But Dr. Dougherty did not return. When Rosemarie’s faint wail rose, Winifred heated the milk as Sam had shown her and flew up the stairs to feed her precious niece. By the time she opened the door to the doctor’s bedroom where the baby lay in the ruffled wicker bassinet, Rosemarie had worked up to quite a lusty yell.
“There, there, little one,” Winifred crooned. She set the warmed milk on the book-cluttered nightstand and lifted the child into her arms. A sopping wet diaper plastered itself against the front of her shirtwaist and instantly she held the baby away from her. Oh, dear. She would have to exchange the wet garment for a dry one; but how, exactly, did one accomplish this? Sam had left no instructions concerning wet diapers.
She riffled through the handsome walnut chest of drawers until she found clean diapers, then laid Rosemarie on the doctor’s bed and studied how the safety pins were arranged. Rosemarie screamed and grew red in the face, and Winifred began to perspire.
She unpinned the soaked garment, prodded the ceramic chamber pot out from under the bassinet with her foot and dropped in the diaper. It landed with a splat and Winifred heaved a sigh of relief. Then she pinned the dry garment onto the now-squirming infant, praying she would not prick the soft skin. Then she stuck the rubber nipple into Rosemarie’s open mouth.
Instant silence. Thank the Lord! The blue-green eyes popped open and gazed into Winifred’s face as the level of milk in the bottle steadily diminished. The baby sucked greedily while she hovered over her, mesmerized by the whole process. Perhaps it wasn’t that difficult to care for an infant.
Long before the bottle was empty, Rosemarie fell asleep. Winifred cuddled her against one shoulder and settled into the rocking chair by the window. Not difficult at all, she mused. In fact, she felt exactly like she did after a successful concert—tired and proud and happy.
* * *
Zane stepped quietly into his bedroom and stopped short. Winifred sat in the rocker, asleep, with a slumbering Rosemarie nestled against her shoulder. Very gently he lifted his daughter into his arms, felt her diaper—dry—and laid her in the bassinet beside his bed. Then he stood staring down at Celeste’s sister.
How different this woman was from his wife. Celeste had been petite, golden-blonde and frail-looking. Winifred had dark hair. And whereas Celeste had been slim to the point of boyishness, Winifred’s breasts under the white shirtwaist were lushly curved.
She slept quietly, her breath pulling softly in and out without a hint of the asthma that had plagued Celeste in the summer months. His wife had been pretty, extremely pretty; but Winifred’s bone structure approached real beauty. He could not help wondering how far the differences between the two sisters went. Was Winifred—? He caught himself. He wouldn’t allow his mind to go there. He recognized that he was desperately unhappy. Lonely. Hungry, even. Not for physical release but for emotional comfort. And, yes, he supposed, some plain old body hunger was involved. It amazed him that his spirit could feel so broken and his physical self could still feel normal. Or almost normal.
Since Celeste’s death he hadn’t felt a twinge of interest in food or riding or swimming or reading or any of the things that had sustained him through the long, dry months of her pregnancy. He supposed he would come back to life eventually; for the time being, it was a blessing to feel nothing.
He reached out and touched Winifred’s wrist and she jerked upright with a little cry. “Oh, it’s you.”
Zane surprised himself with a chuckle. “Who were you expecting?”
She surged out of the rocker. “The baby! Where is—?”
“Sleeping,” Zane replied.
She took a single step forward and her knees gave way. Zane snagged one arm around her shoulder to steady her. “Easy, there. Foot go to sleep?”
“What? Oh, no, I...” She swerved toward the bassinet. “I feel somewhat unsteady, and my head is pounding like it does when I have a migraine.”
Zane tightened his grip and steered her through the doorway and down the short hallway to the guest bedroom. Her skin was hot. Even through the shirtwaist he could feel she was over-warm. He shot a glance to her flushed face.
“Winifred, undress and get into bed. I’ll bring up something to cool you down.”
When he returned, she was stretched out under the top sheet, her eyes shut. “What’s wrong with me? Am I ill?”
“You’re sun-sick. Got a bad sunburn on your face and arms. Here, drink this.” He leaned over, slipped his arm behind her to raise her shoulders and held a glass to her lips.
“What is it?”
“Water, mostly. You’re dehydrated. What did you do today to get this sunburned?”
She sipped obligingly, then grasped the glass with both hands and gulped down four huge swallows. “I went to visit Cissy’s grave. I must have sat there for longer than I thought.”
Zane said nothing. Her next statement drove the breath from his lungs.
“I saw your roses. It was a lovely gesture.”
“What roses?”
“The yellow ones you left on her grave.”
“But I did not—”
Even in the semidarkness he could see her eyes widen. She finished the water. “Then who did?”
He set the glass aside and slid her shoulders down onto the pillow. “I have something for your sunburn.” Carefully he unrolled the three napkins he’d soaked in water and witch hazel; one he laid directly over her face and with the other two he wrapped her forearms. “I’m afraid you’re going to hurt some tomorrow. Your skin is pretty badly burned.”
“It was worth it,” she said on a sigh. “I said goodbye to Cissy.”
Zane flinched. He still couldn’t face seeing Celeste’s grave. Maybe he never would.
“Nathan—”
“Zane,” he corrected. “It’s been Zane ever since I was ten years old and my baby sister couldn’t say ‘Nathaniel.’”
“Zane, then. If you didn’t leave the roses, then who did?”
“Damned if I know,” he muttered.
“You haven’t visited her grave, have you?” Even muffled under the wet napkin, her voice sounded accusing.
“No, I have not.”
“Why?”
He lifted the cloth from one of her slim forearms and swung it in the air, then settled it again. “I don’t know why. Well, yes, I do know.”
He swung the other napkin to cool it. “I—As long as I don’t see her grave, she’s not really gone.”
Winifred pulled the cloth from her face and stared up at him. “But you saw her buried!”
Zane took the napkin from her hand and turned away to flap it in the air. “Yes, I know that I was there, or at least my body was there. Much of it I don’t remember.”
“Oh,” she breathed. “I felt that way when our mother died. Cissy was probably too young to remember much, but for years afterward it was as if I had dreamed it, the funeral, and Papa weeping. There are still parts I don’t recall clearly.”
Zane folded the cooled cloth and laid it across her forehead. Her hair was loose, he noted, spread out on the pillow in a tumble of dark waves. It smelled faintly of cloves. Carnations, he guessed. Celeste’s hair had smelled like some kind of mousse.
“Nath—Zane—you must visit Cissy’s grave. I think it would help.”
He choked back a harsh laugh. Help? Nothing would help. Nothing would ever be the same again.
“No,” he said at last.
She held his gaze, the blue-green eyes he knew so well unblinking. Celeste had never challenged him like this. He found he didn’t like it.
“No,” he said again. “You have more guts than I do, Winifred. And while I take exception to your bluntness, I envy you your courage.”
By the time Winifred had thought up a proper retort, she heard the door to her bedroom close b
ehind him.
* * *
In the morning, Winifred found the skin of her face and arms stiff and so parched her cheeks and arms stung. And her nose... She could not bear to look at it in the mirror over the yellow-painted chest in the bedroom. Gingerly she drew on a soft paisley skirt and shirtwaist, braided her hair and descended the stairs. She’d overslept. And, oh, how she needed a cup of Sam’s coffee!
But Sam was not in the kitchen. And the saucepan she’d used to heat the baby’s bottle still sat on the stove.
The back door swung open and Zane tramped in, a load of firewood stacked along one arm. “Morning,” he said. “Sam’s not going to be with us for a few more hours.”
“It isn’t chicken pox, is it?”
“Hardly. Too much hard cider at Uncle Charlie’s last night.” He dumped the wood into the wood box and bent to stir up the coals in the stove. “I’ll make the coffee this morning.”
The doorbell clanged.
“Damn that thing.” Zane clunked a hefty piece of oak into the firebox and went to answer it.
Voices drifted from the entrance hall, a man’s deep baritone and a child’s trilling chatter. Winifred laid out plates and silverware on the dining table and tried not to listen.
“How’d she get up into the tree, Colonel?” Zane’s voice.
“How does she get anywhere, Doc? She climbs or crawls. Some days I think she can fly.”
She heard Zane’s chuckle, then, “All right, Miss Manette, let’s have a look at your arm.”
“It hurts,” the child said.
“I bet it does. Nevertheless, let me feel along the bone and see if you can make a fist. Ah, good. What were you doing up in the apple tree, hmm?”
“Looking for worms.”
“Worms? Anyone ever tell you there’s plenty of worms in the ground?”
“Not the right kind of worms,” the girl insisted.
“Colonel, did she hit her head when she fell?”
“Don’t know. Knocked the wind out of her, though,” the man said.
“Might have a concussion,” Zane said quietly. “Manette, does your head hurt?”
Silence. Apparently she was shaking her head.
“Now I want you to watch my finger.”
More silence. Winifred set two cups down on the china saucers, taking care not to make any noise.
“Now, you look right into my eyes, all right?” Zane again.
“Your eyes are all shiny, Dr. Dee. And they’re gray, just like Maman’s.”
“So they are. My mama’s eyes were gray, too. Give me your wrist, now. That’s it. No, don’t jerk it away. I want to feel your pulse.”
“What’s a pulse?”
“A pulse is your heart beating. It goes tha-lump, tha-lump. Here, you can feel mine.”
“Yours is real loud!” Manette exclaimed.
“And yours is as normal as apple pie,” Zane said.
Winifred had to smile. Zane was wonderful with the child.
“She’s just fine, Colonel,” Zane said. “Try to keep her out of the orchard from now on.”
“Thanks, Zane. Jeanne will be in town tomorrow with a blackberry pie for you.”
“She doesn’t need to,” Zane protested.
The man laughed. “Jeanne will never believe that.”
The front door shut and Zane reappeared in the kitchen. “Spirited little tyke,” he said with a smile. “Likes bugs and worms and everything else that crawls. Drives her father wild.”
“And her mother?”
“Jeanne’s used to it. Mothers get that way after a while. I know mine did.”
“Did you like bugs?”
“No. I liked horses and swimming. And books.” He grabbed the coffeepot. “I’ll make some coffee.”
“What about your baby sister? Did she like bugs?”
Zane looked purposefully at the handle of the coffeepot, then stared past her shoulder out the kitchen window. “Maggie died when she was five. Scarlet fever. That’s when I decided to become a doctor.”
Winifred could have bitten off her tongue. To lighten the pall that had fallen, she opened her mouth and blurted the first thing that came to mind. “I will scramble you some eggs this morning.”
His dark eyebrows rose. “You can cook?”
“Well, not much. Growing up, we always had a cook. But I wager that eggs are easy to scramble.”
“Celeste couldn’t cook a damn thing,” he said quietly. And then he smiled.
It was the first real smile she’d ever seen on his face. For some reason it made her so happy she wanted to do something extra nice. Sam seemed to scramble eggs with no apparent effort; they must be easy to fix. She decided to make lots of them.
While Zane made coffee, Winifred found an iron frying pan and four eggs. She shooed Zane out of the kitchen and set to work. She heated the pan over the hottest part of the stove, cracked all four eggs into it at once and smashed them together with a fork.
They congealed instantly into rubbery globs that looked nothing like the creamy golden eggs Sam had set before her.
Apprehensively she scooped the mess out onto Zane’s plate and set it before him. He sat looking at it for a long minute, gulped a swallow of coffee and looked up into her eyes.
“You can’t cook a damn thing, either, can you?” he said softly.
And then he smiled again.
Chapter Four
Zane didn’t want to hurt Winifred’s feelings about the plate of hard, dry scrambled eggs she’d served him. But when Sam staggered into the kitchen full of apologies for sleeping late, Zane left him in charge of Rosemarie and walked down to make hospital rounds, check on Sarah Rose’s grandson and his chicken pox, then ended up, as he’d planned, at the Smoke River Hotel dining room.
“Scrambled eggs, please, Rita.”
“Sure, Doc. Just come from the hospital, didja? How’s the sheriff’s new twins?”
“Maddie and the babies are doing well. Can’t say the same for the sheriff, though. Seems he’s been at the hospital the last twenty-four hours. Can’t seem to take his eyes off his twin sons.”
A wide grin split the waitress’s round face. “Don’t blame him, Doc. Our Johnny’s never been a father before. New babies take some gettin’ used to.”
A plate of perfectly scrambled eggs appeared within minutes, and after he doused them liberally with catsup, he dug in. Rita hung at his elbow with the coffeepot.
“Guess you heard Johnny’s been studyin’ those law books Miss Maddie gave him. Gonna run for judge next election.”
“When will that be?” Zane bit a half circle into his toast. Jericho Silver—Johnny, as Rita called him—was a good man. Honest. Intelligent. Hardworking. He’d make an excellent judge.
“If he gets elected he can stay home nights, feeding those twins.”
Rita grinned. “Oh, he’ll get elected all right, Doc. I’m his campaign manager.”
Zane saluted her with his empty cup. Just as Rita lifted the pot to fill it, Zane froze. Good God, Winifred was entering the restaurant. The moment she spied him she frowned, wiped it off her face, then let it return and crossed the room to his table.
“Are those scrambled eggs?” she demanded.
He rose and invited her to sit down. “Rita, bring another plate, will you?”
“And some scrambled eggs, please,” Winifred added.
They stared across the table at each other for a long minute.
“Quite a coincidence, isn’t it?” he said at last. “Meeting here like this.”
“Maybe not so much. We’re probably both hungry after my disastrous attempt in the kitchen this morning.”
“Yes,” he said. “We are. Both hungry, I mean.” He wondered at himself the instant t
he suggestive word crossed his lips. Thank God she didn’t seem to hear.
Rita plopped a plate down in front of Winifred, and with an apologetic look at him, she lifted her fork. “This afternoon Sam is going to teach me how to scramble eggs.”
Zane stared at her. Celeste had never exchanged more than two sentences with Sam, and she’d certainly never asked him to teach her anything about cooking.
“But before my egg lesson,” Winifred continued, “there is something I’d like to discuss with you.”
Zane’s nerves went on alert. “Now?”
“No, not now. Later.”
“I’ll be at the hospital later.”
Very deliberately she laid her fork on the plate. “The truth is you don’t want to talk to me, do you? I can understand your not liking me, but—”
“I do like you.” Oh, God, had he really said that? He drew in a long breath. “I apologize. That came out wrong. What I mean is we have nothing to discuss.”
“It’s about Celeste.”
“Especially if it’s about Celeste. She wanted the piano and all her music books shipped back to you at the conservatory, and her clothes—”
“Her clothes are too small for me, Zane. And she loved the color pink. I detest pink.”
“I detest pink, too, but...” His voice thickened. “But I loved it on Celeste.”
Winifred nodded. “I don’t need the piano,” she said quietly. “It brings back painful memories.”
“Oh? What the hell do you think it does to me?” Instantly he regretted snapping at her. He waited, watching her coffee cup jiggle when she picked it up. Her fingers were trembling.
“Sorry. Guess I’m strung up a little tight these days.”
“Well, so am I.”
They stared at each other across the table for a long minute, and then Winifred dropped her eyes.
“Zane, when Cissy met you, she and I were about to go on tour. London, Paris, Vienna. Even Rome, which Cissy didn’t want to visit because she feared it would be too hot. Did you know about this?”
“No, I did not know. She never told me. All I know is that there was a piano recital one night at the medical college and Celeste was playing. She wore some kind of flowing pink gown, chiffon, I guess it’s called. And she was the most beautiful creature I’d ever seen. I fell in love with her during her first piece. Chopin, I remember. An étude.”
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