by Evelyn Glass
“Oh, okay, you’ve twisted my arm.” I roll my eyes, fluttering my eyelids. “I was just going to ask if you worked out, because you look like you do.”
He grins from ear to ear. “A little,” he says. “I started going to the gym last month, three times a week. Free weights, but I do the exercise bike and the running machine as well.” He looks at me eagerly. “Can you really tell?”
“Look at those arms,” I say. “Of course I can tell.”
We meet eyes for a few second.
Then I crane my neck back so that he can see it through the slit, a sliver of skin. I trail my fingers along my neck. “Can I tell you something else?” I whisper.
“Uh, yeah.” He nods.
“I haven’t had a good man for such a long time.”
“What do you mean?”
“They’ve all be so fat and old. I’ve been waiting for a strong young man . . .” I arch my eyebrow at him, wondering if I’ve made it too obvious. Can he really be that foolish? I glance at the gun on his hip and hope so.
“Really?” He takes another step forward. “Oh, wow. And you . . .”
I look him straight in the eyes now, my face a veil of lust and flirting. “And I want you to come in here and fuck me. Hard.”
He swallows for a third time and I think: I’ve got him.
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Roma
Felicity, I think, lying on my back in the cell. Felicity, I’m sorry. Felicity, forgive me. Felicity!
The bruising on my face has lessened over the past few days, but the pain remains. My body aches. I feel like I’ve been dragged across a field of stones. When I open my mouth, my jaw clicks. I haven’t been beaten like that since I was a kid on the streets, before I met Bear. When I think of how they laid into me, I clench my fists and grit my teeth. But after a moment I release both. There’s no point in getting angry. The damage is done. Getting angry would be a rookie mistake, just like punching the tree was, just like letting Felicity get separated from me was.
I think of her, somewhere within this complex. I don’t think Mr. Black will let his men hurt her. He still plans to either use her as bait or release her to her father, bringing him out of hiding. Even if Felicity tells him what’s happened, he still might emerge. Only fear for his daughter’s safety and a determination to stay alive long enough to see her home is keeping him hidden. After that, politics will take over, and a politician who plays the terrified rabbit won’t be a politician for long.
Felicity, it was real. All of it was real.
I want to explain to her that I truly felt for her. When we kissed, the energy was there, the closeness wasn’t a lie. When we made love—and I have no qualms about calling it that now—there was a connection. Despite everything, I wanted her, needed her, just like she wanted and needed me. But now she knows the truth about you, you stupid ass.
I lean up on the bed, my body screaming out against me. My mouth is dry. I stand up, totter for a moment, and then find my bearings and go to the sink. I splash water in my face and look into the cracked mirror. Yellow bruises and pink cuts cover my face. Dried blood clings to my upper lip. I splash more water and rub at the blood. Crimson liquid swirls down the drain. Then I gulp as much water as my belly will take and lick my lips, wetting them.
I go to the door and peer through the slit. One of the bastards who laid into me stands outside. Big and chunky like a goddamned animal.
“Round two?” I say cheerily, grinning at him.
The man grunts, but doesn’t turn his head.
“We can go at it one on one, if you want, eh?”
He ignores me. I laugh darkly and return to the bed, sitting on the edge of it, looking down at my cut knuckles.
I keep thinking of the first kiss, the release of it. It felt like we’d been holding in the lust for years, not days. It felt like kissing somebody I’ve wanted to kiss my entire life. Felicity has made me think about myself in a way I never have before. She’s made me reflect on how I feel, a feat I never thought possible. Because, in a way, I have been waiting for Felicity my entire life. I’ve been waiting for a woman I feel close to, really close to, not just rut-and-leave close. I’ve been waiting for a woman I can look in the eye and see love, not just lust; I’ve been waiting for her.
And now you’ve lost her, don’t you get that? You’ve lost.
I sigh, massaging my temples. My head aches from the madness of it all. Who knew a job could turn out like this?
I’m about to lie back on the bed, close my eyes, try and get some sleep, when three sharp raps sound at my door.
“What?” I grunt.
“Mr. Black wants to see you, slugger.” The guard sniggers.
“Come in here and get me, then,” I spit.
“I have canisters of tear gas on my hip,” the guard sighs. “I could throw one in, but Mr. Black says he would prefer if I didn’t.”
“Mr. Black says jump—”
“Yeah, yeah, I ask how high,” he says wearily. “Look, don’t make this difficult.”
“Maybe I want to make it difficult.” I stand up and go to the slit, staring straight into his face. I won’t let them beat on me again, no matter how many of them come at me. I’ll fight like a hound straight from hell.
The guard rolls his eyes, steps back, and takes out a gun. He points it at the door and unlocks it. I step back as the door swings open. He steps into the cell, and behind him stands another man, one I didn’t notice before. He holds an automatic rifle in his hands, looking down the sights.
“Don’t be an idiot,” the first guard says. “Turn around. Hands behind your back.”
The second guard tightens his grip on the rifle.
With a sigh, I turn around and put my hands behind my back. I’ve done this long enough to know when a situation is ripe for going south. Maybe I could snatch the pistol from the first guard’s hands, turn it on him, paint the wall red with his insides. But then the second guard will just kneecap me. A peppering of bullets will shred through my legs and leave me immobilized for months, years, maybe forever.
My only chance now is to wait for opportunity and seize it when it comes.
The guard clamps the cuffs onto my wrists, reaches into his pocket, and pulls a black bag over my head.
Then I’m guided through the facility. I’m pushed into an elevator and guided down a hallway and then shoved through a door.
The black bag is taken from my head. It’s daytime, but the sunlight is overpowered by the glistening of the electric chandeliers overhead, which throw down huge waves of light. The room is carved from marble, the walls and floor white and shining. A small fountain sits in one corner, beside a bookshelf. In the center of the room sits a massive desk, polished to a fine gleam. Mr. Black rises from a throne-like chair and waves me in. Four guards line the walls, all holding high-powered rifles.
Still cuffed, I walk to the desk and maneuver myself into the chair opposite Mr. Black. He wears his customary black suit with his black cufflinks and his eyes are as dark as ever. He drops into his throne and grins at me.
“Roma, Roma, Roma,” he sings. “What are we to do with you, my boy?”
I don’t speak. I learnt a long time ago that when Mr. Black starts speaking, you wait. He’d happily set all four of these guards on me if it came to that. But I’ve known Mr. Black almost as long as I’ve known Bear, and sometimes over the years I’ve gotten the sense that there’s some humanity behind those black sheets of eyes, even if it is just a touch of it.
“You went to France and lost your heart to a girl,” he says, making a tut noise. He looks to the guards and then waves a hand. “Out, please.”
Without a word, all four of them file out. Mr. Black reaches under his desk and places a pistol down. “Just for security, you understand. Even cuffed and beaten, you are a dangerous man.”
He sighs, and then says: “Listen to me, Roma, and listen closely. I value you as a worker. You are, without a doubt, the best killer on my payroll. The on
ly reason those men got you was because you were focused on other things. Namely, Felicity. If they had come on you Stateside, before your head was tossed, you would’ve ended them all. We both know that. Now, let’s get down to business. I am willing to tell everybody—the men, my contacts—that the true reason you disembarked that yacht and went to Bear’s little hideout was to finish him off. You see, you were there under express orders from me. And, look, you carried out your task!” He giggles, a sound that is both childlike and demonlike. “Yes, yes, you jumped off the yacht and you swam all that way because I told you to. You understand . . . I’m still in complete control.”
He stares at me. His face holds little anger, little of anything, but I’ve known him long enough to understand the significance of his words. If I agree now, he’ll bring me back into the agency, if for no other reason than I’ve served him without flinching since I was a teenager. And he’s right. I’m the best man he has. He has mercenaries, but they’re best in warzones, and our business is rarely a warzone. It requires finesse, blending in.
I bite down my pride, my rage, and nod. “You are still in complete control,” I say.
He claps his hands together loudly. “Right!” he exclaims. “Now, this business about the girl.” As he talks, he stands up and walks around the desk. I don’t realize what he’s doing until he’s already done it and my hands are free. He unlocks the handcuffs and drops them on the desk in front of me and walks back around to his chair. Get him! a voice screams. But what would it accomplish? I’d die, Felicity would die. This isn’t my opportunity.
He drops into the chair and drums his fingers on the table. “She’s a very attractive girl, Roma,” he says. He shrugs. “I can understand why you lost your head for a few moments. Let’s put that behind us, too, yes? Let’s return to business.”
Numbly, I nod.
“Great!” Mr. Black claps his hands again. “Because I need you, Roma. With Bear gone, you are the best agent. The best. You have trained hard and you’ve earned your stripes.”
Despite everything, I feel a pride in this. Being the best is a difficult feeling to simply shrug away.
“I want to bring you further into the fold,” Mr. Black says. “I want you to become my second-in-command, eventually. Maybe one day you’ll take over the agency. So, listen. This is your first lesson. The Politics of Murder.” He waves his hand, as though gesturing at a blackboard. “This agency of mine now works exclusively for the Kremlin. The Russians, in short, are the ones who purchased the execution of Ambassador Fellows. His ideas won’t do, not in the least. He wants to crack down on criminal organizations, international criminal organizations. That’s us, Roma. Your pile of money—wherever you squirrel it away—is under threat by this man. He will seize all our assets and have us arrested, perhaps killed. He’s our enemy.”
He looks at me expectantly.
I nod. “Yes, sir,” I say.
His gummy grin spreads across his face. “Roma, you’re back! So, enough funny business? You are my Roma again, yes?”
I nod, but I want to spit in his face. Felicity . . .
“Yes, sir.”
“Good.” He waves me away. “You are free. Well, within the confines of the facility, of course. I trust you, you understand, but it’s safer if you remain here for a time, until all the pieces are in place.”
“I understand,” I mutter.
“Good. Dismissed, soldier.”
“Sir.” I stop at the door, half-turn.
“Yes?”
“Can I see her? Just to say goodbye?”
Mr. Black’s cheeks tremble for less than a second. I see rage rise and fall in his face. He swallows it. He really does need me, I think.
“Of course,” Mr. Black says, smiling.
You stupid bastard. Do you really think seeing her will make me want to let her go?
Don’t you get it yet? I love her.
“Thank you, sir.”
I leave the office.
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Felicity
Daniel licks his lips, which tremble like a nervous child’s. “I can’t . . .” He sucks in a deep breath and I can tell he’s trying to steel himself up to push me away. But this is a man—a boy, really—who has never had a woman throw herself at him before. I can see it in the way his eyes flit to his feet, to my face, to his feet again. “Are you serious?” he breathes.
“Look,” I say.
I step back from the slit and he leans forward, peering into the cell. Feeling sick, but knowing that I have to do what is necessary, I begin to dance. I dance like I did on the yacht when giving Roma a lap dance. I move my hips and spin around, shaking my ass at him.
“Oh my God,” he mutters, his voice one of disbelief. “You’re so . . .”
“Don’t you want it?” I moan. “Don’t you want it, Daniel?”
“I want it,” he admits, voice hoarse. “Yes, I want it.”
I stop dancing and return to the slit. “Then stop umming and ahhing and get in here. I’ll ride you like no woman ever has before.”
“Are you . . .” His forehead creases. “Are you a nymphomaniac?”
I stifle a laugh and look at him with complete seriousness. “Yes,” I say. “Yes, I’m a nymphomaniac.”
“How bad do you want it?” he sighs.
“So, so, so bad,” I moan. “You’re too sexy. Please, don’t make me wait any longer.”
He nods shortly and then reaches into his pocket. “I’m hard,” he says, his voice sheepish.
I have to fight the urge to laugh a second time.
He fumbles into his pocket, pulls out the key, and drops it. “Dammit,” he says.
“Come on, baby,” I say. I sound like a fool. I sound like a wannabe porn star. I ignore the ridiculousness of it and push on. “Come on, don’t keep me waiting. I’m so wet.”
“Fuck, fuck, okay,” he breathes, voice shaking. “Okay.” He picks up the key and pushes it into the slot. It turns, clicks, and I step back as the door swings open.
Standing in full view now, I see how young he really is. I guess around eighteen, a teenager who’s never been talked to like this by a woman before. His chest rises and falls rapidly and beads of sweat drip down his forehead. I watch the gun at his hip, waiting for him to come into the cell.
He steps in on shaky legs, his eyes moving up and down my body, lingering on my legs. “I want it,” he says.
“Then come and get it,” I say, stepping back against the wall as though I want nothing more than for him to lift me off my feet and take me here. I’m amazed that this is working, that he is truly this foolish, but if there’s one thing I learned on the Russian yacht, it’s that certain types of men rarely think when it comes to women. They’re overtaken with lust and there’s nothing they can do to stop it. “Come on, baby. What’re you waiting for?”
He lets out a long sigh and then walks deep into the cell toward me. He fiddles with the buckle of his pants clumsily and I feel bile rise in my throat, acidic. He undoes the belt and loosens it and then goes for his buttons.
“Can I do it from behind?” he asks, almost on me now. “I really want to see that ass.”
“You can have it any way you like,” I say, tensing my arms, readying my body.
“Can I put it in your ass?” he says, like a boy in a toy shop. “Can I?”
“Of course,” I say.
He drops his belt to the floor and pulls his pants down around his thighs. I see with a sick feeling that he’s hard.
“Let’s get to it, then,” he says.
I open my arms. “Come here if you want it.”
He steps forward. This is my chance. If I miss, something terrible will happen. He’ll get so angry that he’ll beat me—or worse. He’ll get so angry that he’ll lose control. There are fewer things more dangerous than a man who thinks he’s entitled to a woman, than a man who feels as though he’s been lead on.
I open my arms—and close them in a clapping motion on either side of his
head. “Uh,” he grunts, stepping back. He trips over his pants and stumbles toward the bed. I don’t wait. I don’t think. I pounce.
My fists fly at his face. I feel absurdly guilty about striking him, but this is survival and I won’t stop. I punch him five or six times in the face. On the last strike, his eyes flutter and fall closed, his neck goes slack, and his head droops forward, his chin resting on his chest.
I reach down and grab his gun, stuff it into my waistband. Okay, step one complete, I think. I’m about to flee from the cell when a thought occurs to me. If the next guard comes for his shift and finds the cell open and Daniel knocked out, they’ll know I’m missing. There’s no sense in letting them know any sooner than they need to. I find the key to the cell in his pocket and drop it into my own. Then I grab him under the armpits and drag him into the hallway. It’s long and thin, with cells lining it, all of which are empty. It is eerily silent. I look down one length of the hallway and see the elevator, down the other and see what looks like a storage cupboard.
