"I need you," he said. "In my bed. Naked. Open."
"Yes," she whispered. "I need that, too."
Dylan tried not to shake as he fixed her clothes, took her hand, and led her out of the rink.
He moved over her, surged inside, and began the rhythm to break her apart so he could put her back together. Riley lived her life on her terms, but tonight there was nothing she couldn't give him. A distant fantasy and memory of a man whose image never left her now claimed her completely. She knew it wasn't real. Couldn't be. But for these last few hours, Riley didn't care.
She opened herself wide and met each thrust. Her lips opened to his tongue, her nails scraped down the muscled ridge of his back, drawing blood, making her own mark so tonight could be remembered. When her climax came, he commanded her to open her eyes. He was witness to it all--both brutal pleasure and the completion of the fall she'd started ten years ago at the first touch of his lips on hers.
She fell in love with Dylan McCray. Owned it. Relished it. Reveled in it.
She called his name over and over while her heart screamed out the words she refused to utter.
I love you. I love you. I love you.
The mingling scent of sex and musk and sweat rose to his nostrils in the sweetest perfume in the world. Dylan stroked her shoulder as she rested, staring at the woman naked in his arms, in his bed. How many times had he wondered what it would be like if they met again, yet recognizing they may never be able to transition the connection between them into the real world.
When he joined Kinnections, he'd been so hopeful. He was ready to settle down and find his forever. The team was incredible, noting every one of his points, and even digging under the surface until they found needs he didn't realize he had. Most of his dates impressed him. Made him laugh. Engaged him in stimulating conversation. Many even caused a physical reaction that would've led directly to sex, or at least a lot of foreplay.
Usually after the first date, he realized the truth.
None of the women were meant for him.
Frustration beat in his blood, and he had trouble convincing Kate he wasn't screwing around, wasting their time. How do you explain the search for something that many didn't believe existed? The magic of a connection, a deeper knowledge you met the one meant for only you? Especially coming from a male, he'd be laughed out of Kinnections and by anyone who heard the ridiculous story. So, he made half-assed excuses and kept his mouth shut.
About a year ago, Dylan began to believe that kind of relationship didn't exist. The depression he felt realizing he'd have to settle haunted him, but he promised to give the search a bit more time before he accepted the fact he'd never have what his parents have. How could he even understand what he was looking for when he'd never experienced it personally?
Tonight, the shattering conclusion of his journey shocked him to his core. Riley Fox was the one. The one he'd been searching for. The moment he buried himself deep into her body, clasped her hands, looked into her eyes, a low hum vibrated in his gut and spread throughout every inch of him, refusing to be denied.
It was as if he'd found his other half. His mind settled, his heart ripped open, and he gave himself to her with each stroke, binding her body to his in the most primeval way possible for a man to claim his mate. He craved to protect her, push her, fuck her, comfort her.
Love her.
Holy shit.
"You okay?"
He blinked as the sound of her voice broke his short-term panic attack. No way could he tell her that. Not so soon, after a few hours in her company. Somehow, knowing Riley's sense of control and order, he figured his big news would have her launching herself naked out the window into a pile of snow.
He'd need to ease her into the same realization. Failure wasn't an option, because this time Dylan wasn't letting her go.
He pushed the hair out of her eyes and tucked it gently behind her ear. Her skin glowed, her lips were slightly bruised, and her eyes shone like a woman who was well satisfied. Dylan fought the urge to beat on his chest like a primate. "I'm better than okay." He propped an elbow on the pillow and leaned his head on his palm, studying her. "How's your head?"
She gave a low chuckle and stretched her leg. "Not my head I'm worried about right now. Other parts are taking up my attention."
"Just what I like to hear," he growled. "Can I tell you the fantasy wasn't half as good as the reality? And trust me, I can spin a very dirty fantasy."
"I bet you can." She smiled, her face open and relaxed as she gazed at him. "I never knew it could--it could be like that."
He pressed a thumb against her bottom lip, dragging it over the tender flesh. "Me, either."
She wasn't ready to hear the words, but he could show her in other ways.
Dylan spent the rest of the night showing her over and over again.
chapter 8
Riley opened her eyes.
The bedroom was half lit, a lazy breaking sun shining through the windows. Her muscles ached like a bitch, she was sore between her thighs, and she smelled of sex.
She couldn't remember a time when she felt this satisfied.
The deep rumble of a snore drifted to her ears. She turned her head and studied the angelic profile of his face. God, he was perfection. A blinding beauty mixed with the carnality of a sexual animal. Waves of white-blond hair fell over his forehead, and a rough stubble coated his jaw. The lean muscles of his face were relaxed in sleep, gentling the curves to blend in fluid symmetry. The sheet was tangled around his hips, baring his impressive back to her gaze, making her fingers itch to touch him, though she hadn't had her hands off of him for over twelve hours.
What was she going to do?
In the cold light of morning, panic edged her nerves. What had she done? In one evening, she'd shared secrets of her past, stripped naked, let him make love to her in a variety of ways, and begged for more. But this couldn't be real. Normal people didn't begin relationships jumping into bed in the middle of a snowstorm. The evening seemed like a hazy dream of blurred images and feelings that could never survive. She didn't need a mind-blowing sexual affair doomed to fail. She wanted something solid and real, reasonable in everyday routine.
Dylan McCray was larger than life. Bigger than a boring domestic schedule no matter what he said about his parents or his true goals. If she believed him, Riley knew she'd throw away her ridiculous list and go for it. She'd follow him anywhere, do anything, and live in a fantasy world that would eventually crash. And once it did, could she ever settle for something less?
No. At least this way she had a beautiful memory to warm her nights. She had more than she had before. It would have to be enough.
Swallowing past a lump in her throat, Riley carefully climbed out of bed. Grabbing her clothes, she tiptoed out the door, dressing quickly. She headed to the kitchen and peeked out the window.
The snow had finally stopped but there was definitely two feet out there. The walkways and paths were covered, and God knows there'd be no way to get down the mountain until some crews came out to clear the roads. Her heart beat faster and she fought back panic. She had to get out of here. Her instincts screamed the quicker the better to avoid a confrontation she dreaded. Should she--
"Morning."
She whipped around. He stood in the doorway, feet apart, hip cocked. He'd put on a pair of sweats and was naked from the waist up. The sexy morning-after stubble made her ache to cross the room and rub it against her tender lips, slip her fingers around his rock-hard length, stroke, suck-- Oh, God, what was she doing?
"Morning."
"I'll put on some coffee." He motioned toward the window. "How bad is it?"
"Snow stopped but it's a mess. I'm hoping the phone lines are back up. I need to get my cell phone from the car. Umm, any idea how I can get out of here?"
He filled the pot with water and took out the grinder. "Figured we'd spend the day together. I'll have my staff get you towed. Plow guy should be here in a few hours."
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bsp; "Oh. Well, that sounds good, but I really need to leave as soon as possible." She gave a nervous laugh. "I'm way behind on--work."
He finished grinding the beans, filled the filter, and flipped on the brew switch. Then turned to her. "Got the spooks, Riley?"
She stiffened. Cooled her voice. "I don't know what you're talking about. I have a ton of work, messages to return, and can't afford to be trapped on a mountain all day."
He nodded, seemingly calm, but a dangerous aura pulsed around him. "I see. Are we going to at least talk about last night?"
She blew out a breath. "Sounds like an old eighties movie. I didn't think we needed to, Dylan. Last night was amazing. But now it's daytime, and we need to get on with our lives."
"How neat and tidy. Sorry my answer won't be."
"What answer?"
"Fuck that."
She jerked. Anger flooded her, pure and hot and mean. "Look, I don't know what you think last night was, but I refuse to be spoken to that way."
"Didn't mind it last night when I was buried deep inside you. Seemed to like anything I said then."
Her face turned warm. Damn, she hated blushing. "That was then. This is now."
"Why don't you tell me what last night was about, then?" Dylan rested his fists on his hips, challenging her with a gaze that dared her to lie.
Why was he doing this? Wasn't he the man in the relationship? He was supposed to be stumbling over himself in an effort to get her quickly out of his house and praying they wouldn't be talking about feelings or expectations. Screw this. She refused to cower under his overbearing high-handedness.
"Fine. You want me to be truthful, I will. Last night was wonderful. It was hot, and a fantasy, and a memory I'll never forget. But I think we both realize we were trapped in a snowstorm, had some leftover feelings from our time together at college, and needed to get it out of our system. Now I need to go back to my real life. You wouldn't fit, Dylan, and you know it. Let's do the right thing by admitting our time together was special, and deciding to move on. Maybe even be friends?" She choked on the word but managed to forge ahead. "How does that sound?"
He moved so fast she never saw him coming. Suddenly he loomed over her, his hands gripping her shoulders, fury transforming him into the rebel archangel bent on getting what he wanted. "I think your plan sucks," Dylan stated coldly. "I think you're so scared of how deep things got the only way to feel safe again is to pretend it didn't mean anything. I may not blame you, but I gotta admit, Riley, it's pissing me off. I thought you were braver than that."
She gasped. "How dare you! We spent one night together and that doesn't give you a right to pretend to know me! All we have together is great sex. It's not enough to base a relationship on."
"I disagree," he growled. "The sex is the best I've ever had, but it's about connection. We get each other. It's not rational or good on paper, but there it is. We fit. And walking away from it because you think I'm suddenly gonna spook, or some bullshit about me not owning nine out of the ten qualities on your ridiculous list is a cop-out."
"It's not ridiculous, it's real! Don't you get it? The sex is too good. We're too--intense." Her voice broke, making her even madder, but his grip gentled and he pressed his forehead to hers.
"I know it was intense, darlin'. I know it's a lot to take in, and it was only one night, but here's the truth. I'm giving it all to you in one shot. My whole life I've been searching for something incredible. My other half, a woman who made me feel whole. From the moment I found you in that car and carried you in, my senses have been in overdrive. And when I finally drove inside your body, felt your heat around me, I knew. I just knew.
"It's you. I've been searching for you."
Her body shook like it was in the grip of a fever. Fireworks went off in her brain, short-circuiting, and she tore apart in two. Half of her sobbed in relief and surrendered. The other half cringed in bone-gripping fear of the unknown and unrealistic.
Marriage and relationships were about compromise. Communication. Likability. Not this crazy hormonal ride, and soul-ripping, raw need. It couldn't be.
So Riley stood in his arms, frozen, not able to say a word. His hands stroked her cheek, the truth shattering them both, and then he kissed her.
Pure. Oh, his kiss gave everything she'd always wanted, sweet and gentle and humbling. She kissed him back, savoring every last moment, and when he pulled away she knew what she had to do.
"It'll never work," she whispered. She closed her eyes, trembling with the force of her need, and the iron-will control she had to stay strong. "You and I together will never . . . fit."
"That fucking box again." He stepped back, releasing her. He quickly turned, but she already caught the agony on his face, making a moan emit from her throat. He fisted his hands, cursing viciously under his breath. Finally, he spoke, but kept his back turned.
"I guess you've made your decision. I can't force you to take a chance. I can't force you to have feelings you may not. And I'm sorry, too."
He moved toward the door. "I'll call the tow truck to get you out of here and give you a lift home. Help yourself to coffee."
He left. Riley shuddered, slumping down to rest in the chair and catch her shaking legs. She knew he had done more than left her in the kitchen. He'd respected her very rational, logical decision and let her go completely.
Too bad the win suddenly felt like the biggest loss in her life.
chapter 9
Two weeks later, Riley slumped in her office chair. Usually, her work schedule energized her, revving her up. Goals and deadlines were her happy place. But since she left Dylan, everything seemed . . . flat. Uninspired. Even the chocolate chips she'd put in her bran muffins didn't make her happy.
Now, that was just plain scary.
Holding back a sigh, she tapped the pen against her blotter and tried to think. She'd told Kate to schedule her as many dates as possible with partners who complemented her list. She'd gone on four dates. A lawyer, accountant, teacher, and doctor. They'd been intelligent, low key, and respectable. They wanted children. She had a good time. But God, they were so dull.
Dylan had ruined her.
She'd reached for the phone to call him a hundred times during the past two weeks. He'd probably hang up on her. Riley ached that she'd been the one to hurt him, when all he had done was be brave and confess his true feelings. The same exact feelings she had for him, but was too chickenshit to follow. What a mess.
The unstoppable truth haunted her night after night. Dylan McCray was the man she was meant for. He may not be the type she imagined, but he completed her. Got her. He didn't allow for her bullshit, respected her career, knew her past, ravished her body and soul with a hunger never matched. Life may be calmer without him. More reasonable. But it would be empty and lonely and dark.
What was she going to do?
How could she get him back?
The red light flashed on her phone. "Ms. Fox, you have a visitor. He's not on your schedule but insisted you'd see him. Dylan McCray."
Her mouth fell open. After trying to talk several times, she finally managed a squeak. "Yes, thanks, Cindy, you can send him in."
She scrambled to neaten her desk, stood up, sat back down, then stood up again. Sweat dampened her palms. What did he want? Was he still angry? Would he try to get her back? What if he laughed and said her leaving was the best thing that ever happened to him? He strolled through the door thirty seconds later in a navy blue pin-striped suit, red tie, and leather loafers. He was the symbol of the gorgeous, successful American man, powerful and commanding with every move, the sharp fabric creased perfectly and a tangy aftershave floating from his skin that made her want to keep sucking in air.
"Dylan." Her voice ripped from her throat. "I'm surprised to see you."
"Riley." He nodded, but his eyes gleamed with a mysterious intent. "I'm surprised I'm here myself. But after the two weeks I had, I realized I had no choice."
She stumbled forward. The space betw
een them yawned with emptiness. His body heat hummed from across the room. "Do--do you want to sit?"
"No, thank you. This shouldn't take long."
Riley fought a shudder and tried to look calm. She shifted on her high heels, glad she'd worn her smart pink plaid Jones suit. She needed all the confidence possible. "Why are you here?"
He grinned. Shot his cuffs. His casual pose reminded her of a jungle cat lazing in the woods for a nap before hunting its prey. "I'm tired of waiting. I was a good boy, deciding to give you the time you need. But watching you go out with other men has been pissing me off, and I've lost patience. Who's in the box, Riley?"
Her heart hammered in her chest. Excitement slithered in her veins and she was thrust from dreary Kansas to Oz in seconds. She took a step forward. "You."
Those eyes burned hot and demanding. Her muscles softened in surrender. Finally, the truth released her and joy burst through her body. She blinked away the mad sting of tears.
Dylan nodded. "Damn right. About time, too. Now there's just one last thing you need to do."
She'd do it. She'd do anything for him. Because Riley knew in that moment she belonged to him as wholly as he did to her. They were a team, and she'd never doubt it again. "What?"
He gave a slow grin. "Prove it."
"This is ridiculous. It's the middle of the day. People just don't do these things in the afternoon, Dylan. It's too . . . decadent."
He tried not to laugh at her whispered horror, because he knew she frikkin' loved every second of it. Hands firmly clasped together, he led her around the circle of the rink while the lights twinkled, and the scent of popcorn and candy filled the air. The carousel sang merrily, the painted horses bobbing up and down as children laughed with delight. Still dressed in her work clothes, heels swapped out for skates, they glided in perfect coordination, and Dylan realized he'd never been so completely and utterly content.
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