by Miss Dee
“All night, they said she should be gone by tonight or tomorrow.” He said.
Damn I couldn’t believe it Grandma Nancy was going to die. She was just fine just a couple of days ago when I visited. She was up hollering and acting a damn fool. Tears started to fall out of my eyes. First Mama now Granny, what was next? Dad seen me crying and came to me. He started hugging me and holding me and I just released all of my emotions.
“Let’s get out of here baby girl we should get something to eat.” I shook my head yeah.
Although I didn’t really wanna go with my Dad I was vulnerable right now. We went to a little soul food restaurant. I picked over my food and I think Dad was hungry because he was tearing that food up.
“Look Daphne I know you might not think it but I do love you. I know I fucked up when I hit you but you remind me so much of your Mother. You have her beauty and her grace. She was a beautiful girl. I took her for granted because I wanted her all to myself. But what I wanted I already had but I just couldn’t see it.”
He took a drink from his cup and I didn’t say anything I just listened. “Your Mom would have been my wife had I not been doing so much fucked up shit.”
I just looked at him I had never heard him talk about Mama. He never really brought her up, but I knew that was why he beat me. He was guilty. But guilt could tear you up even if it really wasn’t your fault. I think my Mama and Dad were not meant to be anyway. I think Q was the best for her. I just wish my Mama could have finally been happy with her man.
We talked some more and parted ways after that. I loved my Daddy and I was glad he had finally apologized to me right. I called Mike and asked him to come over and see me. He came over and told me some great news. Some producers had heard his demo and wanted to meet with him. Yeah hopefully he would be getting in the rap game. We had to celebrate. He said we should wait until he knew what we were celebrating. That was cool with me. We spent the rest of the night together.
We woke up the next morning and I swear I loved waking up to this man. He was gorgeous to me. I got up and tried not to disturb him. My passion was cooking. I went to nursing school and was a nurse at a hospital but I loved to cook. And everybody loved to eat my food. Mama was a social worker so that’s why I think I chose to be nurse to help others. I got up to cook for my man. I checked to see if Jr. had came home and he did, so I would make enough for him. I made an omelet for Jr. and some French toast for me. Mike I made him sausage, eggs, and some hash browns.
I had to go to work where I knew I could see my best friend Sherri. We grew up together and had been friends every since my Mom had died. We went to school together Middle School, High School, and College. We had both gotten jobs at the same hospital. I loved working with Sherri she was definitely crazy. I remember when I lost my virginity in College to Terance.
It was freshman year in College and Terance was one of our professors. Sherri had blonde hair, green eyes, and a typical pretty white girl, although Sherri was a bleached blonde she was a true dumb blonde. I didn’t see how she even got into the same college with me, maybe with me helping on all her assignments during High School had really helped her out. Terance taught our Medical Terminology class. Now I knew all my terms and abbreviations but Sherri was fucking up bad. I couldn’t help her like I usually did because she had to learn on her own.
We were in class and Terance gave us back our papers. And although Terance was our teacher I must admit he was fine as hell. He was light skinned with a body out of this world, I could tell even with his regular clothes on. I don’t know but I kind of felt the connection between us then. He was well spoken and he always singled me out in class. Sherri would tell me all the time “that man wants to fuck”. And that really didn’t appeal to me. My Mama had four kids by the age of twenty-two and I was not heading in that direction. That’s why I think I never gave a guy a chance from all the things I witnessed with my Mom. She tried to protect us but when she got killed there was nothing much that I didn’t start finding out.
On this particular day I had my long hair down and I had on a cute little dress with my cowgirl boots. I was looking cute as ever but that day there must have been something about me that really caught Terance’s attention. He kept staring at me during his lecture and he had a little smile. And the entire time Sherri was whispering, “oh yeah bitch he wants you bad.” After class he grabbed my hand in a very sensual way. “Can I speak with real quick Ms. Harris?”
I was thinking yeah of course gorgeous. We waited until the entire class left and he began, “How old are you?”
“Eighteen.” I said with butterflies in my stomach.
“Do you like older men?” he said now standing real close to me.
I didn’t know what to say so I just stood there. “You shy Ms. Harris? No reason to be shy you to beautiful you need to have more confidence.”
And that was the beginning of our romance. I had been dating Terance since I was eighteen and here I was twenty four and was still putting up with his shit. Well not recently every since I started dating Mike. Terance was my first and I wanted him to be my husband but that was impossible since he was married. I was devastated when I found out the love of my life Terance Brown had a wife and two lovely kids. It was too late though I had given him my virginity and was in love.
It was one night at dinner and he answered his phone, “Hey honey,” he said right in front of me.
My whole heart dropped. We had been dating for three months and had never called anybody honey except me, was he serious? I could only hear his side of the conversation so when he got off the phone I started asking questions.
“So who was that?”I asked immediately after he got off the phone.
“My wife, my son is sick.” I couldn’t believe he just said it like it was nothing.
I had no idea he was married. He never mentioned this before but of course not he wanted to get in good with me first.
“What do you mean Terance? You never told me about a wife, a child.”
“Children actually two, but me and the wife were having problems when I met you but we good now,” he said and took a sip from his drink.
I was mad as hell he was acting like it was nothing. But I wasn’t like my brothers and sister I wasn’t going to raise hell, I didn’t have that fight in me I started crying.
“Look Daph calm down, I love you, I’m not ending this. Just calm down baby you my lady don’t worry.” And I didn’t ask any questions.
But it had come too much when he started belittling me and breaking up with me. Jr. said I told him too much of my business and that’s why he got the upper hand because I didn’t really know shit about him. I was happy that I had finally let that relationship go.
It was funny as hell when Shamar came over and was calling Terance and threatening him. It was hilarious. Fuck him he had broke my heart. I was excited to see Sherri but lately she had been acting weird, like when I told her about Shamar playing on Terance’s phone she sort of had an attitude. Actually she had been having an attitude with me lately and I didn’t know why. Every since Terance and I broke up she had been having an attitude I just didn’t understand, being my best friend she should want me to have the best and not settle.
When she walked into the nurse’s office I was happy to see her and it was a plus she had a smile on her face.
“Hey girl, how you been?” I asked. She gave me a hug.
“Alright my new man had me up all night.” She sat down.
She did look tired. I was kind of surprised that I hadn’t seen her new man since every guy she dated she made sure I seen him. She was keeping him a secret he must have been truly special.
“When am I going to meet this mystery man of yours?”
“I don’t know girl, give me a second I gotta run to the bathroom.” She said.
She headed to the bathroom and her phone started vibrating. I usually didn’t look at her phone but being her boss she wasn’t suppose to have it on the desk or on because it
could interfere with the computers. So I picked it up to turn it off but when I looked at the screen it was a text from a familiar number, a very familiar number, Terance’s number to be exact. I started reading the thread of texts. My whole world was spinning this bitch had been fucking him for a year. She might be pregnant by my muthafucking man. What the fuck!
She came back from the bathroom and I still had her phone in my hand. She walked up and started talking but I didn’t hear shit I turned around and punched that bitch in her face. She didn’t know what to do but I did.
I punched her again and she fell. “What the hell Daph?” she said.
Fuck that I was in the zone and I was fucking that bitch up. Some of the other nurses tried to pull me off of her but I was hitting they ass too. They had to call security on me. They called the police on me and I didn’t realize what was going on until I was getting booked.
With my one phone call I called Shamar.
“Hello, hey it’s Daphne.” I said crying.
“I know what happened Sissy?”
“I don’t know I just snapped Mar. Can you come and get me?” I asked.
“Yeah sissy but I don’t think you about to get out right away you gotta get a bail hearing don’t you?” he said.
“No they just gave me a ticket. I don’t have to go to court until a later date but I need someone to get me when I get released in an hour.”
“Okay I will be there and stop crying.”
The little holding cell they had me smelled like piss, it was horrible. I didn’t know what had come over me. I had never had a fight in my life hell I didn’t even know I knew how to fight. This was something new to me. But all I know is she deserved it. How the hell are you going to be my best friend and then fuck the only man that I had and you knew that? She knew the pain I was in sharing Terance with his wife. And to think the bitch might be pregnant by him. This just made me cry. I was glad I whooped her ass, she definitely had it coming. It felt good punching her in her shit. She was scared too. Her little pretty green eyes are black now I bet. Just thinking about how scared Sherri was cracked me up. I started laughing, stupid bitch she fucked with the wrong one. Glad I had moved on.
Shamar came and got me and I was happy. When we got about two blocks away from the precinct he lit up a blunt I sure did need it. I got to telling him about what happened and he was laughing his ass off. We went to get something to eat. We sat in the restaurant and chatted about things. Mike was gone to meet the producers for his music. It felt good just sitting there chatting with my little brother. Our bond had definitely grown since the murder of Cash. I didn’t know what was ahead of me. Over the last month I had definitely changed every since I cut off my hair, I cut off layers it seemed like I was free to be who I wanted to be. I loved my Mother but looking in the mirror and seeing her was not a good thing, I wanted to make her proud so I stayed in the books and out of the streets. It was time I lived my life for me though now, I couldn’t live by my Mama’s rule because honestly I don’t think I really knew what she would have wanted from me. I know one thing Mama would have wanted me to be happy, and now I was. I had Mike, who was someone I really cared for and knew he felt the same, I had great siblings and we had a great bond, and then I had my career well I used to. But whatever shit I didn’t even like being a nurse. I liked to cook. I knew I was going to go back and be a cook. That was what I could do, start my own restaurant.
Chapter Twenty
Violet
I had to get up and get ready Kane was coming to get me. Now Kane was sexy as hell. He was dark skinned had dreads and was about 5’ 8. I didn’t know why I was sleeping on the nigga I was too busy in Cash’s face but since he was missing in action I was good. Kane had been trying to get with me for about six months but I had been playing but I needed a new sponsor. Chauncey was okay but he only came up on cash every now and then. Brian was too much of a school boy but he had cash also but I needed a street nigga to handle this. And Carlos kept me flooded with cash but that was only when he was in town. Speaking of Carlos I needed to talk to that little sexy muthafucka.
I texted him, “hey papi I miss u.” I fixed my makeup and waited for Kane to come get me.
He pulled up in his black Chrysler 300 and I hopped in.
“Hey baby.” I gave him a kiss on the cheek. I had on some tight blue jeans with a black t shirt.
“What up sexy, what you tryna go do?” he said licking his lips. I still hadn’t given him no pussy and I could tell he wanted it bad.
“I told you I wanted to go shopping.” Yeah nigga you had to pay for this pussy.
“Um you must got some cash.” The audacity of this nigga but he had me fucked up, I pulled out my wad of cash, never a broke bitch.
“Yeah I do.” He started laughing.
Yeah this nigga was not getting no pussy if he was gone make me go in my pockets. I got a text from Carlos he said that he was gone be in town, tonight. Aw shit that what I was talking about. We hit the mall and to my surprise Kane paid for everything I bought. The nigga must have been testing me. Yeah he was trying to see if I was a gold digger. See a nigga never has problem spending cash on a bitch if he knows she got her own. Just in case anything happen he can always fall back on a boss bitch with cash. We ate at the mall in the food court. Kane was pretty cool and he was sexy as hell. I was going to give him some pussy too cause he treated me so good but not tonight Carlos spent way more major dough and I needed that. I made Kane drop me off at home I lied and told him I was on my period so we would have to make our date for another day. I was lying I was on birth control where I only had periods every three months and this was not the month for that.
I got in the shower and changed into something sexy for Carlos. I put on a little blue dress, which was his favorite color, no panties, and some black pumps. I lied and told Aunt Tesha that I was going to a club so she wouldn’t be so nosey. Carlos told me to take a cab to the hotel and he gave me the room number. It was a nice hotel everywhere Carlos took me was nice. That’s all he like to do was spoil my fine ass. I arrived at the hotel and headed to the elevator. All eyes were on me from men to women, the women hated while the men dreamed.
I headed to his room, I knocked and he was looking good as usual. Carlos was a Mexican; he was heavy in the drug game and ran drugs for some Mexican guy. I didn’t know all the information and I really didn’t give a fuck about it as long as he was paid. I walked in the room and he smacked my ass. I sat on the bed.
“Give me a drink, papi.” I said he went to the bar.
“Why did you have to catch cab,” he said in his broken English, ooh his accent was so sexy.
“My car broke down,” I lied. He had given me six thousand dollars to get a car last month. I blew that shit partying and on bullshit, I could get a ride anyway.
“Look we go tomorrow to car and get a new one.” He said bringing me my drink. I took out my X pill and popped it and drank the liquor.
“No papi you don’t have to I’m fine other people can drive me around.” I said.
“No girl of mine is going to be in cars with niggas, no we go tomorrow.” I didn’t wanna argue so I just didn’t say anything.
Plus the effects of the pill would start and I did not wanna be stuck on bullshit. He sat next to me and started rubbing my thigh. Yeah now that what I am talking about get down to it. I liked having sex with Carlos he had a big dick and he knew how to work it. And he definitely worked my little ass all night.
The next morning we caught a cab to a car dealership and Carlos bought me a Mercedes, he paid cash. I was excited I knew Carlos had cash but damn. He had to get on his flight in the afternoon so I made sure I showed him how grateful I was and sexed him like crazy in the car. He got on the plane at around 2 that afternoon and I was sad, I really liked Carlos, I think. I got back in my ride and headed home. I got dressed and was glad Aunt Tesha was gone to work I didn’t wanna answer any questions. I put on my usual booty shorts and headed back out to floss in my ride.
I knew exactly where to floss and who to floss with my bitches Miona and Cashmere. We had been friends for a long time and they were my besties. Miona had two kids already so she really didn’t get out much. Miona was mixed with white and black real pretty with long ass hair. She had an average body not a really big butt or breast just average. I rolled up on her first. I knew she was in the house so I rolled up in her projects. All eyes were on me, niggas knew who I was so they were all in my face wondering what nigga had paid for my ride. I called Miona and told her to come downstairs. She came out about five minutes later. She walked up to my car and started laughing.
“Cash letting you stunt today huh?” her long hair was down and out of her usual ponytail.
“Bitch naw I ain’t heard from that nigga but this my shit. My papi bought this for me. “
“Aw shit bitch.” She got in.
She couldn’t leave so we sat and chatted about bullshit for about an hour. I was telling her about how I had to whoop Cash’s ass and I ain’t heard from him since. She said ain’t nobody seen him around neither, my thoughts was he went out of town to hide his fucked up injuries.
“There go Mer Mer.”Miona said looking up the street.
Knowing these muthafucka they probably told her about my new ride. Damn hood rats ran they mouth. She walked up to the car with a big ass smile. Cashmere was not cute at all. She was black as hell, with a big gap. But she had a nice ass shape. She had a Beyonce body.
“What up bitch!” she said smiling.
“Hey bitch you see me.” I pointed to my ride.
“Hey now” She said.
She wanted to go floss but Miona couldn’t leave her kids so we let her out and went to floss in the city. We were driving around the city loving all the attention. We were high and feeling damn good about ourselves. We stopped at a little corner store to get some more blunts. I told Cashmere to watch the ride. I went in and saw this lady staring at me. She looked familiar, she was in a Beamer. I went in the store and ignored the stares. She was with another chick they were older about in their thirties or late twenties. I paid for the blunts and walked out the store.
