Soldier No More
( Dr David Audley - 11 )
Anthony Price
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SOLDIER NO
MORE
ANTHONY PRICE
PROLOGUE
Pyrexia of Unknown Origin
STARING AT THE blank ceiling above him, Roche knew exactly how poor bloody Adam had felt in the garden, stark naked and scared out of his wits.
But finally God cleared his throat to indicate that he had reached a decision.
"All right, you can put on your clothes, Captain Roche. And don't look so worried. There's absolutely nothing to be alarmed about—I'm not going to invalide you out, or anything drastic like that, if that's what you've been afraid of."
Despair filled Roche. Ever since they'd decided to refer him to God he'd been buoyed up by the hope that there might be dummy5
something rather seriously wrong with him, at least sufficiently for them to throw him out on the grounds of ill-health. To that end he had most scrupulously avoided taking the medication his French doctor had prescribed, and had done everything he had been told not to do. But he never did have any luck.
"Then what's wrong with me?" he said plaintively. "There is something wrong, damn it!"
"Oh yes . . . you've had a fever, but you're getting over that now, even if somewhat slowly .... What I meant is that there's nothing organically amiss. You're basically healthy." God reacted to his doubts by increasing his own air of reassurance. "You've had . . . and to some extent you still have . . . what my late distinguished predecessor in this job always diagnosed as 'a touch of the old PUO'."
"PUO?" Roche's spirits fell even lower. PUO sounded rather common, and not at all serious.
" 'Pyrexia of Unknown Origin'. But then he learnt most of his medicine in the Ypres salient in 1917 ... whereas I learnt most of mine with the Americans in Italy in '44. And they called it variously 'battle fatigue' or 'combat fatigue' when it came to causes, as opposed to symptoms." The reassurance became even blander. "I've seen much worse than you, Captain—
you've still got a lot of mileage in you, don't worry."
About a quarter of a mile, to the café-bar on the corner of the boulevard to be exact, thought Roche.
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God smiled at him. "Are you due for any leave?"
"Not until October."
"We'll change that." God took a piece of paper and uncapped his fountain pen. "What precisely is it that you do?"
Roche frowned. "I'm afraid I can't tell you that."
God continued to smile at him, while reaching down into a drawer in his desk. "My dear Captain Roche . . . you wouldn't have been referred to me if I hadn't been cleared to ask that question. I look over all you fellows from SHAPE and NATO, and the Embassy ... But to set your mind at rest—" he pushed what he'd taken from the drawer across the desk towards Roche "—will that suffice?"
Roche recognised the letter-head, and the rank on the identification folder positively overawed him. "Yes, sir."
"Not 'sir'. I left the red tabs behind in Italy." God replaced the authorisation and identity card in his desk. "The only difference in our relationship from the purely civilian is that I'm obliged to report on your state of health to London. But, as I say, you don't need to worry. Your case is by no means unique in these dark days. In fact, the first thing you've got to do is to stop worrying, Captain."
Worrying was what Roche was doing, and the ex-Brigadier had already exacerbated his worries by moving towards the causes of his patient's PUO.
"Yes, sir." There was only one thing for it: he had to confirm God's initial snap-diagnosis for the origin of his anxiety, even dummy5
if it was the reverse of the truth. "You're really not going to kick me out?"
"Perish the thought!" God regarded him benignly, then glanced down at the open folder at his elbow. "Sandhurst?"
"No, sir. National Service—regular commission after Korea."
“University?"
"Before National Service, sir."
"Just so . . ." The nod seemed to confirm the greater likelihood of PUO among graduates who had remained with the Colours than among Sandhurst career officers. "And now Military Intelligence here in Paris?"
“Yes, sir."
God looked up. "In the field?"
This was what Roche had feared, for it was easily checkable if it wasn't down there in front of him already. But fear had given him time to prepare for it.
"Not really, sir. Pretty damn desk-bound at the moment, actually. I'm a communications officer, mostly economic traffic related to military capabilities—that sort of stuff." He shrugged modestly. "There are specific additional assignments from time to time, naturally . . ." He left the implication of secret heroism unspoken between them.
"Such as?"
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to the FLN. But the answer to that, as supplied by Jean-Paul and cleared by the Russian military attaché as being suitable for transmission to the British, was that French intelligence correctly perceived direct Soviet involvement as negligible.
But that wouldn't quite do. "I'm currently working on sources of arms for the Algerian rebels, sir."
God nodded. "An assignment not without risk, that would be?"
Another modest shrug would do there. If he'd been set to look into the private arms sources, which was worth doing, it might well have been dangerous. But with Jean-Paul and the attaché to help him, the Soviet inquiry had been less hazardous than crossing the road.
"And they're working you hard, of course?"
Roche's two highly efficient squadron sergeant-majors handled nine-tenths of the communications work, and the only difficulty in the French Perceptions report had been in finding respectable sources to account for what Jean-Paul and Ivanov had told him, with his former French contacts mostly hostile to him since Suez.
"The French are a bit awkward these days, sir." He advanced the only truth he could think of with proper diffidence.
"Very true." God smiled understandingly. "And that's half the trouble with you people just at the moment. It's a matter of stress, and it happens to all of you .... You have to understand that you're only ordinary men, but you have to do dummy5
extraordinary things from time to time . . . and that exacts a correspondingly extraordinary price. That's what battle fatigue was: the overdrawing on men's emotional current accounts. You, Captain Roche . . . you are probably well-adjusted for normal withdrawals, but not for the contempt in which your French colleagues now hold the British, since the Suez business. In some people it manifests itself as boils—
one of the embassy secretaries has a splendid one on his bottom at this very moment. The poor fellow can hardly sit down to eat his dinner—"
The only Frenchman who frightened Roche was Jean-Paul, and he wasn't at all sure that Jean-Paul was actually French; and he still got most of what he needed from dear old Philippe Roux, anyway. It was the Comrades who sickened him.
"—but with you it's PUO, Captain. But I'm not going to pack you back to England, that would only scar you permanently.
If you run away now, you'll run away again." God picked up his fountain pen and wrote on his piece of paper. "Now. . .
I'm going to give you a month's leave—go and find the sun in the south somewhere, and laze in it—" he looked up again quickly "—I see you're not married . . .but have you got a girl-friend? If so, take her. . . if not—get one. Right?"
Roche was speechless.
"I'll give you a tonic—and take that too. But go easy on the alcohol—I want you mended, not drugged. Do you understand?"
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/> "Yes, sir." Roche needed a drink badly now.
"But stay in France. Your French is fluent, I take it?"
"Yes, sir." His fluent French, thought Roche, was probably why he was still here. "Why France?"
"Because most of your problem is here, and you've got to come to terms with it. Take the girl-friend—take the tonic . . .
and take a month." God passed a month across the desk to him. "And come back and see me in five weeks—"
Five minutes later Roche had the shakes again, right on the street outside God's house and worse than before. And five minutes after that he was fortifying himself in the café-bar at the corner, in preparation before phoning in to Major Ballance. He stared into the drink, trying not to drink it because he already needed another one.
A genuine illness, if not an actual disease, might have been enough to put Jean-Paul off. But what he'd got was the shakes, and a month to get rid of them, which was worse, because in a month they'd be worse too. And then, or very soon, Jean-Paul would see them; and then it wouldn't be a tonic and a month's leave, because it would be a matter of Jean-Paul's preservation.
He had drunk the drink, and the waiter, who knew his man, filled his glass without being asked.
God had been right about one thing: it was a sort of disease, even if it wasn't some bloody pyrexia of unknown origin—it dummy5
was a pyrexia of known origin . . . pyrexia, whatever it was, sounded like the sort of disease a careless young soldier might have picked up out east, and that was really what it had been, he saw now. A disease.
He had caught it on a beach in Japan, and it had been feeding on him for six years without his knowing about it, and then without his understanding the symptoms he had experienced—not until the first authentic reports had come out of Hungary had he begun to add the facts to those symptoms. Or was that really it?
But causes hardly mattered now. All that mattered now was the progression of the shakes from his hands to his face, because when that happened Jean-Paul was bound to recognise the tell-tale signs, which he must be trained to spot.
With an effort, he left his second drink half-finished and found the phone. "Roche here—Bill?"
"How are you, young David? What did the quack say?"
“He's given me a tonic, Bill."
Major Ballance started to laugh, but the laugh turned into a paroxysm of coughing before Roche could add his month's leave to the tonic. Roche waited for the noise to subside.
"Bill?"
"A tonic?" Major Ballance managed at last, still wheezing.
"Then you will allow me to add a little gin to it—export gin."
What?"
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" 'Most Urgent from London for Captain Roche'—you've got a signal all of your very own, dear boy! Somebody up there loves you after all."
It was too early for Bill to start drinking. "What d'you mean, Bill?"
"I mean . . . you've got a posting—and a very good one too. It couldn't have happened to a nicer chap."
Roche leaned against the wall. "A posting?"
"That's what it amounts to. They want to see you there tomorrow morning at 1100 hours—a nice civilised time—
FSMO 1100 hours, best bib and tucker."
Roche's hand started to shake again. "What's so good about that, Bill? Maybe they're going to bowler-hat me." That would be the day! But something worse was far more likely.
"Not what but who, David. And where ... Sir Eustace Avery in Room 821, Eighth Floor, Abernathy House—that's the rest of it. So I'm booking you an afternoon flight to give you time to take a leisurely breakfast tomorrow. Congratulations."
"Sir Eustace Avery?" Roche dredged his memory. "Isn't he the one you said was a stuffed shirt?"
"Ah-ha! Stuffed shirt he may be. But he was plain Mr Avery then, on the RIP sub-committee last year—now he's been birthday-honoured into Sir Eustace, as a reward for his great and good services in the late catastrophe . . . So if he wants you, young David, you'll be hitching your waggon to a star, not vegetating in our communications room here .... The dummy5
Eighth Floor of the Abernathy overlooks the river, too—on the Embankment, just past Cleopatra's Needle. Very 'igh class property for very 'igh class operations."
"What operations, Bill?"
"The new group, dear boy—don't you ever listen to the in-house gossip?"
Bill always knew everything. "What new group?"
"Ah . . . well, it is a bit secret, I suppose. Maybe I shouldn't gab about it on an open line." Major Ballance brightened.
"But then the Frogs aren't really into wire-tapping, and everyone except you this side of the Kremlin already knows about it. So I don't suppose it matters much. . . Sir Eustace's new group—'Research and Development' is the euphemism in current use . . . He's been recruiting for the last month—
everyone hand-picked, true-blue and never been a card-carrying CP member, even as a child . . . and with automatic promotion, so rumour has it. Big time stuff, in fact.... so congratulations, Major Roche."
Roche was horrified. This was worse than God's solution to his problems—far worse.
"But Bill . . . I've got a chit for a month's leave in my pocket—
sick leave."
"Then tear it up. This is your great opportunity—you miss this one, and you'll be sucking on the hind tit for the rest of your life with the awkward squad, like me. Besides which, it's an order, so you don't have any choice." Bill's voice dummy5
hardened, then softened again. "And it's what you really need for what ails you, young David. A cure is much better than a tonic for a sick man—"
He had to phone Jean-Paul next, but he needed the rest of his drink more than ever.
Room 821 sounded more like a kill than a cure for his sickness. In fact, the only person who'd be really pleased was Jean-Paul himself, who was always reproaching him with the slowness of his professional advancement and the low grade of his material.
He stared into the colourless liquid. There was no escaping from the truth that he'd always been a great disappointment to the Comrades, as well as to himself. If Bill was right—and Bill was usually right—it was the cruellest of ironies that he was now about to go up at last when he was at last resolved to get out at the first safe opportunity.
But they'd got him now, both of them: if he fluffed the interview, he'd be on borrowed time with Jean-Paul; but if he didn't fluff it he'd be exactly where the Comrades had always wanted him to be, and then they'd never let go.
There was only one option left, but it terrified him utterly.
He'd already thought about it, he'd even had nightmares about it, waking and sleeping.
PUO was a laugh: he hadn't got PUO and there was no cure for what he'd got.
The only treatment for gangrene was amputation.
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Reconnaissance:
Young Master David
I
"MR Cox?" inquired a voice, disembodied and slightly metallic, but also recognizably female.
Roche looked round the lift for some evidence of a microphone, and found nothing. There weren't even any controls: Cox had simply ushered him into the blank box, and the doors had closed behind them, and the lift had shuddered and moved upwards. Or downwards, as the case might be, for all the directional feeling he had experienced—
downwards would have been more appropriate. Not down to a particular floor, but down to a level, and some level in the Ninth Circle of Nether Hell, which Dante had reserved for the traitors.
"And Captain Roche," replied Cox, to no one in particular, unperturbed by the absence of anything into which the reply could be addressed. "Captain Roche's appointment is timed for eleven-hundred hours, madam."
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The Ninth Circle was reserved respectively for traitors to their lords, their guests, their country and their kindred, but Roche couldn't remember in which order the levels were disposed, down to the great bottomless frozen lake far beneath the fires of Hell. But it d
id occur to him that—strictly speaking—he was now for the first time in a sort of limbo between all the circles and levels, since he was at last absolutely open-minded on the subject of betrayal: he was prepared to betray either side, as the occasion and the advantage offered.
The lift shuddered again, and the doors slid open abruptly.
Roche was confronted by a sharp-faced woman of indeterminate age in prison-grey and pearls, against a backdrop of London roofscape.
"Captain Roche—I-am-so-sorry-you've-been-delayed-like-this," the woman greeted him insincerely. "Have you the documentation, Mr Cox?"
Cox, apparently struck dumb with awe at this apparition, offered her the blue card with Roche's photograph on it which he had collected, with Roche, from the porter in the entrance kiosk.
The woman compared Roche with his photograph, and clearly found the comparison unsatisfactory.
"This is supposed to be you, is it?" she admonished Roche, as though it was his fault that the photographer had failed.
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Roche was at a loss to think of any other way that he could prove he was himself when she abruptly reversed the card for him to see. It certainly didn't look like him, this fresh-faced subaltern—not like the wary (if not shifty) Roche who faced him in the shaving-mirror each morning.
He took another look at the picture. This was undoubtedly the Tokyo picture of 2/Lt (T/Capt) Roche. And, true enough, this Roche had been just twenty-one years of age, while looking all of eighteen, and the shaving-mirror Roche of this morning, six years of treason on, didn't look a day under forty.
He grinned at her uncertainly. "I was a lot younger then—
Korean War, and all that... 'A Roche by any other face', you might say, Miss—Mrs—?" He floundered deliberately, trying to take the war into her territory.
"Mrs Harlin, Captain Roche." She expelled the invader with a frown. "A Roche by any other face?"
He struggled to keep the grin in its trenches. "A joke, Mrs . . .
Harlin. Romeo and Juliet."
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