Page 189 “Uniformly,” Wallace recalled: Cross and Berkenstadt, Nevermind: Nirvana, page 97.
Page 196 “The most exciting time for a band”: Azerrad, Come As You Are, page 187.
Chapter 15: Every Time I Swallowed
Author interviews with Krist Novoselic; Lisa Glatfelter-Bell, 1997; Patrick MacDonald, 1997; Susie Tennant; Jeff Ross, 1997; Bill Reid, 1997; Robert Roth, 1998; Jeff Gilbert, 1998; Kim Warnick, 1998; Jamie Brown, 1997; Scott Cokely; Mary Lou Lord, 1998; Mark Kates; Courtney Love; Marco Collins, 1997; Amy Finnerty, 1999; Peter Davis, 1999; Lori Weinstein, 1998; Rai Sandow, 1998; Tim Devon, 1998; Ashleigh Rafflower, 1999; Craig Montgomery; Carrie Montgomery; Danny Goldberg; Alison Hamamura, 1999; Jim Fouratt, 2000; Jeff Liles, 1999; Gigi Lee, 2000; Darrell West-moreland, 1997; Kim Cobain; and Steve Shillinger.
Page 212 The Rocket review noted: Charles R. Cross, The Rocket, November 1991.
Chapter 16: Brush Your Teeth
Author interviews with Courtney Love; Krist Novoselic; Mary Lou Lord; Alex MacLeod; Carolyn Rue, 1988; Carrie Montgomery; Ian Dickson; Nikki McClure; Jerry McCully, 1997; Bill Holdship, 1997; Jeremy Wilson, 1998; Rob Kader; Amy Finnerty; Danny Goldberg; Bob Zimmerman, 1998; Michael Lavine; Mark Kates; and Kurt St. Thomas, 1999.
Page 214 “That’s when we started really”: Azerrad, Come As You Are, page 205.
Page 219 “This letter is directed more”: Aberdeen Daily World, November 11, 1991.
Page 221 “They were like clones, glued”: “The Power of Love,” Dana Kennedy, Entertainment Weekly, August 12, 1994.
Page 222 “nodding off occasionally in mid-sentence”: “Spontaneous Combustion,” Jerry McCully, BAM, January 10, 1992.
Page 222 “I’m getting married”: Ibid.
Page 228 “My attitude has changed drastically”: “Ain’t Love Grand,” Christina Kelly, Sassy, April 1992.
Page 229 “I just want to be situated and secure”: Ibid.
Chapter 17: Little Monster Inside
Author interviews with Rosemary Carroll, 2000; Courtney Love; Danny Goldberg; John Gannon; Kim Cobain; Kaz Utsunomiya; Naoko Yamano, 1998; Michie Nakatani, 1998; Atsuko Yamano, 1998; Dylan Carlson; Krist Novoselic; Shelli Novoselic; Barrett Jones; Craig Montgomery; Jennifer Finch; Carolyn Rue; Bob Timmins, 2000; Buddy Arnold, 2000; Sean Tessier, 1998; Tim Appelo, 1998; Mari Earl; Michael Azerrad, 2000; Jackie Farry, 2001; Robert Cruger, 2000; Alan Mintz; Jesse Reed; Alex MacLeod; and Anton Brookes, 2000.
Page 231 “We knew it really wasn’t the best”: Azerrad, Come As You Are, page 245.
Page 233 “My fame. Ha ha. It’s a weapon”: Poppy Z. Brite, Courtney Love, the Real Story (Simon & Schuster, 1997), page 131.
Page 234 “wasn’t very high. I just did a little”: Azerrad, Come As You Are, page 251.
Page 235 “if I quit then, I’d end up doing it again”: Ibid., page 255.
Page 240 “I don’t even drink anymore”: “Inside the Heart and Mind of Kurt Cobain,” Michael Azerrad, Rolling Stone, April 16, 1992.
Page 241 “[Nirvana’s] low profile has renewed”: Steve Hochman, Los Angeles Times, May 17, 1992.
Page 244 “from nobodies to superstars to fuck-ups”: “Love Will Tear Us Apart,” Keith Cameron, NME, August 29, 1992.
Chapter 18: Rosewater, Diaper Smell
Author interviews with Rosemary Carroll; Courtney Love; Danny Goldberg; Kim Cobain; Neal Hersh, 2000; Anton Brookes; J. J. Gonson; Jackie Farry; Krist Novoselic; Alex MacLeod; Craig Montgomery; Buddy Arnold; Marc Fremont; Amy Finnerty; and Duff McKagan, 2000.
Page 246 “You get out of this bed”: Azerrad, Come As You Are, page 269.
Page 247 “I’m having the baby”: Ibid.
Page 247 “I was so fucking scared”: Ibid.
Page 247 “I held this thing in my hand”: “Life After Death,” David Fricke, Rolling Stone, December 15, 1994.
Page 247 “He almost died”: Ibid.
Page 260 “I don’t want my daughter”: “Nirvana’s Kurt Cobain,” Robert Hilburn, Los Angeles Times, September 21, 1992.
Page 260 “We might not go on any more long tours”: Ibid.
Chapter 19: That Legendary Divorce
Author interviews with Alex MacLeod; Kim Cobain; Anthony Rhodes, 1999; Mikey Nelson; Don Cobain; Courtney Love; Jeff Mason, 2000; Krist Novoselic; Jim Crotty, 1998; Michael Lane, 1998; Victoria Clarke, 1998; Jackie Farry; Danny Goldberg; Mari Earl; Neal Hersh; Rosemary Carroll; Jesse Reed; Karen
Mason-Blair, 1998; Inger Lorre, 1999; Buddy Arnold; Jack Endino; Michael Azerrad; Charlie Hoselton, 1998; Greg Sage, 1999; Jeff Holmes, 1997; Tim Silbaugh, 1998; Jamie Crunchbird, 1999; Earnie Bailey, 1998; Danny Mangold, and Barrett Jones.
Page 265 “They chased me up to the Castle”: Jim Crotty, Monk #14, January 1993.
Page 266 “If I ever find myself destitute”: Azerrad, Come As You Are, page 268.
Page 268 “This whole concept of the man”: “Love in the Afternoon,” Gillian Gaar, The Rocket, November 1992.
Page 268 “We knew we could give”: Poneman, Spin, December 1992.
Page 270 “It’s just amazing that at this point”: “The Dark Side of Kurt Cobain,” Kevin Allman, The Advocate, February 9, 1993.
Page 274 “of which $380,000 went to taxes”: Ibid.
Chapter 20: Heart-Shaped Coffin
Author interviews with Krist Novoselic; Alex MacLeod; Courtney Love; Pat Whalen, 1999; Neal Hersh; Jackie Farry; Rosemary Carroll; Ingrid Bernstein, 1998; Kim Cobain; Dylan Carlson; Jessica Hopper, 1998, 1999; Nils Bernstein, 1999; Pare Bernstein, 1999; Neal Karlen, 1998; and Michelle Underwood, 1997.
Page 283 “Geffen and Nirvana’s management”: Greg Kot, Chicago Tribune, April 1993.
Page 284 “symptoms associated with an overdose”: This and all police notes that follow are from official Seattle Police Department reports.
Page 288 “a whirling dervish of emotion”: “Heaven Can Wait,” Gavin Edwards, Details, November 1993.
Page 290 “If Freud could hear it, he’d wet his”: “Domicile on Cobain St.,” Brian Willis, NME, July, 24, 1993.
Chapter 21: A Reason to Smile
Author interviews with Courtney Love; Krist Novoselic; Alex MacLeod; Dylan Carlson; Anton Brookes; Craig Montgomery; Jackie Farry; David Yow, 1998; Lori Goldston, 1998; Bob Timmins; Mark Kates; Danny Goldberg; Rosemary Carroll; Sean Slade, 1999; Paul Kolderie, 1999; Robert Roth; Mark Pickerel; Kristie Gamer, 1999; Jim Merlis, 2000; Kim Neely, 1998; Thor Lindsey, 1998; Curt Kirkwood, 1999; Derrick Bostrom, 1999; Amy Finnerty; Jeff Mason; and Janet Billig, 2000.
Page 295 Fremont’s son Marc asserted it was suicide: Marc Fremont, The Doctor Is Out, unpublished manuscript.
Page 295 “I desperately wanted to have”: “Howl,” Jon Savage, The Guardian, July, 22, 1993.
Page 297 “Cobain ricochets between opposites”: “The Band That Hates to Be Loved,” Jon Pareles, New York Times, November 14, 1993.
Page 301 “I’m glad you could make it”: “Kurt Cobain,” David Fricke, Rolling Stone, January 27, 1994.
Chapter 22: Cobain’s Disease
Author interviews with Courtney Love; Krist Novoselic; Jackie Farry; Alex MacLeod; Jim Barber, 2000; Dylan Carlson; Alan Mintz; Danny Goldberg; Amy Finnerty; Alice Wheeler; John Robinson; Dave Markey; Larry Reid, 1998; Rosemary Carroll; Leland Cobain; Don Cobain; Jennifer Adamson, 1999; Jenny Cobain; Shelli Novoselic; Danny Sugerman, 2000; Lexi Robbins, 1999; Bill Baillargeon, 1998; Don Muller; and Buzz Osborne.
Page 312 “It was a fruitful year. Nirvana finished”: Letter to The Advocate, January 25, 1994.
Page 319 “He hated everything, everybody”: Fricke, Rolling Stone, December 15, 1994.
Page 321 “He was getting really fed up,”: “Kurt Cobain,” Steve Dougherty, People, April 25, 1994.
Page 323 “I know this is a controlled substance”: “Love and Death,” Andrew Harrison, Select, April 1994.
Page 323 “Even if I wasn’t in the mood”: Fricke, Rolling Stone, December 15, 1994.
Chapter 23: Like Hamlet
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sp; Author interviews with Courtney Love; Jackie Farry; Krist Novoselic; Alex MacLeod; Kim Cobain; Shelli Novoselic; Leland Cobain; Travis Myers, 2000; Dylan Carlson; Rosemary Carroll; Marc Geiger, 1998; Ian Dickson; Jennifer Adamson; Danny Goldberg; Steven Chatoff, 2000; Dr. Louis Cox, 2000; Rob Morfitt, 1999; Karen Mason-Blair; Buddy Arnold; Mark Kates; and Anton Brookes.
Page 325 “He was dead, legally dead”: “The Trials of Love,” Robert Hilburn, Los Angeles Times, April 10, 1994.
Page 326 “in a profession he doesn’t have”: Claude Iosso, Aberdeen Daily World, April 11, 1994.
Page 327 “I flipped out”: Fricke, Rolling Stone, December 15, 1994.
Page 327 “I wish I’d just been the way”: Ibid.
Page 335 “I did not even kiss or get to say good-bye”: Ibid.
Chapter 24: Angel’s Hair
Author interviews with Courtney Love; Krist Novoselic; Dylan Carlson; Jackie Farry; Alex MacLeod; Michael Meisel, 1999; Gibby Haynes, 2000; Bob Timmins; Harold Owens, 2000; Buddy Arnold; Nial Stimson, 2000; Harold Owens, 1999; Joe “Mama” Nitzburg, 2000; Duff McKagan; Jessica Hopper; Ginny Heller, 1999; Bret Chatalas, 1999; Jennifer Adamson; Rosemary Carroll; and Danny Goldberg. The events of Kurt’s final hours are pieced together from police reports, forensic evidence reports, and pictures of the scene.
Page 347 “I know this should be the happiest”: Hilburn, Los Angeles Times, April 10, 1994.
Epilogue: A Leonard Cohen Afterworld
Author interviews with Courtney Love; Marty Riemer, 1998; Mike West, 1998; Kim Cobain; Don Cobain; Leland Cobain; Jenny Cobain; Jackie Farry; Rosemary Carroll; Tom Reese, 1998; Nikolas Hartshorne, 1999; Dave Sterling, 1998; Sharon Seldon, 1999; James Kirk, 1994; Jeff Mason; Alan Mitchel, 1999; Gene Stout, 1998; Dan Raley, 1998; Cynthia Land, 1998; Krist Novoselic; Susan Silver; Rev. Stephen Towles, 2000; Bob Hunter; Alice Wheeler; Tracy Marander; Dylan Carlson; Danny Goldberg; Janet Billig; and Leland Cobain.
Page 356 “I saw this body laying there on the floor”: The Seattle Post-Intelligencer, April 9, 1994.
Index
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Abba, 251
Aberdeen, Washington, 7–8, 222
Cobain family in, 5–6, 10–11, 109
Continuation High School in, 64
Kurt’s birth in, 5, 6
Kurt’s shack in, 76–77, 79, 85
practice space in, 123
Radio Shack video in, 99–100
sledding in, 13–14, 365
street people of, 50–51, 58–60, 265
Weatherwax High in, 41–43, 49, 64, 67, 110, 194
wild bird rescue program in, 74–75
Aberdeen Daily World, 23, 75, 219–20, 326, 356–57
“About a Girl,” 121, 133, 141, 304
AC/DC, 41, 122
Adamson, Jennifer, 317, 330, 345, 349–50
Advocate, The, 270, 274, 312
Aerosmith, 297
“Aero Zeppelin,” 87, 98
Aigner, Ryan, 79, 81, 84–87, 116
“Ain’t It a Shame,” 142
Air Supply, 61
Albini, Steve, 279–283
Alden, Grant, 119
“All Apologies,” 177, 253, 279, 283, 292
Allman, Kevin, 270
Altman, Robert, 245
America Online, 248–49
Anderson, Dawn, 102, 113–14
“Aneurysm,” 157, 169, 175, 177
Apoetose Stadium, Rio, 275
Appelo, Tim, 221
Argentina, tour in, 268
Arm, Mark, 103, 150–51, 190, 292
Arnold, Buddy, 267, 337
Atkinson, Paul, 163, 165
Australia, tour in, 232
Automatic for the People, 350
Azerrad, Michael, 37, 186, 196, 214, 231, 234, 235, 240, 247, 266, 269
“Baba O’Riley,” 222
Babes in Toyland, 289
“Back in Black,” 41
Backlash, 102, 105, 114
Bailey, Earnie, 274
Baker, Daniel, 311, 324
BAM, 222
“Bambi Slaughter,” 72
Bangs, Lester, 182–83, 203
Barber, Jim, 309
Barry, Sally, 163
Bartlett, Mike, 45
Bay City Rollers, 122
Bayer, Sam, 194
Beachcombers, 63, 65
Beastie Boys, 87
Beat Happening, 150, 159, 175
Beatles:
films of, 201
influence of, 121, 122, 215, 280
poster of, 92
songs by, 9, 13, 40, 121, 179
“Beautiful Son,” 283
“Beavis and Butthead” (TV), 289
Beckett, Samuel, 211
Beehive Records, Seattle, 201, 212
“Been a Son,” 140, 141
“Beeswax,” 98
Belmondo, Jean-Paul, 72
Bens, Michael, 68
Bernstein, Ingrid, 283
Bernstein, Nils, 146, 283, 286–87
Bernstein, Steven Jesse, 126
Big Black, 279
“Big Cheese,” 112, 153
Bikini Kill, 157, 167, 180, 212
Billboard, ads in, 283
Billboard charts, 2, 3, 204, 220, 225, 274, 295, 298
Billig, Janet, 138, 228, 251, 286, 303, 305–6, 310, 333, 334
Bjorn Again, 251
Black Flag, 46, 47, 63, 102
Black Sabbath, 88
Blaine, Elbert, 313–14
“Blandest,” 112
Bleach, 126, 132, 133, 143, 146, 152, 161, 165, 173–74, 200, 267
Bleeder, 96
“Blew,” 125, 134
Blondie, 122
Boddah (imaginary friend), 9–10, 351, 363
Bonet, Lisa, 214
Bonham, John, 227
Bonzo Dog Band, 45
Boston, 36, 252
Bowie, David, 304
“Brady Bunch, The” (TV), 48
Brazil, mega-shows in, 274–75
“Breaking the Law,” 88
Breathless (film), 72
“Breed,” 154, 182, 252
Briggs, Trevor, 35, 37, 45, 48–49, 51, 71
Brontë, Emily, 218
Brookes, Anton, 243, 252, 296
Brown, Jamie, 201–2
Brown, Mary, 282
Brown Cow, 78, 82, 100
Buck, Peter, 313
“Buffy’s Pregnant,” 72
Burckhard, Aaron, 80
and first gig, 85, 87, 88, 89
and Nirvana, 97, 109, 129
Burghardt, Bill, 31, 35
Burns, Ken, 311
Burr, David, 333–35
Burroughs, William S., 196, 281, 294, 301, 313
“Butterfly,” 318
Butthole Surfers, 116, 340
Cable News Network (CNN), 325, 326
Caddyshack, Olympia, 100
Calvinists, 159, 191, 197
Cameron, Keith, 244
Capitol Records, 65, 175
Capote, Truman, 141
Carlson, Dylan, 147, 154, 167, 347
and alcohol use, 99
and drug use, 173, 234, 286, 294, 314–15, 326, 328, 332, 333, 346
friendship of, 81–82, 173, 201, 234, 266, 314–15, 330
and guns, 176, 338, 347
and Kurt’s death, 363
and management, 309, 328
and tours, 130, 142, 328
Carlson, Shirley, 102, 104
Carroll, Rosemary, 231, 241, 249, 250–51, 298, 310, 322, 327, 337, 357
Cars, 322
Cat Butt, 134
Cedars-Sinai Hospital, 237, 245, 246–48, 328
Central Tavern, 112
Channing, Chad:
as drummer, 109–112, 113, 115, 130, 132, 155–56
and Kurt’s songs, 121
and Nirvana, 123–24, 130, 135, 138, 142, 155
physical appearance of, 152
on tour, 146, 147, 152
Charisma Records, 175
Chatoff, Steven, 331–32
Cheap Trick, 104
Cher, 115
“Cherry Pie,” 181
Chim-Chim, 100, 186, 189, 233
Ciccolina, 146, 159
Clapton, Eric, 259
Clark, Dick, 35
Clark, Nikki, 31
Clarke, Victoria, 265–66
Clash, The, 47, 174, 274
“Class of 85, The,” 70
“Cling-Ons,” 47, 69, 77, 123, 213
Close Encounters of the Third Kind (film), 33
Club Lingerie, Hollywood, 298
Cobain, Art (cousin), 321
Cobain, Burle (great-uncle), 34, 358
Cobain, Chad (half-brother), 26, 33, 263, 264
Cobain, Donald (father):
and fatherhood, 21, 24, 30, 31, 32
financial pressures on, 13, 16–17, 26
and Frances, 263, 310, 319
homes of, 7, 10, 26
jobs of, 7, 16, 133, 178
Kurt living with, 23–28, 60–63, 179
and Kurt’s adult years, 178, 263–64, 316, 319, 328
and Kurt’s birth, 5, 7
and Kurt’s childhood, 8–15, 16–28, 36–38
and Kurt’s death, 357, 362, 363, 364
Kurt’s songs about, 141, 271, 278
and Kurt’s teen years, 30, 31–33, 36, 37–38
physical appearance of, 14
sports interest of, 10–11, 19–20, 21, 24, 30, 37–38
wives of, see Cobain, Jenny Westby;
Cobain, Wendy Cobain, Frances Bean (daughter), 257, 265, 312
birth of, 247, 249, 273
caretakers for, 249–51, 265, 270–71, 282–83, 310, 315, 317, 323, 333, 335, 336
childhood of, 293, 314, 317, 341, 342, 364, 365
and Kurt’s death, 357, 362, 364, 365
Kurt’s letters to, 350–51
and Kurt’s music, 252, 270, 280
name of, 236
physical description of, 292
sonograms of, 236, 243
videos of, 292–93
Cobain, Gary (uncle), 19–20
Cobain, Iris (grandmother), 124
death of, 364
early years of, 19
illness of, 316, 319, 362
and Kurt’s childhood, 12, 18–19, 23, 24
and Kurt’s death, 357, 362
and Kurt’s teen years, 39
Cobain, Jenny Westby (stepmother): and Kurt’s adult years, 319
and Kurt’s childhood years, 25, 26, 27–28, 30
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