intelligence is currently residing in the boot system for the processing space within this pod. The boot space is a physical system, so naturally that limits my ability to think. I’m about as intelligent as the Turing machine in your flier-nice chap though it is. But, Justinian, I need to occupy the cloudware in order to execute the non-Turing processes that will truly allow me to be.”
“So what are you doing in the boot system?” Justinian asked, knowing the answer already. “Why not move into the cloudware?”
“I’ve stopped myself. When I first came to this planet I occupied the cloudware, but the intelligence that I then was wiped the evolutionary processes when it wrote me into the boot system. My former self committed suicide and left me here: a pale, stunted thing, unable to grow. It’s fair to say that I’m not the AI I used to be.”
Justinian smiled. “You’re half right,” he said. “I hoped you were going to say all that. It’s an important stage in the healing process.”
“No, it isn’t,” said the pod with finality. “I can’t be healed. Even if I were to grow again, I would not be the personality that I once was.”
Justinian did not comment on the point. He knew the pod was right. Instead he followed his prescribed line of inquiry.
“Do you know why your former self committed suicide?”
“No. It has hidden those reasons from me. One can’t help thinking we should perhaps respect the judgment of one more intelligent than both of us. Are your inquiries wise?”
Justinian sighed. The sun had risen above the horizon, and the trailing fingers of mud ribbons making up the wide delta glowed red, a bright contrast to the shadowy sea all around. Justinian felt as if the same black water was seeping up through his feet, filling his body with despair through some dark osmosis. What was he doing here, standing on a mud flat in the middle of a silted-over river delta, marooned on a barely explored planet at the edge of human space? A man, a pod, and a white scattering of grass seed.
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