by Sandra Brown
“You didn’t . . .”
“No, I didn’t. Did you really think I would reveal your secret to the world?”
“I wasn’t sure.”
He laid a hand on her thigh, squeezed it. “Why would I hurt you that way?”
“Because of your career. Your integrity. Your unbroken rule not to compromise on characterization.”
“I would never hurt you for the sake of a damn movie. I love you more than any role, than fame, fortune, or anything else.”
“Rylan.” Lowering her head, she spoke to her clenched hands. “I was so defensive, so nasty to you, because you’re too clever. I wanted you so badly. Every time you touched me I went off like a flare.”
“I didn’t know if that was arousal or revulsion.”
“It was fear. I was afraid you’d guess the truth, that you would somehow guess how deprived I’d been. The more involved we became, the more I feared you would discover the truth. And I had to protect Charlie. That was only fair, wasn’t it?”
He touched her cheek lovingly. “I admire you for your loyalty. It makes me jealous that you loved him that much. You could have exploited his sexual incapacity, sensationalized it, and made a lot more money on your book.”
“I don’t know how to finish it.”
“Want my advice?” She nodded. “Finish it to correlate with the movie’s ending.”
“But the public will want to know if it was a suicide or not.”
“Why do you feel obliged to provide an answer you don’t even have? Let them draw their own conclusions. The ending of the movie leaves it wide open to speculation. No one knows about his impotence except you and me. Even that doesn’t diminish what he was or what he did or what he stood for. He lived up to everyone’s expectations. The only person he hurt was you.” He cupped her face between his hands. “And as of now, I’m going to start healing you of that hurt.”
“But—”
He stopped her protests with a single finger against her lips. “Save your breath. I’ll only shoot down every argument. And I’m used to getting my way.”
Her lips trembled beneath his soft kiss. “You really do love me, don’t you?”
He smiled and said softly, “I really do.”
She laid her head on his chest and, for both of them, drew a sigh of contentment. “You are the dearest man.”
EPILOGUE
Hi, Mom. Did you get checked into the hotel all right? . . . Good. How’d you like the premiere? . . . Did you see me wink at you? I wish you and Dad could have sat with Kirsten and me, but just knowing you were there meant a lot . . . I’m glad you enjoyed the story . . . Yes, it was supposed to make you cry.”
He cupped his hand over the mouthpiece of the telephone. “Mom said she cried,” Rylan informed his wife.
Speaking into the phone again, he said, “Did I tell you that Demon Rumm is on the New York Times bestseller list? . . . I did? Well, I’m proud of it.”
He blew a kiss across the room when Kirsten turned and smiled at him over her shoulder.
“She’s already hard at work on her third book. I think she’s got two chapters roughed out. I get jealous of that typewriter. . . . No, I offered to buy her a word processor, but she’s turned the idea down flat . . . I’m not sure. Something about fondling the pages of her manuscript.” He covered the mouthpiece again and said to his wife, “Sounds kinky to me. If you’re looking for something to fondle—
“What’d you say, Mom? Kirsten, uh, distracted me . . . Oh, yes, I know that a baby wouldn’t interfere with her career as a writer. We’re working on that . . . Yes, she is tiny, but the doctor checked her out and said that she could carry a child. He gave her a checkup and a tune-up. I figure she’s good for at least forty thousand miles.” Laughing, he dodged the pillow that came sailing toward his head.
“Tell Dad I noticed that too.” He cupped his hand over the receiver again. “Dad said to tell you that you looked sensational tonight, even though he could barely see you through the crowd.” Speaking into the telephone again, he said, “Tell Dad she says thank you . . . No, she hasn’t gotten over her aversion to living in the public eye, but I told her that if she didn’t want people gawking at her, she shouldn’t be so damn good to look at . . . Oh, sorry, Mom. You’re absolutely right, I shouldn’t swear . . . Right. Say, listen, are you still coming to Malibu for brunch in the morning? . . . Great, we can’t wait for you to see the house. It’s similar to the one Kirsten owned in La Jolla, open and airy and looks out over the ocean. But extremely private. We both love it . . . What? Okay, I’ll tell her . . . Around eleven? . . . Terrific. We send our love. Good night.”
He hung up the telephone in their master suite. “Mom and Dad said thanks for the flowers and fruit basket. Remind me to send a tip to the bell captain at the Beverly Hills Hotel.”
“I took care of it for you, darling.”
“I knew I kept you around for something.”
Sending him a smoldering glance, Kirsten slowly and provocatively wet her lips with her tongue. “And it isn’t to tip bellmen.”
The day she became able to tease about sexual matters, he knew she was completely healed of her past unhappiness. Now, after more than a year of marriage, she was openly affectionate and loving, never afraid to express her desire for him at the risk of being rebuffed. Responding to her blatant come-on now, he reached for her, but she playfully dodged him.
“Are Cheryl and Griff coming tomorrow, too?” she asked.
“Yeah,” he answered, laughing as he peeled off his tuxedo coat. He slung it negligently over a chair. “And Mom said to put anything you don’t want broken under lock and key. Dylan is into climbing and destroying.”
“Did I hear a reference to a baby in your conversation?” Kirsten met his eyes in the mirror as she took the diamond studs out of her ears. “Specifically our baby?”
“The folks are getting antsy for another grandchild. I’m afraid Mom’s hints aren’t very subtle.” He slid his arms around her from behind and splayed them over her tummy. “Any symptoms?”
“Nine days late and counting.”
He kissed her neck. “Hmm, good. But any later and we’d have never packed you into this dress.”
It was a tube of midnight-blue sequins. The high collar fastened around her neck halter-style, leaving her arms and back bare. The glittering dress sheathed her petite figure like a second skin from her neck to the vamp of her silver sandals.
Drawing her back against his body and placing his lips directly over her ear, he whispered, “Did I mention how fantastic you looked tonight?”
“A few dozen times,” she said, smiling at him coyly.
He turned her around to face him. “And did I tell you how much I appreciate your suffering through that circus with me?”
She untied his bow tie. “Demon Rumm is going to be a very important movie for you. Rumors of an Oscar nomination for best actor are already in the wind. I still don’t like being in the spotlight, but I’m willing to be if you’re there with me.”
Disposing of the satin tie, she slid her arms around his waist. “Appearing at the premiere wasn’t as bad as I expected. I’m no longer pretending to be happy. I am happy. I’m not living a lie anymore. I love my husband. And I know he loves me. That makes smiling in public a cinch.”
Their kiss was long and deep. He unsnapped her dress and let the skimpy bodice fall to her waist. “You lived up to your end of the bargain and attended the premiere with me.” He gazed down at her breasts as he caressed them. “I guess I’ll have to go out tomorrow and buy a new pair of jeans.”
She removed the studs from his shirt and helped him shrug out of it. “But will you wear them?”
“Ah,” he said, “wearing them wasn’t part of the deal.”
As they laughed together, she shimmied out of her dress and he stripped off the rest of his clothes. He carried her to their wide bed and laid her down. As he bent over her, she ran her fingers up through his hair. He would never tire of her tou
ching him, never tire of the love she radiated as she smiled up at him.
“Having a wife who obviously adores you hasn’t changed you much,” she said chidingly. “You’re still Hollywood’s baddest boy. I heard what you said to that photographer who blocked our path.”
“Unprintable, wasn’t it?” His mouth moved over her breasts.
“Indubitably.”
“I was only trying to protect you.”
“The only protection I need is your love, Rylan.” Though that wasn’t his real first name, it was the one she had fallen in love with, so she continued to call him by it.
As frequently as they made love, their passion never waned. Lovemaking was a rite of renewal, a daily pledge that each was loved and cherished.
“You’ve got my love, Kirsten. Forever.” He thrust into her with gentle fervency.
“Oh, my darling.” She sighed with immense pleasure. “It never crosses my mind to doubt it.”
LONG TIME COMING
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One
The Porsche crept along the street like a sleek black panther. Hugging the curb, its engine purred so deep and low it sounded like a predator’s growl.
Marnie Hibbs was kneeling in the fertile soil of her flower bed, digging among the impatiens under the ligustrum bushes and cursing the little bugs that made three meals a day of them, when the sound of the car’s motor attracted her attention. She glanced at it over her shoulder, then panicked as it came to a stop in front of her house.
“Lord, is it that late?” she muttered. Dropping her trowel, she stood up and brushed the clinging damp earth off her bare knees.
She reached up to push her dark bangs off her forehead before she realized that she still had on her heavy gardening gloves. Quickly she peeled them off and dropped them beside the trowel, all the while watching the driver get out of the sports car and start up her front walk.
Glancing at her wristwatch, she saw that she hadn’t lost track of time. He was just very early for their appointment, and as a result she wasn’t going to make a very good first impression. Being hot, sweaty, and dirty was no way to meet a client. And she needed this commission badly.
Forcing a smile, she moved down the sidewalk to greet him, nervously trying to remember if she had left the house and studio reasonably neat when she decided to do an hour’s worth of yard work. She had planned to tidy up before he arrived.
She might look like the devil, but she didn’t want to appear intimidated. Self-confident friendliness was the only way to combat the disadvantage of having been caught looking her worst.
He was still several yards away from her when she greeted him. “Hello,” she said with a bright smile. “Obviously we got our signals switched. I thought you weren’t coming until later.”
“I decided this diabolical game of yours had gone on long enough.”
Marnie’s sneakers skidded on the old concrete walk as she came to an abrupt halt. She tilted her head in stunned surprise. “I’m sorry, I—”
“Who the hell are you, lady?”
“Miss Hibbs. Who do you think?”
“Never heard of you. Just what the devil are you up to?”
“Up to?” She glanced around helplessly, as though the giant sycamores in her front yard might provide an answer to this bizarre interrogation.
“Why’ve you been sending me those letters?”
“Letters?”
He was clearly furious, and her lack of comprehension only seemed to make him angrier. He bore down on her like a hawk on a field mouse, until she had to bow her back to look up at him. The summer sun was behind him, casting him in silhouette.
He was blond, tall, trim, and dressed in casual slacks and a sport shirt—all stylish, impeccably so. He was wearing opaque aviator glasses, so she couldn’t see his eyes, but if they were as belligerent as his expression and stance, she was better off not seeing them.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“The letters, lady, the letters.” He strained the words through a set of strong white teeth.
“What letters?”
“Don’t play dumb.”
“Are you sure you’ve got the right house?”
He took another step forward. “I’ve got the right house,” he said in a voice that was little more than a snarl.
“Obviously you don’t.” She didn’t like being put on the defensive, especially by someone she’d never met over something of which she was totally ignorant. “You’re either crazy or drunk, but in any case, you’re wrong. I’m not the person you’re looking for and I demand that you leave my property. Now.”
“You were expecting me. I could tell by the way you spoke to me.”
“I thought you were the man from the advertising agency.”
“Well, I’m not.”
“Thank God.” She would hate having to do business with someone this irrational and ill-tempered.
“You know damn well who I am,” he said, peeling off the sunglasses.
Marnie sucked in a quick, sharp breath and fell back a step because she did indeed know who he was. She raised a hand to her chest in an attempt at keeping her jumping heart in place. “Law,” she gasped.
“That’s right. Law Kincaid. Just like you wrote it on the envelopes.”
She was shocked to see him after all these years, standing only inches in front of her. This time he wasn’t merely a familiar image in the newspaper or on her television screen. He was flesh and blood. The years had been kind to that flesh, improving his looks, not eroding them.
She wanted to stand and stare, but he was staring at her with unmitigated contempt and no recognition at all. “Let’s go inside, Mr. Kincaid,” she suggested softly.
Several of her neighbors, who had been taking advantage of the sunny weekend weather to do yard chores, had stopped moving, edging, and watering to gawk at the car and Miss Hibbs’s visitor.
It wasn’t out of the ordinary for a man to come to her house. Many of her clients were men and most of them consulted with her there. Generally they were stodgy executives in dark business suits. Few had deep tans, looked like movie stars, and drove such ostentatious cars.
This area of Houston wasn’t glitzy like some of the newer neighborhoods. Most of the residents were middle-aged and drove sensible sedans. A Porsche on the block was a curious thing indeed. And to her neighbors’ recollections, Marnie Hibbs had never engaged in a shouting match with anyone.
She turned on the squeaky rubber soles of her sneakers and led Law Kincaid up the sidewalk and through the front door of her house. Air-conditioning was a welcome respite from the humidity outside, but since she was damp with perspiration, the colder air chilled her. Or maybe it was her distinct awareness of the man behind her that was giving her goose bumps.
“This way.”
She led him down a spacious hallway, the kind that could be found only in houses built before World War II, and toward the glassed-in back porch, which served as her studio. There she felt more at home, more at ease, and better able to deal with the astonishing reality that Law Kincaid had unexpectedly walked into her life again.
When she turned to face him, his arctic-blue eyes were darting around the studio. They connected with hers like magnets.
“Well?” he said tersely, placing his hands on his hips. He was obviously awaiting a full explanation for something Marnie was in the dark about herself.
“I don’t know anything about any letters, Mr. Kincaid.”
“They were mailed from this address.”
“Then there’s been a mistake at the post office.”
“Unlikely. Not five times over the course of several weeks. Look, Mrs. uh . . . what was it again?”
“Hibbs. Miss Hibbs.”
He gave her a swift, inquisitive once-over. “Miss Hibbs, I’ve been a bachelor for thirty-nine years. It’s been a while since puberty. I don’t remember every woman I’ve gone to bed with.”
Her heart did another little dance number, and she took a quick, insufficient breath. “I’ve never been to bed with you.”
He threw one hip slightly off-center and cocked his head arrogantly. “Then how is it that you claim to have mothered a son by me? A son I’d never even heard of until I got your first letter several weeks ago.”
Marnie stared at him with speechless dismay. She could feel the color draining from her face. It felt like the world had been yanked from beneath her feet.
“I’ve never had a child. And I repeat, I never sent you a letter.” She gestured at a chair. “Why don’t you sit down?” She didn’t offer him a seat out of courtesy or any concern for his comfort. She was afraid that if she didn’t sit, and soon, her knees would buckle beneath her.
He thought about it for a moment, gnawing irritably on the corner of his lower lip before he moved to a rattan chair. He sat down on the very edge of the cushion, as though wanting to be ready to spring off it if the need arose.
Self-conscious of her muddy sneakers, ragged cutoffs, and ancient T-shirt, Marnie sat in the matching chair facing his. She sat straight, keeping her dirty knees together and clasping her hands nervously on the tops of her thighs.
She felt unclothed and vulnerable as his incisive eyes moved over her, taking in her face, her uncombed hair, her yard work attire, and her grubby knees.
“You recognized me.” He shot the sentence at her like a missile.
“Anybody who watches TV or reads a newspaper would recognize you. You’re the most popular astronaut since John Glenn.”
“And therefore I’m a visible target for every nut case who comes down the pike.”
“I am not a nut case!”
“Then why the hell have you been sending me those letters? That’s not even an original idea, you know. I get several dozen a day.”
