April
Raintree
Beatrice Culleton
PEGUIS PUBLISHERS
WINNIPEG • CANADA
© 1984, 1992 by Beatrice Culleton
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Print format ISBN 978-1-895411-41-6
EPUB format ISBN 978-1-55379-270-3
April Raintree is a revised edition of In Search of April Raintree first published in 1983 by Pemmican Publications.
All the characters in this novel are fictional and ant resemblance to any person, living or dead, is purely coincidental.
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Contents
Acknowledgment
Foreward
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
ACKNOWLEDGMENT
I would like to take this opportunity to thank those people who have read In Search of April Raintree and to thank those people who encouraged me to adapt the original book so that April Raintree would be suitable for high school study. I have appreciated the support, the encouragement, and the willingness of those who have opened their minds and their hearts to gain a better understanding of April and Cheryl.
I would like to give special thanks to Associate Chief Judge Murray C. Sinclair, for his advice and assistance. And, of course, my appreciation goes out to all my families.
With love and affection,
Beatrice Mosionier Culleton
FOREWARD
The theme of APRIL RAINTREE, simply stated, is a young woman’s search for her identity. That the central character is a young Metis woman in a contemporary Canadian urban setting draws us into a much larger story—the story of the Metis.
Through introducing us to April and Cheryl Raintree and drawing us into their search for identity, Beatrice Culleton helps us to discover and appreciate the Metis people, and the struggles which are unique to them. Historically, the Metis of the Red River evolved a distinct culture, separate from, yet embracing values derived from their aboriginal and European roots. The Metis emerged as an important political force in the west in the mid-nineteenth century. For a variety of reasons, the Metis people were dispersed and their political and economic strength declined. Today, aware of the importance of regaining their own self-determination, the Metis are continuing to work towards re-establishing their unique place in Canadian society.
Through her characterization of two young sisters who are removed from their family, Beatrice Culleton poignantly illustrates the difficulties which many Native people face in maintaining a positive self-identity. For many, the difficulties are compounded by poverty, and by the larger societies’ misunderstanding and negative perception of Native people. A strong sense of self-identity is a prerequisite to self-determination.
Passionately written, this story has an immediacy which cannot help but affect the reader.
Joyce Carlson
CHAPTER 1
Memories. Some memories are elusive, fleeting, like butterflies that touch down and are free until caught. Others are haunting. You would rather forget them but they will not be forgotten. And some are always there. No matter where you are, they are there, too. I always felt most of my memories were better left untouched but now I think it’s best to go back in my life before I go forward. Last month, April 18th, I celebrated my twenty-fourth birthday. That’s still young but I feel so old.
My father, Henry Raintree, was of mixed blood, a little of this, a little of that and a whole lot of Indian. My sister, Cheryl, who was 18 months younger than me, had inherited his looks: black hair, dark brown eyes which turned black when angry, and brown skin. There was no doubt they were both of Indian ancestry. My mother, Alice, on the other hand, was part Irish and part Ojibway. My name is April Raintree and like her, I had pale skin, not that it made any difference when we were living as a family. We lived in Norway House, a small northern Manitoba town, before my father contracted tuberculosis. Then we moved to Winnipeg. I used to hear him talk about T.B. and how it had caused him to lose everything he had worked for. Both my Mom and Dad always took this medicine and I always thought it was because of T.B. Although we moved from one run-down house to another, I remember only one, on Jarvis Avenue. And of course, we were always on welfare. I knew that from the way my Dad used to talk. Sometimes he would put himself down and sometimes he counted the days till he could walk down to the place where they gave out cheques and food stamps.
It seemed to me that after the welfare cheque days, came the medicine days. That was when my parents would take a lot of medicine and it always changed them. Mom, who was usually quiet and calm, would talk and laugh in a loud obnoxious way, and Dad, who already talked and laughed a lot, and loudly, just got clumsier. The times they took the medicine the most were the times when many other grown-ups would come over and drink it with them. To avoid these people, I would take Cheryl into our tiny bedroom, close the door and put my box of old rusted toys in front of the door. Along with the aunties and uncles out there, there were strange men and they would start yelling and sometimes they would fight, right in our small house. I would lay in my cot, listening to them knocking things over and bumping into walls. Sometimes they would crash into our door and I would become scared stiff, even though I knew Mom and Dad were out there with them. It always took a long time before I could get to sleep.
There were days when they came with their own children. I didn’t much like these children either, for they were sullen and cranky and wouldn’t talk or play with us or else they were aggressive bullies who only wanted to fight us. Usually, their faces were dirty, their noses were runny and I was sure they had done ‘it’ in their pants because they smelled terrible. If they had to stay the night, I would put our blankets on the floor for them, stubbornly refusing to share our cot with them. Once Mom had let a little girl sleep with us and during the night she had wet the bed. It had been a long time before the smell went away.
My mother didn’t always drink that medicine, not as much as my father did. That’s when she would clean the house, bake, do the laundry and the sewing. If she was really happy, she would sing us songs and at night she would rock Cheryl to sleep. But that was one kind of happiness that didn’t come often enough for me. To prolong that mood in her, I would help her with everything, chattering away in desperation, lest my own silences would push her back into her normal remoteness. My first cause for vanity was that out of all the houses of the people we knew, my mother kept the cleanest house. She would tell her friends that it was because she was raised in a residential
school and then worked as a housekeeper for the priest in her home town.
Cheryl and I usually woke up before our parents so I would tend to Cheryl’s needs. I would feed her whatever was available, then wash and dress her in clean clothes. Weather permitting, we would then go off to the park, which was a long walk, especially on hot summer days. Our daily routine was dictated by our hunger pangs and by daylight. Darkness brought out the boogeymen and Dad told us what they did to little children. I liked all of Dad’s stories, even the scary ones because I knew that Cheryl and I were always safe in the house.
It was very rare when Mom would go downtown to the department stores where they had ride-on stairs. Mom didn’t like going shopping. I guess it was because sometimes people were rude to her. When that happened, Mom would get a hurt look in her eyes and act apologetic. One day, I didn’t notice any of that because that day I saw my first black person. I was sure he was a boogeyman and wondered how come he wandered around so easily, as if nothing was wrong. I watched him and he stopped at the watch counter. Since Mom and Cheryl were nearby and there were a lot of other people close enough, I went over to him. My voice was very shaky as I asked him, “Mr. Boogeyman, what do you do with the children you catch?”
“What’s that?” his voice seemed to rumble from deep within him and when he turned to look at me, I thought he had the kindest eyes I’d ever seen. Maybe, though, they changed at night. Right now, they twinkled with humor. No, he couldn’t be bad.
“Nothing,” I said and walked back to my mother’s side.
When winter came, we didn’t go to the park anymore. There was plenty to do with the snow around our house. Sometimes Mom would come out and help us build our snowmen and our houses. One December, we all went downtown to watch the Santa Claus parade. That was such a thrilling, magical day for me. After that, we went to visit an aunt and uncle where Cheryl and I feasted on the most delicious cake ever, stuffed ourselves with fruit and we each drank about three cups of hot chocolate. Then we walked home. Dad threw snowballs at Mom for a bit before he carried our sleepy-eyed Cheryl in his arms. I was enchanted by the colored Christmas lights and decorations in the store windows. Set against the sparkling imitation snow, the windows looked like doorways to wonderful white fantasies. I think that was the best day ever, mostly because Mom and Dad laughed for real.
Not long after that, many people came to our house to drink the medicine and in the beginning they all sounded cheerful and happy. Mom and Dad let us stay up for a while and we sang Christmas songs. But after we had gone to bed, they started their yelling and even the women were angrily shouting. One woman was loudly wailing and it sounded like she’d gotten smacked a few times.
In the middle of the night when everything had been quiet for a while, I got up to go to the toilet. There were people sprawled all over the place, sleeping and snoring. I carefully stepped over one who was sleeping across the doorway. He grumbled and moved and I quickly jumped away from him, thinking he might try to reach out for me. Once in the kitchen, I saw my Dad sleeping on the bare floor, still in his clothes. I wondered why, so I went to their bedroom. When I put the light switch on, I saw my mother in bed and she was kissing a strange man. I guess she realized that someone was in the room and she sat up. She squinted from the sudden light and she looked both dizzy and scared but when she saw that it was only me, she hissed at me, “Get out of here!”
I forgot about having to go to the toilet and went back to my bed. I tried to figure everything out but I couldn’t.
A few days later, I was sitting on my Dad’s lap and Mom was doing the laundry. A woman came to visit but then it became an argument. She was shouting terrible names and she began to push my mother around. Meanwhile Dad just watched them and laughed, and even egged them on. To me this was all so confusing. I just knew that Mom shouldn’t have kissed someone else; my Dad shouldn’t have slept on the floor; and right now, Dad ought to be trying to protect Mom, not finding the whole thing amusing. I squirmed off Dad’s lap, walked over to that woman and kicked her as hard as I could, yelling for her to leave Mom alone. I heard Dad laughing even louder. But it worked because the strange woman left.
That winter, I noticed that my Mom was getting fatter and fatter. When winter was finished, my Mom got so sick from being fat she had to go away to the hospital. One of our aunties came to stay with us. She and Dad would sit around joking and drinking their medicine. I used to wonder how come they all drank this medicine yet no one ever got better. Another thing, they couldn’t all be sick like Mom and Dad, could they? So one evening while Dad and Auntie Eva were busy playing cards, I picked up his glass and took a quick swallow before he could stop me. It burned my mouth and my throat and made me cough and choke. I spit it out as fast as I could. It was purely awful and I was even more puzzled as to why they all seemed to enjoy taking it. I felt so sorry for them and I was real glad I wasn’t sick.
When my mother came back, she wasn’t as fat as when she left. The snow was all gone, too. We celebrated my sixth birthday and one of my presents was a book. I took it with me everywhere. There was talk of my going to school in the fall. I didn’t know what reading and printing were like but I was very curious about it. I looked forward to school. I promised Cheryl I would teach her reading and printing as soon as I knew how. But for the time being, I would pretend to read to Cheryl and as I turned the pages of my book like Mom did, I would make up stories to match the pictures in the book.
A few weeks later, we came home from a day’s ramblings to find a real live baby in Mom’s arms. Mom was rocking it and singing a soft melody to it. I asked, “Where did it come from?”
“The hospital. She was very sick. She’s your new little sister, Anna.”
“Will she have to take that medicine? It tastes awful,” I said, pitying the baby for being sick.
“No, she drinks milk. The nurse came this morning and helped me prepare some,” Mom answered. Then she turned to me and asked, “And how do you know that our medicine tastes awful?”
I looked her in the eye and assessed that she wasn’t angry with me. She even seemed humored by my slip of the tongue. “Aw Mom, I just wanted to see what it tasted like.”
“Well, it’s for grown-ups only,” she said. I knew from the way she talked that she hadn’t taken any medicine so far. I hoped that from now on, she wouldn’t have to take it anymore. I studied the baby for a while. It was so tiny and wrinkled. I decided I’d much rather play with Cheryl anytime.
That summer, Cheryl and I spent whole days at the park. I would make us sandwiches of bread and lard so we wouldn’t have to walk back home in the middle of the day. That’s when it seemed the hottest. We played on the swings and slides and in the sandbox as long as they weren’t being used by the other children. We would build sandcastles and install caterpillars and ladybugs in them. If the other children were there we would stay apart from them and watch the man mow the park lawns, enjoying the smell of the fresh-cut grass and the sound from the motor of the lawn-mower. Sometimes the droning noise lulled Cheryl to sleep and I would sit by her, to wait for her to wake up.
There were two different groups of children that went to the park. One group was the brown-skinned children who looked like Cheryl in most ways. Some of them even came over to our house with their parents. But they were dirty-looking and they dressed in real raggedy clothes. I didn’t care to play with them at all. The other group was fair-skinned and I used to envy them, especially the girls with blond hair and blue eyes. They seemed so clean and fresh, and reminded me of flowers. Once I was up close to one as she was busily putting me down. I could smell the crisp newness of her cotton dress and it made me think of one of those quaint little houses in my book where the front door could open on top like a window and the home was surrounded by hedges and flowers and neatly-kept lawns.
Some of them were freckled but they didn’t seem to mind. To me, I imagined they were very rich and lived in big, beautiful houses. I wondered what their lives were like and I
wished we could play with them. But they didn’t care to play with Cheryl and me. They just called us names and bullied us.
We were ignored completely only when both groups were at the park. Then they were busy yelling names at each other. I always thought that the fair-skinned group had the upper hand in name-calling. Of course, I didn’t know what ‘Jew’ or the other names meant. Cheryl was too young to realize anything and she was usually happy-go-lucky.
Our free, idle days with our family came to an abrupt end one summer afternoon. We came home and there were some cars in front of our house. One had flashing red lights on it and I knew it was a police car. When we entered the house, Mom was sitting at the table, openly weeping right in front of all the strangers. There were empty medicine bottles on the small counter and the table. I couldn’t figure out why the four people were there. A nice-smelling woman knelt down to talk to me.
“My name is Mrs. Grey. I bet you’re April, aren’t you? And this little girl must be Cheryl.” She put her hand on Cheryl’s head in a friendly gesture, but I didn’t trust her.
I nodded that we were April and Cheryl but I kept my eyes on my mother. Finally, I asked, “Why is Mom crying? Did you hurt her?”
“No, dear, your mother is ill and she won’t be able to take care of you anymore. Would you like to go for a car ride?” the woman asked.
My eyes lit up with interest. We’d been in a taxi a few times, and it had been a lot of fun. But then I thought of Baby Anna. I looked around for her. “Where’s Anna?”
“Anna’s sick,” the woman answered. “She’s gone to the hospital. Don’t worry, we’ll take you for a ride to a nice clean place. You and Cheryl, okay?”
That was not okay. I wanted to stay here. “We can stay with Daddy. He will take care of us. You can go away now,” I said. It was all settled.
But Mrs. Grey said in a gentle voice, “I’m afraid not, honey. We have to take you and Cheryl with us. Maybe if your Mommy and Daddy get well enough, you can come to live with them again.”
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