The Hell-Raiser : Men Out of Uniform Book 5

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by Rhonda Russell


  Anonymity.

  He didn’t know who she was. The woman who he’d been exchanging correspondence with was the Mysterious Ms. X--his nickname for her made her smile--not Natalie Rowland, home town girl, little brother’s close friend and, most damningly, bride’s maid at his ill-fated wedding.

  Honestly, there had many times in her life when she’d seriously questioned her own judgment--using self-tanning lotion the night before Senior Prom (orange was not her color), allowing Adam to talk her into attaching a “Wide Load” sign onto the back of the high school principal’s car (detention) and more recently, trying to make s’mores in the oven rather than the traditional way around a camp fire (huge mess,) but allowing her father to talk her into agreeing to be one of Sabrina’s bride’s maid’s by far took the Stupid Trophy. As her cousin, even though she’d never particularly liked her, at the end of the day it would have been bad form to refuse.

  In short, she’d really had no choice.

  Despite the fact that she and Sabrina had never been close and she’d had no idea until Adam had told her that Sabrina had been having an affair, Natalie suspected she would always be guilty by association. Frankly, he hadn’t looked at her the same way since. On the rare but wonderful occasions she’d seen him since he’d always been a bit...distant. Removed.

  But better distant and removed than married to Sabrina, Natalie thought, remembering the abject heartache she’d suffered as a result of his original proposal to her shallow relation. Devastated didn’t begin to cover how she’d felt. Broken, ruined and beyond repair was a more accurate description. Though she knew that he’d been humiliated and hurt, Natalie had silently rejoiced when Sabrina had canceled the wedding. And she’d been equally happy when Sabrina had moved to Nashville to pursue her dream of becoming a country music star last year, Natalie thought, remembering her cousin’s horrible warble.

  “You okay?” he asked. A smile flirted with the corners of his lips. “You’re looking a little green.”

  Adam, damn him, was well-acquainted with her nervous stomach tendencies, but she’d eat glass before she’d admit that anything was wrong. She blinked innocently. “No, I’m fine.”

  He studied her for a minute. “I’m glad he’s getting a break,” Adam finally remarked, tossing another card down. They’d played every day since he’d gotten home--Tonk, of course, because it had always been their game of choice. “His tour is up in a couple of months, but the time away will help him decompress.”

  “That bad, eh?” she asked, wincing softly.

  Adam swallowed and one of those rare but fleeting grim looks came over his handsome face. “It’s war, sweetheart. It ain’t ever pretty.”

  She knew that. Still... Rather than ask questions she knew he didn’t want to answer, Natalie hummed under her breath and played another card.

  “Of course, I expect he’ll have his hands full trying to find out who his mystery woman is,” he said. Looking decidedly smug, he leaned back in his chair and absently scratched his chest.

  Meanwhile her heart threatened to pound through hers. “Oh?” she croaked. “What mystery woman?” Find her? Find her? What in sweet hell was she going to do? What now, girl genius?

  “That’s the question. Levi’s been getting letters from home from a woman for months now.” He snorted. “Of course the bastard wouldn’t let me read them, but I can tell he’s pretty damned intrigued by her.” He slid her a sly smile. “Interestingly, I noticed that Levi’s letters were coming on the same days I’d get one from you.”

  Oh, shit. Her gaze darted to his and she licked her suddenly dry lips. “You know how the mail is,” she said with an airy wave of her hand, cutting the line on his fishing expedition.

  Adam considered her long enough to make her want to squirm. “I suppose,” he finally remarked. “Still, I do find it a bit odd.”

  He could find it as odd as he wanted to so long as he didn’t know, Natalie thought, struggling to bring her heart rate back into a regular rhythm. Geez Lord, she’d be mortified. Particularly if Adam ever read any of the letters.

  They were quite...graphic.

  When she’d first decided to start writing Levi, she’d had no idea when she’d initially put pen to paper that she was going to write about her actual dreams and fantasies. She’d just seen a particularly grisly newscast on the war in Iraq and even though the idea that Levi and Adam might not come home had always hovered in the very back of her mind, for whatever reason--the images, the footage--had suddenly made her intensely aware of their mortality.

  Her larger-than-life, indomitable friends, badass soldiers...could die.

  The realization had rattled her to the core and she’d decided then and there that she wouldn’t let another sun set without letting them know how she felt. Furthermore, she’d been under the mistaken impression that by writing the letters to Levi, she could somehow exorcise him from her heart. In theory the logic had seemed sound. In execution, it had only made her more intensely aware of how much--how very deeply--she cared for him. And when he’d started writing her back... Well, she’d been done for, hadn’t she?

  The letters she’d written to Adam had kept him abreast of things happening at home, had been filled with jokes and trivia questions, but more importantly, with appreciation of their friendship and the sacrifice he was making for their country.

  The letters she’d written to Levi, anonymously, of course, had been filled with the deepest desires of her heart. And part of the deepest desires of her heart involved the deepest desire of her flesh.

  Hers on his, specifically.

  An uneven breath stuttered out of her mouth and in that instant Levi McPherson strolled around the corner, effectively snatching what little air was left in her lungs. Her body went into a full-on tingle that encompassed every inch of skin from head to toe. She should be used to it by now--it happened every time she saw him--but somehow the sensation always managed to catch her off guard.

  Dressed simply in camouflage and black combat boots, a lazy smile rolling around his unusually sensual lips, he was the epitome of a true soldier. Courage, confidence and valor were inherent in the way he moved, the shape of his jaw, the noble line of his brow. Broad, competent shoulders, muscled forearms, a lean tapered waist and long legs rounded out a physique that commanded attention and respect. In short, he was damned fine and her belly filled with warm bubbly air just looking at him. Her nipples gave a quick tingle and a wave of heat washed over her thighs. In an instant, every wicked, depraved scenario she’d written to him reeled through her mind. Warm, naked skin. Muscles bunching beneath her fingertips, his hot mouth feasting between her thighs...

  Dimly she watched his parents follow in his wake as he made determined strides to Adam.

  A broad smile lighting his face, Adam grabbed his crutches and started to stand.

  “You don’t have to get up,” Levi told him. She melted inside at the mere sound of his voice.

  “The hell I don’t,” Adam shot back, easily maneuvering himself onto his leg. “I’m not some little old grandma who’s going to settle for a one-armed hug.” Keeping one crutch tucked up under his arm, he nevertheless wrapped both hard around his brother and, laughing, squeezed. The boys had always shared a special bond, and never was that more evident than right now.

  Natalie stood awkwardly, feeling curiously out of place. The backs of her eyes burned, watching them, and a quick look at Sharon--their mother--confirmed that she was tearing up as well. Even the General appeared a bit choked up as he looked away and cleared his throat.

  “Damn, it’s good to see you, little bro,” Levi said, drawing back to get a better look at Adam.

  “I told you when I left that I’d be fine. You might be older--“ He frowned and pretended to peer more closely at Levi’s light brown hair. “--but that doesn’t mean that you’re the wiser. Is that a gray hair, old man?”

  Levi grinned and a bit of relief clung to that smile. “Still a smart ass I see.”

  “My s
ense of humor wasn’t in my leg. Ya’ll have got to stop making a fuss. I’m fine,” he insisted, sitting back down. And he could insist all he wanted to, but nobody was going to believe him. That perpetual smile he wore didn’t quite reach his eyes and a weariness he couldn’t altogether shake hung around his shoulders. “I’ll have a brand new kick-ass leg in a few weeks and if everything goes according to plan, I’ll be back with my guys, finishing what we’ve started.”

  Natalie noticed Sharon send her husband a furtive look. Obviously his mother didn’t approve of that plan. Not that she could blame her, but...

  Setting her cards down on the table, Natalie rubbed her suddenly damp hands against her cut-off jeans. “I should be going,” she said, not wanting to intrude anymore upon their homecoming. She couldn’t believe Adam had kept this from her. She wouldn’t have come over had she known Levi was coming home today.

  Levi’s unusual toffee-colored gaze finally swung to hers, inadvertently making her body feel like it had been plunged into a furnace. A beat slid to three, then a flicker of something which looked impossibly like interest flared in those golden orbs, momentarily making her pulse trip.

  But it was what she didn’t see that gave her the most relief--he didn’t know she was his Mysterious Ms. X.

  Or at least, not yet.

  “Natalie,” he said. To her instant shock and intense delight, he hugged her.

  He’d never hugged her.

  Big, hard and lean, his starched shirt beneath her cheek, it was all she could do to keep from melting all over him. Sweet, wicked sensation bolted through her and she barely suppressed a whimper. In his arms, at last, even innocently, was a little dream come true.

  And Lord help her how she wanted more.

  “It’s been a long time,” he said, drawing back. Those keen eyes found hers once more and again she thought she saw a perplexing flash of awareness in his gaze. Her pulse tripped and she felt her heart give a little jump.

  Nah, she thought. It couldn’t be.

  She stepped out of his embrace and a wobbly smile faltered over her lips. Wishful thinking, she told herself. Clearly all those letters had fostered a false sense of intimacy. The letters that would stop if he found out she’d written them. Somehow she had to keep him from learning her identity. She had no idea how, of course, but he couldn’t learn the truth. It would ruin their so-called relationship and she wasn’t willing to give it up. At least, not yet. She wasn’t ready.

  Truth be told, she would never be ready, but...

  “You don’t have to go,” Adam protested. “We’re just going to hang around here.” He nodded to Levi’s boat, nestled against the dock. “Might even take The Sabrina out for a spin after while.”

  Levi’s jaw flexed and he shot his little brother an annoyed look. “Second order of business,” he said. “Rename the damned boat.”

  Adam frowned, intrigued. “What’s the first order of business?”

  “None of yours,” he answered mysteriously. His gaze jumped back to hers. “But he’s right.” He jerked his head toward the boat. “The General’s had her serviced for me. We’re going to take her out this evening if you’d like to come along.”

  Was he asking because Adam had invited her? Natalie wondered, tempted. “I’ve got to put in some time in the studio today,” she said, hesitating.

  As a driftwood artist, she pretty much set her own hours, but she was presently working on a pair of deer--a doe and a stag--that she was finding particularly enjoyable. She was inexplicably drawn to the stag. The proud angle of his head, the breadth and strength in his shoulders. There was something vaguely familiar about him, but she hadn’t been able to put her finger on it yet. She would, she knew, in time. Her art always spoke to her that way and she never failed to learn something about herself during the process.

  Levi quirked a light, slanting brow. “Working on something new?”

  Adam snorted with wry derision. “You know the answer to that. She’s always working on something new. That is when she’s not planning the Founder’s Day Festival and organizing clean-up crews for the park or directing the Downtown Walking Tours.” He pointed to the driftwood pendent around his neck. “She gave me this the day I got home.”

  Levi studied the shape. “Nice,” he said, though it was obvious he didn’t have any idea what he was looking at.

  “It’s the Chinese symbol for courage,” Natalie explained, smiling softly.

  “Ah,” he said, inclining his head. That golden gaze found hers again, causing a little flutter of heat to whisper over the tips of her breasts. “Excellent choice.”

  “She’s brilliant,” Adam spoke up. “You should go by her studio, or better still check out her gallery downtown. Beautiful stuff. Miss Bethel Bay here stays busy.” He grinned at her, obviously proud of her accomplishments. “Who would have thought that collecting all that driftwood would turn our little sand rat into an internationally renowned artist?”

  “I don’t know about that,” Natalie said, feeling her cheeks warm under the spotlight of praise. “But it’s nice to do what I love to do, have people enjoy it and make a living.”

  Actually, it was more than nice. Nice seemed like such an inadequate word when she considered that she was essentially living a dream, albeit a somewhat lonely one. She spent morning and evenings enjoying the beach, her days in her studio engrossed in her art. And, thanks to a single sale to an A-list star who made his home in France with his pop princess girlfriend, people paid ridiculously large sums of money to own a “Rowland” original. She’d gone from a gradual success to an overnight sensation. She should be happy--was happy--and yet...something had always been missing. Her gaze drifted to Levi.

  She grimly suspected it was the man in front of her.

  Seemingly impressed, Levi quirked a brow. “And your dad? Is he still helping you?”

  “I couldn’t do it without him,” Natalie said, rocking back on her heels. Not altogether true, she knew, but true in the sense that it wouldn’t be the same. Since the drowning death of her mother five years ago, John Rowland hadn’t let her put so much as a toe in the ocean without him being there, even to gather driftwood along the beach. Another reason going out on the boat with Levi wouldn’t be a good idea. Her father would be a wreck with worry.

  Molly Rowland had always been a strong swimmer, but she’d panicked when caught in a rip tide. It seemed so surreal to Natalie, even now. Her mother had always been so level-headed. Even-keeled. For months after she died, Natalie had sweated through nightmares of her mother’s tragic death. She would relive those horrible last moments...the terror, her heart-racing panic, leaden, tired limbs...then this strange acceptance and suffocation. She inwardly shivered, remembering.

  Her father had been, in a word, devastated, following his wife’s passing and, while Natalie hadn’t necessarily needed his help--she’d always managed before--she’d nonetheless welcomed his presence. Since then they’d fallen into a comfortable routine. Though she wouldn’t say she necessarily took care of her father--she had her own place, after all--she nonetheless spent a great deal of time with him.

  “What do you say, Nat? You want to take a turn around the bay with us?” Adam asked.

  Natalie hesitated, torn, but ultimately decided to pass. Levi had just gotten home and, while she knew she was welcome, she thought his mother would probably enjoy having some quality family time. She gave her head a small shake. “You know, as much as I’d love to, I really can’t. Dad and I are combing this afternoon, so...” She looked at Levi. “Maybe another time?”

  “Sure,” he said. Was it her imagination or was that a fleeting look of disappointment on his face?

  Natalie nodded, then bent and gave Adam a kiss on the cheek. She gestured to their game. “I won. You owe me a chick flick.” They’d been playing for movies. So far she’d had to watch two horror movies to her one chick flick. Now they were even.

  Adam chuckled. “I’m not watching Steel Magnolias again,” he said as she wav
ed goodbye.

  Natalie merely smiled, but her insides vibrated with pent-up anxiety and longing as she walked away.

  Levi McPherson was home...and his mail was sure to follow. One way or another she had to keep him from getting those letters.

  The eternal question, of course, was...how?

  ABOUT RHONDA RUSSELL

  A New York Times best-selling author, two-time RITA nominee, Romantic Times Reviewers Choice nominee, and National Readers' Choice Award Winner Rhonda Russell writes hot romantic comedy for Harlequin Books and Firefly Press, her indie press. With more than forty-five published books to her credit and many more coming down the pike, she's thrilled with her career and enjoys dreaming up her characters and manipulating the worlds they live in.

  Rhonda previously wrote as Rhonda Nelson, but getting married necessitated a name change. She and her husband (aka The Sweetest Badass in the World) and their menagerie of pets happily make their home on a 166-acre farm in the middle of nowhere in a small town in Northern Alabama near the banks of the Tennessee River. If you’d like to see videos of baby ducks, spoiled turkeys who like to ride in the car, guineas who think they’re turkeys, then be sure to check her out Facebook Page Author Rhonda Russell.

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