Leaving the studio, he was still tense, but the open car pulled the summer evening up close, and he looked at it. There was a moon down at the end of the boulevard, and it was a good illusion that it was a different moon every evening, every year. Other lights shone in Hollywood since Minna’s death: in the open markets lemons and grapefruit and green apples slanted a misty glare into the street. Ahead of him the stop-signal of a car winked violet and at another crossing he watched it wink again. Everywhere floodlights raked the sky. On an empty corner two mysterious men moved a gleaming drum in pointless arcs over the heavens.
In the drug-store a woman stood by the candy counter. She was tall, almost as tall as Stahr, and embarrassed. Obviously it was a situation for her, and if Stahr had not looked as he did—most considerate and polite—she would not have gone through with it. They said hello, and walked out without another word, scarcely a glance—yet before they reached the curb Stahr knew: this was just exactly a pretty American woman and nothing more—no beauty like Minna.
“Where are we going?” she asked. “I thought there’d be a chauffeur. Never mind—I’m a good boxer.”
“Boxer?”
“That didn’t sound very polite.” She forced a smile. “But you people are supposed to be such horrors.”
The conception of himself as sinister amused Stahr—then suddenly it failed to amuse him.
“Why did you want to see me?” she asked as she got in.
He stood motionless, wanting to tell her to get out immediately. But she had relaxed in the car, and he knew the unfortunate situation was of his own making—he shut his teeth and walked around to get in. The street lamp fell full upon her face, and it was difficult to believe that this was the girl of last night. He saw no resemblance to Minna at all.
“I’ll run you home,” he said. “Where do you live?”
“Run me home?” She was startled. “There’s no hurry—I’m sorry if I offended you.”
“No. It was nice of you to come. I’ve been stupid. Last night I had an idea that you were an exact double for someone I knew. It was dark and the light was in my eyes.”
She was offended—he had reproached her for not looking like someone else.
“It was just that!” she said. “That’s funny.”
They rode in silence for a minute.
“You were married to Minna Davis, weren’t you?” she said with a flash of intuition. “Excuse me for referring to it.”
He was driving as fast as he could without making it conspicuous.
“I’m quite a different type from Minna Davis,” she said, “—if that’s who you meant. You might have referred to the girl who was with me. She looks more like Minna Davis than I do.”
That was of no interest now. The thing was to get this over quick and forget it.
“Could it have been her?” she asked. “She lives next door.”
“Not possibly,” he said. “I remember the silver belt you wore.”
“That was me all right.”
They were northwest of Sunset, climbing one of the canyons through the hills. Lighted bungalows rose along the winding road, and the electric current that animated them sweated into the evening air as radio sound.
“You see that last highest light—Kathleen lives there. I live just over the top of the hill.”
A moment later she said, “Stop here.”
“I thought you said over the top.”
“I want to stop at Kathleen’s.”
“I’m afraid I’m—–”
“I want to get out here myself,” she said impatiently.
Stahr slid out after her. She started toward a new little house almost roofed over by a single willow tree, and automatically he followed her to the steps. She rang a bell and turned to say good night.
“I’m sorry you were disappointed,” she said.
He was sorry for her now—sorry for them both.
“It was my fault. Good night.”
A wedge of light came out the opening door, and as a girl’s voice inquired, “Who is it?” Stahr looked up.
There she was—face and form and smile against the light from inside. It was Minna’s face—the skin with its peculiar radiance as if phosphorus had touched it, the mouth with its warm line that never counted costs—and over all the haunting jollity that had fascinated a generation.
With a leap his heart went out of him as it had the night before, only this time it stayed out there with a vast beneficence.
“Oh, Edna, you can’t come in,” the girl said. “I’ve been cleaning and the house is full of ammonia smell.”
Edna began to laugh, bold and loud. “I believe it was you he wanted to see, Kathleen,” she said.
Stahr’s eyes and Kathleen’s met and tangled. For an instant they made love as no one ever dares to do after. Their glance was slower than an embrace, more urgent than a call.
“He telephoned me,” said Edna. “It seems he thought—–”
Stahr interrupted, stepping forward into the light.
“I was afraid we were rude at the studio, yesterday evening.”
But there were no words for what he really said. She listened closely without shame. Life flared high in them both—Edna seemed at a distance and in darkness.
“You weren’t rude,” said Kathleen. A cool wind blew the brown curls around her forehead. “We had no business there.”
“I hope you’ll both,” Stahr said, “come and make a tour of the studio.”
“Who are you? Somebody important?”
“He was Minna Davis’s husband, he’s a producer,” said Edna, as if it were a rare joke, “—and this isn’t at all what he just told me. I think he has a crush on you.”
“Shut up, Edna,” said Kathleen sharply.
As if suddenly realizing her offensiveness, Edna said, “Phone me, will you?” and stalked away toward the road. But she carried their secret with her—she had seen a spark pass between them in the darkness.
“I remember you,” Kathleen said to Stahr. “You got us out of the flood.”
Now what? The other woman was more missed in her absence. They were alone and on too slim a basis for what had passed already. They existed nowhere. His world seemed far away—she had no world at all except the idol’s head, the half open door.
“You’re Irish,” he said, trying to build one for her.
She nodded.
“I’ve lived in London a long time—I didn’t think you could tell.”
The wild green eyes of a bus sped up the road in the darkness. They were silent until it went by.
“Your friend Edna didn’t like me,” he said. “I think it was the word Producer.”
“She’s just come out here, too. She’s a silly creature who means no harm. I shouldn’t be afraid of you.”
She searched his face. She thought, like everyone, that he seemed tired—then she forgot it at the impression he gave of a brazier out of doors on a cool night.
“I suppose the girls are all after you to put them on the screen.”
“They’ve given up,” he said.
This was an understatement—they were all there, he knew, just over his threshold, but they had been there so long that their clamoring voices were no more than the sound of the traffic in the street. But his position remained more than royal: a king could make only one queen; Stahr, at least so they supposed, could make many.
“I’m thinking that it would turn you into a cynic,” she said. “You didn’t want to put me in the pictures?”
“No.”
“That’s good. I’m no actress. Once in London a man came up to me in the Carlton and asked me to make a test, but I thought awhile and finally I didn’t go.”
They had been standing nearly motionless, as if in a moment he would leave and she would go in. Stahr laughed suddenly.
“I feel as if I had my foot in the door—like a collector.”
She laughed, too.
“I’m sorry I can’t ask you in. Shall I get my reef
er and sit outside?”
“No.” He scarcely knew why he felt it was time to go. He might see her again—he might not. It was just as well this way.
“You’ll come to the studio?” he said. “I can’t promise to go around with you, but if you come, you must be sure to send word to my office.”
A frown, the shadow of a hair in breadth, appeared between her eyes.
“I’m not sure,” she said. “But I’m very much obliged.”
He knew that, for some reason, she would not come—in an instant she had slipped away from him. They both sensed that the moment was played out. He must go, even though he went nowhere, and it left him with nothing. Practically, vulgarly, he did not have her telephone number—or even her name; but it seemed impossible to ask for them now.
She walked with him to the car, her glowing beauty and her unexplored novelty pressing up against him; but there was a foot of moonlight between them when they came out of the shadow.
“Is this all?” he said spontaneously.
He saw regret in her face—but there was a flick of the lip, also, a bending of the smile toward some indirection, a momentary dropping and lifting of a curtain over a forbidden passage.
“I do hope we’ll meet again,” she said almost formally.
“I’d be sorry if we didn’t.”
They were distant for a moment. But as he turned his car in the next drive and came back with her still waiting, and waved and drove on, he felt exalted and happy. He was glad that there was beauty in the world that would not be weighed in the scales of the casting department.
But at home he felt a curious loneliness as his butler made him tea in the samovar. It was the old hurt come back, heavy and delightful. When he took up the first of two scripts that were his evening stint, that presently he would visualize line by line on the screen, he waited a moment, thinking of Minna. He explained to her that it was really nothing, that no one could ever be like she was, that he was sorry.
That was substantially a day of Stahr’s. I don’t know about the illness, when it started, etc., because he was secretive, but I know he fainted a couple of times that month because Father told me. Prince Agge is my authority for the luncheon in the commissary where he told them he was going to make a picture that would lose money—which was something, considering the men he had to deal with and that he held a big block of stock and had a profit-sharing contract.
And Wylie White told me a lot, which I believed because he felt Stahr intensely with a mixture of jealousy and admiration. As for me, I was head over heels in love with him then, and you can take what I say for what it’s worth.
Chapter V
Fresh as the morning, I went up to see him a week later. Or so I thought; when Wylie called for me, I had gotten into riding clothes to give the impression I’d been out in the dew since early morning.
“I’m going to throw myself under the wheel of Stahr’s car, this morning,” I said.
“How about this car?” he suggested. “It’s one of the best cars Mort Fleishacker ever sold second-hand.”
“Not on your flowing veil,” I answered like a book. “You have a wife in the East.”
“She’s the past,” he said. “You’ve got one great card, Celia—your valuation of yourself. Do you think anybody would look at you if you weren’t Pat Brady’s daughter?”
We don’t take abuse like our mothers would have. Nothing—no remark from a contemporary means much. They tell you to be smart, they’re marrying you for your money, or you tell them. Everything’s simpler. Or is it? as we used to say.
But as I turned on the radio and the car raced up Laurel Canyon to The Thundering Beat of My Heart, I didn’t believe he was right. I had good features except my face was too round, and a skin they seemed to love to touch, and good legs, and I didn’t have to wear a brassiere. I haven’t a sweet nature, but who was Wylie to reproach me for that?
“Don’t you think I’m smart to go in the morning?” I asked.
“Yeah. To the busiest man in California. He’ll appreciate it. Why didn’t you wake him up at four?”
“That’s just it. At night he’s tired. He’s been looking at people all day, and some of them not bad. I come in in the morning and start a train of thought.”
“I don’t like it. It’s brazen.”
“What have you got to offer? And don’t be rough.”
“I love you,” he said, without much conviction, “I love you more than I love your money, and that’s plenty. Maybe your father would make me a supervisor.”
“I could marry the last man tapped for Bones this year and live in Southampton.”
I turned the dial and got either Gone or Lost—there were good songs that year. The music was getting better again. When I was young during the depression, it wasn’t so hot, and the best numbers were from the twenties, like Benny Goodman playing Blue Heaven or Paul Whiteman with When Day Is Done. There were only the bands to listen to. But now I liked almost everything except Father singing Little Girl, You’ve Had a Busy Day to try to create a sentimental father-and-daughter feeling.
Lost and Gone were the wrong mood, so I turned again and got Lovely to Look At, which was my kind of poetry. I looked back as we crossed the crest of the foothills—with the air so clear you could see the leaves on Sunset Mountain two miles away. It’s startling to you sometimes—just air, unobstructed, uncomplicated air.
“Lovely to look at—de-lightful to know-w,” I sang.
“Are you going to sing for Stahr?” Wylie said. “If you do, get in a line about my being a good supervisor.”
“Oh, this’ll be only Stahr and me,” I said. “He’s going to look at me and think, ‘I’ve never really seen her before.’”
“We don’t use that line this year,” he said.
“—Then he’ll say ‘Little Cecilia,’ like he did the night of the earthquake. He’ll say he never noticed I have become a woman.”
“You won’t have to do a thing.”
“I’ll stand there and bloom. After he kisses me as you would a child—–”
“That’s all in my script,” complained Wylie, “and I’ve got to show it to him tomorrow.”
“—he’ll sit down and put his face in his hands and say he never thought of me like that.”
“You mean you get in a little fast work during the kiss?”
“I bloom, I told you. How often do I have to tell you I bloom.”
“It’s beginning to sound pretty randy to me,” said Wylie. “How about laying off—I’ve got to work this morning.”
“Then he says it seems as if he was always meant to be this way.”
“Right in the industry. Producer’s blood.” He pretended to shiver. “I’d hate to have a transfusion of that.”
“Then he says—–”
“I know all his lines,” said Wylie. “What I want to know is what you say.”
“Somebody comes in,” I went on.
“And you jump up quickly off the casting couch, smoothing your skirts.”
“Do you want me to walk out and get home?”
We were in Beverly Hills, getting very beautiful now with the tall Hawaiian pines. Hollywood is a perfectly zoned city, so you know exactly what kind of people economically live in each section, from executives and directors, through technicians in their bungalows, right down to extras. This was the executive section and a very fancy lot of pastry. It wasn’t as romantic as the dingiest village of Virginia or New Hampshire, but it looked nice this morning.
“They asked me how I knew,” sang the radio, “—my true love was true.”
My heart was fire, and smoke was in my eyes and everything, but I figured my chance at about fifty-fifty. I would walk right up to him as if I was either going to walk through him or kiss him on the mouth—and stop a bare foot away and say “Hello” with disarming understatement.
And I did—though of course it wasn’t like I expected: Stahr’s beautiful dark eyes looking back into mine, knowing, I am dead sur
e, everything I was thinking—and not a bit embarrassed. I stood there an hour, I think, without moving, and all he did was twitch the side of his mouth and put his hands in his pocket.
“Will you go with me to the ball tonight?” I asked.
“What ball?”
“The screen-writers’ ball down at the Ambassador.”
“Oh, yes.” He considered. “I can’t go with you. I might just come in late. We’ve got a sneak preview in Glendale.”
How different it all was from what you’d planned. When he sat down, I went over and put my head among his telephones, like a sort of desk appendage, and looked at him; and his dark eyes looked back so kind and nothing. Men don’t often know those times when a girl could be had for nothing. All I succeeded in putting into his head was:
“Why don’t you get married, Celia?”
Maybe he’d bring up Robby again, try to make a match there.
“What could I do to interest an interesting man?” I asked him.
“Tell him you’re in love with him.”
“Should I chase him?”
“Yes,” he said smiling.
“I don’t know. If it isn’t there, it isn’t there.”
“I’d marry you,” he said unexpectedly. “I’m lonesome as hell. But I’m too old and tired to undertake anything.”
I went around the desk and stood beside him.
“Undertake me.”
He looked up in surprise, understanding for the first time that I was in deadly earnest.
“Oh, no,” he said. He looked almost miserable for a minute. “Pictures are my girl. I haven’t got much time—–” He corrected himself quickly, “I mean any time. It’d be like marrying a doctor.”
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