I stood to calm my racing heart. I needed a second to pull myself together or I was going to blow it just looking at her. I inhaled through my nose and exhaled through my mouth, a technique I used when I was running to slow down my heart rate. Feeling in control again, I unbuttoned my jeans and stepped out of them, while Stella’s hungry eyes devoured me.
I climbed back into bed and ran my hands along the length of her body. Her skin was silky smooth just like I’d always imagined. I kissed every inch.
“Teddy, please. I need you. Now.” Her heart beat erratically, matching mine.
“Shhh, I’m getting there, Angel.” I’d never called her that before, but suddenly it seemed like the perfect nickname. She was beautiful—pure white skin, long blond hair, and a gorgeous face all combined in one. She was like an angel. My angel.
I unclasped her bra and pulled one breast in my mouth while teasing the other one with my thumb. Soft murmurs escaped her lips. I’d never experienced such bliss as when I heard her make that sound. I felt like a real man knowing Stella was enjoying what I was doing to her. I tugged her against me. I had an overwhelming desire to feel her chest pressed up against mine without anything between us. Damn! She felt good.
I worked my way down her body, kissing her flat stomach until I reached her panties, and then I removed those too. I couldn’t wait to taste Stella. I positioned myself between her legs, first kissing her inner thighs. “Teddy,” she sighed, but it almost sounded like she was in pain.
“You good?” I asked, worried. I’d die if she wanted me to stop, I was so worked up. But I would. I’d do anything for her.
“Yeah, but I can’t take it anymore. I want you.”
“I know.” I sighed with relief, a smile forming. Stella was going to love what I was about to do next.
I put my hand on her hot pussy and gently stroked her, slipping a finger inside. “Shit, Stella, you’re soaking wet.” The bulge in my boxers throbbed. “And so tight.” I inserted another finger. I had to taste her.
I put my mouth on her, and licked her folds. I ran my tongue over her clit, teasing her while my fingers moved inside of her. Her hands grabbed my hair and pushed my head down. Her back arched off the mattress. I tickled her with my tongue, making circles over her swollen clit. My secret was using my tongue to draw the letter of the alphabet over and over again. Her body started to tremble and she wrapped tighter around my finger. I knew she was about to come.
“I can’t hold back anymore,” screamed Stella, lifting her head off the bed and looking me in the eye.
“Let it out, Angel. I got you.” I moved my fingers faster. “Look at me when you come. I want to watch you.” I pulled her clit inside my mouth and sucked on it. And that was all it took. She yelled my name and released all the built up tension.
I moved next to her and pulled her into my arms, holding her tight. I knew it was what she needed. Hell, it was what I needed. Seeing her come for me, I knew I there’d never be anyone else. I wanted her. Forever.
Soon she came back to earth and to me. Her breathing returned to normal. Well, almost. I wasn’t sure if either one of us would ever be able to breathe normally again. Being with Stella was otherworldly. And it just kept getting better. Her hand had found its way under my boxers and she gripped my cock. It throbbed in her hand as she rubbed it up and down until I couldn’t take it anymore. I had to be inside her.
“I’m gonna make love to you now. Make you mine. There’s no going back. Is this want you really want?” I wanted this and I wanted her. Always.
“Yes. It’s always been you. You’re all I’ve ever wanted.”
Her words were more beautiful than all of Shakespeare’s sonnets. I stood and shed my boxers. There was nothing between us now. I grabbed a condom and tore it open with my teeth.
“Here, let me.” She took it out of my hand, rolling it over my hard cock. I had always taken care of myself and having her take care of me like that felt intimate and I almost blew my load. I positioned myself over her, keeping my weight on my arms, and waited at her entrance. I knew this was going to change my life forever. I looked into her eyes and saw love and I knew it mirrored my own reflection. I drew in a deep breath and pushed my way inside, feeling everything at once.
I didn’t take my eyes off of her. She gasped and let out a pained cry.
“Did I hurt you?” And as soon as the words left my mouth, I understood. She felt tight around my throbbing cock. Really tight. Virgin tight. I had no idea. Actually I’d thought she had more experience than me. Guys back in high school were always bragging about how they’d scored it big with Stella. Those lying motherfuckers. Damn, if I’d known she was a virgin, I’d have been more careful. “I’m sorry, Angel. I didn’t know.” My instinct was to pull out.
She grabbed my ass and pressed me to her. “Don’t you fucking dare, Teddy. I want this and I want you. It’s already done. Make love to me like you promised.” She leaned up and kissed my mouth. I kissed her back until I felt her relax again and adjust to my size.
I began to move inside of her, giving her what she wanted. Slowly at first because I didn’t want to cause her any more pain. Within minutes my name would be tearing from her lips again. I’d make sure of it. Soon she moved her hips to match my rhythm and met me thrust for thrust. Her legs wrapped around my back, allowing me to go even deeper. We moved together in sync. It wasn’t awkward like my first time had been. It was like we were made for each other. “Damn, baby! You’re amazing.” I had to bite the inside of my cheek to not feel too much too soon. This had never been a problem in the past, but tonight was different. I was with Stella.
Stella’s face filled with lust and passion. It glowed. She grabbed my neck and brought my lips down to her's. She was tightening around my cock and I could tell by her frantic breathing that she was getting close. I kissed her deeply and she shattered. Her body shook beneath mine. And then it was my turn. Sensations rippled through me. I broke the kiss and called out her name—Stella, my angel.
After we cleaned up we laid in my bed together, facing one another. Neither of us could look away. I lightly traced her face with my fingertips, memorizing the feel of her. She was the most beautiful girl on the planet. We were silent. Noise from the street filtering in was the only sound. There were no words for what had just happened between us. And talking about anything would’ve ruined the mood. A thousand questions ran through my mind that I wanted to ask her, but not now. There would be time for that in the morning. Right now I wanted to hold her in my arms and feast upon her beauty. There was nothing else like it in this world. Soon her eyelids fluttered closed and once she was asleep I allowed myself to succumb to exhaustion, too.
Stella
Images of what happened last night came back to me, frame by frame as if I had a camera in my head. Each one bringing an even bigger smile to my face. I was so happy I wanted to laugh out loud. I opened my eyes to find Teddy watching me.
“She wakes.” He brushed back a lock of hair that had fallen into my face. A sigh escaped me that resembled a purr made by perfectly content cat waking up after a long nap. “That good, huh,” he chuckled.
“Hmm, hum.” I reached for him. I was wide awake now and ready for more. Last night had been the greatest night of my life, but then I always knew it would be. Teddy had been sweet and gentle, and I loved him all the more for it. But this morning I wanted something different. I’d sensed he was holding something back from me because he was afraid he’d hurt me, but this morning I was ready to unleash it all. I climbed atop of Teddy, straddling him. This time I wanted to be in control. And Teddy’s hard-on told me he was ready too.
“Angel. It’s gonna hurt you. You’re probably sore.”
His sweetness made me fall for him even harder, but I wasn’t going to be deterred from getting what I wanted. “Yeah, but I know you have more to give, and I want it.” I ran my fingers down his bare chest. He had the sexiest set of abs I’d ever seen. I was sure if I photographed Teddy’s abdomen an
d sent the pictures into a modeling agency they’d sign him immediately. But I wouldn’t do that—I wanted to keep Teddy all to myself. I didn’t want to share him with anyone, let alone the whole world.
He caught my hand and kissed each finger. “Fuck! You’re sexy!”
His words gave me power. I ran my hand over my chest and stomach, stopping when I reached the wetness between my legs. I began touching myself to prove to him how sexy I could be, and waiting for him to do something about it.
He watched me for a second. “The condoms are in my sock drawer. Top left.” His voice was husky and all male.
“Don’t go any where,” I flirted, pointing my finger at him. The same finger I had just used to stroke myself. I walked over to the dresser and took out a foil package. Teddy’s eyes roamed freely over my naked body and it turned me on. He hadn’t even touched me yet and I already felt like I was climbing out to the edge of a cliff. I opened the package with my teeth, like I’d seen him do, and rolled the condom on. I was amazed by the sheer size. Teddy was huge. It was no wonder I had cried out last night.
This morning was going to be different. I wanted to be in charge. Teddy laid on his back and held the base of his cock, while I slid down on him. I gasped. He filled me up. I thought I’d feel sore, but I wasn’t. I felt nothing but pleasure. Instinctively I moved up and down while Teddy guided my hips and pushed back. I wanted to prove to Teddy that he could have it all with me, so I pumped harder and faster, getting closer and closer to the edge. I was going to fall soon and fall hard. Last night was amazing but this…this was…so fucking hot. “I can’t take it anymore. I’m going come.”
“Come, Angel. Come for me.”
I threw my head back and a cry tore from my throat. I soared higher than a kite. I’d been drunk many times and gotten high before, but nothing compared to sex with Teddy. Nothing. After having a sample I knew I could never live without him. I was addicted.
“My turn, now.” He smiled devilishly. Teddy flipped me over and this time I placed my legs up on his shoulders. I didn’t think it’d be possible, but he was even deeper in me than before, hitting what could only be my g-spot. Arousal swept over me—again. I was climbing higher and higher and I knew I was going to come for a second time. Teddy slammed into me hard, and I opened my eyes and stared into his golden ones that were filled with passion and love as we rocketed off the ledge together, hand in hand. As we came back down I hoped all my days would be like this forever more, hand in hand with Teddy.
He collapsed on the bed next to me, our legs still entwined. “Damn, Angel. You blew me away.” He gently stroked my arm.
“I know the feeling.” All the magazines I’d ever read and all the girls who talked about sex hadn’t even come close to getting it right. Being with Teddy was so much more.
We were quiet for a few minutes while Teddy played with my hair. Running it through his fingers and twirling it. “You’re hair is so soft. Like silk.”
I wasn’t sure if he’d meant to say that out loud. He seemed lost in thought. There was a look in his eye that I recognized; he had something to say. “What’s going on in that beautiful mind of yours?” The possibilities were endless. I held my breath waiting for Teddy to answer. His gentle touch told me that it wasn’t anything bad.
“Can I ask you a question?” Teddy continued to play with my hair, looking me in the eye. Concern and mild confusion filled his handsome face.
“You can ask me anything.” I had a feeling where this was going and I wasn’t going to lie. I had nothing to hide.
“Were you a virgin?”
“Yes.”
Teddy stopped playing with my hair. “Then why did everyone at school call you all those terrible names? And why did guys go around boasting that they’d had sex with you? I don’t understand.”
Tears filled my eyes. The last two years of high school had been painful. Sometimes I was surprised that I’d survived at all. I’d read about girls in the newspaper who couldn’t handle it and killed themselves. Tears flowed freely down my cheeks as I thought about them. My tears were for them, not me. I’d gotten through by being strong. I knew the truth and that was enough.
Teddy brushed my tears away with his thumb. “Don’t cry, Angel. I‘m here.”
His words opened the floodgate. Tremors wracked my body. Once I started crying it was impossible to stop, which was one of the reasons I didn’t like to cry. But hearing Teddy say those words made me lose it. He was all I’d ever dreamed of and he was here—with me. He pulled me against his chest and rubbed circles on my back until I’d cried it all out. I was ready to shed my past.
I took a deep breath and pulled away. I wanted to look at Teddy. “I never had sex with any of those boys. They’d tried to get in my pants, but I never let them. They weren’t the ones for me. I was saving myself.” I didn’t say that I’d been saving myself for him, but I thought that part was pretty clear after what happened last night and this morning. “I never did anything but kiss them and fool around a little.”
Teddy still looked confused.
I’d have to explain why I’d thought they’d lied. “One night I went out with Nick.” Teddy’s muscles went rigid and his eyes took on darkness like they had in the bar last night. “Should I go on?” I didn’t want to upset him.
“Yeah. I want to know what happened.”
“We went to Roger’s party together at the beginning of my junior year.” Teddy nodded. He’d been there too, so I knew he remembered. “We’d gotten high and then he led me to a room and I followed. All we did was kiss. But everyone at the party saw us go into the dang room together and when we came out later my hair was a mess and he’d left a huge hickey on my neck. Everyone assumed we’d screwed. Nick even said something that made it seem like we had even though it was the furthest thing from the truth. After that, every guy I went out with added to the lie. Eventually I stopped dating. It didn’t stop the rumors though.”
“Fuck, those lying bastards.” Anger was rolling off Teddy in giant waves. He resembled an ocean on the verge of a tsunami. “If I ever see Nick, or any of those other assholes again, I swear I’ll kill them.” After seeing what Teddy had done to the guy in the bar last night, I didn’t doubt his words. He wasn’t a violent guy but he had a fierce protective streak. And it made me love him all the more.
I placed my hand on his chest, right above his heart, to ground him. “It’s all in the past. It doesn’t matter anymore. You’re here now. Thank you for saving me—twice. First at prom, and then again last night.”
He sighed. My words had calmed him some. He was more like a hurricane now than a tsunami. “You shouldn’t have had to go through that. It must’ve hurt. I can’t believe I thought they were telling the truth.”
“Really? I thought you didn’t believe the rumors. You never treated me any different.”
“I guess because I thought it was your choice to make. It used to piss me off though. I didn’t like listening to others talk about you like some piece of ass. How’d you get through that?” He went back to playing with my hair.
“I don’t know. I had my photography, which helped me a lot. It’s hard to explain, but it gives me perspective. It’s an outlet. I also had my close friends—Megan, Jenna, Isabella, Lexi, Katie, and Char. And junior year I had you.”
“Me?” Teddy sounded surprised.
“Yeah. Riding with you and Eli every day meant I could be myself and that gave me the courage to face whatever rumor was circulating about me that day. I loved teasing you and seeing you get all worked up. I tried to get you to see that I had a thing for you, but you never caught on until it was too late—you were leaving for college and I was following my own path.”
Teddy looked thoughtful. “So you did feel something for me the day I showed up on your porch and kissed you?”
“Yes.”
“Why did you lie?” His voice was filled with hurt. “We lost so much time.”
“I lied because I didn’t have a choice. The tim
ing wasn’t right. I knew if I told you how I felt and you felt the same way about me, I’d never survive when you left to go to college. As it was, I had a panic attack that day when I let you go.”
“Really? I’m sorry. If I had known I would’ve helped you through it.” Teddy looked really upset and I felt guilty for mentioning it to him. “Why did you have one the night we ran into each other at the frat party?”
“I panicked because I thought you’d moved on and I’d lost you for good and the thought of that seized me with terror.” I still had nightmares about the devil girl who’d been holding Teddy’s hand.
“You don’t ever have to worry about losing me. I’m not going anywhere. Ever.” He gently ran his thumb down the side of my face. I clung to Teddy’s words, needing to believe they were true. “I love you.”
“I love you too.”
Teddy pulled me close and I felt him grow hard again. This time we made love slowly and gently, expressing the way we felt about each other without words. It was beautiful. I was sore, but I didn’t care. I needed this—I needed Teddy. We laid in each other’s arms for a long time after. I never wanted to leave the comfort and safety of his arms and his bed. He made me feel alive. Whole. I’d been missing a piece of myself and I hadn’t even realized it until now, but that piece was Teddy.
Theo
I walked Stella to the subway stop late Sunday afternoon. It was hard letting her go after spending the last eighteen hours with her—most of it in bed. I still couldn’t get over the fact that she’d been a virgin until last night. She’d completely blown me away. Her body fit perfectly with mine and we moved together like we were made for each other. I couldn’t believe she waited for me all these years. If I’d only known sooner. If I ever laid eyes on Nick or any of those other assholes who claimed they’d banged Stella—I’d punch their fucking lights out. But then again, I got the pleasure of knowing Stella in ways they’d only dreamed of. I tugged her closer to me as we waited for the subway train.
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