by Tina Duncan
Slowly, he withdrew his mouth from hers. ‘One,’ he breathed. ‘Two,’ he said, and plundered her mouth again.
By the time he lifted his mouth from hers, Katrina’s legs were trembling so badly she was in danger of falling down. She staggered backwards and collapsed in her seat.
Neither said anything for a moment. Silence filled with the beat of desire wrapped around them.
Alex was the first to break it. He cleared his throat before speaking. ‘I want Sam to go to the best school we can afford. I don’t know a lot about how this works, but I should imagine we might have to put her name down somewhere quite early. Why don’t you do some research into our options? If you come up with a short-list we can register our intentions with a couple of schools.’
Katrina, who had been educated more than adequately in a state school, opened her mouth to argue but just as quickly shut it again. From previous comments, it was clear Alex’s experience had not been as good as hers. If he wanted to send Samantha to an expensive school, then who was she to argue?
She picked up her pen and tapped the end on the table. ‘Maybe I should look at schools first. It might influence where we decide to live.’
‘Good idea.’
She snapped her diary closed. ‘Well, that ought to keep me busy for a while.’
‘I haven’t finished yet,’ Alex said smoothly.
Her eyebrows shot towards her hairline. ‘What else is there?’
He looked at her with a glint in his eyes.
Katrina couldn’t help it; she laughed. She held up her hands in mock surrender. ‘I know, I know. Kisses.’
She propped her elbows on the table and leaned forwards. Alex met her halfway.
This time when they kissed only their mouths touched.
But that was enough. More than enough. When it was over they both collapsed back into their seats.
Katrina felt dazed, as if she’d been plugged into an electrical outlet and the power switched on to full voltage. There were so many sensations racing through her system she half-expected her hair to stand on end before emitting fiery sparks.
Alex appeared similarly affected, although he was the first to recover.
He raked a hand through his hair. His eyes were such a dark blue they appeared almost black. ‘OK. Now, where was I? Yes, that’s right; I almost forgot. I have a couple of functions coming up. I’d like you to attend them with me.’
Katrina dragged in a deep breath and tried to concentrate. ‘What kind of functions?’
‘They’re business dinners—which brings me to my last suggestion.’
Katrina went to stand up but his next words stopped her. ‘No, don’t get up. I’ll collect my payment afterwards. In bed.’
Anticipation burned a hole in her stomach. Excitement made a pulse beat at the apex of her thighs.
‘OK. What is it?’ she asked breathlessly.
‘We’re going to need some kind of childcare if you’re going to attend functions with me.’
The suggestion caught her off-guard. If felt as though a bucket of cold water had just been poured over her. A hollow formed inside her. Her breath hitched in the back of her throat.
‘I’ve never been separated from Sam before,’ she said doubtfully.
‘It has to happen some time.’
Katrina stared at Sam, who was watching the brightly coloured butterfly mobile dangling over her head.
The thought of being separated from her baby for even a short time made her feel uncomfortable. Yet the last thing she wanted was turn into one of those over-protective mothers.
‘It wouldn’t be for very long,’ Alex encouraged softly. ‘Just a couple of hours to start with.’
‘I know.’ Her mouth twisted. ‘I’m being silly.’
Alex shook his head. ‘No, you’re not. You’re just being protective, which is what every mother should be. Never apologise for that. Never.’
He spoke so fervently that Katrina knew he had to be talking from personal experience. She wanted to ask what had happened to make him feel that way, but wasn’t sure how to frame the question hovering on the tip of her tongue.
In the end she swallowed the words back. There was more than one way to skin a cat. She could ask the same question in a roundabout way. ‘I don’t like the idea of leaving Sam with strangers. Maybe your mother could look after her?’
Even before she’d finished speaking, Alex was shaking his head. ‘I don’t think so.’
‘Why not? I’d much rather have her minded by a relative. I’d have thought you’d prefer that too.’
‘In some instances relatives can be worse than strangers,’ Alex said roughly.
‘Oh.’
A void opened up inside her, filled with cold and whistling winds.
‘Just what kind of family did he come from?’ It was only when she saw the way Alex was staring at her that Katrina realised she’d asked the question out loud.
‘Let’s just say that being strong and protective weren’t my mother’s strong points,’ Alex said in the same grim voice. ‘When I was a kid I could have done with someone like you fighting in my corner. I admire you for the way you’ve fought for Sam every step of the way.’
A wedge of emotion formed in the back of her throat. It wasn’t so much what Alex had said that made her feel sad but what he hadn’t said. Instinct warned her that when he’d described his childhood as being lousy it had been an understatement.
‘You haven’t told your family about Sam, have you?’ she asked quietly.
Alex couldn’t hide his surprise. ‘How did you know that?’
She shrugged. ‘It was a simple matter of deduction. If you’d told your mother, she’d have been around here in a flash. After all, I’m presuming Sam is her first grandchild?’
‘Yes, she is.’
Katrina squeezed her hands tightly together in front of her. ‘Why didn’t you tell them?’
She could tell from the look on Alex’s face that this was a conversation he would prefer to avoid. ‘As you’ve no doubt gathered, we’re not close. What you don’t know is that my family is actually a disaster.’
The look in his eyes chilled her to the bone. Her scalp contracted. Her stomach shrunk to the size of a pea.
Alex raked a hand through his hair and towards the back of his neck, got halfway through then stopped the action abruptly. ‘I’ll tell you the bare bones and then I don’t want to talk about it again. OK?’
‘OK.’
Her stomach shrunk some more until it felt in danger of disappearing altogether.
‘My father was abusive.’
The world stilled and then tilted in on its axis. Her heart hammered.
‘What…what do you mean by “abusive”?’ She could hardly get the word out. Even the taste of it on her tongue was obscene.
His eyes didn’t waver from hers. ‘I won’t go into details. Suffice to say that my brother and I were mistreated both emotionally and physically by him.’
Katrina gasped; she couldn’t help it. Her hand crept protectively to the base of her throat. ‘That’s awful.’
She didn’t think Alex even heard her. He barked out a harsh laugh that had no amusement in it. ‘He always claimed that he hurt us for our own good, so that we’d grow up to be good and strong. You know? Character building. It was a lie, of course. He was just a sick bully who got what he deserved in the end.’
The hand at her throat inched higher. When he’d mentioned being bullied she’d never imagined that it had been at the hands of his own father. ‘What…what happened to him?’
The eyes that met hers were as cold as chips of blue ice. ‘I put him behind bars where he belongs.’
‘He’s in prison?’
Alex nodded. ‘He received a thirty-five-year sentence. Frankly, I hope he never gets out.’
A shiver made its way up and down her spine. ‘I’m sorry, Alex. I can’t imagine what you must have gone through.’
‘It was a long time ago,’ he said dis
missively. ‘I kept hoping my mother would stop him, but she didn’t.’
An invisible hand reached into her chest and twisted—hard. ‘She was probably too scared.’
‘That’s what she said. One of the charities I sponsor is for the victims of domestic violence. I’ve heard a lot of stories over the years, so I know how easy it is for these situations to escalate. Mum was in an impossible position. I know that—with my head. But in my heart I’ve always found it difficult to forgive her.’
‘I can understand that,’ Katrina said softly. ‘But not everyone is as strong as you. I’m sure she did her best in her own way.’
‘Maybe.’ His answer was clearly noncommittal.
‘And your brother…?’
If she’d thought his expression had been grim until now, it was nothing to the bleakness that etched into every line of his face when she asked that question. ‘I tried to protect him as best I could but it wasn’t enough.’
Once again it was what Alex had left out that was revealing. No doubt by trying to protect his brother Alex had had to endure more himself.
‘Michael couldn’t cope,’ Alex continued. ‘He found his escape in drugs.’
Her heart contracted. ‘Oh no. That’s so sad.’
She remembered back to the conversation between Alex and Dr Kershew that day in his surgery. The doctor had told Alex that if there was anything he could do to help all he had to do was call. And Alex had replied that the first step was up to Michael. No doubt Michael Webber’s drug addiction was what they’d been talking about.
‘You’ve tried to help him, haven’t you?’ she asked.
Alex raked a hand through his hair and around the back of his neck again. He seemed to have aged during their conversation. ‘Of course I’ve tried. He’s my little brother. But Michael hates rehab and always refuses to go. Twice I’ve virtually kidnapped him when he’s either been passed out or so high he didn’t know what was going on around him. I’ve admitted him to the private clinic, but each time he’s simply walked out.’
Katrina placed a hand on his arm. ‘I’m sorry. That must be difficult for you.’
‘It is.’ He sounded weary. ‘Every time I see him, I try and persuade him to get help, but he never listens.’
‘Maybe he’s just scared.’
‘Maybe.’ Alex splayed his hands wide and gave her a twisted smile that held not an ounce of humour. ‘So, there you have it—the Webber family, warts and all.’
Katrina was silent for a long moment. It was difficult to know what to say that wasn’t trivial or meaningless. ‘Well, I can understand why you wouldn’t want your mother looking after Sam, but I’d still like to meet her one day. And your brother.’
‘One day.’
Katrina sighed. His response suggested that it wouldn’t be any time soon. ‘Which brings us back to childcare for Sam.’
He looked relieved that she’d changed the subject.
‘Yes. Like you, I want to make sure Sam is looked after properly. I don’t want to risk anything happening to her.’ The acidic tone of his voice made it clear he was thinking of his childhood and what had happened to him. ‘Which rules out babysitters. I don’t want a parade of different people coming and going.’
‘So, what do you suggest? It sounds to me as though we’ve ruled out just about everything.’
‘Not quite.’ Alex smiled in an obvious attempt to shake off the serious mood that had settled over them. ‘I was thinking about a part-time nanny. Someone who is available for a set number of hours per week but flexible about when they’ll be required. If we offer a generous salary, we should attract some excellent candidates.’
Katrina nodded thoughtfully. ‘It sounds like our best bet. But I suspect it won’t be easy to find the right person.’
‘I know. We’re both going to be picky. But there has to be someone out there who we’ll be happy with.’
Katrina shrugged. ‘Well, we won’t know until we try, I suppose.’
‘So, there you have it.’ He gave her a pointed look. ‘With that lot, you’ll be too busy to think about going back to work.’
Katrina’s smile dimmed a little. ‘I don’t know about that. They’re all projects that won’t last more than a month or two.’
‘By then there will be other things, like decorating the new house.’
‘Don’t push, Alex. I’ve already said I’ll think about it. OK?’
‘OK.’ His eyes glinted. ‘Now, there’s just the little matter of payment to take care of.’ He held out his hand. ‘Come here, woman.’
Katrina waved her hand at their half-empty plates. ‘What about breakfast?’
Alex snagged her hand and pulled her towards him. ‘Forget the food. I have another appetite that needs feeding.’
CHAPTER NINE
ON MONDAY morning Alex was getting dressed in the bedroom Katrina now shared with him when he heard her murmur, ‘Good morning,’ behind him.
He looked up and smiled then moved to the side of the bed. ‘Good morning. Did you sleep well?’
She nodded. ‘I did.’
‘So did I. No doubt it’s all that fresh air we got yesterday,’ he said, referring to their trip to Centennial Park to feed the ducks. It was their daughter’s first experience with the real variety, rather than the plastic version which shared her bathtime.
Alex leaned down and pressed a drugging kiss against her mouth. By the time he lifted his head they were both breathing heavily. ‘If I didn’t have an important meeting this morning, I’d join you. But unfortunately I can’t.’
Katrina stretched, arching her back and then, in a movement Alex was sure was accidentally-on-purpose, let the sheet fall to her waist.
Alex threw back his head and laughed. ‘Witch.’ Then he reached down and cupped her breast, fingering the tip until it contracted into a hardened peak.
Katrina groaned in the back of her throat.
Why that sound should send his blood pressure skyrocketing, Alex wasn’t sure, but it did.
‘Maybe I can be a little late,’ he said huskily, rapidly undoing his tie and pulling it free from the collar, his shirt following. ‘Or maybe a lot,’ he groaned as he came down on the bed beside her. ‘I have the feeling I’m going to be very, very late.’
What followed blew his mind. He reached a peak he didn’t think it was possible to reach, so dizzyingly high that he felt lightheaded.
‘Was there anyone else while you were away?’ he demanded. He hadn’t planned on asking the question, but suddenly he needed to know.
She pulled away from him just far enough to look into his face. ‘You mean a man?’
He nodded.
He already knew that Peter Strauss, Katrina’s erstwhile landlord, wasn’t a threat. The Royce Agency had furnished him with a report that indicated the man was on a six-month assignment interstate and had merely rented the apartment to Katrina at minimal rent rather than leave it vacant.
Katrina herself had let slip that Strauss was the brother of the friend she’d stayed with when she’d first disappeared.
But that didn’t mean that there hadn’t been somebody else.
‘You have to be kidding! I felt sick for the first four months, and by then I was big and getting bigger every day. And besides…’
‘Besides what?’ he asked when she failed to continue.
She angled her chin. ‘Besides, at the time I was still under the misapprehension that I loved you.’
Alex felt an emotion he didn’t want to examine too closely twist his heart tight.
Katrina moved away and pulled the sheet up to her chin. ‘But you can’t say the same, can you? I saw the pictures in the paper.’
Her voice was flat, the look in her eyes even flatter.
Alex felt tension string his flesh tightly together. ‘No. No, I can’t.’
‘Just how many women did you enjoy yourself with while I was away giving birth to your daughter?’ she asked with the same kind of sting a bee would be proud of.
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br /> ‘There weren’t as many as you think,’ he said quietly.
There had been women, sure. But he’d soon realised that sleeping with them was a waste of time.
They hadn’t satisfied him the way Katrina had.
They hadn’t made his senses reach for the stars.
They hadn’t made his heart— His heart what…?
His heart had nothing to do with this, Alex assured himself.
It was just sex. Fantastic sex, admittedly; so fantastic that it was difficult to compete with.
But apart from their daughter that was all there was between them.
The days and weeks rolled into one.
Katrina was run off her feet. She’d found a couple of houses that had potential, but she was determined to wait until she found one that met all of their requirements before showing Alex.
They had time. Although Samantha was growing at a rate of knots, she wouldn’t be walking for several months yet.
She’d also compiled a dossier on two schools she thought would be good for Samantha. After getting Alex’s seal of approval, she’d sent letters off to both, requesting a full information-pack complete with application form.
The nanny issue had sorted itself out quite by accident. It turned out that Leslie, their current part-time housekeeper, wanted more hours, and after some discussion Katrina had offered her a live-in position as housekeeper-nanny.
On the home front things were pretty much wonderful. She and Alex were growing closer with every day that passed.
One day Alex came home from work with a huge, white glossy box tied with a gold ribbon. ‘This is for you,’ he said, handing it to her.
Katrina took it automatically. ‘What is it?’
‘Why don’t you open it and find out?’
She placed the box on the glass-topped coffee table and carefully undid the bow. Removing the lid, she folded back the gold tissue-paper sitting on top.
She glanced at Alex when she was presented with black satin. Gently she picked it up. It was a short nightgown, trimmed with lace. One look told her that it was expensive.
