by Sera, Drew
“It’s Paul. I’ve told him twice now to leave Sydney alone. He hasn’t done anything, but I wanted to mention it to you. Last night I told him again to leave her alone and he ended up getting rough with a little masochist in the dungeon. And he’s starting to get more verbally aggressive with Anthony. Again, nothing has happened but I wanted to bring it to your attention.”
“You know as well as I do, that this is the kind of information I need as it occurs and before it becomes an issue. We don’t need any issues. I’ll talk to Paul. Between you, me and a light post, I don’t want him trying to scene with Sydney.”
“No arguments from me.”
“Since I have you out here privately, I have something to ask you. How close are you to letting her scene?”
“Blake, I’m working on it. Sydney needs to go slow. I’ve got Evan breathing down my neck and Seth standing in the on deck circle. Should I be adding others to the lineup of potential play partners?”
“Yes, I think so. There are two. You and Anthony.”
Blake slapped me on my shoulder and headed inside leaving me with my own thoughts. My heart skipped a beat at the thought. Sydney and Anthony. I’d love to see that. The chemistry they have is incredible and something between them just clicks.
Fuck…Anthony, Sydney and me. I instantly had a very graphic, erotic vision in my head of Anthony and I with her. I had to get myself under control.
During the game I noticed how Evan and Seth both had their eyes on her more than the game. At half time in the kitchen they tried to engage in conversation with her. She was nice and polite but still very shy. While I was standing watching Evan, Seth and Sydney talking, Matt came over and stood by me.
“Check out Anth,” Matt said in a low tone. Nonchalantly I looked up and over at Anthony. He was sitting at the kitchen table with his eyes glued on Sydney. “He hasn’t taken his eyes off her.”
Somehow I had to get Anthony to admit that there’s something between him and Sydney. It’s obvious to everyone else but him. I want her happy and safe and in a healthy D/s relationship. Anthony can provide all of that for her and then some.
As the second half started, Evan told Sydney that she could sit by him for the rest of the game. My heart jumped. Sydney nodded and Seth moved over creating a space for her on the couch between him and Evan. I don’t know what raced through my veins but it wasn’t pleasant.
Sydney sat very still and kept her hands on her knees and eyes on the TV. My eyes along with Matt and Anthony’s were focused on the opposite end of the couch where our fragile kitten was. Evan leaned back against the couch and told Sydney she could get more comfortable. She edged back a little bit but didn’t lean all the way back. Evan kept exchanging glances with Seth and kept me on edge. I think Sydney could sense it and started to look a little uncomfortable.
Evan looked over at me and made a motion of rubbing on her back. I knew he was silently asking me if it was okay. No fucking way. She gets jumpy when Anthony and I do it. She wasn’t ready for his hands plus she had welts and cuts that were still healing. I calmly shook my head and he nodded. He knew that at this juncture that I knew best. And I did. Then Anthony surprised me with a move that would calm and relax me for the rest of the game.
“Evan, might I borrower Sydney? I’ve got this bag of M&M’s and need to share it,” Anthony casually and calmly asked.
Anthony knew she was getting nervous and uneasy and he stepped up. Sydney looked over at him and her face relaxed as she smiled at him. She looked at Evan and Seth and politely excused herself. Anthony knew Sydney was being pushed to her edge of comfort by sitting between Evan and Seth. And like the excellent Dom that he is, he only allowed her to stay in that position until he knew she was at the edge without going over. He rescued her when he knew she was teetering over.
“Sure, sure. Run to Graves since he has candy,” Evan playfully said to her.
When she sat down next to Anthony on the chaise, my heart rate calmed. She sat and watched him open the candy bag and then pour some into his hand. He offered his hand to her and she pulled out the colors she wanted.
Anthony laughed out loud and looked up at me to see if I had seen her being picky with the colors. “I didn’t know you had preference on the colors, sunshine.” He leaned over and kissed her head while still chuckling.
While the fourth quarter played on and after watching Sydney interact with Seth and Evan and then Anthony, I realized that I had a problem. Not a problem with Sydney or Anthony or Evan and Seth, but with myself. When Sydney was next to Seth and Evan, I was on edge. I paid extra close attention watching and looking for anything. I hoped I would have seen something between Sydney and Evan that rivaled the chemistry of Sydney and Anthony. I didn’t see it though. When Sydney sat next to Anthony, I relaxed. In fact, whenever Sydney wasn’t with Anthony, I was more edgy. It only calmed when she was next to him. Why? Maybe because he was a known entity and I knew for certain that she was one hundred percent safe when she was with him. I didn’t have the answer yet. But what I did know was that I felt more relaxed seeing her with Anthony.
As usual before bed the three of us sat in the sitting area of her room and I talked to Sydney about Evan and Seth some more. I told her that Evan said that he wanted to talk in more details about a possible scene with her. She smiled, but I noticed it wasn’t a smile that she couldn’t contain. This was a contained smile. Anthony gets a better smile when he winks at her.
“Do you think you’d like a scene with Evan, baby?”
“Yes, Sir. W-when?”
Nervous little thing. I brushed a stray lock of her hair behind her ear and told her that we would just talk about it this Friday. She relaxed then. I know she wants a scene with a good Dom but I know she’s very nervous too.
Chapter 52
Sunday, November 10th
Anthony
Fuck me! A scene with Evan was way too soon. Hell, she has just been into Irons twice. Irons! This wasn’t some hole in the wall kink club. Irons had a damn fine reputation for having the most dedicated, serious Doms in the city. She wasn’t ready for this. Not yet. I know she wanted it, but not fucking yet.
After Colin went upstairs for the night, Sydney scooted over to the spot on the floor between my legs and I wrapped my arms around her. She fits in my arms perfectly. Still a little under weight, but she’s eating more. During the game, I kept thinking about my evening chat with her sitting in my arms. I looked forward to it and enjoyed the way she felt. Typically when she first settles into my arms, she’s tense. But by the time we’re ready for bed, her tension is gone. I’m actually helping her some, I think. I couldn’t picture Evan holding her at night and having patient talks with her.
I put my chin on her shoulder and inhaled the vanilla scent that has easily become the most intoxicating scent in the world for me. Last night I asked her to tell me about herself and her childhood. Thankfully it didn’t seem to be littered with the shit that made up my childhood. Tonight though, I had some other things on my mind regarding her more recent past.
“What’s your question tonight, sunshine?”
“Um, do you know Evan well?”
With her first word screaming her nervousness, I knew where this conversation was going. She was already worried or nervous about the potential scene.
“I know Evan pretty well. Not as well as I know Colin or Matt. What do you want to know, sunshine?”
Sydney shivered and immediately her hands balled up. What the fuck? I pulled her closer, if that was possible, and kissed her cheek.
“Have you seen him do scenes?”
“Yes.”
“Is…is he rough?”
Mother fuck. She already had in her head that he was rough and going to hurt her.
“No, sunshine. Evan isn’t rough or mean. He won’t hurt you. I can promise you that. Can you trust me on that?”
She looked down at the carpet and began tracing the outline of my watch on my arm.
“I trust you with ev
erything, Anthony.”
I wasn’t sure what to say to that. I’ve never had a sub tell me that. I noticed my chest was bothering me again. It bugged me during the game and then went away for a while. I needed to get through our talk so we could get into bed. I’d feel better in the morning hopefully.
“Sunshine, were you nervous this afternoon when you sat by Evan and Seth?”
“A little. I was worried that I stepped over the line though with sitting on the couch. I kept feeling like I should have been on the floor.”
“You did just fine. You aren’t his sub.”
We wrapped up our talk and I took some aspirin and a heartburn tablet before we crawled into bed. She took up her usual spot next to me and took hold of my shirt. I kissed her cheek and pulled her closer.
“Sleep well, sunshine.”
“Yes, Sir.”
Chapter 53
Monday, November 11th
Colin
I glanced at my watch while I waited for the coffee to brew. I knew Anthony was up because I had heard the shower on. It was approaching 7:30 a.m. though and we needed to get a move on. We were riding to work together today. I started pulling some things out of the pantry though for breakfast. I needed to make sure Sydney ate. Today would be the first day we left her alone. Matt had the day off though and was going to come over around lunchtime with Gina. I felt better knowing that she was only going to be alone until noon and then Matt would be here to check on her.
They came into the kitchen and Anthony sat at the table while Sydney moved around the asking how she could help. I let her be in charge of breakfast and went to join Anthony at the table. He looked tired and the expression on his face told me he was agitated about something. When Sydney would get close though, he’d relax his jaw some and tried to look calm.
“Baby, don’t forget that Matt and Gina will be over at noon with lunch. Be sure to eat and text me when they leave. And, don’t forget that tonight starts your greeting us at the door in the ‘present’ mode that we've been working on. Do you have any questions about that?”
“No, Sir. I won’t screw up. I promise.”
She was afraid of messing up or not doing something exactly correct. Fucking Howard.
“Baby, you won’t be perfect. No one is. If something needs to be corrected or adjusted, we’ll talk about it, learn from it and move on.”
“Yes, Sir.”
She walked to the door to the garage with us and I reminded her to text me if anything came up and that I wanted her to spend some time writing in her journal. That journal has become very important. She has two actually. One where she’s free to write whatever comes to mind while the other she and I trade back and forth. I’ll write on the top of a page what I want her to write about and then at night we discuss it. I know it’s important to get her talking and this is a good way to open that communication. Matt is still on me about getting an appointment set up with Chris, but I want her to try writing for a bit first and see if it helps. I’m not just going to throw her into seeing a counselor.
I drove us to work and on the way Anthony told me about the nightmare filled evening Sydney had. They are debilitating for her and I know Anthony is in there taking the brunt of it.
“Did she talk about it at all?”
“Yeah, some. She said she was dreaming about Howard hurting her. Chaining her to the fucking heater.” He paused and looked out the window. “She kept saying ‘fire’ while she pushed and shoved at me until she woke up. I hate seeing her like that.”
“Me too, Anth.”
“I’ve been doing something else at night,” he started to say and then went back to looking out the window. “She and I have made a deal. She gets to ask me a question about the lifestyle and I’ll answer her completely and honestly. Then, I get to ask her anything I want.”
“Shit, that’s great, Anth. Really, that’s wonderful. How’s it going?”
“Well, she hasn’t backed out of it. She knows though that the red and yellow words are still good and if it’s something she really doesn't want to talk about, she can say red.”
On the rest of the way to work, he filled me in on the stuff they’ve discussed so far. It’s amazing that he can hold her and talk to her about anything and listen to her talk about horrible things. I’ve got to work on him looking at the idea that they could be something.
The morning slowly moved on and I felt like this was the longest day ever. I went to a staff meeting and had an executive meeting with Anthony and Mitch regarding some upcoming orders and projects. Things were going well at work and I was thankful because my mind was elsewhere lately. As Anthony and I were headed to lunch, I got a text from Matt.
MR: Just got to your house and your fragile kitten is doing well. We brought lunch and I’ll text you when we leave.
CE: Thanks Matt.
I tried paying attention during our afternoon meeting with various departments but it was well after 1:30 p.m. and I hadn’t heard from Matt or Sydney. Finally a text came over.
MR: Gina and I just left and I made sure I heard her lock the door. We took sub sandwiches over for lunch and she ate all of hers and a cookie. Gina and Sydney painted their nails while I channel surfed.
CE: Thanks, man. I owe you.
MR: No you don’t. You’d do the same for me and helped me with Gina. Anything you need, you let me know.
I felt like I could relax now. My phone vibrated again and I glanced down. This time it was Sydney and a surge of excitement raced through my veins.
SB: Hi Sir! Matt and Gina are gone now. They brought me a cookie with M&M’s in it and a sandwich. Gina helped me paint my toes. I will work on my journal entry that you left for me and will see you when you get home. Please tell Anthony I said hi.
Her text made me smile. I slid my phone over towards Anthony so he could take a look. He was a huge part of Sydney's recovery and why she was doing so well. He looked at it and a smile forced the corners of his mouth upward.
4:30 rolled around and he and I were headed to the parking garage, eager to get home and see her. As we got into my car he pulled out a bag of M&M’s from his suit jacket and set them on the console. I raised my eyebrows at him questioningly and then laughed at his expression. He looked like a kid who got caught with his hand in the cookie jar. He was forced into a smile for the second time today as I started the car.
“Fuck off, Col.”
I couldn’t help but burst out laughing. I know he cares for her. He thinks about her at work and has never done stuff like this before.
“What are you laughing at, man? She likes them and they make her smile,” he explained as we started the drive home.
“Oh, Anth.” I laughed some more and had to put a hand over my stomach because it hurt from laughing so hard. “Seriously, Anth. It’s very thoughtful and she will appreciate them. But haven’t you figured out yet that you don’t need to give her M&M’s to make her smile?” I looked over at him and his mouth thinned into a line. He doesn’t see it yet. That or he doesn’t want to see it or is afraid to see it. He will though.
He and I went in the front door and I laid my eyes on Sydney kneeling in the “present” pose beautifully. She had good posture, hands were open and palms were facing upward and her head was tilted downward. Personally, I would have preferred to see those gorgeous eyes. The eyes of a submissive speak volumes to a Dom. My eyes glided up and down her naked body and I felt myself start to harden.
“Fuck me,” Anthony said under his breath standing behind me. He was just as affected as I was.
She hadn’t looked up at us and held her position. I loved just looking at her. From where Anthony and I found her over a number of weeks ago, she was doing much better. I forced myself to focus though when I noticed she begun to shake. I crouched down in front of her to put us on a more even field and I tilted her chin up to look at me.
“Baby, why are you shaking? I’m so proud of you, Sydney.”
Anthony cleared his throat from behind me. �
��We…we are proud of you, sunshine.”
A sweet, soft smile appeared on her face and she seemed to relax some. But I still wanted to know why she shook. I had to make sure it wasn’t from being scared.
“I’m still waiting for an answer, baby. Why were you shaking?”
“I hadn’t heard you guys say anything when you came in, so I didn’t know if I was doing something wrong. I hoped I wasn't but know that you’d tell me.”
“You’re right, Sydney. If you were doing something that needed correcting, we’d talk about it. But baby, we’re so proud of you.” I reached out and stroked her cheek with the back of my hand.
After we gave her some much deserved praise and hugs, she went to the kitchen to finish up dinner while Anthony and I each went to our rooms to change. I decided to jump in the shower to get some built up excitement out of my system. Seeing her kneeling on my floor in a present pose had done things to me tonight. I jacked off in the shower to the image of her kneeling and sucking me off in my foyer while Anthony watched. I made quick work of getting myself off and then put on some lounge pants, tee shirt and headed downstairs. I leaned against the breakfast bar and asked her about her day. She showed me her pretty pale pink toes. And of course the pale pink nail polish matched her pinkish nipples, conveniently. I began to harden again. What the fuck was wrong with me? I’ve been around hundreds of naked subs and never have I been so easily swayed into an erection.
She stood at the stove and prepared plates of spaghetti with sauce and carried them over to the table. Naked. Anthony strolled into the kitchen also with wet hair. I had a feeling he had tended to his male needs as well. We sat down to eat and I noticed that Sydney waited to begin eating until after Anthony and I had begun. Again, this was a preference of Seth and Evan. Both wanted to be served and to begin eating before their sub.
