"Well, to be perfectly candid, it's been a while since our last rainfall..." He looked around as if seeking confirmation by the others, and heads bobbed up and down in agreement.
"Not... really," she said, a bit surprised. "I made rain just the other day..."
"For yourself," the Widow Att said. It was hard to believe that there was a woman in the city who was even more crotchety and dyspeptic than the Maestress, but the Widow Att had a genuine claim to that honor. "You made it for yourself"
"What are you talking about?" asked Rheela.
"We... saw that the skies had darkened in the general area of your homestead," Milos said by way of explanation, looking a bit chagrined even to have to discuss it. "Seemed pretty fierce, from the look of it But there was a pretty steady wind around the town - "
"Almost like a barrier," the Maestress now spoke up, each word drowning in resentment.
" - and it appeared to keep the clouds at bay. We really didn't get much of anything," Milos continued. "And our reservoir is getting dangerously low..."
"Please help us," one of the younger people said. Always the younger people weren't too proud to say "please," Rheela had no-ticed long ago. The adults and seniors were busy conjuring all manner of sinister motives, but it was the youth that were not afraid to seek out succor wherever they could obtain it. "Please," one of them said again.
"Of course," Rheela said reassuringly, and she patted the young girl on the arm. The youth nodded gratefully. "As it so happens," continued Rheela, "your timing couldn't be better. The conditions are exactly right. I should be able to create an extremely signifi-cant storm for you."
Cheers went up from the crowd, a smattering of applause that got a bit louder as Rheela put down the bags she had been carry-ng and prepared herself. She felt the gaze of the Maestress upon her challenging her, as if she.was anxious for Rheela to fail. What
a sad and pathetic way to be: If Rheela failed, it would be the residents of Narrin who suffered because of it. How could a woman Who purportedly wanted the best for her people wish for some-thing that would be to their detriment? Well... it didn't matter, really. Rheela had no intention of failing. She never had before, and she wasn't about to start now.
She walked out into the middle of the street, stepping away from the crowd that was rapidly beginning to gather. She placed her hands together, palm to palm, and closed her eyes. There was a steady murmur behind her, people whispering to one another,
for most of them had never seen her actually summon the rains. She had never embarked on such an endeavor in the town; usually, when specific requests for her intervention came, it was the result of a small envoy that was sent to her homestead specifically to re-quest it. They would see her engage in her weather influencing, and report back to the residents of the city what they had wit-nessed. She had little doubt that, as always happened with these things, the description of the process was embellished to the point of absurdity. Still, the thought that they would look up to her and even be a bit intimidated by her didn't seem such an unpleasant one to her.
She reached out with her heart, her mind. She could sense clouds wafting in, and she urged the breeze to push them toward her. She felt the heaviness of the rain contained within the clouds, and urged them to release, caressing them with her mind the way a lover would.
Everything felt normal. Everything felt right.
And then... and then...
Everything felt wrong.
She sensed the weather, bonded with the atmospheric condi-tions... in every way, felt attuned to the environment around her... but it wouldn't release the rain to her. The breezes whipped around her, but did not attend to her. She called to them, begged them, pleaded with them with every iota of her willpower, but still nothing happened.
Long minutes passed, and she heard rumbling. But it was not from thunder; instead, it was the annoyed rumbling of the crowd as they slowly began to realize that nothing much was happening in the way of precipitation. She heard muttered comments of "What's happening?" and "Why is it taking so long?" She had no response, though. Everything felt right, everything should have occurred in the way that it always did. And yet... there was noth-ing at all.
"Is there a problem, Rheela?" It was the Maestress who was asking, and there was something in her voice-the sneer, the pure
contempt that she appeared to be dripping with-that prompted Rheela to turn and face her with barely contained anger.
"What did you do?" blurted out Rheela. Really, it was an ab-surd question. There was nothing that the Maestress could have done. Despite her demeanor, it wasn't as if she was some sort of witch, casting an evil spell that prevented Rheela from doing what needed to be done. She had spoken more out of frustration than any rational thought.
Unfortunately, the words were now out there, Rheela's impa-tience with herself prompting her, unwisely, to misdirect her anger. After all this time, it was exactly the sort of opening that the Maestress had been waiting for.
"Oh, is that the way of it?" demanded the Maestress. "You withhold your abilities when my people ask for them, and then try to blame it on me, making it seem as if I am acting to hurt them!"
"I'm not withholding anything!" Rheela protested. She saw the anger on the faces of the people around her. The skies above might not have been darkening, but the mood of the crowd was, and very rapidly. She gathered her patience, tried to reset the tone of the moment. "I'm sorry I snapped at you, it-"
But her apology was far too little, and a bit too late. It wasn't heard by those surrounding her as their ire rose with each passing moment. "You heard her! She tried to blame the Maestress!" "She didn't bring the rain!" "She's holding back on us!"
"I'm not holding back on anything!" Rheela said, unable to keep the desperation out of her voice. Even before she did it, she realized that she was backing up, as if she had something to hide. As if she was afraid...
Which she was.
Her luukab, tethered nearby, was sensing the mood of the crowd, and was clearly unhappy about it. The creature let out a loud, mournful howl of concern. Rheela couldn't blame it for doing so; she was feeling exactly the same way.
"Look," she said with growing urgency, "something just...
just didn't... I mean, this isn't an exact science! The conditions weren't right, the-"
"You said they felt exactly right!" Spangler accused her. He was taking notes for that damnable newspaper of his. She was get-ting the distinct feeling that she was going to be the lead item.
"I know, but-"
"Sounds to me," said the Widow Art, "as if you're still holding a grudge about the Decency Act, and want to get back at us!"
Of all people, the Maestress was the one who said, "I would like to think that such is not the case." But then, eyes flashing with a sat-isfaction that was nearly wicked, she added, "Unfortunately... we can only draw the conclusions that seem reasonable."
There was no mistaking it now: They were converging on her. Rheela found herself presented with two choices: Either she had to cut and run, or she was going to try to tough it out, stay there and convince them that they were simply wrong to think that, somehow, she was turning against them. And she had almost no time in which to make the decision.
She made the only one that seemed reasonable: She bolted, Without trying to offer any more words of defense, she turned and ran straight for the now nearly frantic luukab. "Stop her!" several of them shouted. She didn't hear which ones, but it didn't matter; it could have been any of them, for they were all thirsty and hot and angry, and she had let them down. She vaulted onto the back of the luukab, dropping the satchels of her crop as she did so. Re-alizing that stopping to reach for them would be tantamount to suicide, she slammed her heels into the creature's sides.
The luukab was normally a very placid creature, and any at-tempts to urge it to any sort of speed were generally rather futile. But, considering the mood of the situation that confronted it, the luukab was more than ready to bolt with a very un
characteristic, but understandable, burst of speed. The crowd was converging from in front and behind, and the luukab reared up, its huge legs waving above the heads of those approaching. Considering the creature's weight, if it came down on anyone in front, it would not
go well for those who ended up under its feet. Realizing this, they dropped back rather than risk death. Rheela, for her part, clutched the back of the creature for all she was worth.
The luukab barreled forward, grunting and howling its indigna-tion as it went. It nearly, but not quite, drowned out the shouting and epithets that were being hurled by the townsfolk behind them. And that was not all mat was being hurled, either. Rocks, shoes, pieces of wood... anything that they could get their hands on, they were throwing after Rheela as she fled.
This can't be happening! This should not be happening! she kept saying to herself. She felt as if she was trapped in some sort of insane dream, even as she crouched low to avoid the debris being tossed her way.
And then a rock nailed her squarely on the side of the head. Rheela cried out and almost lost her grip on the luukab. The thought of what would happen to Moke if she died in this way was all that kept her going as her hands dug in and she maintained her grip. The luukab, even more distraught by the missiles being lobbed in its di-rection, redoubled its efforts. As the world swam around Rheela, the luukab fairly galloped out of town, leaving the shouts and cries of anger swarming about in the air like angry insects.
Only when the luukab had put some distance between itself and the city did it slow down somewhat. The strain on the beast had not been a light one. Rheela literally could feel its heart-or was it hearts?-pounding against its sides, and its breath was heavy in its lungs, rasping and straining.
But there was only so much attention Rheela could pay to the animal's situation, because her own plight was no less dire. She could feel the massive lump already swelling on the side of her head. Not only that, but nausea swept over her in waves, and she knew she was in danger of losing consciousness. She reached over and dug her fingernails into her forearm, afraid that if she passed out, she would slip off the back of the luukab and tumble to the ground. If that happened, she had no confidence that the an-imal would stop or come back for her. It wasn't the brightest crea-
ture that Kolk'r had put on the planet's surface, and was just as likely to plod away home-or even trundle off into the desert if it didn't have her guidance, there to wander and possibly even die. Then again, the last thing she should be worrying about was the luukab's likelihood of survival, considering her own was some-what in jeopardy.
She began to sing nonsensical songs to keep herself awake. When the effectiveness of that strategy wore thin, she started pic-turing Moke... Moke, and Calhoun. She pictured Calhoun's pur-ple eyes taking her in, looking her up and down and appreciating her. Imagined his hands running over her body, carrying her off somewhere private and doing things to her that she hadn't experi-enced in ever so long.... And then...
Then she started thinking about Moke's father....... about that evening... that one, insane evening, when he had come to her, like something from Kolk'r on high... the way he had smiled at her, and he'd had those flashing, mysterious eyes, and a voice as loud as thunder and soft as the caress of an er-rant breeze, both together. She had thought it more dream than re-ality, but not too long after, she had learned the reality of it. And she had never told anyone because, really, what was the point? Who would believe her? Who would think it anything other than a flight of fancy from a possibly demented mind?
She started to drift and fought herself awake, thrusting her body to one side with such violence that she threw herself right off the luukab. She hit the ground, and the jolt was more than enough to propel her to full wakefulness. She looked around, her body aching, her head throbbing, and then she realized that she was no more than ten feet from her own front door. The luukab had brought her safely home-although safety was a relative term.
Rheela hauled herself to her feet. The world spun around her once more before settling down. Taking a deep breath to steady herself, she lurched into the house while trying not to fall over once more, steadying herself by leaning against the doorframe be-
fore entering. She was pleased to see that the room wasn't spin-ning around as she went to the mirror on the wall and looked into it bleakly. There she saw a fair approximation of her face looking back at her, except that it was covered with dirt and grime and a trickle of blood from what she now realized was more a head wound than a lump. It was turning several different colors, none of them good-looking and all of them unfamiliar to her skin. She reached up hesitantly, and then decided at the last moment not to touch it. Certainly no good would come from doing so.
Instead, she used a small amount (always a small amount) of the household supply of water to clean her face. She dabbed at it hesitantly, looking at the way the dirt smeared, and wondering just what she could possibly say to the people of Narrin the next time she saw them. How could she possibly apologize... ?
Apologize? To them? They hurt you! They did this to you! They should be coming on their hands and knees to apologize to you!
She knew that to be true. She knew that she had been ill-used by people for whom she had displayed copious amounts of pa-tience. She had every right to hate them for what they had done. But she could not bring herself to do so, no matter how righteous that anger would be. Call her anything from an eternal optimist to an unmitigated fool, but she still held out hope that, somehow, she and the people of Narrin City would be able to coexist. It had be-come a challenge to her. That was, of course, a foolish reason to pursue this potentially idiotic endeavor. Here she was, telling her-self that she was acting on their behalf, when actually it seemed that she was being motivated by matters of pride more than any-thing. Surely if that was the case, she'd be bringing down on her own head anything that happened to her.
Tired... so tired...
Part of her mind was warning her that she should not go to sleep under any circumstance. But she was exhausted, and that ex-haustion was overwhelming any other notions in her head. Decid-ing that a short nap really wouldn't be so bad... and it was getting to be late in the evening, after all, so naturally it was about
SHELBY
time for her to go to sleep anyway... Rheela staggered over to-ward her bedroom. She flopped onto her simple bed without even bothering to remove any of her clothes, and within moments was fast asleep.
She had no idea what time it was when she awoke. The only thing she did know was that the room was filling up fast with smoke, and she could hear the crackling of flames as they licked hungrily at the outside of the house. At which point she fell back into a deep sleep....
she walked through the forest, barefoot, the grass cool against her feet, and she tried to remember how she had come there. She was not wearing her uniform. Instead, she was wearing a pair of blue shorts and a cutoff shirt that left her midriff exposed. Oddly, her hair was longer than she was accustomed to keeping it. She wondered why that was for a moment, but then gave it no further thought.
Small animals ran past her, pausing momentarily to look up at her in curiosity. A rabbit sniffed at her feet, a robin landed on her shoulder. And Shelby couldn't help but notice how quiet they all were. Oh, the rabbit, sure, naturally that was quiet. How much noise do rabbits make, as a rule? But there was no flutter of the robin's wings, no chirping as it studied her. Not only that, but she now began to notice that, although the wind was steadily blowing the branches, the leaves were not rustling. She wondered for a moment if she was going deaf.
A hand gently touched her shoulder. She turned and gasped, and didn't hear herself do so.
Calhoun was standing there with a smile on his face.
She smacked him across the face as hard as she could. It made no noise.
"How dare you!" she choked out. "How dare you go and get
yourself killed and leave me alone! You had no business doing that, Mac, no business at all!"
"No business?" Calhoun laughed lightly at that. "Eppy, it's not as if I wanted to be a martyr..."
"Yes, it is! That's exactly what you wanted, Mac. It's what you've always wanted. Even when you were a teenager back on Xenex, running around, waving a sword and howling battle cries and fighting for your people, it was never about them! It was about you trying to be a martyr."
"How would you know that, Eppy? You weren't there."
"I didn't have to be, Mac. I know you better than you do your-self."
He turned and walked away from her. Despite the frustration she was feeling, despite all the anger, she still had to admit to herself that-damn, he had a fine backside. Then she pushed those thoughts as far away as her subconscious mind would allow them to go. "Well?" she called after him. "Aren't you going to deny it?"
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