Sex. That was all it had been, all it had ever been. His father had tried to tell him that. His brothers, too. Well, no. Not Travis. By then, Travis had already taken off for parts unknown. But Slade had tried to make him listen to reason, and Gage had waved off his kid brother's warnings, laughed them off, really, telling Slade he was too young to understand love, telling his father he was too jaded to understand it.
And now, it was over.
Oh, the heat was still there. For all he knew, it always would be. Natalie was a beautiful, sexy woman. Why pretend otherwise? And he was a man who had an eye for beauty.
Gage glanced at the ornate gold and platinum faucets jutting from the marble sink. Well, for some kinds of beauty. Not stuff like this. He shuddered. This was ugly. But Natalie liked it, the same as she liked the Spanish Inquisition couch.
"All to madam's tastes, Mr. Baron," the, obsequious little interior decorator had explained any time he'd questioned a purchase.
All of which proved, Gage thought glumly as he stepped into the shower, all of which most definitely proved how little he and Natalie suited each other.
That was why her announcement last night really hadn't come as such a shock. Well, it had, at first. He'd felt as if the ground were dissolving under his feet when she'd looked at him, her eyes cold, and said, "Gage, I want a divorce."
"A divorce?" he'd repeated dumbly, as if saying the word might give it some real meaning, turn it into one he could understand.
"Yes," she'd said. "A divorce."
And then a bunch of the Holcombs's guests had come traipsing through the garden, talking and laughing.
What's the matter with you people? he'd wanted to shout.
Don't you realize that the whole world just stopped?
But he hadn't said anything, partly because his brain seemed to have gone numb, partly because Natalie had swung away from him and was hurrying towards the gate that led to the beach. He'd gone after her, following as she made her way not to the sea but around the side of the mansion, up the walkway, to the front of the house.
She'd taken the long way. Evidently, she hadn't been any more interested in pasting on a smile and saying good-night to a bunch of people than he was.
She was already heading for the street by the time he got to the driveway.
"My car," he said to the kid with the pimples, pulling out the first bill from his pocket. "And make it quick.” It must have been a hefty tip because the kid took off like a rocket and delivered the car thirty seconds later.
"Thank you, sir," he said, but Gage was already in the Vette, pulling away, tires screaming as he raced after Natalie.
He slowed when he caught up to her and put down his window.
"Get in the car."
She ignored him.
"Get in the damn car," he said, and something in his voice must have warned her that he was in no mood for games because she'd stopped, wrenched open the door and climbed In.
"What does 'I want a divorce' mean?" he'd growled. "It's not Swahili, Gage. It means exactly what you think it means," Natalie had replied without looking at him, and she'd sat silent as a statue all the way back to their house, where he'd roared up the driveway and come to a screeching, bone-jarring stop. She was out of the car, into the house, up the stairs in one fluid motion, with him hot on her heels.
"Natalie," he'd said, "what's going on here?"
But it was a pointless question. For starters, she didn't answer it. And even a man as dumb as he could see what was going on here.
Natalie had marched towards the guest suite, not towards the bedroom.
"Where do you think you're going?" he'd yelled.
She hadn't, answered that, either, and he'd felt his blood pressure zoom up the scale as the guest room door slammed behind her and the sound of the lock sliding home echoed like a rifle shot through the silent house.
So he'd stood there, hands balled into fists, brows tied in a knot, while the adrenaline pumped through his body at a thousand gallons a minute. Should he go after her? Demand answers? Should he break down the guest room door, break it down and ...
And what?
He'd never felt more useless, more frustrated, more furious in his whole life.
And, short of doing something he knew he'd regret later, there wasn't a thing he could do about it.
Except not sleep in the master bedroom.
It wasn't much, but it was something-something, it turned out, that had come close to breaking his back.
Well, at least it had given him time to think.
Gage shut off the shower, stepped out and strode into the bedroom with a towel tied around his waist.
Natalie wanted out? Fine. So did he. Wasn't that exactly what he'd been thinking while he'd dressed for the party last night?
What they'd had, what he'd thought they had, just wasn't there anymore. The truth was, they quarrelled all the time. Over everything. Natalie didn't hurry to the door when he came home. Hell, most of the time she wasn't even there when he came home, not even after he'd busted his tail flying through five time zones to get to her, the way he'd done a couple of weeks ago after he'd opened the newest Baron's in Samoa, where he'd had to grin like an idiot while some broad with too many teeth and not enough clothes had propped her boobs against his arm.
"Miss South Pacific," the hotel manager had hissed into his ear. "It's good for local business."
And it would have been good as a little joke to share with Natalie. But the days of shared jokes and smiles were long gone.
Oh, she could still turn him on. There was no question about that. Gage reached into his closet, then stopped.
Except, now that he thought about it, even sex hadn't been the same lately. There were the nights he thought about reaching for Natalie in bed, but didn't do it. He was tired. She was tired. But hadn't there been a time he hadn't thought about reaching for her, a time he'd just done it? And, after they'd made love, hadn't there been a time he'd never had to wonder if Natalie had-if she'd-
Gage grabbed for a shirt, a tie, a suit.
What did any of it matter? Last night, tossing on that couch, he'd admitted to himself that she had simply spoken the truth before he had. Their marriage had run its course. Marriages did that in his family. Just look at his old man, tucked in with wife number five. Just look at Travis, one down and swearing he'd never get trapped again.
Gage snorted.
And then there was Slade, who worked at staying single.
And Caitlin ... well, forget Caitlin. Not because she wasn't really a Baron by blood but because his stepsister was too smart to even consider becoming a participant in the marriage wars.
Gage stepped into his briefs, pulled on his trousers and zipped them up.
Yessirree, today was the first day of the rest of his life. A life without a wife who'd made it clearer and clearer she didn't love him.
She had, once.' He knew she had. Maybe-maybe, if they hadn't lost the baby ...
His face hardened. The baby had nothing to do with it.
Natalie hadn't really wanted a baby, anyway. He knew that, now. That was something else it was time he admitted.
"Okay," he said aloud. "It's over. And I'm damn glad it is.'
"So am I," Natalie said, and Gage whirled around to face her. His face reddened.
"I didn't know you were there." "So I gather."
"I didn't mean-" "Didn't you?"
The coldness in her face was like a blow to the heart.
Gage's mouth thinned.
"Did you want something?" he asked politely. "No. I mean, yes. I mean ... "
What did she mean? If only she hadn't stumbled in without knocking. If only she hadn't heard him say those words. He was right, of course. It was over and, dammit, she was as relieved as he was. Only-only he didn't have to sound so happy ...
"Natalie?' '
She blinked. Gage had come closer. All she had to do was reach out her hand to touch him ...
"Natalie? Are you all righ
t?" She swallowed hard and nodded.
"I'm fine. I'm sorry I barged in on you, Gage. I should have knocked, but the door was open."
"Don't be ridiculous. You don't have to-" busy. I'll wait until you're finished and then
"You're
I’ll-" "No." The word shot from his throat. "No," he said carefully, and ran his fingers through his hair. ''I'm not busy at all. I'm just getting dressed."
Yes. She could see that for herself. He was wearing nothing but a pair of gray trousers, zipped but open at the waist so that they drooped low on his hips. And he'd just come from the shower. His dark hair was still damp and uncombed. It layover his forehead in a way that made her want to go to him and push it back.
Habit, she thought, and stood straighter. It was habit, too, that made her gaze drop lower, to survey that familiar body. The broad shoulders. The muscled arms and chest. The narrow waist that tapered to long legs ...
Her gaze shot back to his face.
"That's-that's all right." She cleared her throat. "I'll wait."
"Natalie." His hand fell on her shoulder as she turned away. "Did you, uh, did you want something?"
"My clothes." She made a little gesture that took in the white robe, hanging almost to her toes. "I need my clothes."
"Oh." He nodded. "I, ah, I thought you might have wanted to talk."
"About what?"
About what? Gage's vision clouded. How could she ask that? How could she sound so damned polite?
"About us," he said tightly. "That's what I thought you might want to talk about."
She nodded. "I don't think there's anything to say," she said quietly. "We both know our marriage is over. We've known it for a long time. I just finally put it into words last night. "
A muscle knotted in Gage's jaw. "Of course," he said politely. "You're right. Now that I've had time to think it over, I know that."
Natalie forced a smile to her lips. "I just... I'm not sure what we're supposed to do next."
"No. Neither am I:" He walked to the bed, where he'd dropped the rest of the clothes he'd taken from the closet. "Talk to a lawyer, I guess."
"A lawyer." Natalie stumbled a little over the word. "Yes.
Yes, of course. Do we use one or do we use two?"
"Two," Gage said in that same polite tone. He slipped on his shirt, began doing up the buttons. "Why don't you call Jim Rutherford?"
"I assumed you'd want Jim."
Gage shook his head. "That's okay. You might as well deal with somebody you know. I'll get someone else."
"Yes, but ... " God, what was wrong with her? What did she care what lawyer he used? His feelings weren't her problem, not anymore.
"Landon. Grant Landon." "Who?"
The name from the past had tumbled from Gage's lips without warning but now that it had, he knew it made sense. A friend. A real friend, one who'd known him in that long ago time when he'd stood halfway between the defiance of his abandoned youth and the promise of the man he was to become.
"You met him in New York. I brought him by a couple of times when I was in law school. Remember?"
Did she remember? Natalie almost laughed, or maybe she almost cried. She'd never forget New York. Gage in school, at class all day, bent over his books half the night. She, working at the restaurant where the grease on the griddle probably dated back to pre-history. The little walk-up apartment on Eighth Street, where the water always gurgled in the pipes and the thin walls that transmitted every sound from the apartment next door.
And the joy. The happiness. The wonder of being Gage's wife, of being able to begin each day seeing his face, of ending each night wrapped in his arms ...
"Nat?"
She looked up, her vision hazed by tears. Gage had come closer. He was only a breath away. He smiled and lay his hand lightly against her cheek.
"Do you remember New York, Nat?" he said.
Natalie stared at him. Oh, he was so transparent. Did he think he could do this forever? A soft word. A smile. A gentle touch. And she was supposed to succumb, to go into his arms, to pretend that she meant more to him than an ornament. Because that was all she was. An ornament. One he could drape with jewels and place in a glowing setting.
Once, she'd been a woman of flesh and blood. Gage's wife.
A whole person, the one he discussed things with. Planned with. Chose to be with, above and beyond anyone else, instead of jetting off at every opportunity to meet with Important People, to be photographed at the opening of the latest Baron resort with some nubile young thing breathing down his neck, Miss Samoa or Miss Pittsburgh or-or Miss Minnie Mouse, for all she knew or cared ...
Natalie jerked back.
"I remember," she said coldly. "That ratty apartment. The water that shook the pipes. The noise from next door, and the stink of old grease in my hair. You're damned right, I remember. How could I ever forget?"
Gage's eyes went flat.
"I see. The bell rings for round one." "And what's that supposed to mean?"
His smile was tight and unpleasant. "Come on, babe, don't give me that innocent look. Half your girlfriends have been divorced. Round one, in which the much-put-upon little woman lays out a list of all the sacrifices she's made for hubby."
Natalie's chin lifted. "What an excellent idea," she said sweetly. "I'll be sure to mention it to Jim."
"And I'll be sure to tell Grant that he'd better help me figure out a way to lock up the valuables."
"You do that," Natalie said through her teeth.
"Damn right," Gage said through his. "Now, was there anything else you wanted, or can I finish getting dressed in the privacy of my own room?"
Natalie fluttered her lashes. "Your own room?" She looked around slowly, then at Gage again. "Your own room, my dear, almost-ex-husband, is waiting for you at your club. Or at your hotel. One of your hotels, anyway." Her smile glittered. "But it certainly isn't here. As you so carefully pointed out, this is round one. That means the house is the least of what I expect to get."
Gage slapped his hands on his hips. "You're joking."
Natalie slapped her hands on her hips, too. "Do I look as if I'm joking?"
His eyes narrowed. "It'll take a court order to get me out of here, babe."
''I'm sure Jim will provide me with one."
Natalie turned away from him and sauntered towards the door. It was crazy, but the sight of that stiff, slender back sent Gage's blood pressure soaring again.
"And I'm sure Grant will know what you can do with your court order," he said, his voice rising.
She swung to face him, her hand on the doorknob. "I hope so," she said politely. "I hope, too, that your Mister... Landon? I hope he's able to do such things, here in Florida."
Gage blinked. "What?"
"He practices in New York. Isn't that what you said? And this is Florida. I just hope, for both our sakes, your dear old pal can hang out his shingle in another state because I'm telling you right now, Gage, I don't want this thing dragging on forever."
Gage strode towards her. "It won't. Oh, it won't." He grabbed Natalie's shoulders, drew her up to her toes, lowered his face until they were nose to nose. "Because I'm telling you right now, babe, you can forget about a divorce."
Natalie turned white. "But you just said ... "
"I know what I said!" He let go of her, yanked open the door, and she stumbled backwards into the hall. "I know exactly what I said, dammit." He slammed the door shut and
glared at it. "And I meant every ward," he muttered. "Every mother-loving ward."
Enraged, he kicked the wall, welcomed the sharp pain the thoughtless action sent shooting through his bare toes.
"Every ward," he said, and buried his face in his hands.
CHAPTER THREE
GAGE pushed open the double glass doors that led to the main offices of Baron Resorts. Carol, seated behind the reception desk, gave him her usual sunny smile aver the mug of steaming coffee she held in her hands.
"Morning, Mr. Baron." Gage
glared at her.
"It's after nine," he snapped. "You’re supposed to be working.'
Carol’s smile faded. "I am working. I mean, I'm just-" "You want coffee, wait until your break." Gage marched past her. "Let's have a little efficiency around here, if you don’t mind."
"Na, Mr. Baron. I mean, yes, Mr. Baron. I mean-"
He pushed his way through the next set .of doors and strode towards his office. His secretary rose to her feet as he swept past her desk.
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