Once, in passing, our arms brushed together and the delicious current that was sent through my body gave me a fierce erection. I’d never had such a physical connection from such an innocent accidental contact before. I thought I was being subtle about being close to her but when Rick cornered me one day I realised that I was kidding myself.
“A word.” Rick’s tone was brisk and I was immediately on my guard, wondering what I’d done as I walked behind him. I felt like a naughty school boy about to face the headmaster’s wrath. Pushing the door open to his dressing room, Rick emptied his pockets throwing a pack of cards and some chewing gum on the table before turning around and perching his arse on the end of it.
Twisting his mouth he then took a deep breath and stared me square in the eye.
“Mya.”
I knew straight away he’d caught me checking her out. I figured I had to play it how I normally would or he’d be even more scathing towards me.
“Yup. Very good that’s a word. It’s also a pronoun. Good job, Rick.” I smirked cheekily, raising one eyebrow to try and look cock-sure of myself even though I was feeling anything but.
“You can stop with the shit, Jack. I’ve seen how you look at her, you’ve been eye-fucking her for the last week. Let’s get something straight. I’m not keen. Not because I don’t like you. I do. And I don’t think that you aren’t good enough for her because you are. My issue is that she’s young and quite innocent, so if you fuck with her heart and let her down I’ll have to break your balls. It would be a problem for me because I’ve grown fond of you, but as much as I like you, we’d no longer be friends. So make sure your intentions are of the best kind, I’d hate for you to piss me off. Your life could suddenly get pretty uncomfortable.”
Sweat beads had formed on my back during our conversation. I had been expecting him to warn me off instead he’d kind of given me his blessing, as long as I didn’t fuck it up. All of that was supposition though because I’d never given Mya any hint that my feelings were shifting, and as far as I knew hers hadn’t.
“If I’m honest, I do like Mya, Rick, however, we’ve never been anything but friends and although I feel ready to take a risk, I’m not sure Mya sees me that way. And like you said, she’s very young.”
Rick snorted and shook his head in disbelief.
“For fuck’s sake, Jack, all women see you that way. You are a walking, talking cock as far as they’re concerned. Funny as fuck and not bad to look at, that’s a lethal combination to them. Even when you’re with me, they notice you.” Rick sniggered and ran his hand through his hair looking slightly embarrassed.
“Shit that sounded big headed, what I mean is, I’m supposed to be the main attraction, right? But not when you’re in the room as well. You have a kind of draw, like your cock is magnetic and I can’t think of one person that doesn’t like you. Anyway, ask her out if you want because she’s boring the fuck out of me with her, ‘Jack this and Jack that’ shit. I’m tired of her talking about you all the fucking time so you better put her, and me, out of our misery.”
“It’s only been a month since Rosie blew me out, Rick, I’m not sure.”
Rick cut across. “Why are you even talking about that girl? She wasn’t right for you, Jack. You need someone that’s going to be able to deal with your smart mouth and from what I saw of her, she had no idea how to handle you. Mya’s mature for her age, but the kid inside bursts out of her every now and again. She’d give as good as she gets from you, you’re a match made in heaven on that score. I’ve watched the two of you and it’s hilarious. I can’t think of another word for it.”
“Let’s just see where it goes, I’m not going to force anything.” I replied, feeling happier about liking her.
After my talk with Rick I was more self-aware when Mya was near me. I felt a bit awkward around her and wondered if Rick had mentioned anything to her because there was an air of expectation between us. Something had shifted and I wasn’t sure if it was because I knew that Rick knew or because of what he’d said about Mya, or maybe it was because I was behaving differently without being aware.
Our feelings bubbled over in a completely natural way one night soon after. Cobham Street had just given a particularly awesome performance and had taken to the stage to perform their encore. The song they had chosen wasn’t their usual closing song but an older one that was especially popular during their early days.
Mya and I were standing under the stage talking between numbers when she instantly went nuts when she heard the intro. Watching her bobbing around with her eyes closed as she sang along and got lost in the music was amazing. She was an incredibly beautiful girl and loved by all the crew and at times like that I could see why. Mya had no inhibitions as far as music was concerned and couldn’t have cared less whether anyone saw her enjoying the song.
Singing loudly, she opened her eyes and saw me staring, totally captivated by her. I knew I was grinning like a fool because I loved it when she did stuff like this. Suddenly she grabbed my hand and began to dance with me and I let myself go and joined in.
We were both laughing and Mya was striking some silly poses so I threw in a few of my own until we were helplessly chuckling. Somehow we started to compete against each other as to who could pull the most outrageous moves. I didn’t feel stupid at all around her being that playful.
When the song had finished, she collapsed into me and my arms automatically curled around her little body. As she stared up at me, it just felt right to dip my head and plant a chaste kiss on her lips. I was just about to release my hold on her when Mya reached up, placing her hand at the back of my head and pushed my mouth back towards hers.
Instantly, desire rushed through my body with the heady effect of Mya’s sensual kiss. My hormones ignited passion in all the right places. The sensation of her tongue when it met mine felt incredible and our kiss was slow and unhurried as we enjoyed the taste of each other.
She groaned into my mouth and I walked slowly backwards, still holding her tightly against me and continued our kiss. When my heels hit the wall I spun her around sharply, pinning her back firmly against it with my body.
Instinctively, my hands slid from her waist down her hips and over the globes of her arse pulling her closer to me, but it still wasn’t close enough. Mya whimpered and sagged against me, her hand sliding under my shirt to sweep up over my skin. Goosebumps erupted over me and I growled, breathlessly breaking the kiss as I pushed her away from me gently and stared at her for a moment.
“Wow. Um…wow.”
Mya stared back at me wide-eyed and panted slightly. Her eyes became heavy with lust and her face flushed from the aftermath of our kiss. Her chest rose and fell rapidly as she visibly fought to get her feelings in check and I imagined that I looked pretty similar to her. After a moment Mya hugged herself then started to fidget awkwardly with her clothing.
“Um…I don’t know why I did that.” Her eyes searched mine for some reassurance and she tucked a lock of stray hair behind her ear.
Mya had definitely lit a spark in me that I hadn’t felt in a while and although I wanted to reassure her, I was too busy enjoying the moment so I kept it going by flirting with her.
“Oh, sweetheart, don’t worry, I always have that effect on women, I think it’s this aftershave I’m wearing. Women have been known to throw their underwear at me. You’ve shown amazing restraint, I was beginning to think you were a guy or I was the wrong gender.”
Mya grinned her eyes widening at what I said and replied, “Actually, I was thinking you were a bit dense and that I was going to have to resort to that if this didn’t work.”
Rick was right. Mya knew exactly how to deal with my stupid banter. She was a lot like Lily in that way. My comparison made me think about Lily for a moment. I missed her. About two weeks ago she stopped texting and I noticed the day she did.
Mya dragged me out of my reverie when she coughed to get my attention.
“Hey where did you go? Did I say someth
ing wrong?” Glancing back at her, I realised I had been daydreaming and quickly recovered my train of thought.
“Actually, I was just reminding myself about all that lingerie. I have them in a drawer in my office desk at work in London, if you come back with me I’ll show them to you. You never know, you may pick up some fashion tips for under those ripped jeans of yours.”
Suddenly my stomach rumbled with hunger and I began to lead her up towards the seating at the side of the stage that’s reserved for band members’ wives and guests. Turning to her, I asked if she’d like to go out to dinner, just the two of us. I knew instantly that she was delighted at my suggestion to spend time alone together, her face lit up as she smiled warmly at me. Her eyes glittered as the stage lighting reflected in them when she looked happily back at me. I was expecting her to agree but her next comment blew me away.
“Dinner’s good but I’d rather go home and have sex with you. We’ve been doing dinners and a lot of safe-touching foreplay for weeks and I’m about ready for the play. And anyway, I’ve seen how you eat, I’d like to see what other skills you have.”
Mya’s words had a direct hit on my dick and my hard erection willed me to grab a hold of her. I was choked by her bluntness for a second before I regained my composure and swept my hand around her waist to pull her tightly against me. Her eyes flicked to my mouth then back to my eyes again as she licked her lips. Her chest heaved in response to my sudden move on her. Smiling slowly at how my actions had caught her off guard just like her words had me; I dipped my head and placed a quick soft kiss on her closed mouth.
“Hmm…not sure, that depends on those all-important knickers you’re wearing. I’m very particular in my tastes.”
Mya’s smile was as sexy as sin and she patted her own arse.
“Aww well sorry, Jack. I think you are definitely going to be disappointed there. I don’t wear any.”
“Well non-existent lingerie is my favourite type of underwear, how did you know? In that case, Mya, I’d love to have sex with you.” I replied, playfully wagging my eyebrows.
If I was being honest I wasn’t sure if she was serious or not but I wasn’t taking any chances. I excused myself to go to the toilet and went in search of a condom machine. My dick felt like it was going to break in my trousers after her suggestion, and I honestly thought the casual way she delivered it was off-the-charts hot. I knew I’d definitely go along with her request but after my nearly-a-father moment with Rosie, I wasn’t going anywhere without protection.
Mya was sitting alone when I got back to the hospitality area and I wasn’t sure what to say so I offered her dinner again. She opted for takeout and we set off back to the hotel, collecting it on the way. I’ll admit I was nervous, it was probably the first time I had ever really felt nervous about being one-on-one with a girl. I had a feeling it was because she had the potential to mean a lot to me, but at the same time, I kept thinking about how young she was, where she lived and a whole list of other things that told me to proceed with caution.
With Rosie it was a physical attraction that turned into more for us, with Mya, we had an amazing emotional connection, our hidden desires for each other have only just surfaced.
A couple of things worried me; I was still getting over my feelings for Rosie and I didn’t want Mya playing with my fragile emotions, and I certainly didn’t want to play with hers. However, when she kissed me, the moment her lips touched mine, I had to admit that I’d been falling for her from the moment I set eyes on her.
Chapter 26 ~ Different
As we stood waiting for the lift in the hotel foyer, I began to think about how the last two girls I had been with had treated me. It was like I was more of an object than a person, a means to an end. I couldn’t pretend to be surprised, that’s exactly what they were to me. We’d used each other—it’s the definition of a one-night stand.
In normal circumstances everyone saw me as some kind of playboy. For a long time I thought the girls I had been with was by mutual consent and everything between us was on equal terms. However, in hindsight it was actually more like they’d hit on me that we’d ended up together, rather than me actively seeking them out.
Glancing down at Mya I saw the way she was staring up at me and if I wasn’t mistaken it looked like adoration. We stepped into the lift and there was an awkward silence between us as we stood side by side. Since our kiss, I’d caught her watching me intensely but it wasn’t like some lust-crazed drunken female who wanted a quick fuck. No, Mya’s observations of me were measured and her smile was open when we had made eye contact during those times. She didn’t give me the usual predatory appraisal I had become accustomed to from the women I usually slept with.
From spending time with Mya, I had learned a lot about her. We’d shared some intense and intimate conversations during the previous few weeks and often sat together late into the night when everyone else had disappeared off to bed. She was incredibly easy to talk to and I opened up to her about my thoughts and feelings for Rosie and why I wasn’t talking to Lily. She empathised with me about that, but was careful not to take a side. It showed her honest character and I noted she was actually quite a dignified and refined girl despite her playful flirting.
Touring with Cobham Street was disconcerting at times, and yet Mya absorbed all of the crude banter and coarse behaviour whilst still managing to stay grounded and feminine. I loved that about her.
Above everything else, Mya was the only girl who had taken the time to know me before deciding she wanted more. That put her in a class all by herself. But it made me nervous. I’d never thought about how I performed sexually with women before, sex came naturally and I knew exactly what I needed to do to please them, but I somehow felt a pressure to get it right for her.
Suddenly my experience with women was something I was pretty ashamed of when I looked at Mya. Maybe it was because she looked young and quite innocent, but sometimes it takes that experience to know when someone special comes along, and I had a feeling that Mya was definitely something special.
When she leaned over to press the lift button, I noted that she had pressed the button for her floor instead of mine and I wondered if she was backing out. Was she just joking around earlier and isn’t serious about taking us further? Suddenly my head was full of doubts when all I wanted was for this to be real between us. Quickly thinking back to the journey back to the hotel, I realised that we hadn’t touched since that one simple kiss.
I was still musing about the plan when the lift door opened on Mya’s floor and immediately her hand reached out, slipping into mine. My fingers clasped around it instantly and I felt the warmth emanated with the comfort of her touch.
“We’re going to my room is that okay with you?” A faint quiver in her smile gave away her nervousness, so I tried to put her at her ease.
“Sure, whatever makes you most comfortable, love.”
Mya smiled up at me again but that time it was more one of relief anything else. Swiping the key card in the lock, the green light flashed and we heard the soft click of the latch. Mya leaned her weight on the door and pulled down on the handle to open the door. She flicked the light switch on with me tagging along behind her because I was still holding her hand.
Placing the key on the dressing table, Mya turned and sat against it. She stared nervously at me and her appearance gave me an immediate understanding. Mya wasn’t used to inviting men back to her room. My heart squeezed at the thought that she’d had the balls to do it in the first place, and I knew that I had to take charge of the situation to put her at her ease.
Slowly I let go of her hand and stepped into her space, placing my hands either side of the dressing table but making sure not to touch her.
“What are we doing, Mya? Are you sure this is what you want?”
Her eyes were piercing as she stared back into mine, they quickly flicked to my mouth and then back before she answered.
“As sure as a girl can be in a strange hotel room, miles fro
m home, but this won’t be a one night stand, Jack. I don’t screw around. If that’s what you’re after then I am not the girl for you.”
“Good, because I’m so bored of those girls. I know you’re different, Mya. I can feel it in here.”
I took one hand off the dresser to tap my chest before placing it back next to hers. Mya’s eyes nervously searched mine as she swallowed audibly, took a deep breath and exhaled a shaky sigh.
“Actually, I’m scared, Jack.” She bit her lip in thought and inhaled sharply before shaking her head.
“I don’t know what I’m doing. I like you a lot. No, that’s wrong, I’m kind of infatuated with you, but I don’t want to start something and lose our friendship. I really connect with you and I’ve had that with a guy before but only once. Girls, yes, but another guy…”
My gut reaction was to offer her reassurance and I surprised myself at my openness.
“I understand, love. I get where you are, I imagine you’re feeling exactly how I felt when I had a crush on Lily years ago.”
Mya looked alarmed by my confession, but I pushed through it and continued to explain myself.
“But being with Lily would have been wrong. She’s like family and that would have ruined what we had and fucked the both of us up for relationships with other people because the lines would have been blurred. This thing that you’re feeling, correct me if I’m wrong, but we’re two people who have no sexual or personal history, who have connected on an emotional level and it doesn’t seem enough for either of us anymore. You want to get closer physically, right?”
Slowly, her lips curved upwards until she had a wide beaming smile on her face.
“Jack Cunningham you really get it, don’t you? You feel that as well? Do you know how many days I’ve wanted to just climb over your knees and straddle you, then kiss your face off?”
I laughed at her comment and waggled my eyebrows at her in an attempt to cover my own nervousness. I understood her completely, and I was definitely on the same page.
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