by Glenn Taylor
On this day, like most, it was Goldie whom she sighted. But behind her, striding in a manner that Sallie recalled from even his first steps, was her Abraham. She watched him stop at the grass bald and talk to Goldie. She watched him lean against a skinny poplar tree and clean his boot tread with a bark chip. She closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and looked through the long scope once more to be sure. Then she set the rifle against the sign and walked into the yard to wait for him.
She held her hairpins in her teeth while she tightened the gray bun up top. She wiped at her leaking eyes and sniffed. With her shoe tip, she loosed a small rock from the dirt. She bent and picked it up, and thought on heaving it at Abe when he came into distance.
Goldie told Abe she’d meet him inside and went around to the back.
He surveyed the house as he came, the way it was stuck into the hill as if dropped there from above. One of the corner boards was loose, and there was a bird’s nest in a second-story sill. Through the glass up there, Abe made out the shape of a seated man.
When he got close enough, he stopped and raised a hand to his mother. She kept hers on her hips for a moment, then waved him to come on. He did, stopping only when he was close enough to touch her.
She worked her lips together and stared at him with eyes whose color knew no name. “Well,” she said. “I don’t know whether to hit you or hold you to me.”
“I’m only thankful you didn’t shoot me with that long gun there.” He nodded at the sign.
She smiled despite herself. “Your brother mounted a telescope on that rifle of his. If I’d wanted to, I might have shot you clear through before you hit the property line.”
“You’d have been justified.”
“Let me feel you,” she said, and they hugged one another close and hard and Sallie let out a long, throated breath with her eyes shut tight, and Abe knew how bad he’d hurt her, and she knew, by the way he held on to her, that he was sorry to have done it. When they let go, she said she reckoned he was hungry. He nodded that he was, for he couldn’t speak.
Her skirt was the same limp gray rag she’d worn all her life, and he watched her pull it up between thumb and finger as she ascended the porch stairs, her movements true as her attire. He followed her inside. The smell was one he recollected—salt pork and beans, and behind that, ammonia. Sallie went to the kitchen and Abe stood alone in the hallway regarding the old sideboard stacked in paper and junk and a pitcher of dead flowers. A greasy-coated calico cat lay on its side underneath, licking a front paw, its eye on Abe. He bent and held out a finger. The cat stood, stretched, and went for a spindle leg on the sideboard. It worked the wood with its claws, tearing off splinters. All six legs bore the marks. “You like whittlin?” Abe asked the cat, and then every little muscle in its body electrified before it tore off down the hall, for it had seen Sallie emerge from the kitchen with a glass of water in hand.
“I soaked her on Tuesday,” Sallie said. She walked back to the kitchen. It did not seem real that her middle boy had appeared, that she could speak to him on everyday things, that she could reach out and touch him.
Abe was about to inquire on the whereabouts of his daddy when there was a smacking sound from above, and little Ben appeared at the stairhead. He wore only a loose-pinned diaper. Abe took note of his complexion and his furrowed brow. The boy had a look about him of a shrunken old-timer. “Hello little man,” he called.
Ben was not yet fully stable on his feet. He glared at Abe. He grunted at him. And then he took another step. “Whoa now,” Abe said, and he positioned a foot on the riser and readied himself to charge up the flight if he had to.
But he didn’t. Agnes ran forth from the upstairs hall and got the baby under the arms. She swung him up and held him tight against her, asked him just what he thought he was doing.
Ben stuck his finger in her eye.
She squinted tight to ease the blow. “Eye,” she told him. “Say eye.”
“Hello,” Abe called again.
“Hello.” She looked at him sideways. “Who are you?”
He thought on how to answer. “I’m Abe,” he said.
“Uncle Abe?” she asked.
It knocked him back a little, hearing her call him by such a name. “That’s right,” he said.
Baby Ben worked to get loose of her and she ignored his struggling, accustomed to the wrangle. She raised her voice over his grunts. “I can read books meant for old people,” she said.
“Is that right?”
Sallie hollered from the kitchen. “Aggie! You take my biscuit roller?”
“Yes ma’am,” the girl hollered back. She’d been killing ants with it on the back stoop all morning, a dozen or more at a roll.
Sallie walked from the kitchen and stood next to Abe. She used her teeth to scrape dough off her thumb. “You be careful with him on those stairs,” she told the girl. She leaned close to Abe and said, “You remember Agnes?”
He nodded that he did.
“She believes herself capable of anything.”
“How old is she?”
“I’m seven,” she answered, careful to keep her eye on the step below as she came, Ben clutched in one arm, stair rail in the other.
“And that’s Benjamin,” Sallie said. “He came to us last year. Turned one in December.” She took the boy from Agnes, who stood on the bottom stair breathing heavy and shaking out her arm. Sallie held Benjamin up for Abe to see. “He’s a catbird,” she said. “Smart as a switch.”
“He’s a shade darker isn’t he?” Abe said.
“Yes he is,” his mother answered.
“Ain’t I smart as a switch?” Agnes asked.
“Smarter,” Sallie told her. “More like a horsewhip.”
The girl smiled and pushed her tongue through the new gap in her teeth. She looked at Abe. “You want me to read to you?”
“Well,” Abe said. “You could read a little—”
“What’s your favorite book?”
“Well, I—”
“Mine’s Fuz-Buz the Fly. You want me to read it to you?” She didn’t wait for an answer. Halfway up the staircase, she stopped her full-speed ascent and turned back to him. She said, “You want me to take you to see Uncle Jake?”
He nodded that he did.
Agnes said, “He’s dying.”
Sallie went to the kitchen with the baby.
Abe started up the stairs. The girl waited on him and held out her hand and he took it.
The air inside the room was foul. An infectious scent from someplace inside bone. Jake lay on his side, swollen as a tick at the wrists, a pillow between his black fingers. The skin at his neck was mottled a purple constellation. A blanket was gathered around his knees.
Agnes said she’d be across the hall if he needed her.
Abe went to the bedside.
He looked at his brother. The eyes were motionless under the lids.
For a time, when Abe was five and his mother could not get out of bed, he was beset by a brand of nightmares no child should possess. Al had hired a woman in town to take care of the boys while he tended to Sallie, and for a month, all three boys lived in the rooms above the saloon. Abe would awake in the night scarcely able to breathe from what he’d seen behind his eyelids. It made him feel better to walk down the hall and stand at little Sam’s crib and listen for the sound of his breath. He did so nightly for three weeks. Once, Jake too had awakened and followed his younger brother. He watched Abe watch the baby. “What are you doing?” Jake had whispered, and it startled Abe, electrified his pores. He didn’t answer. Jake walked to him and took him by the hand and led him past the sleeping woman and back down the hall to his bed. He tucked the scrap square quilt around Abe’s shoulders. He told him, “Some folks say prayers when they go to sleep.”
“Do you?” Abe asked him.
“No.” There were still a couple patrons in the saloon below their floorboards. One of them shouted to another that he wanted a dozen fried eggs. “Go back to sleep,
” Jake had told his younger brother. Then he got in bed and put his pillow over his head.
Abe had shut his eyes then and tried to think of a prayer. He didn’t know any.
Now here was Jake, asleep with his eyes still as could be, painted in the onset of death’s shallow hue. Abe thought momentarily of putting a pillow over his head and holding it down.
He cried. And then he did not.
He put his hand to the side of Jake’s face and told him goodbye.
Goldie came in the room. “I’ll sit with him awhile,” she said.
They brushed against each other by the doorway, and he nearly pulled her to him.
Out in the hall, he pressed his ear to the closed door of the front bedroom. A man on the other side cleared his throat. Abe thought he could hear a pen scratching paper.
In the kitchen, Sallie cut her rolled-out biscuit dough with a musket-cap tin. When they’d all been cut, she watched the yard outside the window where a single-file line of chickens high-stepped a faint path. She’d told Al to kill one for supper, and she suspected he’d forgotten. For three days, he’d kept to the second house as much as ten hours at a time. His shop was in the living room there.
Agnes sat at the table and read to herself, her posture stooped, her lips forming whispered syllables to conjure in her mind the cannibalism of infants and proper women.
Abe had come down the stairs. He stood in the kitchen doorway. He watched Agnes read, and he watched his mother stare out the window. Baby Ben held her by the knee, his feet on top of hers. “Who is that up in the big bedroom?” he asked.
Sallie held her gaze out the window. “He’s our boarder at present,” she said.
“Just one?”
“Things have changed.” She shooed Ben, opened the oven door with the hem of her skirt, and slid in the biscuits. “It’ll be awhile on the chicken. Go on over to the second house and see your daddy,” she said. “He’ll be in there working.”
Al Baach hummed Yankee Doodle while he worked. He had a boot upside down on his iron stand. He was putting in new ball calks.
Abe watched him through the living room window, stooped over the workbench. His backside rested on a tall barstool. He wore a black canvas kippah on the crown of his head and his hair was unruly and streaked in gray.
Abe tapped on the window. When his father turned and saw him there, he dropped his pincers to the floor and put his hand to his mouth.
Inside, Al Baach held his middle boy and cried.
It was something Abe had never seen him do before.
Then, just as quick as he’d started, he wiped his eyes and picked up his pincers. He groaned when he bent. He sat back against his stool and twisted another calk into the boot sole.
The smell of leather cement was heavy. Al’s back was wide and his posture old. A cane leaned against the leg of the workbench.
“I heard about your knee,” Abe said.
“You go and see Jake?”
“Yes.”
“You say goodbye to him?”
“Yes.” It was quiet save the groan of the floor under Al’s stool and the cold twisting of his little spikes into place. Abe stepped closer to watch him work. “Cork boots?” he said. “You takin up logging on a bad knee?”
Al looked over his shoulder wide-eyed. “These boots?” he said. “These boots I am making for Mr. Henry Trent so he can better step on us and kill us with a thousand tiny wounds.” He scratched his head with the pincers and turned back to his work.
“I’ve never seen you wear a skull cap before.”
“Yes, my smoking cap.” Al said. “The wife of my Lithuanian friend make it for me. You like it?”
Abe didn’t say one way or the other before Al continued.
“I still don’t go to synagogue, but my head stays warm in the cold.” And he turned again to his son, and with the pincers he lifted the kippah and bowed his head. “You see?” he asked. “You see how it is to get old?”
Abe could see the scalp through long strings of hair.
Al dropped the cap back on his head. He took the boot off the iron stand and looked into the black open throat. He set down the pincers and said, “Your mother talks to me at night when she thinks I am sleeping.” He picked up an awl and pushed at something inside. “In the morning I tell her I agree with everything she said. And I do. Women are smarter than men, Abraham. We should have had you boys in synagogue, in a church, doesn’t matter. Friday, Saturday, Sunday, doesn’t matter.”
“You always said they didn’t want you there.”
“I always said what I always said.” He coughed and spat in a wastebasket. He asked, “You still are keeping your money in your shoes?”
“Some of it.”
He dropped the awl in the boot and threw it on the workbench. “My hands hurt,” he said. Then he picked up the bottle of leather cement. There was a picture of a white sperm whale on the label. He uncorked it, put his nose over the opening, and snorted twice. He sat back and smiled and held out the bottle to Abe, who passed on the offer. Al asked him, “Do they tell you I have rats in the attic these days?”
Abe shook his head no.
“Well,” Al said, “Mr. Henry Trent has more rats than me.”
It was quiet.
From the corner of his eye, Abe saw them coming across the yard. Goldie carried Ben, and Agnes followed.
He went out to the porch and stepped off the crooked stones, and he met them in the high grass.
Goldie had been with Jake when he’d ceased to breathe. “It was peaceful,” she said.
Al stepped onto the porch and looked at them. He leaned on his cane. “Is someone with him now?” he asked.
“Yes,” Goldie said.
“What time did he die?” Al asked. He’d put the table clock in the room and told them all to keep it wound.
“Half past three,” Goldie said.
Al nodded. He thought it a good hour. A strong number. He said to Goldie, “Please go and tell my wife that I will be there in five minutes to wash him.”
Little Agnes put her face to Goldie’s skirt front. Her shoulders shook from the sobs.
Al leaned his cane against the porch post and wiped his hands on his apron front. “Abraham,” he said, “follow me.”
He’d built a pine box coffin the day before.
It was sitting across two sawhorses under a shed roof that jutted from the house’s rear. Al untied his apron and tossed it on the coffin. He said, “I use your brother’s tools to make it.” He pointed to the sawhorses. “Your brother make these trestles,” he said. He pointed above their heads. “And this roof.” He pointed to the woods’ edge, where long two-by-fours sprouted plumb at the sky. “And the foundation of a cathedral.”
Abe regarded the empty chapel husk. Hung head-high from an upright was a sun-bleached signboard. In wide black paint-strokes it proclaimed: Church of the Free Thinkers of the Merciful Enthroned.
“His friend helps him with the foundation,” Al said. “Strange man from Italy, no English. Thinks and builds like Jake, now they say he shoots him.” He put his hand on the coffin top and rubbed for smoothness. He said, “Couple weeks ago, Jake makes a trade for a new ripsaw, and the other man throws in these pine boards. No charge.” He shook his head. “He was going to make a pulpit. He draws a plan and show me.” Al made circles in the air with his finger. “The pulpit would have wheels, to take on the streets.”
Abe only listened, and the words sounded on the air as if uttered by some other man’s father, a stranger who spoke of the tools and creations of some other man’s dead brother.
“Your brother make this cane for me,” Al said, and he held it forth. It was lacquered hickory with a high silver band. Just above the band was a tiny silver button. “Mechanical.” He pressed the button and a catch inside the shaft released with a tiny sound. The cane was no longer one but two, no longer a cane but a sword and scabbard. Al unsheathed it. The blade was fashioned from a broken-hilted bayonet. “Everybody says your brot
her was a lunatic after he choke that day. They say it because he stand in the streets and tell them there will come a drought, a hurrycane, a blazing fire, a comet, a more terrible influenza.” He punctuated his words with the up-pointed sword and scabbard. “He says over and over again—It will come swift. He says it will spare no women nor children nor beast. It will end them same as it does the sinning man.”
Abe worked his jaw and thought of the man in the flophouse doorway.
Al made his cane a cane again. He leaned on it and turned to the coffin. “No one can understand the brain,” he said. “But your brother makes beautiful things.” He bent and blew a little mound of sawdust from the coffin top. “I don’t get the handles on it in time,” he said. He’d meant to put eight holes in and knot some rope.
Abe said, “You think Trent had him shot?”
Al didn’t answer. There was an eastward wind in the treetops, and a branch scratched across the shed roof above them. He sighed. Then he said, “I can know the weather by my bad knee.”
Abe looked up at the rafters. There was an abandoned bird’s nest at the corner joist.
Al regarded the scar on his middle boy’s face. He looked him in the eyes. He said, “Your mother wants you to take everything from the man who shoots your brother. Everything.” He worked his lips and kept down all that wanted to come out. He said, “She wants to move then to seashore.”
Neither spoke.
Al turned and patted the coffin. “Empty, it isn’t heavy,” he said. “You and I carry it to the room. Samuel will be here in an hour.”
Al and Sallie had decided they would bury Jake in the Hood family plot up the hollow. They had not asked her father’s permission, for they agreed it wouldn’t matter.
There was no preacher and there was no rabbi. Only the family, and they put Jake in the ground as quickly as Sam and Abe could heft him into the wagon and steer the mare to the circled iron gates, spear-tipped and listing on the overgrown slope.
Abe and Sam wore no gloves to shovel. Blisters filled and opened, peeled back and burned.
Agnes went off alone in the hillside field, and when they’d refilled and patted flat the earth, she set down three handfuls of blue phlox. One for Jake, yet unmarked by a headstone, and one each for the Baach babies who had not lived. Infant Son and Infant Daughter, the little tablets read.
