A Million Suns: An Across the Universe Novel

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by Beth Revis


  We both look up when the elevator doors slide open.

  Shit.

  Really?

  After all this, he has to walk in? What, does he have a stalking meter on me or something?

  “Get out,” I say.

  Luthor grins.

  “My two lovely carros, all in one room together.”

  “Get out,” I say again.

  He moves toward where we are sitting. I jump up, but Victria doesn’t; she curls her legs up under her and wraps her arms around her stomach.

  “You know,” Luthor purrs, “I think it might be fate. To see the both of you, here, together.”

  I put my hand in my pocket, but I don’t back up as he draws closer. There’s nowhere to back up to, anyway—we’re trapped in front of the windows.

  He reaches out to touch me. He strokes my left arm in a sickeningly gentle way until his fingers brush against my elbow, then he grabs me and pulls me roughly to him. Victria chokes out a sort of sob-scream, but I jerk my right hand out of my pocket and slap him full across the face.

  It’s a strong slap—but not strong enough to make a full-grown, well-muscled man fall to the ground. Not without a little help, anyway. He crashes down, his fingers still wrapped around my elbow. My shirt rips before I can shake him off. He lies on the floor, looking up at me passively.

  “What the frex?” Victria whispers. She’s still curled in on herself, but she leans forward to stare at Luthor’s body.

  “Kit gave me one of those new med patches,” I say. I nudge Luthor’s face with my foot, showing her the pale green square outlined by my handprint on Luthor’s cheek.

  “You were pretty fast to get that out.”

  “Yeah, well,” I say, “I don’t exactly trust Luthor.”

  “Yeah.” Pause. “Me either.”

  I look at her, really look at her, past the hard shell she always wears. Luthor spoke to both of us with that purr in his voice. And, even now with Luthor on the floor, she holds her arms around her stomach. In protection, but not for herself.

  “Are you pregnant?” I whisper.

  Stupid question. Nearly all the women on board the ship are pregnant—the Season did most of that, and Doc’s needles did the rest. But the ones not on Phydus, people like Harley and Luthor and Elder and Victria, chose whether to participate in the Season or not.

  She nods.

  I step over Luthor’s immobile body and sit down on the couch next to her. “What did he do to you?” The words come out as a whisper.

  She stares at Luthor. He blinks at the ceiling. The Phydus patches are stronger than when the drug was in the water. He’d do anything I told him to, I think. He would walk off the roof of the Hospital if I led him to the edge. Nice thought.

  Before, Victria was crying. Now, her eyes are dry, even though I can see the still-damp tracks of tears snaking down her cheeks. Now she keeps the tears inside her, controlling them in a way she can’t control the past.

  She curls tighter, her knees under her chin.

  “It was him,” she says, eyes shut.

  I’m afraid of what she means, but I’ve already guessed the truth. I touch her shoulder. Her whole body shifts into me, but she doesn’t let go of her knees, of the way she’s made herself into a tight bundle around her stomach. Because she lets me, I wrap my arms around her.

  “It was him,” she says again. Her voice sounds like a faraway echo. “During the Season.”

  “Luthor?” I whisper. My voice catches in fear of what she’s saying.

  “I didn’t want to,” she says. “He was so violent.” She glances up at me, her eyes wet and red. “He mentioned you. Because he didn’t get you . . .”

  Because he didn’t get me, he went to her.

  “I tried to . . .” Her voice cracks. It doesn’t matter what she tried to do, or didn’t. I understand.

  I remember that moment when I gave up. When I waited for it to be over.

  For me, though, it stopped.

  But not for her.

  No wonder she hates me: because I was spared, and she was not.

  And now, with her body curled up in protection around her baby, I realize that it’s not stopped, at all, during the past three months.

  What lasted for minutes for me is still with her, growing inside of her, a thing she must hate and love all at the same time.

  I wrap my arms tighter around Victria and pull her closer to me. “It’s over,” I whisper, even though I know it’s not. It never will be.

  I tug at Victria’s left hand until she releases the death grip she has on her knees. She looks at me curiously as I flatten her fingers. Her hand is cold and clammy, but it’s no longer shaking. I wrap my pinkie finger around hers.

  “This is a promise,” I tell her, squeezing her pinkie with mine. “A promise that you don’t have to be alone with this secret and pain anymore.”

  Her finger lies still in mine—she doesn’t believe me. She stares at Luthor’s immobilized form.

  I think we both get the same idea at the same time. Our eyes meet. Luthor can’t move—he’s helpless.

  For the first time, we have the ability to take back a little bit of what he took from us, months ago.

  So we’re going to.

  Victria uncurls from the couch. She’s hesitant at first, but then she gets up slowly, deliberately. She stands over Luthor’s body.

  And she kicks him as hard as she can, right in the stomach.

  He gives out a sort of breathless Oof! but doesn’t move.

  She kicks him again, and again. Water leaks from his eyes, but he doesn’t protest or move to defend himself, even when Victria kicks him in the groin, hard.

  She drops to her knees, beating his chest with her fists. “How could you,” she gasps. “I knew you!”

  I squat down next to her. “Let it go,” I say, “Come on.” I touch her shoulders to pull her away, but she jerks back—not to hit him, but to bury her face in her arms, sobbing.

  I can’t stand to see her break like this. I can’t stand to know that when the patch wears off, he’ll blame her, he may still try to hurt her, or me.

  I drop to my knees near his face. His eyes still stare straight up, but I can tell by the way they twitch that he knows I’m here.

  “I want you to know something,” I whisper in his ear softly. “I want you to know that I know where I can find a gun. If you don’t know what a gun is, look it up in the Recorder Hall. My father taught me how to hold a gun steady, how to breathe out as I squeeze the trigger, how to group my shots in a target so that even if the first bullet doesn’t stop you, the next will. When I was fourteen, my father took me hunting with him, in Colorado, and I killed an elk. He did this so that I would know what it is to take a life, so that I would not hesitate to do it when I needed to. I am telling you this, now, so that you know I won’t hesitate to kill you.”

  Luthor’s eyes dance back and forth; he’s trying to get the power to turn—away from me or toward me, I don’t know.

  I lean closer to him, so close I can smell his skin, and when I speak, I can see how the little hairs near his ear move with my breath. “I also want you to know that I won’t kill you right away. But that you’ll wish I had.”

  I stand up and offer Victria my hand. She takes it, but as we head to the door, she breaks away from me and delivers one last vicious kick to Luthor’s face.

  We leave him, broken and bleeding, on the floor.

  35

  ELDER

  THE NEXT MORNING, I WAKE TO A COM.

  “Are you up yet?” Amy’s voice is excited.

  “I am now,” I say, stretching. “Is anything wrong?”

  “Nope,” she says. “Come down to the cryo level.”

  “Amy, is this about Orion and his frexing clues?” I ask, pulling on pants. “I don’t have time for that. I’ve got to focus on the engine and keeping the ship going—look at what happened yesterday while I was on the cryo level.”

  “Don’t get sassy. Just come down here
.”

  “Sassy?”

  “Come on!” she says. “You’re going to want to see this!”

  “Oh, really?”

  “Elder, remember the video last night?”

  “The vid that got cut off? Amy, either Orion was loons or someone else messed with that video. Either way—”

  She cuts me off. “That’s beside the point. There was still enough information for me to figure it out. Remember when Orion said Eldest started to scare him? He said it happened after he got off the ship.”

  “Off the ship?” I say, so surprised that I pause on my way to the grav tube.

  “Whatever he found, he saw it outside the ship.”

  “Which means . . .” I say, not daring to finish my thought aloud. I start running to the tube entrance.

  “That the next locked door must contain spacesuits.”

  Amy’s pacing in front of the elevator by the time I reach the cryo level. “What took you so long?” she demands. Before I have a chance to answer her, she grabs my arm and starts dragging me to the hall in the back.

  “I read the whole thing last night,” she says, tossing me a slender book.

  “What’s this?” I turn it over, reading the title.

  “Shakespeare’s sonnets. Keep up. Anyway, I read the whole thing—actually, I had to read it twice—but I finally noticed something very interesting.”

  “Interesting how?”

  “Turn to page 87.”

  Balancing the book in one hand, I carefully turn the pages. Amy taps her foot impatiently, but I don’t want to risk damaging this treasure from Sol-Earth. I turn over page 85. And—

  “Where’s page 87?” I ask. I flip page 85 back and forth—but the book jumps straight to page 89.

  “Exactly,” Amy says, a huge grin spreading across her face. “It’s so neatly cut out of the book that you’d never notice that page was gone unless you were looking for it.”

  “This is the clue?” I ask, handing the book back to Amy.

  “I think the clue was on page 87,” Amy says. “Someone altered whatever clue Orion left in the armory, trying to make us give up and quit looking. Whoever did that also cut the page from the book.”

  “How did you find it?” I ask. I’m trying to remember what any of Orion’s videos said that indicated Shakespearean poetry.

  “It was in the fiction room,” Amy says. “Anyway,” she continues when I open my mouth to question her further, “the point is—that missing page. It had a sonnet on it.” She turns back to page 85 and shows me the book. “This page has Sonnet 29 on it.” She turns to page 89. “This page has Sonnet 31. Which means that page 87 must have had Sonnet 30 on it.”

  Amy tosses the book to the ground and my eyes go wide to see a treasure of Sol-Earth treated so casually. Amy doesn’t notice, though, as she spins around to the largest door at the end of the hall. “Codes have to be at least four digits long,” she says. “So try 0030.” She jerks her head to the door on the right of the hatch.

  “This is never going to work,” I say.

  In answer, Amy punches 0030 in the keypad by her door.

  “Told you,” I say when nothing happens after I punch the code in my door too.

  Amy picks the book back up and examines it again. “But . . . I was so sure.”

  I look over her shoulder. “I don’t know why you think those sonnets are numbered. They have letters beside them, not numbers.”

  “It’s Roman numerals,” Amy says dismissively. Then she lowers the book, meeting my eyes. “It’s Roman numerals. We shouldn’t use 0030 as the code—we should use XXX. And a zero in front, since there needs to be four digits.”

  She rushes to the keypad and tries 0XXX.

  Her door doesn’t unlock. “Why did the Romans use letters instead of numbers?” I ask.

  She ignores my question. “Try that lock,” she says, moving closer to the door I’m at.

  “You’re getting your hopes up for nothing. Orion was loons. This whole clue chase is loons.”

  “Just. Try. It.”

  I roll my eyes and tap out 0XXX on the keypad.

  Beep! Click.

  “Frex,” I say in awed surprise.

  36

  AMY

  THE DOOR SWINGS OPEN, AND IT’S NOT UNTIL I TAKE A HUGE gasp of air that I realize I’d been holding my breath. For all my confidence, I can’t believe that worked.

  There are ten cubbyholes built into the wall, one suit in each compartment. Cords and tubes are coiled at the base around heavy boots, and shelves over the suits display helmets that, despite a fine layer of dust, still retain some of their mirror-like shine.

  Elder rushes inside and runs his hands over the nearest suit. It looks like a painted paper bag but drips from his hand like silk. Behind the silk-like body suit, I can see harder pieces that look like plastic armor.

  “Do you know how to use these?” Elder turns, asking me with shining eyes.

  “Why would I?” I say.

  “You’re from Sol-Earth. These were made there.”

  I laugh, a short, bitter bark. “The whole ship was made on Sol-Earth; that doesn’t mean I know anything about it!”

  “But—”

  “There’s a manual,” I say. A thick metal-and-glass screen connected to a coiled cord hangs on the wall. Maybe it once worked as video instructions or an interactive guide, but the cord is frayed and the glass cracked. Under the monitor, though, is a thick black book. Good thing it’s pretty hard to break a book. I pick it up and flip to the first page. Two-thirds of it isn’t even in English. The part that is in English is so complicated it makes my eyes cross. At the end of the book, though, is a step-by-step illustrated guide of what to do to operate the space suits. I guess the builders of the ship made sure the people on the ship could use the suits even if their language somehow evolved or something else went wrong.

  As I hand the manual to Elder, I notice that it had been resting on another book.

  “What’s that?” Elder asks me, but he’s more interested in the manual than the slender book I found beneath it.

  “The Little Prince,” I say, reading the title aloud. It’s such a small book that the huge manual hid it completely. Could this be another hint from Orion? One page is dog-eared, and I turn to it. The colors are faded, but it’s still possible to decipher the illustration in front of me: a giant king dressed in a robe embroidered with stars sits atop a tiny planet.

  Below the illustration, a line of text is circled and recircled, over and over.

  “I,” replied the little prince, “do not like to condemn anyone to death.”

  “Well, that’s ominous,” I mutter. The text reminds me of the threat I made last night. Clearly the little prince never met someone like Luthor. I glance up at Elder. I should tell him. But . . . now is not the time.

  I lift up a folded piece of paper that’s been slipped inside the book. My hands shake as I unfold it—I recognize the feel of this paper, thick and glossy.

  Sonnet XXX, the clue that was lost. Or stolen.

  The text on this page is riddled with lines and a note. “Look at this,” I say, turning to Elder.

  Whatever interest Elder had in discovering the next clue is now gone. His entire attention is focused on the space suits. I grin at him; he looks like a kid who’s been told he can get whatever flavor of ice cream he wants from the shop.

  I carefully tuck the ripped page into my pocket and turn to the operating manual. It’s obvious Elder couldn’t care less about old books and hidden clues while we’re looking at space suits.

  “There are two kinds of suits—one for extended exposure and one for moderate exposure. The brown ones are smaller and easier to use, but you’re only supposed to use them for about two hours or less.”

  “That’s fine,” Elder says, going to the cubbyholes. He picks up a body suit, and it’s not so much brown, as in the picture, but bronze. It sparkles in the dim light of the room, and when he shakes it out, dust mingles with glitter.
r />   “The moderate suits have an underlayer of protection against outside elements and hazardous temperatures,” I continue. “Then you put on the outer suit over that, for insulation and more protection. The outer suit seems to just snap on, then you connect gloves and boots over that. This looks crazy simple,” I say. “I thought a space suit would be really complex.”

  “The other ones, the ones for long exposure, do look more complicated. But if Orion’s right and the problem is obvious, I should only need the short-exposure suit,” Elder says. “A little help?”

  He’s already discarded his own clothes—they lie in a heap on the floor—and he’s zipped himself into the bronze underlayer.

  “Uh—no. No,” I say, striding over to him.

  “What?” he asks.

  “NO. You are not going out there. No way. Not with a flimsy suit you only know how to use because of an illustrated guide. No.”

  “Amy, it—”

  “NO.”

  “But—”

  “Don’t you remember what happened to Harley? Space isn’t a field on the Feeder Level! It. Will. Kill. You. And this?” I pinch the silky underlayer with my finger and let it snap back against his body. “This isn’t good enough. You can’t just throw on a suit and jump off the ship!”

  Elder looks at me doubtfully, like a child frustrated with an over­protective mom. I don’t care. I lean in closer to him. “You’re too important to risk.”

  “The vid,” Elder says, his voice low. “It’s the only way to figure out what Orion meant.”

  “You were the one who said Orion was loons.”

  “Yeah, but—”

  “Besides, that last clue was probably tampered with. Most likely someone didn’t want us finding this room or the suits, and—”

  “But Amy,” Elder says. “Space suits!” Elder can’t keep down his excitement about going out into the stars—but I can’t keep down my fear.

  “The suits don’t change anything!” But I’m wrong. They change everything. “Let me go,” I whisper. “Let anyone else. We can’t risk you.”

 

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