I should feel guilty because it’s Matt’s hands touching me, it’s his mouth on mine, it’s his cock driving into me, but it’s not him who’s responsible for my moans right now. It’s not him that’s making me scream as I orgasm in his bed.
No. It’s Jarrett. Because all I can think of is him and those dark brown eyes.
And that mother fucking truck.
I CAN’T STOP SMILING in the limo ride to Ralph’s. Somehow, I landed Cassie as my Little. I’ve known all week – found out on Tuesday and have been showering her with gifts and clues ever since – but tonight was the night she found out, and it was priceless.
“Did you really not have a clue that it was me?”
“Well, I hoped it was, but all your clues threw me off!” she says, giggling. “You said you had blonde hair and you were a Poli Sci major. I thought it was Jess at one point.”
“Well I wanted it to be a surprise!”
“It definitely was,” she says, still smiling. Our limo is packed with ten other girls. It’s tradition after Big/Little reveal that all KKB sisters convene at Ralph’s, a dirty, old bar just off campus that’s been around longer than the library. Most of the new Big/Little pairs take limos just for fun. It’s cheesy and kind of lame, but it’s tradition.
“Hey,” I say, touching Cassie’s shoulder when I notice her smile slip. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing,” she tries, shaking her head. I give her a pointed look and she sighs. “I don’t know. I’m so happy, Skyler. I am. I was freaking out thinking you weren’t my Big but you are and now we’re going out and it’s going to be so much fun. But…”
“You’re thinking about Paris, aren’t you?”
Cassie frowns. “She’s changed so much already, Skyler. She’s always been a little… refined, I guess. But now she’s getting snobby. And mean. And it’s like now that we’re not in the same sorority, she doesn’t think it’s fit for us to hang out. Like, ever. I don’t understand it.”
I really want to punch this Paris chick right in the left tit, but for now, I need to make Cassie feel better, so I put on my happy face. “Listen, she’s just going through the growing pains. College changes people in a lot of ways. I know sisters who have plenty of friends outside of the sorority and friends in other sororities, too. If Paris is saying that’s why she can’t be friends with you, she’s using it as an excuse for something she’s been thinking for a while now.”
Cassie’s frown deepens and I realize that probably didn’t make her feel better at all. Cool. Great job, Skyler.
“But do you remember what I said when we first met? By the fountain?” I ask and Cassie nods. “Well, it’s still true. Your time in KKB is just beginning, but just know you’ve got an army of sisters on your side and we all want to get to know you better and form a lifelong friendship with you.”
She smiles at that. “I know. I’m excited. And you’re my Big!”
I squeeze her in a tight hug. “Hey.” I pull back, assessing her. “Did I ever tell you the stories behind some of the girls’ nicknames?” Cassie shakes her head no. “Well, I just realized we probably sound completely crazy to you, huh?”
She giggles. “Sometimes. It’s kind of hard to follow.”
“Well, let me clear it up. So, Ex is short for Erin Xander. Also, it’s kind of an inside joke between the other girls and I that she’s always someone’s ex, never someone’s girlfriend. We’re still not sure how that happens.” Cassie laughs and I join her a bit before continuing. “Lei’s is easy, it’s just the second half of her name. Everyone has always called her Ash and she bitches about it, so we call her Lei to get her to shut up.”
Cassie chuckles again and I see the worry start to truly fade. “I like that. Kind of like how they call you Sky.”
“Right,” I agree. “It’s just a shorter version of our names. J-Love’s is the most fun, I think. It’s kind of like J-Lo, but J-Love. It started because she used to say she was in love with every guy she hooked up with. Now, it’s just because she’s a heartbreaker. That girl is always hooking up with all kinds of hotties on campus and making them fall in love with her. Man eater, that one is.” I smile, shaking my head. “I try to keep up with her and give her a run for her money, but it’s tough.”
“What does Bo stand for?”
“Oh, that’s her actual name. It’s Chinese for precious, I think.”
“Neat.” She pauses. “What do you think my nickname will be?”
I look up toward the neon ceiling of the limo, contemplating. “Well, you’ll be Little Nug to me. That’s all I really know right now. But who knows, maybe you’ll get a nickname from the girls, too.”
“I like Little Nug.”
I smile just as the limo pulls to a stop in front of Ralph’s. “Me too. Now let your new Big buy you a drink!”
“Um,” she stammers, wrapping her fingers in her wild red hair. “I’m not twenty-one.”
“Neither am I,” I say with a wink. “Not yet. But, according to these…” I trail off, pulling two fake IDs from my purse. “I’m twenty-two and you just turned twenty-one last week. Happy birthday!”
We both laugh together as we file out of the limo and into Ralph’s. The bouncer checks our IDs with a smirk and I’m pretty sure he knows they’re fake, but he lets us in anyway and slaps neon green wristbands on our arms. Perks of being in a college town.
We meet up with Jess, Bo, Ashlei, and Erin at the bar. Jess is still a little sour about Bo not taking a Little, but she apologized to her earlier this week and they’re trying to work on building their relationship before adding another sister to their line. I actually kind of think it’s smart. Erin and I are pretty close, and Cassie seems like the perfect addition to the family. They haven’t had much one-on-one time yet, but that’s mostly because Erin is insanely busy. With the way Cassie is showing interest in school already, I have a feeling they’ll have that in common, soon.
Jess and I exchange glances and devious smiles when Matt shows up with Clinton and a few more of their brothers. We found out earlier today that we’re officially eskimo sisters – meaning we shacked up with the same guy. Although, luckily, neither of us have any hard feelings. He was a distraction for me and he figured that out when I showed up wearing green to their stoplight party. Jess feels the same way – though she did mention he may be distracting her again in the near future.
Adam Brooks slides up to the bar right between Cassie and I just as we finish our fifth game of flip cup. His dark eyes are hooded from his buzz and he grins goofily at each of us. “Well if it isn’t the slip-n-slide sisters.”
“Wow,” I turn to face him completely, bringing my drink with me. “I like our reputation already, Little.”
Adam’s brows shoot up. “Little?” He looks from me to Cassie and back again. “Well hot damn. Congrats, ladies.”
“I guess that means you should buy us a shot, right?” I ask as Cassie blushes and tucks her hair behind her ear. She’s so innocent and cute. Dear Lord, help her with being my Little.
“You know what,” he says, leaning up with a grin. “You are absolutely right.”
He orders us three lemon drops and we throw them back and talk between more games of flip cup. My buzz is pretty strong now and the more I see his little dimple, the closer I lean in.
“You girls should come to the A-Sig concert next month.”
I cock a brow. “Oh yeah? No offense, but Alpha Sigma events are usually pretty lame.”
“Yeah well,” he says, tilting his drink back. “I’m going to change all that this year.” He throws a wink at Cassie and I can’t help but smile. This kid is cute.
“What do you think, Little Nug? Should we go?”
Cassie’s grin grows wider. “Well it wouldn’t be a party without the slip-n-slide sisters, would it?”
Adam points two fingers in her direction. “She’s got a point.”
“I guess it’s settled then. But, I do have one condition.”
“Oh?” Adam asks,
amused.
“Dance with me.” I don’t give him the chance to reply before I pull him out onto the packed dance floor, sticky with spilt liquor. Throwing my arms around his neck, I move my body against his in time with the heavy bass of the music.
After a few songs, I lean in and speak over the music. “So, you’re changing Alpha Sigma’s reputation, huh?”
“That’s the plan. As long as my douchebag president stays out of the way.”
I smile, my lips grazing his neck just a fraction. “Better be careful messing with the man in charge.”
He shrugs, pulling back to catch my eyes with his. “What can I say? I like a challenge.”
I return his grin and just like that, there’s a new player at the table.
I WAKE TO A LOUD BANGING on the front door Sunday morning. I know it’s loud because I never hear a knock from my bedroom but this one sounds like it’s thumping on my head. Groaning, I swing my legs over the edge of my bed and make my way down the hall. Whoever it is continues to bang until I quickly pull the door open.
“About fucking time,” the guy on the other end of the knock says, pushing past me into the living room. I bow up to him and he rolls his eyes. “I’m Alec. I was president of Omega Chi Beta six years ago and I’m here to save your ass.”
“What the fuck did you just say to me?”
“Did I stutter?” he asks. Dick. “My name is Alec Carriker. Are you Matthew Dishman?”
I shake my head. “He’s down the hall. What are you doing here?”
“I’d rather talk to Matt about that.”
I cross my arms over my chest. “Well he’s asleep and insanely hungover and I’m probably the only brother you’re going to get a sober conversation out of right now. So if you don’t want to wait around for several hours to get whatever has your panties in a wad off your chest, you can start talking now.”
Alec steps up to me, his chest puffing out as his eyes level with mine. He’s just as tall as I am, which I’m not really used to, but his frame is lean where mine is stout. “I don’t know where you get off talking to an alumni that way, boy, but I’m about five seconds away from reminding you why you shouldn’t.”
“Boy?” My nose flares and I beg myself to calm down, but I’m not sure it’s going to work.
He rolls his eyes. “Oh please, don’t start with the race card. I didn’t mean boy like that, I meant it as in you are a boy. You are young, you’re naive, and you have no respect for your older brothers.”
“I don’t give my respect. You have to earn it. And you’re doing a piss poor job right now.”
Alec appraises me for a moment before exhaling a long breath. “Look, I didn’t come here to fight. But, I’m pissed off and so are a lot of other alum. We got a call from nationals and they’re assigning me and two other brothers to mentor the chapter for the rest of the year due to the copious amount of shit you’ve been getting yourself into.”
I gulp, but don’t respond. I know exactly what he’s talking about. After last semester, the crazy parties over summer, and the now four times we’ve had the cops called on us this semester – it doesn’t surprise me nationals has stepped in. But it worries me.
“So what does this mean?”
“It means you’re in a pretty precarious situation and if you don’t listen to me and get your shit together, you’re going to get suspended. Or worse.” He gives me a pointed look and my jaw tightens.
“I’ll go wake Matt.”
“Don’t bother.” He sighs, looking around the house. It’s disgusting. Empty cups and beer bottles litter the tables and the floor and it smells like ass. He turns his nose up. “Just let him sleep, I’ll come back later.” He pauses. “I didn’t catch your name.”
“You didn’t bother to ask. I guess boy will suffice for now.”
He smirks. “Look, I’m sorry. I’m just… I’m really tied to this fraternity. I don’t want to see it go down in flames. What’s your name?”
I frown, but extend my hand anyway. “Clinton Pennington. Everyone calls me Bear.”
“Bear,” he tries my name and I know he’s wondering why anyone would call me that. Or maybe he’s figured part of it out by now. “Well, Bear, I’m sorry we got off on the wrong foot. I’ll be back later with the other brothers.” His eyes flit around the room again. “Might consider cleaning up a bit before then. Believe it or not, I’m the most forgiving of the lot.”
After Alec leaves, I shut the door and curse under my breath. I type out a quick text to Josh and just as I hit send, my phone starts ringing.
Mom.
Fuck. I am not in the mood for this. Hell, I’m still half asleep. But I answer anyway.
“Hey Mom.”
“Clinton, baby?” she asks, sniffling.
“Mom?” My heart races in my throat. She’s crying. “What’s going on? Is Clayton okay?” She cries harder and I sink down onto the couch, my breath caught in my chest. “Mom?”
“He’s fine, honey. I,” she chokes out over a sob. “I need you to send me a little money, baby. I was stupid. I did some stupid shit and now I don’t have money for Clayton’s school fieldtrip and he doesn’t have any lunch money and I barely have an ounce of food in the house. I know I was stupid, Clinton. Please don’t penalize me. Please, baby, just help me out. Just this once.”
As if the anger I had after Alec’s morning visit wasn’t enough, I feel it double in an instant. Heat rushes to my cheeks and I have to grip the arm of the couch to keep from punching something. “How much?”
“Just a little, baby.”
“How. Much?”
She pauses, her voice growing smaller. “A hundred, maybe two.”
I don’t argue. I don’t fight her. I don’t have the energy to do either. “I’ll text you with the confirmation.” With that, I end the call, grab my keys, and head for the store. I’m gripping the wheel and driving too fast the entire way, but I can’t calm myself down. I try texting Carleton, but he doesn’t answer. Still. Letting out a frustrated growl, I throw my phone against the passenger side window and it bounces back into the seat.
I send her two hundred. I can’t afford it, but I do it anyway. The thought of Clayton suffering at all makes me hate myself for leaving him behind. He should be here with me. Being only twelve, he’s got a long time to go before he can leave on his own. Too long.
When I get back to the house, I change clothes and take off walking across campus toward the gym. I call Clayton when I’m halfway there and he answers on the second ring.
“Big bro!” he exclaims, his grin carrying through his voice. “What’s up? How’s Florida life?”
“Hot,” I say with a chuckle, the sweat already beading on my forehead. “How’s Pennsylvania life?”
“Boring. But you already know how that goes.”
I smile. “How’s school? You feel any different being a seventh grader?”
“Well, the schoolwork still sucks. But the girls are filling out, if you know what I mean.” He laughs through the receiver and I can’t help but join him. That’s my brother.
“Attaboy.” My smile fades as I think about him not having food to eat. “Is everything okay at home, Clayton?”
There’s a pause on the other end, but he answers after a beat. “Yeah. I mean, you know how she is. How everyone here is.”
“Yeah. I know.” Silence. “You know I love you, right? I’m always here for you. No matter what time of day.”
“I know. I’m okay, bro.”
“I know you are. You’re tough.”
“I learn from the best! But I have to go. I’m at Mac’s and we’re about to jump on Xbox. Call you later?”
“Sure thing, little bro. Kick his ass.”
“Always!”
We end the call just in time for me to open the gym door. I feel broken. All I want is for Clayton to get the hell out of there and then we can both be done with our shitty family. But really, I know that’s not true, either. Because there’s still the boys. And even w
hen Carleton and Mom pull their stupid stunts, they’re still family. And blood runs thick.
I’m just not sure how much more I can give anymore.
BY THE TIME I limp my way back to the fraternity house, the sun is already setting. I didn’t intend to stay at the gym all day but I wanted to numb myself. It worked, but I’m paying for it now and it’ll be even worse tomorrow.
When I push my way through the front door, I’m met with thumping music and a packed house.
What the fuck.
“Josh!” I growl, catching sight of him first. I grab him by his shirt and yank him back toward the hallway where there are less people. “What the hell are you doing? Did you not get my voicemail earlier about the alumni?”
“Oh fuck them,” he spits out. “They came by earlier, ripped us a new asshole, and then left. They said they’re moving our chapter meeting to tomorrow night, so we’re getting in one last rage fest before the party police move in.”
I sigh, but just like with Mom, I don’t have the energy to argue. “Whatever.” Releasing his shirt, I limp back to my room and jump in the shower, letting the hot water and steam melt away some of the tension from today. Then, against my better judgement, I join the party.
And I make it my mission to get hammered.
Before midnight even hits, I’m pinballing down the hallway with Lacy’s mouth on mine. Lacy is a Zeta. She’s small, almost doll-size, and her caramel skin against the bright white dress she’s wearing are too much for me to handle. You would think with her wearing white to a frat party that she was trying to be innocent tonight. But with one hand under my basketball shorts, I know that’s far from the truth.
“Fuck,” she curses as I slam her back against my bedroom door. “Easy, Bear.”
I suck and bite down her neck and toss her onto my bed with ease, pulling my shirt up and over my head at the same time. “I’m not doing easy tonight, babe. You either get me hard and rough or you don’t get me at all. Your choice.”
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