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by Шарлотта Мэри Йондж


  Very different this from Tom's chosen associates; but he was still obdurate, sullen, and angry, and would not speak, nor open his heart to those kind words. After one more, "I could not help it, Tom, you've no business to be sulky," Norman took up the bottle, opened it, smelled, and tasted, and was about to throw it into the river; when Tom exclaimed, "Oh, don't, don't! what will they do to me? give it to me!"

  "Did they give you the money to pay for it?"

  "Yes; let me have it."

  "How much was it?"

  "Fourpence."

  "I'll settle that," and the bottle splashed in the river. "Now then, Tom, don't brood on it any more. Here's a chance for you of getting quit of their errands. If you will keep in my sight. I'll take care no one bullies you, and you may still leave off these disgraceful tricks, and do well."

  But Tom's evil spirit whispered that Norman had beaten him, that he should never have any diversion again, and that Anderson would punish him; and there was a sort of satisfaction in seeing that his perverse silence really distressed his brother.

  "If you will go on in this way, I can't help it, but you'll be sorry some day," said Norman, and he walked thoughtfully on, looking back to see whether Tom was following, as he did slowly, meditating on the way how he should avert his tyrant's displeasure.

  Norman stood for a moment at the door, surveying the court, then walked up to a party of boys, and laid his hand on the shoulder of one, holding a silver fourpence to him. "Anderson Junior," said he, "there's your money. I am not going to let Stoneborough School be turned into a gin palace. I give you notice, it is not to be. Now you are not to bully May junior for telling me. He did not, I found him out."

  Leaving Anderson to himself he looked for Tom, but not seeing him, he entered the cloister, for it was the hour when he was used to read there, but he could not fix his mind. He went to the bench where he had lain on the examination day, and kneeling on it, looked out on the green grass where the graves were. "Mother! mother!" he murmured, "have I been harsh to your poor little tender sickly boy? I couldn't help it. Oh! if you were but here! We are all going wrong! What shall I do? How should Tom be kept from this evil?--it is ruining him! mean, false, cowardly, sullen--all that is worst--and your son--oh! mother! and all I do only makes him shrink more from me. It will break my father's heart, and you will not be there to comfort him."

  Norman covered his face with his hands, and a fit of bitter grief came over him. But his sorrow was now not what it had been before his father's resignation had tempered it, and soon it turned to prayer, resolution, and hope.

  He would try again to reason quietly with him, when the alarm of detection and irritation should have gone off, and he sought for the occasion; but, alas! Tom had learned to look on all reproof as "rowing," and considered it as an additional injury from a brother, who, according to the Anderson view, should have connived at his offences, and turned a deafened ear and dogged countenance to all he said. The foolish boy sought after the Andersons still more, and Norman became more dispirited about him, greatly missing Harry, that constant companion and follower, who would have shared his perplexities, and removed half of them, in his own part of the school, by the influence of his high, courageous, and truthful spirit.

  In the meantime Richard was studying hard at home, with greater hopefulness and vigour than he had ever thrown into his work before. "Suppose," Ethel had once said to him, "that when you are a clergyman, you could be Curate of Cocksmoor, when there is a church there."

  "When?" said Richard, smiling at the presumption of the scheme, and yet it formed itself into a sort of definite hope. Perhaps they might persuade Mr. Ramsden to take him as a curate with a view to Cocksmoor, and this prospect, vague as it was, gave an object and hope to his studies. Every one thought the delay of his examination favourable to him, and he now read with a determination to succeed. Dr. May had offered to let him read with Mr. Harrison but Richard thought he was getting on pretty well, with the help Norman gave him; for it appeared that ever since Norman's return from London,, he had been assisting Richard, who was not above being taught by a younger brother; while, on the other hand, Norman, much struck by his humility, would not for the world have published that he was fit to act as his elder's tutor.

  One evening, when the two boys came in from school, Tom gave a great start, and, pulling Mary by the sleeve, whispered, "How came that book here?"

  "It is Mr. Harrison's."

  "Yes, I know, but how came it here?"

  "Richard borrowed it to look out something, and Ethel brought it down."

  A little reassured, Tom took up an exciting story-book, and ensconced himself by the fire, but his agonies were great during the ensuing conversation.

  "Norman," Ethel was exclaiming in delight, "do you know this book?"

  "Smith? Yes, it is in the school library."

  "There's everything in it that one wants, I do believe. Here is such an account of ancient galleys--I never knew how they managed their banks of rowers before--oh! and the Greek houses--look at the pictures too."

  "Some of them are the same as Mr. Rivers's gems," said Norman, standing behind her, and turning the leaves, in search of a favourite.

  "Oh! what did I see? is that ink?" said Flora, from the opposite side of the table.

  "Yes, didn't you hear?" said Ethel. "Mr. Harrison told Ritchie when he borrowed it, that unluckily one day this spring he left it in school, and some of the boys must have upset an inkstand over it; but, though he asked them all round, each denied it. How I should hate for such things to happen! and it was a prize-book too."

  While Ethel spoke she opened the marked page, to show the extent of the calamity, and as she did so Mary exclaimed, "Dear me! how funny! why, how did Harry's blotting-paper get in there?"

  Tom shrank into nothing, set his teeth, and pinched his fingers, ready to wish they were on Mary's throat, more especially as the words made some sensation. Richard and Margaret exchanged looks, and their father, who had been reading, sharply raised his eyes and said, "Harry's blotting-paper! How do you know that, Mary?"

  "It is Harry's," said she, all unconscious, "because of that anchor up in one corner, and the Union Jack in the other. Don't you see, Ethel?"

  "Yes," said Ethel; "nobody drew that but Harry."

  "Ay, and there are his buttons," said Mary, much amused and delighted with these relics of her beloved Harry. "Don't you remember one day last holidays, papa desired Harry to write and ask Mr. Ernescliffe what clothes he ought to have for the naval school, and all the time he was writing the letter, he was drawing sailors' buttons on his blotting-paper. I wonder how ever it got into Mr. Harrison's book!"

  Poor Mary's honest wits did not jump to a conclusion quite so fast as other people's, and she little knew what she was doing when, as a great discovery, she exclaimed, "I know! Harry gave his paper-case to Tom. That's the way it got to school!"

  "Tom!" exclaimed his father, suddenly and angrily, "where are you going?"

  "To bed," muttered the miserable Tom, twisting his hands. A dead silence of consternation fell on all the room. Mary gazed from one to the other, mystified at the effect of her words, frightened at her father's loud voice, and at Tom's trembling confusion. The stillness lasted for some moments, and was first broken by Flora, as if she had caught at a probability. "Some one might have used the first blotting-paper that came to hand."

  "Come here, Tom," said the doctor, in a voice not loud, but trembling with anxiety; then laying his hand on his shoulder, "Look in my face." Tom hung his head, and his father put his hand under his chin, and raised the pale terrified face. "Don't be afraid to tell us the meaning of this. If any of your friends have done it, we will keep your secret. Look up, and speak out. How did your blotting- paper come there?"

  Tom had been attempting his former system of silent sullenness, but there was anger at Mary, and fear of his father to agitate him, and in his impatient despair at thus being held and questioned, he burst out into a violent fit of c
rying.

  "I can't have you roaring here to distress Margaret," said Dr. May. "Come into the study with me."

  But Tom, who seemed fairly out of himself, would not stir, and a screaming and kicking scene took place, before he was carried into the study by his brothers, and there left with his father. Mary, meantime, dreadfully alarmed, and perceiving that, in some way, she was the cause, had thrown herself upon Margaret, sobbing inconsolably, as she begged to know what was the matter, and why papa was angry with Tom--had she made him so?

  Margaret caressed and soothed her to the best of her ability, trying to persuade her that, if Tom had done wrong, it was better for him it should be known, and assuring her that no one could think her unkind, nor a tell-tale; then dismissing her to bed, and Mary was not unwilling to go, for she could not bear to meet Tom again, only begging in a whisper to Ethel, "that, if dear Tom had not done it, she would come and tell her."

  "I am afraid there is no hope of that!" sighed Ethel, as the door closed on Mary.

  "After all," said Flora, "he has not said anything. If he has only done it, and not confessed, that is not so bad--it is only the usual fashion of boys."

  "Has he been asked? Did he deny it?" said Ethel, looking in Norman's face, as if she hardly ventured to put the question, and she only received sorrowful signs as answers. At the same moment Dr. May called him. No one spoke. Margaret rested her head on the sofa, and looked very mournful, Richard stood by the fire without moving limb or feature, Flora worked fast, and Ethel leaned back on an arm-chair, biting the end of a paper-knife.

  The doctor and Norman came back together. "I have sent him up to bed," said Dr. May. "I must take him to Harrison to-morrow morning. It is a terrible business!"

  "Has he confessed it?" said Margaret.

  "I can hardly call such a thing a confession--I wormed it out bit by bit--I could not tell whether he was telling truth or not, till I called Norman in."

  "But he has not said anything more untrue--"

  "Yes, he has though!" said Dr. May indignantly. "He said Ned Anderson put the paper there, and had been taking up the ink with it- -'twas his doing--then when I came to cross-examine him I found that though Anderson did take up the ink, it was Tom himself who knocked it down--I never heard anything like it--I never could have believed it!"

  "It must all be Ned Anderson's doing!" cried Flora. "They are enough to spoil anybody."

  "I am afraid they have done him a great deal of harm," said Norman.

  "And what have you been about all the time?" exclaimed the doctor, too keenly grieved to be just. "I should have thought that with you at the head of the school, the child might have been kept out of mischief; but there have you been going your own way, and leaving him to be ruined by the very worst set of boys!"

  Norman's colour rose with the extreme pain this unjust accusation caused him, and his voice, though low, was not without irritation, "I have tried. I have not done as much as I ought, perhaps, but--"

  "No, I think not, indeed!" interrupted his father. "Sending a boy there, brought up as he had been, without the least tendency to deceit--"

  Here no one could see Norman's burning cheeks, and brow bent downwards in the effort to keep back an indignant reply, without bursting out in exculpation; and Richard looked up, while the three sisters all at once began, "Oh, no, no, papa"--and left Margaret to finish--"Poor little Tom had not always been quite sincere."

  "Indeed! and why was I left to send him to school without knowing it? The place of all others to foster deceit."

  "It was my fault, papa," said Margaret.

  "And mine," put in Richard; and she continued, "Ethel told us we were very wrong, and I wish we had followed her advice. It was by far the best, but we were afraid of vexing you."

  "Every one seems to have been combined to hide what they ought not!" said Dr. May, though speaking to her much more softly than to Norman, to whom he turned angrily again. "Pray, how came you not to identify this paper?"

  "I did not know it," said Norman, speaking with difficulty. "He ought never to have been sent to school," said the doctor--"that tendency was the very worst beginning."

  "It was a great pity; I was very wrong," said Margaret, in great concern.

  "I did not mean to blame you, my dear," said her father affectionately. "I know you only meant to act for the best, but-- "and he put his hand over his face, and then came the sighing groan, which pained Margaret ten thousand times more than reproaches, and which, in an instant, dispersed all the indignation burning within Norman, though the pain remained at his father's thinking him guilty of neglect, but he did not like, at that moment, to speak in self- justification.

  After a short space, Dr. May desired to hear what were the deceptions to which Margaret had alluded, and made Norman tell what he knew of the affair of the blotted book. Ethel spoke hopefully when she had heard it. "Well, do you know, I think be will do better now. You see, Edward made him conceal it, and he has been going on with it on his mind, and in that boy's power ever since; but now it is cleared up and confessed, he will begin afresh and do better. Don't you think so, Norman? don't you, papa?"

  "I should have more hope if I had seen anything like confession or repentance," said Dr. May; "but that provoked me more than all--I could only perceive that he was sorry to be found out, and afraid of punishment."

  "Perhaps, when he has recovered the first fright, he will come to his better self," said Margaret; for she guessed, what indeed was the case, that the doctor's anger on this first shock of the discovery of the fault he most abhorred had been so great, that a fearful cowering spirit would be completely overwhelmed; and, as there had been no sorrow shown for the fault, there had been none of that softening and relenting that won so much love and confidence.

  Every one felt that talking only made them more unhappy, they tried to return to their occupations, and so passed the time till night. Then, as Richard was carrying Margaret upstairs, Norman lingered to say, "Papa, I am very sorry you should think I neglected Tom. I dare say I might have done better for him, but, indeed, I have tried."

  "I am sure you have, Norman. I spoke hastily, my boy--you will not think more of it. When a thing like this comes on a man, he hardly knows what he says."

  "If Harry were here," said Norman, anxious to turn from the real loss and grief, as well as to talk away that feeling of being apologised to, "it would all do better. He would make a link with Tom, but I have so little, naturally, to do with the second form, that it is not easy to keep him in sight."

  "Yes, yes, I know that very well. It is no one's fault but my own; I should not have sent him there without knowing him better. But you see how it is, Norman--I have trusted to her, till I have grown neglectful, and it is well if it is not the ruin of him!"

  "Perhaps he will take a turn, as Ethel says," answered Norman cheerfully. "Good-night, papa."

  "I have a blessing to be thankful for in you, at least," murmured the doctor to himself. "What other young fellow of that age and spirit would have borne so patiently with my injustice? Not I, I am sure! a fine father I show myself to these poor children--neglect, helplessness, temper--Oh, Maggie!"

  Margaret had so bad a headache the next day that she could not come downstairs. The punishment was, they heard, a flogging at the time, and an imposition so long, that it was likely to occupy a large portion of the play-hours till the end of the half-year. His father said, and Norman silently agreed, "a very good thing, it will keep him out of mischief;" but Margaret only wished she could learn it for him, and took upon herself all the blame from beginning to end. She said little to her father, for it distressed him to see her grieved; he desired her not to dwell on the subject, caressed her, called her his comfort and support, and did all he could to console her, but it was beyond his power; her sisters, by listening to her, only made her worse. "Dear, dear papa," she exclaimed, "how kind he is! But he can never depend upon me again--I have been the ruin of my poor little Tom."

  "Well," said Richard q
uietly, "I can't see why you should put yourself into such a state about it."

  This took Margaret by surprise. "Have not I done very wrong, and perhaps hurt Tom for life?"

  "I hope not," said Richard. "You and I made a mistake, but it does not follow that Tom would have kept out of this scrape, if we had told my father our notion."

  "It would not have been on my conscience," said Margaret--"he would not have sent him to school."

  "I don't know that," said Richard. "At any rate we meant to do right, and only made a mistake. It was unfortunate, but I can't tell why you go and make yourself ill, by fancying it worse than it is. The boy has done very wrong, but people get cured of such things in time, and it is nonsense to fret as if he were not a mere child of eight years old. You did not teach him deceit."

  "No, but I concealed it--papa is disappointed, when he thought he could trust me."

  "Well! I suppose no one could expect never to make mistakes," said Richard, in his sober tone.

  "Self-sufficiency!" exclaimed Margaret, "that has been the root of all! Do you know, Ritchie, I believe I was expecting that I could always judge rightly."

  "You generally do," said Richard; "no one else could do half what you do."

  "So you have said, papa, and all of you, till you have spoilt me. I have thought it myself, Ritchie."

  "It is true," said Richard.

  "But then," said Margaret, "I have grown to think much of it, and not like to be interfered with. I thought I could manage by myself, and when I said I would not worry papa, it was half because I liked the doing and settling all about the children myself. Oh! if it could have been visited in any way but by poor Tom's faults!"

  "Well," said Richard, "if you felt so, it was a pity, though I never should have guessed it. But you see you will never feel so again, and as Tom is only one, and there are nine to govern, it is all for the best."

  His deliberate common-sense made her laugh a little, and she owned he might be right. "It is a good lesson against my love of being first. But indeed it is difficult--papa can so little bear to be harassed."

 

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