She gave him a naughty arch of her eyebrows, knowing full well what it would do to him, before she turned back to Frew.
She leaned her mouth closer towards Frew’s ear, let him hold her that little bit closer than respectability decreed. ‘Tell me that last line again, Mr Frew. You do have such a way with words.’
Frew positively puffed out his chest, and, looking like a man that thought his luck was in, he obliged.
By the next time she could glance in Razeby’s direction she saw he was watching Frew with a distinctive glower.
She drew Razeby an admonishing look.
He put on his innocent face.
She gave that smile that told him she was not fooled for a minute by his protested innocence.
He grinned an admission.
The dance took them away from one another. She did not see him again, only Frew. And she could not help feeling a little deflated at that. But not as disappointed as Frew at only being allowed a chaste kiss of her hand when he delivered her home.
* * *
When she lay in bed that night it was not Frew she was thinking of or his terrible poetry, but Razeby.
No one could accuse her of avoiding him. Not after Dryden’s. Not after White’s. And not after tonight. She smiled because it felt like her plan was coming together. And she smiled just because she had enjoyed the little exchange with him and it made her feel warm and dangerous and excited. In the back of her mind she heard again the whisper of Venetia’s warning. There was a truth to it, she acknowledged, because as surely as Alice dangled an enticement before Razeby, she felt the pull of him. There was a rapport and an attraction that existed only with him. And that was a very dangerous thing. Venetia was right; she should have a little more care in her dealings with Razeby.
* * *
‘You know you are more than welcome to come, Razeby, but do you really think it is a good idea?’ Linwood asked his friend as they sat together in the drawing room of Linwood’s home a few nights later. He got up and poured two glasses of brandy from the decanter that sat on the nearby desk, passing one of them to Razeby.
‘A man is entitled to one night off.’ Razeby accepted the brandy with a murmured ‘thank you’. He knew what Linwood was saying was true. Going to watch Alice in one of her plays in the company of Linwood and his wife was the worst idea in the world. He knew it and yet here he was sitting in Linwood’s drawing room, suggesting the idea. ‘Besides, I have a wish to see the play.’
Linwood raised a single, dark, sceptical eyebrow. ‘Or a wish to see Miss Alice Sweetly.’
‘Maybe,’ he conceded. ‘She is the most talked-about actress in all London. Her reputation as a serious actress on stage challenges both Venetia’s and Mrs Siddons’s. Maybe I just want to see how her performance has developed.’ And part of that was true. But only part.
Linwood did not look convinced. ‘Your presence will not go without comment.’
‘Because Alice was once my mistress? Am I never to set foot in the Theatre Royal again?’
‘No one is saying that.’ Linwood met his gaze. ‘But what happened to the clean severance?’
‘The severance was clean. Alice understands the situation as well as I do. There is nothing between us save for civility.’ But he was lying. There was something very much more than civility between them. Something that was driving this compulsion he felt to see her.
‘It is not as if I have lost sight of what I am doing. I will be at Almack’s tomorrow.’ There was no harm in just seeing her. He drank the brandy down and glanced away towards the window. It changed nothing, save made him feel better. ‘I will have myself a wife before the Season is done, Linwood. I have to. There can be no two ways about it.’
‘I understand that it is “over” between you and Alice, but have you considered that when it comes to finding a wife there is always next Season?’ asked Linwood.
Razeby smiled and met Linwood’s eyes. ‘No, my friend, there is not,’ he said quietly. It was as close to telling him the truth as he could come.
Linwood’s eyes searched his as if seeking to glean the answer that was there. But Razeby held his gaze, steadfastly refusing to give away anything more, until at last Linwood, with a tiny incline of his head, acknowledged defeat and dropped the challenge.
Linwood topped up their brandy glasses. ‘Well, in that case, Razeby, you had better spend this evening in the company of an old friend at the theatre.’
* * *
Alice stepped out on to the stage that night. It was another full house. The part came naturally to her. She closed off her mind to all of real life and just let herself be this other woman. She acted. And it was almost as exhilarating as teasing Razeby across a room, but nowhere near as dangerous.
His box was empty, just as it was empty every night. But her eye caught a glimpse of figures in Venetia’s box. Alice slipped her gaze to her friend and saw not only Venetia and Linwood. Her heart skipped a beat at the sight of Razeby sitting there with them. She turned her eyes away, careful not to allow herself to be distracted.
It meant nothing, she told herself, but her heart quickened all the same. He had just come for an evening at the theatre. But following on from Dryden’s and White’s and the benefit ball, she knew that was not the case, that really his presence here did mean something. Alice just did not want to think precisely what.
* * *
He would not be in the Green Room. He would not dare. She knew it, yet the first thing she did when she walked in there was to look for him.
But Razeby dared.
‘Miss Sweetly.’ He bowed.
‘Lord Razeby.’ She curtsied. Her heart leapt at the sight at the sight of him, her nerves shimmered in delight. She could not stop herself from smiling.
All attention in the room was upon them for all it feigned otherwise. Every conversation was conducted with half an ear on theirs.
She could not avoid him. Could do nothing other than treat him as if he were any other man.
‘I trust you enjoyed the play, my lord.’
‘More than I could have imagined,’ he replied.
‘Then perhaps your imagination is a little lacking.’
‘On the contrary, Miss Sweetly, my imagination is most excellent. I have often been complimented upon it.’ She saw the message in his eyes.
She was the one who had complimented him on it...when they were making love.
Something exciting and bold and deliciously dangerous whispered between them.
‘Your acting talent has blossomed and taken on a new and vibrant dimension.’ He smiled.
‘Mmm,’ she said, sharing the smile. ‘I think I’ve heard that somewhere else. And there’s you laying claim to a most excellent imagination.’
‘You wish for originality in the compliments to be paid you?’ He raised an eyebrow.
‘I’d settle for truth,’ she returned.
He leaned closer, lowered his voice slightly. ‘Then the truth is, Miss Sweetly, that you were wonderful.’
The same words he used in this same Green Room a lifetime ago. The same words he had whispered in their bedchamber every time he had come to take her home after those occasional stage appearances. The world seemed to shift and detach around them.
‘And you’re as much a flatterer as ever,’ she said softly, her eyes tracing his.
‘Never that, Alice,’ more softly still. He was smiling that smile of old, making everything seem so right.
Their eyes held, stretching time, making the Green Room and its people disappear. She could feel the beat of her heart and sense his beat in time. Between them was that same connection there had always been.
‘Ah, Razeby.’ Hawick’s voice interrupted. ‘How goes the bride search?’
The words crushed the moment, dragging them both back to the reality of what could not be.
‘Well enough, thank you,’ said Razeby. He smiled politely at Hawick, but there was nothing of a smile in his eyes when he looked at the duke.
‘You’re too kind, Your Grace,’ she replied, easily enough, but she was acting. And beneath that bright surface it felt like the dark hidden depths of a pool had been disturbed.
‘If you will excuse me. Your servant, Miss Sweetly.’ Razeby bowed and walked away.
* * *
Such perilous, glittering allure. Alice knew she was playing with fire. But she could not turn away from the path she had chosen to walk, as if there had ever really been anything of choice in it. She could not turn away from Razeby, for the sake of her pride and her livelihood. And more than that she could not turn away from Razeby because, even knowing what she did, she wanted to see him. It was a disquieting realisation. And one which she sought to distract herself from with a shopping expedition in the company of her friends the next day.
The four of them sauntered along Bond Street laden with parcels and boxes. Alice had allowed herself to be persuaded into buying too many fripperies, but she had to admit, it did make her feel good, even if the parcels were cumbersome to carry and her feet were aching from too much walking in shoes that were stylish and new, but less than comfortable.
They had just left the milliners when Sara asked the question.
‘You did say you cleared out everything you could from Hart Street, didn’t you, Alice?’
‘What do you mean?’ Alice glanced across at her, a sudden panic drumming in her breast that Razeby might have revealed something of just how much she had walked away from.
Ellen drew Sara a look of daggers.
‘I saw that look, Ellen Devizes,’ Alice chided.
‘Lord, Sara, but you have some size of mouth on you.’
‘What do you mean?’ Sara looked hurt. ‘She’s fine about Razeby.’
‘Even so,’ countered Ellen.
‘What aren’t you telling me?’ Alice asked.
There was a resounding silence.
‘Out with it,’ she said.
‘Razeby’s kept the house on,’ said Ellen at last.
‘That can’t be right,’ Alice murmured before she could stop herself.
‘It is,’ insisted Sara. ‘He’s been seen there.’
‘Why on earth would Razeby do that?’ Alice asked, her pace subconsciously slowing.
Sara raised her brows, widened her eyes and gave her that look that brought a blush of embarrassment to Alice’s cheeks.
It was Tilly who finally told her. ‘The rumour is it ain’t just a bride he’s looking for, Alice, but a new mistress. We thought you knew.’
Alice felt the words hit her hard. She glanced away to hide her shock. ‘Rumours aren’t always true.’
They all looked at her in a way that made her regret saying the words aloud.
‘Going in there late at night. Leaving early in the morning. A girl doesn’t have to be a bluestocking to work it out,’ said Sara.
‘You know what men are like.’ Tilly patted her arm as if to console her.
‘I do.’ And yet she thought Razeby different. Even now. Even after all that had happened. It could not be true. She knew Razeby. And what he was doing was about duty, no matter how much she disliked the way he had gone about doing it.
‘It’s always about what’s in their breeches,’ said Ellen.
‘It is,’ agreed Alice with a smile to mask how much she was still reeling from the revelation.
‘But you didn’t leave anything behind, did you?’ Sara persisted.
Alice’s smile broadened. ‘I didn’t leave one thing.’ But, in truth, she had left a lot more than a diamond bracelet and some expensive dresses.
‘You don’t want some other woman getting her hands on anything that’s rightfully yours.’
Tilly and Ellen nodded in agreement with Sara’s words.
Alice laughed. ‘I don’t think there’s any danger of that.’
‘Glad to hear it, girl.’ Tilly slipped her arm through hers.
‘Come on—’ Ellen gave a smile ‘—I need some new stockings and Benjamin Preece has been advertising ladies’ white silk hose made of real China silk for only 7s 6d a pair.’
‘I could do with some stockings myself,’ said Alice, denying the disquiet she was feeling. ‘And then we’ll go and have tea.’
‘Like ladies.’ Ellen raised her eyebrows and affected a posh accent.
They giggled like girls.
‘Preece’s it is,’ said Alice and, with her arm still linked in Tilly’s, the group made their way towards Preece’s warehouse.
* * *
In all of the days that followed the shopping trip Alice could not stop thinking about Razeby keeping on the house in Hart Street. It worried at her, like a dog at a bone. She tried to push the thought out of her head, throwing herself all the more into her parts on the stage over those next few nights, and afterwards, in the Green Room, working the room with a charm and a control that would have done all of Venetia’s best teachings proud. But none of it stopped her thinking. At night, in bed, the thought was there just the same.
She looked at herself in the peering glass. There were much prettier women out there. Women who put her ordinary looks in the shade. She sucked in her tummy, examined her teeth and scrubbed a finger against the faint freckles that marred the bridge of her nose. Maybe he really had just grown tired of her. Maybe he had lied and misled her because he did not have the courage to tell her the truth.
She shook her head, unable to believe it. Razeby had more integrity in his little finger than the whole of any other man she had known. And rumours were just that, she told herself. A fire of gossip over nothing.
But all rumours started with a grain of truth, the little sharp thought countered.
And then pricked away at her relentlessly. Even if it was true, what difference did it make? she demanded.
But it did make a difference. Alice knew that, no matter how hard she tried to pretend otherwise. And because of that she knew she was going to have to discover the truth for herself.
* * *
She rose much earlier than normal the next day.
‘Shall I fetch you a hackney carriage, Miss Sweetly?’ the youngest maid, Rosie, asked.
Alice shook her head. ‘It’s a fine morning. I’ve a mind to walk and take the air.’
‘I’ll just fetch my cloak, ma’am. At this hour of the day it’s still a bit chilly out there.’
‘Don’t bother yourself, Rosie. I’ve some lines to think through, it’s best if I walk alone.’
‘Very good, ma’am.’ The maid bobbed a curtsy and opened the door for her.
The hour was still early enough that the streets were quiet. The ground was damp with rain that no longer fell, and, as the maid had warned, the morning was still cool with the night’s chill. But the sun was out and the air was bright and clear, just the way she liked.
She walked slowly, breathing in the damp freshness of the air, while all around her London stirred. Carts with animals and vegetables come up from the country for the market rolled by. Milk maids leading cows by a rope, a gaggle of geese still wearing the little shoes to save their feet from all the miles they had walked. Alice walked, too, down Mercer Street and along Long Acre, crossing over to walk down Banbury Court. And, finally, onto Hart Street.
She strolled as if it were just a street like any other. Pretended not to even look at the house in which she had lived with Razeby. She deliberately stayed on the other side of the road. But her feet trod slower and her heart beat faster, and as she came closer her eyes fixed upon the building that had been her home for half a year.
It looked just the same as when she had left it. As if she could walk back in there right now and turn back time to be what it had been not so long ago. But then the fittings and furniture came with the house when Razeby had rented it, just as hers had come with the new rooms in Mercer Street. It did not mean that the house was not in other hands. It was just a damn rum
our and she was a fool for even being here.
But at the very moment she chided herself with that thought, the black glossy front door opened. And Alice’s heart jumped at the prospect of being caught here spying. She ducked out of sight behind a tree. Her fingers held hard on to the wide gnarled trunk as she watched while a tall, dark-haired handsome man she recognised too well emerged.
The breath caught in her throat. Her stomach gave a somersault before her heart stampeded off at full tilt.
The expression on his face was serious. He was not smiling. Indeed, there was nothing of his usual good-natured manner with which she always thought of him. He walked off at a brisk pace in the opposite direction, not glancing back at the house once.
Her heart was thundering and she felt shocked, and all she could hear in her head were Tilly’s words: The rumour is it ain’t just a bride he’s looking for, Alice, but a new mistress.
And he must have himself a new girl, or why else would he have spent the night there? She stared at the windows. All the blinds and curtains were opened, but there was no movement, no hint of a woman’s face watching him leave.
She waited until he was almost out of sight before stepping out from behind the tree and making her way back to Mercer Street.
Chapter Eleven
Razeby was at Almack’s again. So many times, going through the same motions. All with one purpose that was contrary to that which he desired. It was bad enough being here without his friends turning up to witness it. Linwood was different, because, despite all of Razeby’s denials, Linwood knew something of the truth and he understood, in part.
‘Came to give you a bit of support, old chap, in the old bride hunt.’ Bullford beamed.
‘How considerate of you all,’ said Razeby with an irony that sailed right over Bullford’s head.
‘Well, we couldn’t abandon a brother in need. You seem to be struggling, so we thought we’d better step in and help.’ Fallingham sipped at his champagne.
‘Struggling?’ Razeby raised an eyebrow.
‘Dragging it out,’ Devlin explained.
Razeby smiled because the barb was dangerously close to the truth. ‘I am merely being selective in my choice.’
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