by Mary Monroe
Cara took a deep breath, then tried again.
“People always seem to be in so much of a hurry,” Lovie continued as she sat down breathlessly in the sand. “Rush, rush, rush. What are they rushing toward? Life isn’t some kind of race. We all cross the same finish line, sooner or later. You’d hate to get the end in sight and suddenly wish you’d walked rather than run, wouldn’t you?”
“Maybe that’s why they call it the human race.”
Her mother laughed. “Well, we are all in it together. But the winner of this race gets no prize. So take your time, Cara. Move steadily and serenely at a turtle’s pace. Smooth movements. That’s better. Careful now. The dip always catches you by surprise. Sort of like in life.”
Cara moved slowly, thinking of the tai chi exercises she’d once taken. Eventually she caught her own rhythm, easing the probe down to feel the hard resistance of the compact sand, then slowly drawing it back. Then on to another spot, and another, one after the other until she’d made dozens of small holes filling half the circumference of the pit. Just as she was getting into it, when she least expected it, the probe slipped in deep—so deep she had to catch herself or it would have gone too far in.
Cara felt a soaring elation and looked over at her mother for affirmation.
Lovie smiled, pride shining in her eyes. “Congratulations. Now you’re a member of the Turtle Team.” She rose and coughed, patting her chest, then said hoarsely, “Okay, roll up your sleeves.” Coming closer with the red bucket she sank to her knees in the sand. “This nest is much too far below the tide line. High tide will destroy the eggs for sure. We’ll have to move it. So, let’s see what we’ve got.”
Lovie began digging out the sand with her hands, carefully probing with fingers for the eggs between scoops. Cara watched intently, then followed suit. Before long, the eggs were visible and Cara laughed out loud with the delight of discovering a treasure trove. Gingerly, Lovie reached in and drew one out, handling the single egg as though it were made of spun glass. She gingerly handed it to Cara.
Cara held out her palm, cupping the egg, bringing it close. “It’s the spitting image of a Ping-Pong ball. Only soft and leathery.”
“We can only move them now in the first twenty-four hours, but we mustn’t jostle them or turn them around lest the embryo tears from the shell.” She took the egg back and placed it right side up into the trusty red bucket.
One by one they retrieved the eggs and carefully placed them in the moist nest sand inside the red bucket. When they were done, they moved the eggs to a chosen spot above the spring tide line where they would be safe from saltwater flooding. Cara crouched at the spot her mother chose and began digging with a cockleshell an arm’s length into the sand. Then she carved out a flask-shaped chamber in imitation of the sea turtle’s nest. Lovie sat beside her and supervised every step, a bemused expression on her face. Once finished, Cara began reverentially placing each of the 104 eggs into the new chamber, right side up.
“You know what?” Cara asked, turning to face her mother as she reached in the bucket for another egg.
Lovie looked at her daughter. The sun broke through the gray, pinkening Cara’s cheeks as she grinned from ear to ear. “What?”
“This is fun. Who knew?”
Cara placed the egg in the nest, a look of fierce concentration on her face. Lovie remembered back to when Cara was a little girl, digging sand castles beside Palmer with the same expression.
Thank You, Lord, she whispered fervently. Thank You for the chance to play with my daughter again.
Dawn was causing a furor of excitement outside Cara’s window. The birds were relentless in their chirping and squawking, more dependable than any alarm clock.
“Okay, okay!” Cara muttered, rising slowly. She yawned loudly and dragged herself from the bed. Just as well the birds woke her. She had to patrol her stretch of beach for turtle tracks. Quietly she slipped on her shorts and a Turtle Team T-shirt and laced up her running shoes. The house was quiet; Lovie and Toy were still sleeping. Stepping into the cool morning air, Cara stretched, took a deep breath, then headed toward the beach.
The undisturbed sand was smooth and hard, its shimmering surface broken by small crab holes, tracks of birds and a smattering of shells. As she jogged along her assigned stretch of beach, Cara’s gaze wandered from the shoreline to the horizon. The sun pierced the bluish clouds with spectacular shafts of rosy light. Her spirits lifted and she got into the rhythm of the run. She’d been jogging this stretch for almost a week now. At first she’d been winded and muttered how she was only doing this for Lovie’s sake. But by the end of the week she knew the morning run was as much for her own sake. As each day passed the cloud of depression dissipated a little more and she missed her computer and e-mail a little less. Each day, she felt more fit and energized.
And each day Lovie presented a new lesson. Cara had crammed a lot into the past week. There were the tracks to measure, eggs to count, and the important art of moving a nest. She learned how to cordon off the nest with wooden stakes, tape and bright-orange signs to protect it from being disturbed by feet or bikes.
An hour later, Cara finished up her patrol. A few more people were out walking the beach or collecting shells. There were no tracks here today but several pale-gray ghost crabs scuttled into their holes as she passed. By the time she reached home again the phone would be ringing with reports from other volunteers and she’d be off again to check the tracks for nests. Such was her new morning routine.
And it was surprisingly fulfilling. Her life had turned upside down in a little less than a month, challenging so much of what she’d thought were fundamentals in her life. She’d grown up thinking Lovie had nothing to teach her. Yet in the space of a few weeks, she learned that her mother had a lot to teach after all.
She stopped before entering the beach house to kick off her running shoes. And as her mother’s humming wafted through an open window, it dawned on Cara that, for the first time in her life, the turtles were no longer a barrier between herself and her mother but a bond.
It was half past five on a cool, overcast evening in mid-June and Dunleavy’s Pub was hopping. Crowds of locals peppered with tourists overflowed to the umbrella tables outdoors. Men and women cruised inside with their dogs the way Cara remembered kids cruising with cars. Cara and Emmi grabbed a small wooden table in the corner before a man and his giant black lab could reach it. The race was close but the dog jerked at the chain to sniff a poodle in the lap of another patron and the table was theirs. They ordered their Coronas with lime and hot ‘n’ spicy wings. In a short while the music and laughter of the pub flowed through their veins at a mellow tempo.
Cara had forgotten how funny Emmi could be and how plain good it felt to laugh out loud without thought to who was seated at the next table. Cara was just beginning to get used to this again after such a long time of work-connected relationships. With those men and women—fun and hilarious as they were—she was always “on.” She kept a clever repartee poised on the tip of her tongue and she excelled at delivering just enough personal information to appear forthcoming yet holding back on the real goods.
But with Emmi she didn’t have to paraphrase comments or fill in the missing information. They had shared histories and secrets. They also had a radar for each other’s emotions.
After the wings were polished off and they were on their second round of Coronas, Emmi leaned across the table and asked, “Okay, so what’s bothering you?”
Cara opened her mouth to snap back “nothing” when the truth just tumbled out.
“I spoke to Adele, my friendly headhunter today. She called in a huff asking me what the hell I was doing still on the Isle of Palms.”
“What’s her problem?”
“Me.” She grimaced and looked over at a pair of English springer spaniels gobbling up spilled popcorn from the floor. “I told her to line up some interviews for me, but of course that was before I knew about Mama. Honestly, I didn’t expect
that she’d have something so soon. When I told her I was going to be staying here for the summer, let’s just say she wasn’t very happy. But that’s not what’s bothering me.”
“You’re not regretting your decision to stay?”
She sighed heavily. “No, but I am worried. Adele had some very interesting prospects that I’m likely to lose by taking so much time away from the mainstream. It’s a scary place to be. While I’m sitting here on the island, I still have to make my mortgage payments in Chicago and pay the bills that come in every month. And then there’s my image to think about. The longer I stay away, the more it will appear I’ve slunk away with my tail between my legs.”
“Look, sugar, I don’t mean to be unsympathetic, but are you for sure going to stay here or not?”
“I told you I am.”
“And you can afford to stay? Without losing your place?”
“Not forever, but for the summer, yes.”
“Then forget about that other crap. Worrying about it isn’t going to change anything, is it? You’re here, and for what it’s worth, I think you made the best decision.”
Cara exhaled a long plume of air.
“I kind of envy you, you know,” Emmi said.
Cara raised her brow and looked at her friend skeptically.
“I mean it. At least you’ve got stuff on your table, decisions to make. For the past few years, I’ve felt as though I’ve been put on hold. I swear I can almost hear the Muzak playing in the background of my life.” She stopped talking when the waitress came to collect their empty bottles and take their order.
“Emmi, honey, is everything okay?”
Emmi waited until the waitress walked away. From the pensive expression on her face, Cara knew that she’d hit a sore spot.
“I don’t know,” she replied with a tone that signaled her frustration. “I’m just lonely, I guess.”
“I thought you were enjoying being alone.”
“I am—sometimes. But it gets pretty quiet. I miss the clamor around the house. I miss being needed.”
“How long will Tom be gone?”
Emmi’s face stilled. “Who knows?” she replied at length.
Cara caught the undercurrent of that comment and gave Emmi a questioning look.
“Here’s the thing,” Emmi said. “About five years ago Tom got this big promotion that involved traveling—and I mean a lot. All over the world. He’s not around much during the year and never in the summer. And the boys got to that age where they just wanted to be with their friends, play sports and get jobs. You know the routine. I was a good wife, staying at home in Atlanta in the air-conditioning all summer waiting for Tom to come home or for the boys to ask for dinner. Then I found I hung around the house the rest of the year, too. I baked a lot, ate a lot, drank a lot of wine and, lo and behold, I gained about twenty pounds.”
They laughed in commiseration.
“When last summer came around and John graduated from high school, it hit me that everyone was busy making plans—except me. So I said, enough of this! I decided not to rent out the beach house and up and took it for myself.”
“That sounds like the Emmi I know.”
“Does it?” She laughed with her eyes sparking. “Maybe. Last summer everything was fun and new. Miss Lovie hooked me into the sea turtles and it really grounded me to being home again. But this year…Something is missing.”
“Tom, for one thing.”
“Yeah, well,” she replied, coloring. She reached for her bottle and took a long sip. Then looking at it she said, “Do you remember when we were kids and played spin the bottle?”
Cara smiled. “Sure I do. Only it wasn’t a beer bottle. It was a Coke. That should’ve been your first clue.”
Emmi looked at the bottle in her hand and Cara could see that her thoughts were traveling years back. She set the bottle on the table and looked up again. “We had all these plans for our future back then. We were bottled up with dreams and excitement and it carried us right through college.”
“What happened then? Did you ever work?”
“Work? Yeah, I worked. In the home.”
“I meant outside the home. At a job.”
Emmi grew defensive. “Don’t tell me you’re one of those boring ladies who think housewives lead empty, wasted lives. I’ve been very busy working and volunteering, and with Tom traveling so much someone had to be at home. At least when the boys were little.”
“Hey, I’m not making a judgment here. I’m only curious. You wanted to be a biologist.”
“You wanted to be a ballerina.”
“That’s hardly the same thing,” Cara replied with a laugh.
“Maybe not.” Emmi’s expression changed and in a sober tone she said, “But we each went on different paths, didn’t we?”
“I guess. We’re not all that different, though. I went to my work, you went to your work. Years passed. And now we’re both forty and we’re wondering about some of the decisions we’ve made along the way. Time is flying by faster and faster. We’re both watching our bodies soften and worried whether the sun will cause skin cancer or if we’re taking enough calcium so we don’t get stooped someday. We’re picking out shoes with the same enthusiasm we used to pick out sexy lingerie. And we’re listening a little closer to talk about yoga, estrogen, collagen, alpha-hydroxy or whatever else will defy aging. And, of course, plastic surgery, even if it’s to lift our boobs and not the face.”
Emmi laughed. “Yet.”
“Yet. And we’re both looking at girls of eighteen, trying to remember what it felt like to be that young.” She looked at Emmi with affection. “And then, suddenly, you run into an old friend who makes you feel like it was just yesterday.”
They clinked bottles and chuckled.
“The way I see it,” Emmi said, “since you are here for the summer, you might as well explore a little bit. Spend a little time doing the things we missed out on back when we were dorky kids.”
“Hey, I thought we were pretty cool.”
“We didn’t do anything fun, Caretta. Come on, admit it. We were reverse snobs who preferred theater and poetry, claiming to hate sailing, fishing, golf and all the other outdoor activities that obsessed most of the people around here, especially our daddies.”
“I went out on the boat with Palmer and Daddy lots of times.”
“Sugar,” Emmi said, silencing all Cara’s objections, “have you ever taken a boat deep into the marsh? Or gone crabbing on Capers Island?”
Cara opened her mouth to object, then shut it tight and shook her head.
“I didn’t think so. Neither had I until I had sons who dragged me out there. Man alive, I didn’t know what I was missing.” She sat up and pointed her finger at Cara. “Do you know what you should do?”
Cara looked back suspiciously.
“Go on one of those tour boats. No, I mean it. There’s a good one that goes out to Capers and a whole slew of other places.”
“Why would I want to do that?”
“Because you were born and raised here and it’s shameful that you haven’t yet. Besides, what else is on your calendar? You have to be getting bored sitting around all afternoon.”
“I have to admit I’ve been pretty antsy.”
“So, go!”
Cara finally raised her hands and said, “All right, all ready! I’ll take the cruise!”
While she labors, the loggerhead’s eyes stream with tears. These “turtle tears” are produced to rid her body of excess salt from drinking salt water.
CHAPTER TEN
Being the tourist season, it was a slow drive along Palm Boulevard to the opposite end of the island. The Marina was a cheery place with an island shop, restaurant and docks. Most of the boats were privately owned and ranged from small powerboats and Jet Skis to big deep-sea fishing craft and yachts equipped for ocean excursions.
She followed a worn path to the docks where she spotted a small wooden office built on pilings. Over it a modest sign read
Coastal Eco-Tours. Beside this was a long, covered tour boat with a dozen two-seater benches on either side. A line of would-be cruisers waited to board. It was the usual assortment: a few seniors in Bermuda shorts, assorted out-of-towners with cameras hanging around their necks, and mothers and fathers with young children in tow.
She stood on the dock with her arms crossed trying to decide if she really wanted to join this family affair. Hours stuck in airplanes with complaining children were fresh in her mind. Suddenly, a shadow fell over her. Looking up, she saw a very tanned, very tall man with auburn, sun-tipped hair and eyes the same color as the faded blue shirt he was wearing.
She could only shake her head and laugh. “You.”
His smile lifted one side of his mouth and his eyes crinkled at the corners. “If you didn’t run off every time I’ve tried to meet you, I’d think you were stalking me.”
“Hardly. But I can’t seem to go near a boat without finding you hanging around.”
His eyes shone with amusement. “I happen to own this particular boat.”
She raised her brow. “You’re Coastal Eco-Tours?”
He nodded.
“What about the shrimp boat? Do you own that, too?”
“No. During the off-season I earn some extra cash working on boats and clamming.”
He wasn’t her usual type but, despite herself, she felt the zing of attraction again. And it wasn’t just his rugged good looks. His sexy restraint and old-fashioned masculinity had her blood pumping hard in her veins.
“You wanted to meet me?” she asked.
“Do you mind?”
Wearing sunglasses, she could quickly glance at his left hand without notice. There was no ring on his finger.
“No, I don’t mind. I’m just a little surprised. I was under the impression you found me amusing. Or should I say, rather a joke?”
He looked puzzled.
“Every time I looked at you, you were either smiling or laughing at me.”
