I was pretty sure the guy was not the monogamous kind, though. It was pretty obvious from his swingers remark the night before, and the fact that while he was talking to me, he couldn’t stop staring at the pretty blonde who had walked in a few minutes before that and started to use the rowing machine. His eyes were glued to her as if she was the most beautiful thing he’d ever seen.
I had a feeling that if I weren’t there, he would have been striking up a conversation with her. I had no idea if Donna and he had any type of arrangement, like an open relationship, but it was clear that Roy seemed to think so, at least for him. I really detested this twerp.
And I was expected to spend the next day and a half with him. I didn’t know if I could make it.
I finished up my workout and toweled off slightly. As I was leaving to head back to the suite, Roy stopped me. “Hey, we are meeting you guys at the slopes at ten, right?”
I hadn’t heard anything about this. “Sure, I guess.”
He shrugged as well. “I’m just here; I go where they tell me.”
I nodded and walked away as Roy’s eyes went right back to the blonde and he continued his workout with a little chuckle. The guy was so full of himself. He really thought that he was so much better than everyone else. Maybe I’d tell my dad and see if he would like to have someone pay the jerk a visit…
Bad joke. I hated myself for even thinking about it. That was just testament to how much I was beginning to think that my father might actually be back in the mob life. I couldn’t bear the thought, mostly because of what it would do to my mother.
I despised watching her worry, not knowing if he was going to come home that day, get shot, or arrested. It was a stressful thing to be married to a man like that.
And my father was golden at home. He never did anything to directly hurt any of us, but my mother was deeply ashamed of the fact that he used to be in the mafia.
I was too.
I was ready to take a shower. I just wanted a nice, hot shower to wash everything away. And maybe a dip in the Jacuzzi afterwards. Oh, that would be nice. Everywhere outside of our suite felt cold. Hell, even the gym felt cold. I guess that was what happened when you were this high in the mountains. The elevation was an absurd 9200 feet.
When I entered the suite, Tina was still asleep on the couch. She looked so beautiful asleep under the blanket I had covered her with. I was such a lucky man. As I stood there staring, a warm feeling came over me. I loved her so much. She was precious, strong, funny, witty, sensitive, and for some crazy reason she loved me. How did that happen? It was something I tried not to question too much, but I would be a fool if I didn’t ponder from time to time.
I sat my gym bag down on the floor and went into the bathroom where I started up the hot shower. The water felt great. I hadn’t realized exactly how angry just being around Roy made me. Part of it was his obnoxious personality, and part of it was knowing that by being around Tina, he could be putting her in danger. He might be putting all of us in danger. With someone in that life, you never knew when someone was tracking them, or if they were doing some kind of dirty business right behind your back. It was an odd way to live.
I let the hot water wash over me, holding my head right under the shower nozzle. My hands steadied my body against the wall as I closed my eyes and felt the tension releasing in every muscle.
It was my fault I was so stressed out. I knew that and it was the thing that made it so messed up. I could alleviate all of it, if I just get past my mental block holding me back from opening up to Tina.
I finished the shower and stepped out. Without missing a beat, I started up the Jacuzzi. Now that I was clean, it was time for a good soak. After that, a hearty breakfast would hit the spot.
While the water was filling up in the Jacuzzi, I brushed my teeth and quickly shaved. Then I slipped into the hot water. The tub was not as big as the one I had at home, but it would do. A daily dip usually did the trick of helping my body heal and keeping my mind sharp, even with the additional stress I was dealing with.
I leaned back and closed my eyes, trying to ignore the annoyance of the situation with Roy. I would have to do some research when I got back to see if he was still who he had been. I’d check with my father and maybe my uncle Louis. He was my father’s brother, and he still had a lot of contacts from that life. I didn’t approve of it, but my uncle Louis and I had always had a strong relationship, ever since I was a kid.
I suddenly felt like I wasn’t alone.
Opening my eyes, I smiled at the pleasant sight before me. Tina was standing there, nude with a lustful look in her eyes. She was smiling at me widely, her eyes scanning over my body, toying with her hair seductively. Wow, she was hot.
My dick began to harden and rise instantly.
“Hey, there,” I said.
“Well, hello,” Tina said. She giggled slightly and leaned back a bit with he hands on her hips. That was one of the sexiest poses she could have struck right then. I could not help myself. My hand found my cock and began to stroke it with long, hard strokes.
“How’s my babe?” I asked.
“Good, a bit restless though,” Tina replied.
“Restless? Oh, no. My goodness. We can’t have that, now can we?”
“I don’t think so,” Tina said. “Did you already workout?”
“I did.”
“Oh, pooh… I was hoping to workout with you.”
“Ah, that’s too bad. I didn’t want to disturb you since you were sleeping so peacefully.”
“Well, now I’m flustered. I guess I’ll have to find another way to take out my frustration.”
“Whatever shall we do?” I asked.
“Your choice,” she said.
I stood up and let the water glisten off my body, continuing to stroke my hard cock. Tina’s eyes were glued to it.
“I think you should get in here and turn around, right here.” I pointed to the seat in the Jacuzzi right in front of me.
“Oh… right there?” Tina asked sheepishly.
“Yeah, I think that’s the spot.”
Tina stepped into the Jacuzzi, gently lowering herself into the hot water. And then she placed her hands on the seat and stuck her ass out in front of me.
“That’s right,” I said. I stared at her sweet ass for a moment. It turned me on so hard. My hand started stroking my cock even faster. I watched intently the pretty split between her cheeks, that tight, sexy little asshole, and beneath that her beautiful, splendid looking wet, slit. It was already glistening with her juices.
I stepped forward and slipped my dick inside of her about halfway, just teasing, testing the waters and making sure Tina was ready for me. She moaned loudly and leaned back against me.
“Ah, there we go baby,” I said. “How is that? Does that hit the spot?”
“Fuck yeah,” Tina said. She pushed herself all the way back against me. I was now fucking her hard, doggy style, slipping in and out of her tight pussy. Oh, it was heavenly. The way we fit together, as if we’d been designed by the universe specifically for each other.
I held my dick around the base and steadied myself as I fucked her slowly in and out, varying my speed and my positioning, sometimes moving halfway, and sometimes just the tip. And of course, every so often I would go all the way inside of her.
The hot water splashing up as we fucked added an extra delight that you couldn’t begin to imagine. I loved the way the it floated behind my balls, brushing against them and then soaking right behind that heading towards my rear hole. It was exhilarating. And the harder I pumped my dick into her sopping, sleek, slit, the better it felt.
“How’s that?” I asked. “Is that what you want? You didn’t get enough last night?”
“Yeah, give it to me. Fuck that is so good… please… harder… unnnh.”
I grabbed her damp hair and pulled it back as if it were reins and I was riding in the Kentucky Derby. I was going to ride this beautiful woman to the climax of the century, oh y
eah.
The water was slowing me down a little bit as I humped into her with everything I had, the splashing sounds becoming louder almost drowning out our mutual moans. I could already feel the size of the load that I was about to blow.
My eyes were fixed the entire time on Tina’s tight, little asshole. It was so pretty, like a dark little beacon that called out to me. It was almost enchanting. I wondered if one day we could engage in some backdoor fun…?
I slapped Tina’s ass and she moaned louder. Yeah, that was the ticket.
With my brain in hyper overload, I reached out with both hands and pulled her hair back tightly. She loved it when I played with her hair, especially pulling when fucking. There was something about it that just really got to her. It was fun, it was primal, and it was just the thing that often would send her over the edge to the orgasm of her dreams.
“Let me back,” Tina said.
I knew exactly what she meant.
I leaned back onto my own Jacuzzi seat and Tina followed. Now she was sitting down on me, riding me reverse cowgirl style. This was easier to do if I was sitting in the chair as opposed to lying back on the bed. And it was every bit as sweet as doggy style, which we both loved to the ends of the earth and back.
Tina was bouncing hard up and down on me now, bending forward at the waist until her hair was dipping into the Jacuzzi, and then her head went under the water, but her delectable pussy continued to quiver and move on me, every single alteration on her part made all the difference to me and the pleasure that I felt.
“Oh, shit!” I said.
Tina quickly wrapped her legs around me and began to thrash about almost wildly in the Jacuzzi, splashing water all over the place, before she finally rested on top of the water. I continued to pump in and out of her with almost reckless abandon. I was getting so close to coming. I knew it was there… just right below the surface…
“I’m gonna come!” I said.
“Yes! Fill me full! I want it!”
I did just that.
“Arrghh!” I groaned as I came hard inside of her.
My hands tried to hold onto her slippery body and keep a grip on her hips to keep her in place. I did not want the Jacuzzi to get a single drop of me, it was all for her. And she wanted it that way, too.
It was a good thing I was already sitting down. My legs stiffened and stood straight out as they quivered under the strength of my climax. My eyelids closed and rolled up in my head as I leaned my head back. I felt a splitting pain, like an echoing migraine for a moment and I truly thought I might black out under the intensity of it all, but then the orgasm began to subside.
“Yes!” Tina screamed. “Oh, fill me full… yes…”
She was still thrashing as I felt her own orgasm coming on. She gasped loudly and her breath caught in her throat. Her body was quivering and becoming rigid as well. Her face was an expression of total concentration, but her mouth was smiling widely, fighting against every muscle in her body that was trying to tense up completely.
“Wow,” I said as we cuddled under the hot water. It had been a while since we’d made love in the Jacuzzi. It was always a nice touch.
I hadn’t expected two workouts this morning. Now I almost felt like I needed another shower.
“So, I could really go for a good breakfast right now,” Tina said with a laugh.
“Oh, really? You worked up a good appetite? I’ll agree.”
She kissed me softly on the lips and afterwards I held my forehead against hers. “Wow, this is nice.”
Everything was quiet now, just the slight trickling sounds of the water underneath us, moving around our bodies. It was not as warm as before and I thought about starting it up again, but I didn’t want to move from that moment.
Tina was snuggled tightly against me now, her head resting comfortably on my shoulders. I had rarely felt this level of peace in my entire life. But I knew, as long as I was with Tina, I would always be happy.
I just hoped that she would forgive me my transgressions, my lies. That’s what they were… lies. Just lies.
I was a rotten person, a terrible man. Why was I doing this? I had to tell her. I had to.
I opened my mouth to start, but I didn’t know where to begin or how to start it. Just say it. That’s all you have to do. Just do it. There is nothing to think about, nothing to plan.
I took a deep breath and started again. I opened my mouth, but nothing came out. My throat was paralyzed.
“Are you ok?” Tina asked me.
I stopped and smiled at her. “Um… yeah. Why?”
“You looked like you were about to say something.”
“No, it’s nothing. I’m fine.”
We stayed in the Jacuzzi a few more minutes and then our stomachs got the better of us. We dried and wrapped in our bath robes. Then we both retired to the bed, where we ordered room service. That was what this mini vacation was all about.
When the food came, it ended up being more than either of us could handle. That was the problem with ordering food when you were hungry. Our eyes were bigger than our stomachs.
“Are you actually going to eat all of that? I’d be impressed if you did,” Tina teased. “You probably wouldn’t be able to eat dinner tonight though; you’ll still be full.”
“I might be,” I said. “But I’m going to give it the old college try.”
“Where does that expression come from, you wonder?” Tina asked. “The old college try? Is there a new college try? Do people go to college expecting to not try?”
She stopped when she realized I was looking at her like she was crazy. This brought out a sweet, embarrassed smile in her as she poured syrup on her pancakes. “Sorry,” she said.
I laughed and rubbed her leg. Then I dug into my massive feast. I’m proud to say I finished more than half.
Chapter Ten
Tina
“It’s been a while since I’ve been on the slopes,” I said as I stood at the top of the run nervously waiting my turn. Maybe this wasn’t such a good idea?
“You used to be the best skier of all of us,” Donna said. “Don’t even try that tired routine with us. You are just psyching yourself out. Unless you are trying to psyche us out.”
“Why would I do that?”
“You are the most hyper competitive person I know,” Donna said. “I can’t explain your madness.”
I shook my head. “When have I ever been hyper competitive?” I asked.
Donna laughed. “How about in everything we do. You always have to be the first one done eating, the most prepared for tests in school, the first to class, the last to leave, etc. It would take us all day to list all the times. I love you, but I am saying that you might have a problem. Maybe you can speak with a mental health professional about it. I think that might be a good idea.
“Do you think I’m that competitive?” I asked Blake.
He looked over at Roy and then back at me. “No comment.”
Roy and Donna both laughed along with Blake.
“Well, thanks,” I said. I stuck my tongue out at Blake.
It was nice to see that he and Roy had patched things up. I was a bit nervous about it. Blake still wouldn’t tell me where he really knew Roy from. I could tell he was lying to me. But every time I started thinking this way, I forced myself to stop it. This was not helping my anxiety about marrying Blake.
And there it was. I was having actual anxiety about it. Was it Blake? Or just marriage in general? I loved him. There was no question that we were meant to be together, and I would love nothing more than to spend the rest of my life with him, but I was afraid of something. Was it him or was it marriage in general? I couldn’t tell. I knew that Blake was a good man, but sometimes good men made mistakes. Sometimes those same good men did bad things that they never told anyone about.
Was that Blake? What secrets, or skeletons was he hiding in his closet? I had to know.
But I didn’t know how to find out. There are some things that are so bu
ried in the past that they can never be dug up. And some things that should stay buried forever.
I didn’t know what category Blake might fall into.
“I guess I’ll go first,” Roy said. “I was actually a ski instructor for a few winters during college.”
“Really?” I asked. Why did I have the feeling that anything we ever did, Roy had done or excelled at it somewhere in his short life? He was one of those narcissistic types that were almost insufferable. Seriously, how could Donna stand to be around him? He must be amazing in bed.
“I’ll take that challenge,” Blake said. “Let’s go off together.”
Roy smiled. “Good. I love the challenge. I’ll try to not make you look bad.”
“Oh, I appreciate it,” Blake said.
The two men got on their starting points and before I knew whether they were waiting on us to start a counter, or if they were just going to play it by ear, they were off.
“Wow, look at them go,” Donna said.
“Yeah, I don’t think we should even try to catch them.”
“What? It’s killing you to not be out there with them, isn’t it?”
I nodded. “Yes. You’re right; I am crazy competitive. Sue me. It’s my curse.”
We both shared a laugh and got on our own marks. I was a bit nervous about being on the skis again after such an absence, especially since the last time I’d almost hurt myself. I misjudged the size of a small cliff that I’d foolishly hopped off on the way down and I’d hit something in the ground and flipped over.
“Let’s go!” Donna called.
And we were off.
The moment I began to roll down the hill and hit the momentum it all came back to me. Skiing was such a rush, a sweet release of adrenaline, not unlike sex in many ways. At least it was for me. I wasn’t sure if anyone else had ever made that comparison.
I was suddenly glad I’d come on this weekend. I wasn’t sure until this moment. Blake and I’d had our fun, but we could do that just about anywhere. Everything else had been strained, weird.
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