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Things I Did for Money

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by Meg Mundell


  In an impossible second he slipped out the window and vanished.

  I awoke in a state between ecstasy and panic. I had seen the colours, the light and shadows of my home, seen another human being — but he was robbing me, and would not meet my eye.

  And then it came: the real sound, the sound of an intruder in my house. My heart squeezed like a fist as I sat up in bed, every sense tuned to the noise in the other room: an urgent riffling, the sound of heavy paper fluttering in a stiff wind.

  Time stretched as I listened. The noise came in quick staccato bursts — dry, rapid, almost panicky. There was nothing I could do but raise myself off the bed and creep toward the door.

  I could hear my blood moving. I could hear everything. I felt terribly alive.

  Nina

  Early this morning there he was — the guy from downstairs, on my doorstep, in his pyjamas. He said, ‘I’m terribly sorry to disturb you, but I think there’s someone in my house.’

  Then I noticed his eyes, and before he told me I realised: he’s blind. Completely. No colours, no light. His world is shapes, textures, echoes, smells; voices that come out of nowhere and fade back into nowhere.

  He was shaky and spoke softly, head tilted to the stairs, listening. His hand was bleeding where he’d snagged it on the rail. I guided him in my doorway and into a chair.

  The intruder was in his lounge room, he said, the noise had woken him up. He’d crept out of bed, down the hallway and out the front door. The other tenants leave early for work, and my door is the closest. He didn’t know what else to do.

  Even craning my neck out the kitchen window I couldn’t spot anyone down there. He wanted me to call the police. But I took a heavy monkey wrench and walked quietly downstairs, with him tip-toeing behind me, whispering dramatically that we could both be killed.

  It was a bird. A blackbird, flapping round the room, trying to find a way out. We got there just in time: the green-eyed cat was watching every wingbeat, picking his moment. I put the cat outside and caught the bird in a towel. Poor little thing. Must have been in the chimney when I lit the fire last night, fluttered its way down and got lost.

  We were standing near the window. He flicked open the catch without hesitating or fumbling. Then he stopped and said, ‘Can I touch it?’

  The bird was quite still. It did not seem afraid, cupped in my hands with its head poking out. The feathers, the bright black eyes: the whole animal was so beautiful I didn’t answer for a while. He reached out, found my arm and followed it down. He touched the bird’s feathered body very gently and just stood there. Neither of them moved. It was weird.

  Then I pushed the window open and let it go.

  After I bandaged the cut on his hand — tiny, but he made a real fuss — I stayed for a cup of tea. Realised I hadn’t had a real conversation in ages. We talked about animals, books, the sea, normal stuff. The sea air is perfect for clearing the head, he said, but the rocks are slippery and there’s a strong undertow; it’s not smart to walk down there at night (how did he know I do that?).

  He also asked if I could wear slippers round the house, ‘instead of those bloody high heels’. Apparently I’ve been driving him mad with all the noise I make. How was I supposed to know?

  Mind back on the job: one last painting to do before the show tomorrow. When I came back upstairs, I found, on an old bit of foolscap near the door, a single drop of blood. A perfect red dot.

  Blood … burgundy … port … claret … strawberry … madder … vermilion …

  I can still feel that bird in my hands, its weightless warmth, the hard-soft shell of its feathers. It felt like nothing I’ve ever touched before. I hope it flew home: the storm’s about to hit.

  Almost there. If I can just block out that voice (Who’s Nina Verlane?), I know I can paint something beautiful.

  Will

  Thunder woke me, a great cold crack across the ceiling of the world. The sea’s been rough since last night; I can hear it smashing furiously against the rocks. The wet wind comes in gusts, splattering the windows, making the trees hiss.

  James rang, wanting to visit, but I put him off for now. It was good to hear his voice. Yet I can’t shake the feeling that something is wrong. I feel a strange grief.

  Late last night, over the howl of the wind, I heard the faint sound of her front door closing. I lay awake a long time. I did not hear her return.

  There is nothing moving upstairs, nothing. Complete silence, broken by the sound of unanswered phones: thirty rings, silence, thirty more. Then a lighter trill, also ringing out.

  I finally met her — Nina. Told her she was driving me mad with her midnight tap-dancing, could I buy her a pair of slippers? I can hear a crumb drop down here, I said, and you’ve dropped a truckload. She was nothing like I’d imagined her to be. Noise reveals less about a person than you might think.

  I felt foolish for being afraid of a bird but she didn’t dwell on it. The previous night I heard her smashing something (an old chair, apparently, for firewood) and smelled woodsmoke. The bird must have come down the chimney, frightened. Before we let it go I touched its feathers, felt its little heartbeat under my hand, quick and persistent.

  As Nina left she asked to borrow a corkscrew. I meant to throw that thing away years ago. Key to bloody nowhere: twist and pull, sink and drown. But there it lurked, in the back of a drawer. I was reluctant to give her the cursed thing but she insisted, said she hadn’t painted sober in years. We quickly changed the subject.

  She’s a brunette, I’d guess, late thirties. Lanky probably, despite the booze — frets and smokes too much. But what surprised me most was this: the smell of jasmine belongs to her.

  I hear feet on the stairs, agitated voices, fists hammering at her door. People calling her name, again and again.

  When they knock on my door I open it immediately. I hear someone breathing fast, a second person shuffling, and a woman with a sharp, frightened voice asks me, Do I know where Nina is — do I know Nina Verlane?

  I answer, Yes, I do know Nina. And although I try to hide it, my eyes grow wet. It is so very quiet upstairs, almost as if she had never been there at all.

  NARCOSIS

  We fell into the ocean backward, making the OK signal for the camera. Later I replayed that footage several times, but it never seemed accurate: all flailing flippers and ungainly limbs, smiles stretched around the mouthpiece, that messy shattering of the surface. Nothing like the slow, deadly grace of being underwater.

  Four of us went down that day: my old friend Lucia and her husband, Will; my ambivalent self; and a man called Mick, an ex–opal miner with a boozy squint who seemed to take an instant dislike to me. I’d noted it over pre-dawn introductions at the marina and the feeling was instantly mutual. That’s the trouble with misanthropes, I thought: they have a knack for recruiting the rest of us.

  It’s not ideal being stuck with a prickly dive buddy — the ocean itself is hostile enough — but Lucia and Will are annoyingly inseparable, so we had no choice. Anyway, I’d invited myself along on this trip, saying it was time I got back out there. ‘You sure you’re ready?’ Lucia had asked. ‘Completely,’ I’d replied, my tone bright. ‘I’m back amongst the living.’

  Our skipper stayed topside with his deckhand-cum-cook, a young Spanish guy who’d been mooching around all morning with his shirt off. We’d all pretended not to notice, but when Lucia caught my eye we hid conspiratorial smiles — two ageing dames acknowledging a surface loveliness that was now lost to us. We asked the young guy to man the camera.

  As we crashed through the looking-glass and began to sink, I repeated the mantra to myself: slow and steady, keep breathing, trust your gear. That morning, over coffee in the cramped galley, we’d scrutinised the blurry maps, vague blueprints of the wreck’s remains, but they couldn’t tell us much. Only that her century-old b
ones lay deep and widely scattered, playthings for the rough seas and strong ocean currents that swept this area.

  The Steadfast had been smashed up on the dark rocks of a tiny offshore island so steep and wave-beaten that it held almost no soil or plant life. Thick fog, no visibility, an unmapped rock … the exact verdict was a guess, because all on board were lost.

  But there was one certainty. Along with sundry unremarkable cargo, the steamship was also carrying a consignment of gold and silver coins, fresh from the National Mint. Most of the coins were recovered in a major salvage operation in the ’60s, but some remained unfound. The wreck’s ownership is disputed, and few divers are willing to brave the fierce currents that clash out there beyond the headland, roiling and entwining in a turbulent slipstream.

  Will’s take on it was that we weren’t here to steal, but anything we found could be considered a fair souvenir. ‘Finders keepers,’ as he put it. None of us was short of funds, but lost treasure has its own peculiar appeal: an aura of chance or luck, of being rescued from the depths. Or it may just be that childish delight in treasure hunts; perhaps it never fades.

  Lucia and Will swam down first, holding the anchor rope as they descended into the gloom. Their exhaled breath rose away on a diagonal slant, pearls of air strung sideways by the current. Mick, being more experienced, led me down after them, not glancing back to check on me. The water was colder than I’d expected. As I followed him down the rope I felt the current pull and nudge at me, like some huge prehistoric creature nosing at a speck of flotsam. A dart of fear shot through me then, and I felt the water pressing in from every side, countless cold tonnes of it, alien and indifferent; I felt the urge to fight for air that was already flowing safely through my lungs. But I kicked on through it, following Mick down the anchor line, counting off the depth until the feeling passed: thirty feet, forty feet, fifty and on down.

  The light faded as we sank. The Steadfast lay strewn across an ocean floor pockmarked with deep cracks and caverns. Her remains were 120 feet down at the deepest point; as we all knew, that translated to fifteen minutes of bottom time, no longer. We passed a good-sized grouper, a curious specimen who fixed me with a bulging eye and mouthed the water amiably, like he was making conversation.

  Eighty feet down Mick finally turned to check I was behind him. Some dive buddy, I thought, as I returned his OK signal. He peered at his compass and pointed up-current — we’d agreed to swim against it to counter the drag, enter the wreck site from its northern edge — and I nodded. In the gloom below I could see the toylike figures of Lucia and Will heading for a flat section of the ocean floor, just beyond the area Mick and I had opted to explore. I could just make out our destination, an uneven moonscape riven with hollows and cracks. Clumps of wreckage must have lodged down there, nestled into rocky fissures or small caves.

  Once we reached the one-hundred-foot mark we struck out into the blind push of the current, heading for the bottom. Deep water leaches out colour, so the ocean floor was a listless palette of browns, blacks and greys. We reached the rock-strewn depths and clung there a moment to check our gauges. On every side rose mini-mountains, some hollow and crumbling, others split by dark crevasses that led down into blackness. Here and there, wedged between the mounds, lay a scatter of recognisable debris: a rusted steel girder, a bluestone ballast block, a length of pipe, all encrusted with waving tendrils of sea life.

  We swam around, scouting, until I found a hole the size of a small car, and gestured Mick over. As we shone our torches down into its mouth, a riot of colours sprang out from where the beams hit the far wall — sulphur yellow, cobalt blue, delicate pinks and raw reds, a pile of rocky shelves teeming with life. The cavern was about thirty-five feet across, its sandy floor twenty feet below. We checked our watches and our air, exchanged the OK signal and swam into the hole. Twelve minutes, I remember thinking.

  Underwater caves have always frightened me, but this one suggested shelter rather than suffocation. It was dome-shaped, and the far side opened out into a majestic archway, yawning like a cathedral entrance. Milky light spilled from above, silhouetting the near-perfect arch, a marvel of undersea architecture. A school of fish shimmered just beyond it, a silvery ball of darting motes, and my torch beam lit up purple sponges, tangerine corals and strands of swaying plant life, arranged around the walls in technicolour. I remember feeling a strange mix of calm and excitement. The current was almost imperceptible in here.

  Mick pointed to the sandy floor, which was scattered with flotsam, fragments of what might be wreckage. I chose my own search area nearby, a rocky shelf that jutted out from the wall. Up close, the cavern’s surface was a busy micro-world. Chubby starfish clung to the rock face, a row of crayfish feelers waggled from a crevice and a grizzled moray eel gaped at me in open-mouthed disdain. At the edge of my torch beam hovered a rotating cast of curious fish — blue, emerald, inky black with red flecks.

  I checked my watch and decompression meter: ten minutes left. Focus, I reminded myself, you can see fish anywhere. The ledge surface was scored with cracks, some home to tiny translucent crabs and feathery anemones, others silted up with sand and miniature shells. Right off I spotted a white triangle wedged into one crack, a shape not made by nature, and pulled it free: a shard of broken crockery, patterned with blue flowers. A quick thrill shot through me — my first find. I tucked it inside the sleeve of my wetsuit for safekeeping. Excited now, I waved my hand over the cracks to dislodge the loose sand, sending it whirling upward.

  Then a new shape. At first it looked like the curved spine of some sea-creature, hiding in a crack. It was wedged deep, settled in with sand and grit, and I had to remove my glove to get a grip on its slim edge and wriggle it free. It came loose slowly, like a reluctant tooth. Only when I placed it flat in my bare palm, wiped its surface clean, did I realise what I held. There, in my torch beam, winked a gold disc, thumbnail-sized and unmistakeable. A half-sovereign with an intricate image stamped on its face: a helmeted man astride a rearing horse, plunging his sword into some coiled creature writhing on the ground. Saint George, slaying the dragon. And below, a date stamped in hair-thin numbers: 1902.

  How long did I examine that coin, turning it over and over in the torchlight, engrossed? I’ve no idea, but I remember feeling a mild exhilaration, a rare sense of delight. On the flipside was the profile of a bearded man, the king of the day — one of the Edwards, I guessed — encircled by more minute text, too small to read clearly, perhaps abbreviated Latin. I was fixated on the design, his features rendered in miniature: the delicate whorls of his ear, the hooded eyelid beautifully cast. So small, so perfect. Stash it somewhere safe, I thought, but part of me was reluctant to let go of it.

  That’s when I became aware of Mick hovering beside me, his torch beam wobbling over the shelf and landing on my open palm. He peered in close, shone his light full on the coin, and I fought the urge to hide it, clamp my hand into a fist. He drew back in pantomimed delight, then patted my back, just softly, raised his arms into a victory sign. I could feel his excitement, see his squinty eyes through the glass of his mask, but I just wanted him to go away. This rocky shelf was my find, my treasure trove, and I wanted to keep searching. Surely there were more? But still he hovered, as if waiting for me to move aside and let him have his turn. And then politely, almost apologetically, he tapped his watch.

  My irritation quickly vanished. What did it matter? I felt magnanimous, almost euphoric: I had my find, this one perfect treasure, and it was enough. Mick was free to try his luck. I waved my arm over the shelf, as if inviting him to tuck into a buffet. I held the coin tight, stuffed my loose glove into my belt and pushed off, drifting backward. Mick could help himself, I didn’t care. I didn’t wait to see his reaction. Good luck to him, I thought. I’ve got Saint George, and old Edward, and the poor butchered dragon. That’s all I need.

  Rule number one is never leave your dive buddy, but the cavern wasn�
�t big, so I didn’t drift off far. I swam lazily to the far wall, where that graceful arch led out to the open sea. Shining my torch around its edge, I floated there, drinking in the otherworldly colours and shapes of the sea life festooning the walls: a baby octopus ambling through a forest of pink coral; a fringed plant waving at me, blue fingers pale as frosted glass; iridescent fish shot with neon streaks, their mouths curved upward in private fishy smiles. I glanced back once at Mick, who was bent over the shelf, fossicking, then forgot him. The rock face before me was decorated like an outlandish film set, an alien world conjured up by some mad oceanic wizard, and I could have drunk it in forever.

  That’s when I heard it — faint at first, then gradually swelling louder. I drifted toward the sound, turning my head this way and that to catch its cadences as it grew clearer: the slow rise and fall of a piano, in a major key, snatches of a song so beautiful it almost hurt to listen; I half-recognised it. Something about moonlight? Suspended there, looking up at the arch of the cathedral, I felt the sound wash through me like an ocean current, touching every cell — permeating my skin, my blood, muscles and bones with a swirling lightness.

  When I drifted upward a little, the music faded out; when I sank back down a few feet, it returned, filling me with a drowsy rapture so lovely that I felt tears spill down my face, warm saltwater trapped inside my mask. For a while I bobbed up and down there, playing with the volume, bringing it in and out of earshot. Then, looking up through the opaline light of the archway, I saw a huge manta ray glide past, like some albatross of the deep, its wings undulating in perfect time with the melody. I swear I saw it wave at me. I felt the urge to laugh, to call out to it. There was a bitter taste in my mouth and I reached up to tug my mouthpiece free.

  Then a hand gripping my arm. Shaking me, hard. And there, right beside me, was James. My James, my Jimmy … I drew him close and cupped his cheek in one hand, but he grabbed my wrist, shook it off. He kept pointing up, jabbing now, insistent; he looked silly, so serious, with his hair waving around like seaweed and his face distorted by the mask. I felt like giggling. I tried to remove my mouthpiece to tell him about the ray, but he jammed it hard against my teeth and held it there. Hurt, I peered at him through the window of his mask. That’s when I noticed that his eyes were wrong — a stranger’s eyes.

 

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