There was a pause before Nyland answered.
“I have to admit that I had a feeling you were holding something back.”
“Like what?”
“I don’t know. I couldn’t come up with anything concrete.”
“So you never thought I knew who the murderer was?”
“No. Did you?”
“Of course not,” said Lance with a laugh.
A lengthy pause ensued. An uncomfortable silence.
“Is everything okay?”
“Sure,” Lance replied automatically.
“Just let me know if there’s anything else I can do to help. More postcards, more women. Whatever you need.”
UP ON THE RIDGE the house stood in darkness, closed in on itself in the winter night. It was now past 3:00 a.m., and the traffic on Highway 61 wouldn’t pick up again until people began leaving for work around six. Lance put on his snowshoes outside Isak Hansen’s hardware store, where he’d parked, and began walking up the snowy road toward the house. It was only right that he should arrive home under cover of night, heading for a cold, dark house with the starry sky overhead, wading through the powdery snow on snowshoes like a fur trapper or an Indian. It was right because he was still a fugitive. Only when he was once again inside his own house would it be over. He was now putting behind him the last few yards of his exile.
Then he was standing on the top step, where he’d stood on that night in November after having walked the whole way from Baraga Cross Road. Back then he’d had to use his rifle to break off the three-foot-long icicles that were blocking the front door.
The lock opened easily, as always. Through his glove he felt the cold from the iron as he pressed down the latch and opened the door. Without even thinking about it, his hand sought the switch in the dark and turned on the light. There were his coats hanging on their hooks, his shoes and boots lined up on the floor. But there was an unfamiliar and subdued air about everything. Without further hesitation he opened the next door and turned on the light in there too. He found himself standing right in front of the photo of him and Andy kneeling on either side of a big buck. Each brother held a rifle in one hand while with the other they grasped the impressive antlers. He couldn’t help thinking about the last time he’d stood here, when he was about to leave for Canada after having set up the ruse about taking a vacation in Norway. Because of what happened during the deer hunt, he hadn’t dared stay here any longer. Those two brothers who had posed so proudly for the photo on the wall had ended up hunting each other instead of a deer. He had taken aim at Andy, and his brother had turned around and seen him do it. But I wouldn’t have shot him, Lance thought now. Yet how certain could he be about that? Finally he had hidden in some dense thickets while his brother came closer and closer. “You’re a dead man, Lance,” Andy had whispered, only a couple of yards away. The next second Lance’s rifle had gone off by accident. The last Lance heard of Andy was the sound of his body as he toppled backward through the ice-coated thicket. It later turned out that the shot hadn’t hit him. And that could only be called a miracle.
Ever since, Lance had lived in fear of his brother.
As he went from room to room, switching on the lights and turning up the heaters that had been left on the lowest possible setting the whole time, he noticed that the whole place had an unfamiliar smell, as if the house had its own smell that had grown stronger during his absence. It would take time for him to feel at home here again, if ever. Yet he continued his solitary nightly rounds through the rooms, turning on the faucets, opening the kitchen cupboards, studying the cups and glasses and stacks of plates, running his hand over the tabletop where he’d eaten so many meals both alone and with his small family.
After a while he went into the living room and sat down on the sofa, in exactly the same place where he’d sat on that long night after the deer hunt. Now the circle was complete. But had anything really changed during the past ten weeks? As if his body were answering the question, he felt a dull pain pulsing in his right hand. That was what had happened, and that was why he was even here in the U.S. at all. He’d had enough and had slammed his fist on the table in the hotel.
“I won’t stand for this anymore,” he said in a low voice.
He looked at the photos of Jimmy hanging on the wall. What sort of father was he, lying to his son as he had? And hiding the truth about something as serious as a murder. He needed to clear things up, for the boy’s sake if nothing else.
HOW COULD HE HAVE BELIEVED that it would be over once he was inside these rooms again? His exile had nothing to do with this house; he had been shut out from the people. He got out his cell phone and clicked through the list of contacts. There they were: Inga, Andy, Mary, Becky Tofte, Ranger John Zimmermann, Bill Eggum, Sparky Redmeyer, and many more. All of them were under the illusion that Lance Hansen was on vacation in the “old country,” that the inveterate local historian and genealogy researcher was at this very minute exploring his roots on the other side of the Atlantic. Not until he stood before them would his exile be over.
His gaze fell on the photograph hanging in the hallway. The one of him and Andy on a deer hunt twelve or thirteen years ago, out by Onion River. Could he keep that picture there if he sent Andy to prison? Could he stand to see it every day if that happened? Lance went into the hall and stood in front of the photo. His brother was smiling under his Minnesota Twins cap, while he seemed worn out, his face flushed. He knew that was due to problems with the camera’s timing device. He’d run back and forth several times between the buck and the camera, which he’d set on a tree stump. But could he keep this picture hanging on the wall? No, not if he turned Andy in. Then he’d never be able to look at that smiling, proud face of his again, remembering how it had felt to be out in the woods with his brother. The mere thought of an outdoorsman like Andy locked up in a prison cell was sheer torture. Then he reminded himself that an innocent man was sitting in that cell right now. Even so, he left the photo where it was. For now, he thought.
He went back into the living room and pulled the heavy curtains aside to look out at the familiar view: Isak Hansen’s hardware store, founded by his paternal grandfather more than eighty years ago, a segment of Highway 61, and below the road an endless white plain that disappeared into the blue of the moon: Lake Superior. All this he would have to reclaim. The fact that he even stood here was the first step. Tomorrow he would make some calls to let people know he was back home. And even though he had no intention of phoning Andy, it wouldn’t take long before his brother heard the news.
15
AFTER BREAKFAST THE NEXT DAY Lance sat down in his easy chair to call his mother. It took only a few seconds for her to pick up.
“This is Inga,” she said.
He felt a lump form in his throat the moment he heard her slightly quavering voice. He had to clear his throat before he could say anything.
“Lance?” she said. “Is that you?”
She’d recognized who it was from the way he cleared his throat.
“Yes, it’s me, Mom.”
“Oh, it’s wonderful to hear from you, my boy! How are you?”
“Fine.”
“And how’s Norway?”
“No, I’m back home again.”
“Oh, my dear,” she exclaimed. “When did you get back?”
“Last night.”
“You must be tired.”
“You’re right about that.”
And he actually felt a great weariness flood over him. Probably because of all the lies that he’d already told her, and all the lies he was going to have to tell her in the future. She would want to hear about his Norway trip for a long time to come. Most likely for the rest of her life, he thought. From now on, every time he saw her she would want to talk about her son’s visit to the old country. Which meant that he would have to lie to her every time they saw each other.
“So how are you?” he asked.
“I’m fine, but it’s been awfully quiet here wi
thout you,” she told him.
“Hasn’t anyone come to visit you?”
“Awfully quiet.”
“What about Andy?”
“He’s got so much on his mind.”
“But you talk to him on the phone, don’t you?”
“Sure, but it’s been at least two weeks now. He was really interested to hear what you were doing in Norway.”
“What did you tell him?”
“Oh, looking for ancestors, that sort of thing.”
Lance thought there was something about her voice that sounded different than before. A certain flatness.
“The lake is completely frozen over,” she said.
“Yeah, I know.”
“Oh. Did they hear about it over there too?”
“The Internet, you know.”
“Oh. Right.”
“So what else did Andy say? Did he say anything about me?”
“No, I don’t think so. He was just wondering why you left for Norway so suddenly.”
“Did he mention anything about the deer hunt?”
“No, but I heard that you didn’t get anything.”
“That’s right. We didn’t.”
“Did you get caught in the ice storm?”
“Partly.”
“That must have been scary.”
“No, not really. It was fine,” Lance said.
He could hardly open his mouth anymore without lying. Not because he wanted to lie, but because every lie gave rise to another, which gave rise to two more, and on and on.
“I’ve tried to call you several times, but a voice said that your phone was turned off, or something like that.”
“That’s because it’s not possible to call my phone when I’m out of the country. I can make calls, but I can’t receive any.” Another lie.
“Oh.”
“Is he feeling okay? Andy, I mean.”
“I think so,” said Inga.
“He hasn’t been sick?”
“Sounds like you’ve missed your little brother.”
“Not really.”
“Then why are you asking about him?”
“Okay, I guess I did miss him a bit.”
“You two boys,” said his mother, sighing.
“What do you mean?”
“Oh, I don’t know. It’s just that the two of you . . .”
A lengthy pause ensued. Lanced tried to think of something important to say that was also the truth, but he couldn’t come up with a thing.
“Did you meet any of our relatives?” Inga asked at last.
“No, I didn’t.”
“But didn’t you go to Halsnøy?”
“The roads were closed.”
“The whole time?” She sounded surprised.
“Yeah.”
“But why?”
“Snow.”
“Oh.”
“So it was all kind of foolish,” said Lance.
“What did you do in Norway then?”
“I had a vacation.”
“But you were gone so long!”
“I was just there—okay?” he snapped in annoyance and instantly regretted it.
“Okay, okay. When are you going to come and visit me?”
“I don’t really know. There are a number of things that I need to take care of after being away for so long. But I’ll come as soon as I can.”
“Is everything all right?” His mother suddenly sounded worried.
“What do you mean?”
“There’s nothing wrong, is there? Nothing serious?”
“Why do you ask?”
“Oh, never mind. Sorry. It’s just me being old and confused.”
For a moment he thought she was going to cry.
“Don’t say that,” he told her. “I’ll come and visit you soon.”
“Oh, I can’t wait!”
“Me neither. But I’ve got to hang up now. I’ve got a lot to do.”
“It’s good to have you back home.”
“It’s good to be home. See you soon.”
“Bye.”
“Bye,” said Lance, and ended the call.
Afterward he sat with the phone in his hand, staring straight ahead. He thought about how he always used to take it for granted that he never lied. Previously it had simply been part of what he thought of as good manners. Only now was he beginning to realize how destructive lying could be. It was like a poison that was destroying him from the inside.
16
“HEY, SON!”
“Dad!”
Jimmy threw himself into his father’s arms. Standing on the porch, Mary smiled as she shivered in the cold. Lance smiled back over the head of their son.
“Did you have a good time in Norway?” she asked.
“No, it was boring.”
“Feel good to be back home?”
“Definitely! I’ll bring him back in a couple of hours,” said Lance as he set Jimmy down on the ground.
“Have fun.”
Father and son both gave her a wave before she turned on her heel and went back inside the house.
As they drove the short distance to Grand Portage Lodge and Casino, a big modern-looking building made of wood and glass, Jimmy talked nonstop about what he’d been up to lately, telling Lance about school and his grandfather and a mink that had come all the way up onto the porch and almost inside the house.
“I don’t think it knew how to find food on its own,” he said.
“Maybe it wanted to have dinner with the two of you,” said Lance.
“We had fish cakes.”
“See? What’d I tell you?”
FROM THEIR TABLE they could look right into the gambling hall where a number of people were sitting in front of the slot machines. Lance thought the sound from the machines had something disproportionately childish about it, considering that most of the gamblers looked to be retirement age. Occasionally they also heard an avalanche of clattering coins followed by a shrill squeal if the winner was a woman; the men merely looked over their shoulders when they won.
Father and son were both eating ice cream. Outside the windows ice crystals glittered on the parked cars.
“What was it like in Norway?” Jimmy wanted to know.
“Cold.”
“Like here?”
“Yeah,” said Lance.
“So you could just as well have stayed home.”
“You’re right.”
“But now you’re back.”
“Yes, I am. Have you visited your grandma while I was gone?”
Jimmy shook his head as he ate.
“Would you like to go see her sometime soon?”
He nodded.
“Maybe you and I could take a drive down to Duluth together someday.”
“Sure. Can we go to the aquarium?”
“We’ll see.”
“Do you remember those big fish we saw there?”
“Sturgeon,” said Lance.
Then they both turned their attention back to their ice cream, but he noticed that the boy kept casting brief glances at him.
“Dad?” he said after a moment.
“Yes?”
“Are you tired?”
Lance put his spoon down on the napkin and looked at his son.
“Do I seem tired?”
Jimmy nodded.
“Well, I guess I am.”
“Do you have jet lag?”
“Do you know what jet lag is?” Lance was surprised.
“Uh-huh. It’s when you come back home from the other side of the world and take a dump like you’re . . .”
Lance had to laugh.
“But that’s what Dan Proudhom said.”
“Who’s that?”
“He goes to junior high.”
“Do you know him?”
“No. He’s Chad’s brother.”
“And you know Chad?”
“Uh-huh.”
“And what did Dan Proudhom say about jet lag?”
“He said
that you take a dump like you’re on the other side of the world. In China, for example. Is that true?”
“Yeah, I take a dump like a Chinese guy now.”
Jimmy laughed so hard he almost fell off his chair.
AFTERWARD they drove around Grand Portage for a while, which was one of Jimmy’s favorite things to do. Just rolling quietly through the narrow streets between the high snowbanks made by the plows. Lenny Diver was from here. That was the thing about Grand Portage—for those who came from here, was it less likely that the dice would roll in their favor on the day when it really mattered?
A white pickup came slowly toward them when they were almost back at Jimmy’s house. Lance noticed that it stopped a short distance down the road.
After making sure his son was safely inside, he drove back the same way they had come. The white pickup turned and again slowly approached. When they were almost level with each other, the driver stuck his arm out the open window and signaled for Lance to stop.
He pulled over and rolled down the window. There were two suspicious-looking men with long hair inside the truck.
“Are you that forest cop?” asked the driver.
His tone of voice was harsh, but he avoided looking Lance in the eye, as if he didn’t dare show his face.
“Yeah,” said Lance after a moment’s hesitation.
“The guy who found the Norwegian?”
“Huh?”
“At Baraga’s Cross?”
“Yeah. That was me.”
The man deliberately raised his index finger and slowly moved it from side to side, in a warning gesture.
“What is it you guys want?”
“You know,” he said.
“No, I don’t.”
Lance could hear how confused and pitiful his voice sounded.
“You can save Lenny,” said the other man, partially hidden behind the driver.
“Lenny?”
“Lenny Diver. You can save him. If you don’t, you’ll be cursed for all eternity. You and your whole family.”
The driver nodded, as if to underscore that they were serious. Then he rolled up his window and drove past.
17
WHEN HE WOKE UP, Lance thought at first that he’d dreamed something, but he couldn’t remember what it was. Bewildered, he sat up in bed and looked around. The bedroom didn’t seem familiar, as if he’d gone into the wrong house and fallen asleep in someone else’s bed. Then he remembered: the white pickup. But that was no dream. His heart began pounding at a hollow, uncomfortable gallop. He got up and pulled open the curtains. The dazzling light stung his eyes.
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