by Dan Simmons
“Please, please, do come in, M. Weintraub,” said the priest. He indicated the doorway to the Shrike sanctuary with a sweep of his robed arm.
Sol passed through, found himself in a dark and echoing place not too dissimilar from the setting of his recurrent dream, and took a seat where the bishop indicated. As the cleric moved to his own place at what looked like a small throne behind an intricately carved but thoroughly modern desk, Sol noticed that the high priest was a native Lusian, gone to fat and heavy in the jowls, but formidable in the way all Lusus residents seemed to be. His robe was striking in its redness… a bright, arterial red, flowing more like a contained liquid than like silk or velvet, trimmed in onyx ermine. The bishop wore a large ring on each finger and they alternated red and black, producing a disturbing effect in Sol.
“Your Excellency,” began Sol, “I apologize in advance for any breach in church protocol which I have committed… or may commit. I confess I know little about the Church of the Shrike, but what I do know has brought me here. Please forgive me if I inadvertently display my ignorance by my clumsy use of titles or terms.”
The bishop wiggled his fingers at Sol. Red and black stones flashed in the weak light. “Titles are unimportant, M. Weintraub. Addressing us as “Your Excellency” is quite acceptable for a nonbeliever. We must advise you, however, that the formal name of our modest group is the Church of the Final Atonement and the entity whom the world so blithely calls… the Shrike… we refer to… if we take His name at all… as the Lord of Pain or, more commonly, the Avatar. Please proceed with the important query you said you had for us.”
Sol bowed slightly. “Your Excellency, I am a teacher…”
“Excuse us for interrupting, M. Weintraub, but you are much more than a teacher. You are a scholar. We are very familiar with your writings on moral hermeneutics. The reasoning there in is flawed but quite challenging. We use it regularly in our courses in doctrinal apologetics. Please proceed.”
Sol blinked. His work was almost unknown outside the most rarefied academic circles and this recognition had thrown him. In the five seconds it took him to recover, Sol found it preferable to believe that the Shrike bishop wanted to know with whom he spoke and had an excellent staff. “Your Excellency, my background is immaterial. I asked to see you because my child… my daughter… has taken ill as a possible result of research she was carrying out in an area which is of some importance to your Church. I speak, of course, of the so-called Time Tombs on the world of Hyperion.”
The bishop nodded slowly. Sol wondered if he knew about Rachel.
“You are aware, M. Weintraub, that the area you referred to… what we call the Covenant Arks… has recently been declared off limits to so-called researchers by the Home Rule Council of Hyperion?”
“Yes, Your Excellency. I have heard that. I understand that your Church was instrumental in that legislation being passed.”
The bishop showed no response to this. Far off in the incense-layered gloom, small chimes sounded “At any rate, Your Excellency, I hoped that some aspect of your Church’s doctrine might shed light on my daughter’s illness.”
The bishop inclined his head forward so that the single shaft of light which illuminated him gleamed on his forehead and cast his eyes into shadow. “Do you wish to receive religious instruction in the mysteries of the Church, M. Weintraub?”
Sol touched his beard with a finger. “No, Your Excellency, unless in so doing I might improve the wellbeing of my daughter.”
“And does your daughter wish to be initiated into the Church of the Final Atonement?”
Sol hesitated a beat. “Again, Your Excellency, she wishes to be well. If joining the Church would heal or help her, it would be a very serious consideration.”
The bishop sat back in a rustle of robes. Redness seemed to flow from him into the gloom. “You speak of physical wellbeing, M. Weintraub. Our Church is the final arbiter of spiritual salvation. Are you aware that the former invariably flows from the latter?”
“I am aware that this is an old and widely respected proposition,” said Sol. “The total wellbeing of our daughter is the concern of my wife and myself.”
The bishop rested his massive head on his fist. “What is the nature of your daughter’s illness, M. Weintraub?”
“It is… a time-related illness, Your Excellency.”
The bishop sat forward, suddenly tense. “And at which of the holy sites did you say your daughter contracted this malady, M. Weintraub?”
“The artifact called the Sphinx, Your Excellency.” The bishop stood so quickly that papers on his desktop were knocked to the floor. Even without the robes, the man would have massed twice Sol’s weight. In the fluttering red robes, stretched to his full height, the Shrike priest now towered over Sol like crimson death incarnate. “You can go!” bellowed the big man. “Your daughter is the most blessed and cursed of individuals. There is nothing that you or the Church… or any agent in this life… can do for her.”
Sol stood… or, rather, sat… his ground. “Your Excellency, if there is any possibility…”
“NO!” cried the bishop, red in the face now, a consummately consistent apparition. He tapped at his desk.
Exorcists and lectors appeared in the doorway, their black robes with red trim an ominous echo of the bishop. The all-black ostiaries blended with the shadows.
“The audience is at an end,” said the bishop with less volume but infinite finality. “Your daughter has been chosen by the Avatar to atone in a way which all sinners and nonbelievers must someday suffer. Someday very soon.”
“Your Excellency, if I can have just five minutes more of your time…”
The bishop snapped his fingers and the exorcists came forward to escort Sol out. The men were Lusian. One of them could have handled five scholars Sol’s size.
“Your Excellency…” cried Sol after he had shrugged off the first man’s hands. The three other exorcists came to assist with the equally brawny lectors hovering nearby. The bishop had turned his back and seemed to be staring into the darkness.
The outer sanctuary echoed to grunts and the scraping of Sol’s heels and to at least one loud gasp as Sol’s foot made contact with the least priestly parts of the lead exorcist. The outcome of the debate was not affected.
Sol landed in the street. The last ostiary to turn away tossed Sol’s battered hat to him.
Ten more days on Lusus achieved nothing but more gravity fatigue for Sol. The Temple bureaucracy would not answer his calls. The courts could offer him no wedge. The exorcists waited just within the doors of the vestibule.
Sol farcast to New Earth and Renaissance Vector, to Fuji and TC2, to Deneb Drei and Deneb Vier, but everywhere the Shrike temples were closed to him.
Exhausted, frustrated, out of money, Sol ’cast home to Barnard’s World, got the EMV out of the long-term lot, and arrived home an hour before Rachel’s birthday.
“Did you bring me anything, Daddy?” asked the excited ten-year-old.
Sarai had told her that day that Sol had been gone.
Sol brought out the wrapped package. It was the collected Anne of Green Gables series. It was not what he had wanted to bring her.
“Can I open it?”
“Later, little one. With the other things.”
“Oh, please, Dad. Just one thing now. Before Niki and the other kids get here?”
Sol caught Sarai’s eye. She shook her head. Rachel remembered inviting Niki and Linna and her other friends to the party only days before.
Sarai had not yet come up with an excuse.
“All right, Rachel,” he said. “Just this one before the party.”
While Rachel ripped into the small package, Sol saw the giant package in the living room, secured with red ribbon. The new bike, of course.
Rachel had asked for the new bike for a year before her tenth birthday.
Sol tiredly wondered if she would be surprised tomorrow to find the new bike here the day before her tenth birthday.
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Or perhaps they would get rid of the bike that night, while Rachel slept.
Sol collapsed onto the couch. The red ribbon reminded him of the bishop’s robes.
Sarai had never had an easy time of surrendering the past. Every time she cleaned and folded and put away a set of Rachel’s outgrown baby clothes, she had shed secret tears that Sol somehow knew about. Sarai had treasured every stage of Rachel’s childhood, enjoying the day-to-day normalcy of things; a normalcy which she quietly accepted as the best of life. She had always felt that the essence of human experience lay not primarily in the peak experiences, the wedding days and triumphs which stood out in the memory like dates circled in red on old calendars, but, rather, in the unself-conscious flow of little things—the weekend afternoon with each member of the family engaged in his or her own pursuit, their crossings and connections casual, dialogues imminently forgettable, but the sum of such hours creating a synergy which was important and eternal.
Sol found Sarai in the attic, weeping softly as she went through boxes.
These were not the gentle tears once shed for the ending of small things. Sarai Weintraub was angry.
“What are you doing, Mother?”
“Rachel needs clothes. Everything is too big. What fit on an eight-year-old won’t fit a seven-year-old. I have some more of her things here somewhere.”
“Leave it,” said Sol. “We’ll buy something new.” Sarai shook her head.
“And have her wonder every day where all of her favorite clothes have gone? No. I’ve saved some things. They’re here somewhere.”
“Do it later.”
“Damn it, there’s no later!” shouted Sarai and then turned away from Sol and raised her hands to her face.
“I’m sorry.”
Sol put his arms around her. Despite the limited Poulsen treatments, her bare arms were much thinner than he remembered. Knots and cords under rough skin.
He hugged her tightly.
“I’m sorry,” she repeated, sobbing openly now. “It’s just not fair.”
“No,” agreed Sol. “It’s not fair.” The sunlight coming through the dusty attic panes had a sad, cathedral quality to it. Sol had always loved the smell of an attic—the hot and stale promise of a place so underused and filled with future treasures. Today it was ruined.
He crouched next to a box. “Come, dear,” he said, “we’ll look together.”
Rachel continued to be happy, involved with life, only slightly confused by the incongruities which faced her each morning when she awoke. As she grew younger it became easier to explain away the changes that appeared—to have occurred overnight—the old elm out front gone, the new apartment building on the corner where M. Nesbitt used to live in a colonial-era home, the absence of her friends—and Sol began to see as never before the flexibility of children. He now imagined Rachel living on the breaking crest of the wave of time, not seeing the murky depths of the sea beyond, keeping her balance with her small store of memories and a total commitment to the twelve to fifteen hours of now allowed her each day.
Neither Sol nor Sarai wanted their daughter isolated from other children and it was difficult to find ways to make contact. Rachel was delighted to play with the “new girl” or “new boy” in the neighborhood—children of other instructors, the grandchildren of friends, for a while with Niki’s daughter—but the other children had to grow accustomed to Rachel greeting them anew each day, remembering nothing of their common past, and only a few had the sensitivity to continue such a charade for the sake of a playmate.
The story of Rachel’s unique illness was no secret in Crawford, of course. The fact of it had spread through the college the first year of Rachel’s return and the entire town knew soon after. Crawford reacted in the fashion of small towns immemorial—some tongues wagged constantly, some people could not keep the pity and pleasure at someone else’s misfortune out of their voices and gazes—but mostly the community folded its protective wings around the Weintraub family like an awkward mother bird shielding its young.
Still, they were allowed to live their lives, and even when Sol had to cut back classes and then take an early retirement because of trips seeking medical treatment for Rachel, the real reason was mentioned by no one.
But it could not last, of course, and on the spring day when Sol stepped onto the porch and saw his weeping seven-year-old daughter coming back from the park surrounded and followed by a pack of newsteeps, their camera implants gleaming and comlogs extended, he knew that a phase of their life was over forever. Sol jumped from the porch and ran to Rachel’s side.
“M. Weintraub, is it true that your daughter contracted a terminal time illness? What’s going to happen in seven years? Will she just disappear?”
“M. Weintraub! M. Weintraub! Rachel says that she thinks Raben Dowell is Senate CEO and this is the year A.D. 2711. Has she lost those thirty-four years completely or is this a delusion, caused by the Merlin sickness?”
“Rachel! Do you remember being a grown woman? What’s it feel like to be a kid again?”
“M. Weintraub! M. Weintraub! Just one still image, please. How about you get a picture of Rachel when she was older and you and the kid stand looking at it?”
“M. Weintraub! Is it true that this is the curse of the Time Tombs? Did Rachel see the Shrike monster?”
“Hey, Weintraub! Sol! Hey, Solly! What’re you and the little woman going to do when the kid’s gone?”
There was a newsteep blocking Sol’s way to the front door. The man leaned forward, the stereo lenses of his eyes elongating as they zoomed in for a close-up of Rachel. Sol grabbed the man’s long hair—which was conveniently tied in a queue—and flung him aside.
The pack brayed and bellowed outside the house for seven weeks. Sol realized what he had known and forgotten about very small communities: they were frequently annoying, always parochial, sometimes prying on a one-to-one level, but never had they subscribed to the vicious legacy of the so-called “public’s right to know.”
The Web did. Rather than have his family become permanent prisoners to the besieging reporters, Sol went on the offensive. He arranged interviews on the most pervasive farcaster cable news programs, participated in All Thing discussions, and personally attended the Concourse Medical Research Conclave. In ten standard months he asked for help for his daughter on eighty worlds.
Offers poured in from ten thousand sources but the bulk of the communications were from faith healers, project promoters, institutes and free-lance researchers offering their services in exchange for the publicity, Shrike cultists and other religious zealots pointing out that Rachel deserved the punishment, requests from various advertising agencies for product endorsements, offers from media agents to “handle”
Rachel for such endorsements, offers of sympathy from common people—frequently enclosing credit chips, expressions of disbelief from scientists, offers from holie producers and book publishers for exclusive rights to Rachel’s life, and a barrage of real estate offers.
Reichs University paid for a team of evaluators to sort the offers and see if anything might benefit Rachel.
Most of the communications were discarded. A few medical or research offers were seriously considered. In the end, none seemed to offer any avenue of research or experimental therapy which Reichs had not already tried. One fatline flimsy came to Sol’s attention. It was from the Chairman of Kibbutz K'far Shalom on Hebron and read simply:
IF IT BECOMES TOO MUCH, COME.
It soon became too much. After the first few months of publicity the siege seemed to lift, but this was only the prelude to the second act.
Faxsimmed tabloids referred to Sol as the “Wandering Jew,” the desperate father wandering afar in search of a cure for his child’s bizarre illness—an ironic title given Sol’s lifelong dislike of travel. Sarai inevitably was “the grieving mother.” Rachel was “the doomed child” or, in one inspired headline, “Virgin Victim of the Time Tombs’ Curse.” None of the family coul
d go outside without finding a newsteep or imager hiding behind a tree.
Crawford discovered that there was money to be found in the Weintraubs’ misfortune. At first the town held the line, but when entrepreneurs from Bussard City moved in with gift shops, T-shirt concessions, tours, and datachip booths for the tourists who were coming in larger and larger numbers, the local business people first dithered, then wavered, then decided unanimously that, if t here was commerce to be carried on, the profits should not go to outsiders.
After four hundred and thirty-eight standard years of comparative solitude, the town of Crawford received a farcaster terminex. No longer did visitors have to suffer the twenty-minute flight from Bussard City.
The crowds grew.
On the day they moved it rained heavily and the streets were empty.
Rachel did not cry, but her eyes were very wide all day and she spoke in subdued tones. It was ten days before her sixth birthday.” But, Daddy, why do we have to move?”
“We just do, honey.”
“But why?”
“It’s something we have to do, little one. You’ll like Hebron. There are lots of parks there.”
“But how come you never said we were going to move?”
“We did, sweetie. You must have forgotten.”
“But what about Gram and Grams and Uncle Richard and Aunt Tetha and Uncle Saul and everybody?”
“They can come visit us any time.”
“But what about Niki and Linna and my friends?”
Sol said nothing but carried the last of the luggage to the EMV. The house was sold and empty; furniture had been sold or sent ahead to Hebron. For a week there had been a steady stream of family and old friends, college associates, and even some of the Reichs reed team who had worked with Rachel for eighteen years, but now the street was empty.
Rain streaked the Perspex canopy of the old EMV and ran in complex rivulets. The three of them sat in the vehicle for a moment, staring at the house. The interior smelled of wet wool and wet hair.
Rachel clutched the teddy bear Sarai had resurrected from the attic six months earlier. She said, “It’s not fair.”
